Finding a suitable place to live on a snowy day is indeed more difficult than I thought.
Especially when we didn't look for it as soon as possible, we went to have a meal first, and it took a long time to wait.
After walking around the train station, I asked the hotel and hotel where the conditions were pretty similar or the conditions were not visible at all, and the answer I was told was almost the same: Sorry, we were full.
Ah, it's true that I should find a place to live before going to have a meal.
After a walk around, Yingying and I had to go back to the car. At least we could go to some farther places by relying on the car. Although it is indeed dangerous to drive on heavy snow, it is within a feasible range if we drive slowly nearby. The air conditioner in the car gave us a reason to take risks.
Brother, let’s just drive it home like this.
Yingying, who moved to the passenger seat, held her face boredly and looked at the flying snowstorm outside the window.
Don’t be stupid. We are still around the station and the road is not so dark. If you leave this area, you can’t drive without street lights.Besides, at this speed, I’m afraid that the car will be out of gas before I drive. Do you want to freeze to death with me in the car?
Yingying said in a lazy voice: That's great...
I held the steering wheel with one hand, and knocked her head with my right hand out.
pain!Why are you hitting me?
Don't say such stupid things in the future!How old are you when you think about this kind of thing all day long?I will not think about this kind of thing in the future.
Yingying covered her head and said dissatisfiedly: What's wrong with me?I'm already 22!Brother, why do you still treat me as a child?
Is there any problem with this?You are just a child in my eyes.
Yingying was a little dissatisfied and muttered in a low voice: You said just now that I was growing up...
One code is unified, this is different from that.And what are you saying?During the Chinese New Year, don’t always mention those unlucky things.
Yingying didn't say anything, and I didn't know what to say. The atmosphere in the car was a little frozen for a while.
Am I saying too much?Because I was walking at night, I had to focus on the front of me all the time, and could only use my light to look at Yingying's reaction at this time.
I am very worried about Yingying's current emotions. This is not the first time she has made such a funny joke. Combined with her previous personality, I am really worried that she will do something stupid.
Sakura?
Um……
Fortunately, she is willing to promise me, at least she is not that bad.
Take out your phone and look at the road. It's too dark here. I can't figure out where I'm driving.
Yingying nodded and took out her phone to start operating.
While she was operating her phone, I parked the car on the side of the road and turned on the double flash lights.
Now I can finally watch her speak.
That, Yingying.
Um……
Just now, I might have said too much.
Yingying didn't say anything, but she never raised her head and stared at the screen of her phone without wanting to look at me.
I sighed and said: Actually, I have been worried about you for so many years.
Yingying's hand finally stopped.
At the beginning, when I left, I didn't tell you because I was afraid that you would not accept it, and I regretted it afterwards... After all, that matter was a matter between the two of us. Although it turned out like that in the end, I should also discuss it with you.
Yingying still didn't lift her head, only the voice came: What's the use of saying this now...
When I heard Yingying say this, I could only sigh.
It's Ah, it's been four years. What's the use of saying this now?
I knew in my heart that Yingying must have a lot of dissatisfaction with my never-saying farewell. She must be worried about me if she doesn't show it now. After all, I have maintained intermittent contact with her for the past four years. Before that, she has asked me more than once when I will go home...
No, that tone is no longer a question, it is more like begging.
But I can't overcome the hurdle in my heart every time, and I choose to use various reasons to make excuses.
Until this year, until today.
Brother, tell me.
Um?
Can I really be your sister?
This is a question that directly penetrates the deepest part of my wound.
I gritted my teeth and said in the lightest tone I could pretend: Is it not enough to be a sister?You are my dearest sister, you are the only one in this world.
Yingying didn't say anything, but I could feel that she was definitely not satisfied with my answer.
After a while, I heard her voice sound weakly: Drive.
Sakura...
Drive, brother.I turned around and arrived. I'm cold, let's go quickly.
This sentence is the most obvious rejection that Yingying has expressed to me so far.
I could only keep silent and hold the steering wheel again.
From moving back to reaching the destination, Yingying didn't say another word.
After I parked the car, she took the lead in unbuttoning her seat belt and got out of the car alone, leaving me behind, without the feeling of intimacy she had before.
I was helpless, but I could only choose to allow this alienation to last.
After all, I was not ready to tell Yingying all the truth. If possible, I really wanted to hide it from her for the rest of my life, but I knew it was impossible. I could only do my best to avoid Yingying being hurt before reaching the moment of exposure.
Although I felt uncomfortable, at least the distance at this time was good for Yingying himself.
I can no longer keep getting closer to Yingying.
The snow was still falling, but the small distance from the parking space at the entrance of the hotel to the lobby on the first floor was already falling from the small distance.
Yingying, who got off the bus first, did not enter the room first, but chose to stand at the entrance of the hall and wait for me in the flying snow.
I quickly walked to her side. Just as I was about to speak, Yingying turned around and pushed the door in first, leaving me there again.
Is this angering me?Yingying was always very well-behaved when she was in front of me. We rarely had conflicts or conflicts. This may be the first time I saw Yingying so obviously angry with me.
Although I rarely see Yingying getting angry, I know Yingying's personality or temper very well.
To put it nicely, Yingying's personality is called resilience, to put it bluntly, she is just a stubbornness. She will definitely stick to something that she has determined to the end, and analogy to the current situation...
I'm afraid I won't see Yingying's good face again today.
Alas... Forget it, this is the consequence of self-inflicting consequences.
I sighed and followed Yingying into the door.
It was already very late and the hotel was located in a relatively remote location, so there was no third guest in the lobby except Yingying and I.
Standing behind the counter was a sister who looked about 4 years old. When she saw me coming in, she was very enthusiastic and greeted: Hello, accommodation is right?
Ah, I made a reservation before, my surname is Gao.
Oh, I remember you, your surname is Gao, right... Let me see, Ah, there is!The room is left for you.
That's good.
It seems that it is a good choice to book a room before coming.
I reached into my inner pocket of my coat and took out my wallet to register. Yingying, who was standing beside me, kept silent and just stood beside me and watched.
Ah, both people’s documents must be registered. We must also register according to the requirements of the police station after the latest inspection.
I glanced at Yingying, but she still didn't say anything, just took out her ID card from her bag and handed it over.
OK, it will be fine soon.
The eldest sister behind the counter was very quick and completed all the procedures in less than a minute and returned the room card and ID card together.
At this time, I found that there was only one room card placed on the counter.
Well, this is...
Well, what's wrong?
No, when I called, I said I wanted two rooms, right?this……
Oh, I forgot everything like this.
The eldest sister behind the counter patted her forehead and said, "We only have these two rooms left. This one is a big bed room. I will open it for you first. After the rest of you come, we will open a second room."Now I checked the room strictly. Without an ID card, we cannot open the room directly, but don’t worry, the room must be left for you...
Only then did I realize what I was neglecting.
Although I did ask for two rooms on the phone and kept two rooms as I told me, when I just registered, the elder sister directly registered Yingying and me in the same room.
After all, Yingying and I came together. In the eyes of outsiders, we must have imagined that the man and woman who appeared in the hotel in the middle of the night would have to live in two rooms, right?
Oh, by the way, how many people do you have?
I couldn't help but smile bitterly at the corner of my mouth. My elder sister still thinks we are three or even more people, so she wants two rooms.
Well, sister, we are only two of us...
What?Just the two of you?
The eldest sister behind the counter stretched her neck and swept her face with confusion on Yingying and me, and said hesitantly: Are you not a couple?
us……
Before I spoke, I couldn't help but take a look at Yingying.
She still maintained that silent look, as if she was not going to speak.
That, sister, we... are not married.
After thinking for a long time, I still chose such a concise statement to explain my relationship with Yingying.
After all, Yingying and I have different surnames. If we just say that we are brothers and sisters, the eldest sister in front of us will probably be even more suspicious.
If you are not married, then you are just a boyfriend and girlfriend. Nowadays, there is no difference between a young man and a couple, right?
I could only continue to smile bitterly. The elder sister with a Northeast accent in front of me was really as straightforward as a Northeastern person.
Perhaps I finally noticed my strange expression, and my elder sister suddenly stopped talking. She looked at Yingying, who was obviously standing far away from me, and her tone of speaking became a little cautious: Why don't you... or open two rooms for you?
No, aunty.
Yingying's voice suddenly rang.
She reached out and picked up the ID card and room card placed on the counter, turned around and walked towards the elevator.
Hello, Yingying!
I shouted, but Yingying ignored me at all and kept walking forward.
Are you... quarrel?
The eldest sister behind the counter lowered her voice and asked me. I could only show an apologetic smile to her and then chased her.
After I left, I heard a vague sentence from behind: Am I that old...
Before the elevator door closed, I caught up with Yingying.
Standing in the elevator, the distance between us instantly narrowed a lot.
Yingying still looked like she was keeping people from thousands of miles away, standing at the edge of the elevator without saying a word.
Sakura.
I approached her and called her name, but Yingying still ignored me. After the elevator door opened, she walked out as soon as possible.
Yingying, wait for me!
I followed Yingying closely, took big steps and finally caught up with her.
In order to stop Yingying, I grabbed her hand directly.
The moment we held our hands together, Yingying finally stopped.
Her movements were like a machine that had been unplugged in an instant, and stopped in front of me with a stiff look.
Sakura...
I called her name for the third time, and this time, Yingying finally had a slight reaction.
Her fingers began to move, but instead of throwing my hand away, she grabbed my fingers.
elder brother……
I was a little surprised that Yingying actually spoke in front of me.
What's the matter, I'll listen.
Why did you say that just now?
I instantly understood what Yingying was referring to, but that was obviously not a topic that could start in the corridor, so I said: Go into the room first, let’s talk about this after entering the room.
What is the difference between saying in the room and saying here?
Yingying finally turned around, she looked at me, to be precise, staring at me.
Brother, didn’t you say you only treat me as your sister?Then why didn’t you tell others about our relationship just now?
Yingying's voice was very calm, but this calmness was filled with a depressed aura before the storm came.
Yingying, listen to me first. I just said this to avoid causing trouble, and...
I put my other empty hand on Yingying's shoulder, but she did not resist, which was a good sign.
I continued: Yingying I mentioned, you are my closest relative. Although we are not related by blood, in my eyes, you are definitely more close than your own sister.
Kind than a real sister?But it's still not a real sister. If I were your real sister, you would have come to me back then...
Sakura!I grabbed her shoulder and interrupted her.
My voice echoed in the corridor, and even echoed.The revenge mentality of admitting crosses the boundary between her and her ordinary brother-sister relationship.
I'm sorry Yingying.
I am not qualified to be forgiven by her, nor do I have the right to say anything to be responsible for her.but……
Yingying, listen to me.I gently hugged Yingying's shoulder and whispered in her ear.
I know you have been feeling very uncomfortable all these years, and I have thought about it, just never come back, so that you can completely forget me and find another man who is more suitable for you.
I obviously felt Yingying's body begin to tense after I said this.
But, but...
I stepped up my tone and spoke my long-prepared declaration.
Yingying, I'm back.Since I'm back, I won't run away again.
Yes, I won't run away again.
This time, I made everything clear.Let's go together to convince your mother and ask her to agree to our things, okay?
Yingying's voice sounded faintly in my arms: Then, if it were her...
If she doesn't agree, I'll...
I couldn't help but pause, but still gritted my teeth and said the lie that I was most against my will. I'll take you away and let's go to the southwest.Let's get married again.
Yingying didn't say anything, but I could feel it, she nodded.
That's it, that's fine.
I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
Brother, let go of me, I'm a little bored...
I quickly let go of my arms and took a step back.
Yingying, who was regaining her freedom, stood there, looking at me with big red eyes, but this time it was no longer the kind of scrutiny, but with unconcealed surprise and a hint of shyness.
What you said just now is true?
Well, really.After dealing with the family affairs, I plan to tell your mother about this.
Take me away, and this is also...
Yes, I have this plan.But this is also the last move, so I'd like to expect your mother to agree with our affairs.
She would agree, she would definitely agree.
Yingying repeated, the joy on her face became stronger and stronger.
I looked at her and covered up the bitterness in my heart with a smile.
But Ah, Sakura.You should change your name to me in the future.
Alas, why?
You also call me brother outside... Although we are not related by blood, if you don't know what you will think when you hear it, there will still be trouble.
Then, then why would I call you Ah?
I thought about it and replied: Just call my name, or you can think of a name yourself.
Oh, well...
Yingying nodded and responded. She thought for a while before she spoke carefully and shouted: Gao...yu?
Well, just call Gao Yu, it's simple and direct.
No, no!I have never called my brother's name directly, so I am not used to it.
I smiled bitterly and said: Then what do you want to call Ah?
Well, um... Brother Yu?No, no, I still feel like calling out to strangers.
Yingying thought about it and denied the other one, shook her head constantly, and her whole face turned red.
Finally, she whispered: I'd better call me brother. I don't feel used to the rest... At worst, I won't shout when I'm outside.
Well, it's up to you.
We looked at each other, and at that moment, I even had the illusion that such happiness would last forever.
Ah, I almost forgot, room...
Yingying finally realized that we were still standing in the corridor and had been standing for a while.
Speaking of which, I don’t know the room number, and where is the room card?
Here in me, um...I'll take a look.
After seeing the number clearly from the room card in Yingying's hand, I went to find the room first.
But Yingying held my hand. She was not stopping me, and there was no strong force coming from her hand.
What's wrong?
I looked at her and asked.
Brother... Can you continue holding my hand?
Such a simple sentence seemed to exhaust Yingying's strength. She held my hand and looked at me eagerly.
Yingying, who was watched by me, immediately became embarrassed. She lowered her head and shouted as if she was defending herself: I know this is quite stupid, but I just want to... just pull it for a while, will it work for a while?You came here to hold me just now, I'm so happy...
I didn't say anything, but flipped my palms and tied up with Yingying's fingers.
Is this OK?
Well... OK.
Yingying's voice was as low as a mosquito, and after a while, she suddenly pushed me away.
OK, OK!I'm fine, enough!
I looked at her blushing face and knew that she was in a state of being right and wrong, so I didn't let go of her hand.
Hurry up, go to the room quickly, brother...
The cherry blossoms with red cheeks on both sides of their cheeks were particularly attractive, which made me feel itchy.
In this way, we walked to the door of the room holding hands, and after opening the door, the appearance of the room almost made me dare not enter.
This room...is amazing...
This is the first sentence that Yingying said when she saw the decorations in the room.
The bright red water is from the bed sheets, quilt covers, pillows to the wooden floor laid on the wall paper on the floor, and even the sofa is red.
I suddenly understood why the elder sister at the counter emphasized that it was a big bed room when registering. The bed in this room was indeed a very standard big bed, but the color was a bit...
I was a little embarrassed, and this style really made me feel a little uncomfortable.
Do you want to change one?I remember they said there was an empty room.
But Yingying grabbed my sleeve and shook her head.
Just this one, isn’t that room a standard room with two beds?I think this is good, very good...
Yingying was a little insincere, but I could see her true thoughts.
Our hands were always holding each other, and Yingying's palms were already feeling a little sweaty.
Then let's take this one, listen to you.
After understanding what will happen tonight, I decided not to be picky.
After closing the door, the atmosphere in the room became more charming.
It was already late at night, and Yingying and I, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the bed, soon had no topics to talk to.
Let's take a shower. We'll get up early tomorrow and go back early.
After hearing what I said, Yingying nodded and stood up from the bed.
Brother, what about you?
I?When you finish washing Ah, I will wash it quickly. Why don’t I wash it first?
Yingying was a little embarrassed, she still held my hand and didn't want to let go.
Yes, or...wash together?
After saying this, I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at my Yingying. Her face turned redder, and I don't know if it was due to the color around me or her own shyness.
For a moment, I was really moved.
But in the end I said: Forget it, it’s so cold today, the bathroom looks quite small, and I guess two people can’t stand there.You go and wash first, put on your clothes after washing, so don’t catch a cold.
Yingying seemed a little disappointed, but she nodded and let go of my hand.
But before entering the bathroom, she stood at the door with a bath towel in her arms, and looked at my reaction with a look of calculating something.
I said, what are you thinking?
Yingying looked at me and suddenly said: Brother, do you want to see me take off my clothes?
What?
I didn't react for a moment.
The air conditioner in the room has been on, and the temperature in the room is not low now, so Yingying and I took off our outermost coat after we came in.
Under Yingying's coat was a knitted sweater that was as long as her thighs. At this moment, her hands were placed on the hem of the sweater, as if she was ready to lift it to show me at any time.
Brother, do you want to see it?
Yingying's voice became glutinous and crawled directly into my heart along my ears.
It's already this time, and it seems that I'm too hypocritical to say anything else.
Well, I want to see it.
After receiving my affirmative answer, Yingying became a little restrained.
She pulled the hem of her clothes and tried several times, but she failed to get it in one step.
Finally, she simply closed her eyes and lifted her clothes in one breath.
Under the sweater... there are naturally underwear. The light pink underwear wraps her well-developed upper body, while the lower body is blocked by the shadow of the bed, but it can be seen that she is wearing thicker leggings.
After taking off the sweater outside, Yingying let go a lot. She directly reached her hand to the hem of her underwear, which was in line with her always habit of taking off clothes. She always took off her upper body and then moved her lower body's clothes.
Today, I originally wanted to wear a beautiful bra.
Before taking off her underwear, Yingying still explained to me with a red face.
As a result, I woke up too late in the morning and was in a hurry at noon... I forgot.
I looked at Yingying's breasts wrapped in a simple, fully surrounded bra and couldn't hear anything.
Before Yingying was about to unbutton her bra, I reached out to stop her.
This is not because I suddenly woke up, but because I was afraid that if I continued to watch this, I would be unable to control myself and jumped over.
OK, let's do it first.You go and take a shower, I'm afraid you will catch a cold.
Although Yingying was a little puzzled, she still obediently walked into the bathroom with a bath towel.
The moment the sound of water in the bathroom sounded, I looked at the tent that had been standing under my crotch and suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.
After four years of leaving home, I lived a life without a doubt with the ascetic monk because of guilt.
I work hard every day, and I didn’t think about solving my daily physiological needs. Over time, I forgot about this.
And now, watching Yingying's youthful body push away the shell called the clothes bit by bit, I really... Ha...
A burst of burning thirst came from my throat. I grabbed the bottle of mineral water placed at the head of the bed, unscrewed it and drank half of it.
The cold water poured into my stomach, which also calmed my feverish brain a little.
Yingying washed so slowly... It was obvious that I asked her to take a shower first, but I couldn't control my impatience.
No, I have to do something to distract myself.
Thinking of this in my mind, I grabbed the TV remote control placed on the bedside table and turned on the TV.
Speaking of which, when I was outside, I always had a companionship with my computer and keyboard. I haven't done anything that I often do at home for a long time.
Just as I was bored and pressing the remote control to change the channel, a vibration suddenly came from under me.
Well, a cell phone?I was rummaging around me, but when I turned around, I found my cell phone lying quietly on the head of the bed.
But the vibration continued.
I continued to search and finally found Yingying's cell phone underneath the quilt.
But the name displayed on the call made my heart tremble.
Buzz
The phone continued to vibrate in my hand, but I didn't dare to answer the phone.
Finally, the vibration stopped and the person who called seemed to give up.
But just as I was about to throw my phone aside and throw this aside, the phone vibrated again.
It's still the same number, the same name.
what to do?I took a look at the direction of the bathroom. Yingying's shadow was still moving inside, and it seemed that it would not appear in a short period of time.
Now the room is filled with the sound of TV programs, and the replay of late-night variety shows is quite noisy, so there should be no unnecessary sounds in the bathroom.
After thinking about it over and over again, I still slide the touch screen and answered the phone.
I put my phone in my ear.
Sakura?Why are you answering my phone call now?Where have you been? Did you drive away the car at home?Where did you drive alone when it snows so heavily?
A series of questions came out of the receiver, and the speaker was quite anxious, but the familiar tone almost moistened my eyes.
I was silent and didn't reply.
The female voice on the phone became even more anxious, and her speech speed gradually accelerated: Yingying, you speak Ah, why can't I hear you speak?Wait, what's the sound over you? Are you watching TV?Where are you? Tell your mother quickly!
It is this voice, this voice Ah... It is to hear this voice again that I chose to return here today four years later.
Maybe it was my sob sound that I heard, and the voice on the phone changed tone again: Hello, hey?Who are you, are you Chen Yingying?Where is she?Hello?
I controlled my emotions, lowered my voice, and said: Sister Juan.
In an instant, the phone was silent.
After a while, another voice came out of the phone, with obvious trembling: Gao Yu?You... are back?
Sister Juan, it’s me, I’m back...
I dare not say more, I am afraid that my emotions will be out of control in the next second.
The other end of the phone fell silent again, and then the sound coming significantly lowered the temperature and was no longer as emotional as the first time: Are you... now with Yingying?
There was a little bad in my heart. Sister Juan called Yingying. I would definitely think of this when I answered it like this.
But I still couldn't lie to her and answered truthfully: Well, Yingying and I were with me.She is going to take a shower now and shouldn't be able to hear us.
I don’t know why I specifically explained Yingying’s condition, but Sister Juan’s voice obviously became much easier because of this.
That's good... I understand, when are you going to come back?
Tomorrow morning, we will leave when the snow stops.
OK, be careful on the way.
After saying that, Sister Juan's voice disappeared.
Sister Juan!
I couldn't help but shout, but when I took my phone open, I saw that only the words "end of the call" were left.
Sure enough, it's still the same... Since that day four years ago, Sister Juan has been avoiding me and is unwilling to have too much contact with me.
But I still can't forget Ah... I put my phone in my original position and restored everything to its original appearance.
The variety show on TV is still continuing, but the sound of water in the bathroom has stopped, and Yingying has already washed it.
Brother, I've finished washing... Yingying just opened the bathroom door and I walked past her body and entered the bathroom.
I knew this must be abnormal. Yingying also shouted after I closed the door: Brother, what's wrong with you?Are you feeling uncomfortable?
I covered my nose to prevent my breath from appearing too abnormal, and then replied: It's okay, I just have a stomachache and may have diarrhea.
Yingying's voice sounded outside the door: Ah, I said you eat too fast at night. If you put so many peppers and drink them so hot, you will definitely have a stomachache.
I followed Yingying's words and said: Well, maybe it was too spicy... I'll be fine right away. You can turn the temperature of the air conditioner a little first, so don't catch a cold.
Well, I get it.
Yingying seemed to notice my abnormality. Her figure disappeared from the bathroom door, and I was finally able to sit on the toilet and relax my breathing that I had been suppressing.
Ah, I feel so dizzy... I haven't felt this way for a long time.
Just hearing Sister Juan’s voice and just a few words, I was almost unable to control my emotions.
This feeling...is bad.
But I can't resist.
Because... Sister Juan.
She is my true lover.
Especially when we didn't look for it as soon as possible, we went to have a meal first, and it took a long time to wait.
After walking around the train station, I asked the hotel and hotel where the conditions were pretty similar or the conditions were not visible at all, and the answer I was told was almost the same: Sorry, we were full.
Ah, it's true that I should find a place to live before going to have a meal.
After a walk around, Yingying and I had to go back to the car. At least we could go to some farther places by relying on the car. Although it is indeed dangerous to drive on heavy snow, it is within a feasible range if we drive slowly nearby. The air conditioner in the car gave us a reason to take risks.
Brother, let’s just drive it home like this.
Yingying, who moved to the passenger seat, held her face boredly and looked at the flying snowstorm outside the window.
Don’t be stupid. We are still around the station and the road is not so dark. If you leave this area, you can’t drive without street lights.Besides, at this speed, I’m afraid that the car will be out of gas before I drive. Do you want to freeze to death with me in the car?
Yingying said in a lazy voice: That's great...
I held the steering wheel with one hand, and knocked her head with my right hand out.
pain!Why are you hitting me?
Don't say such stupid things in the future!How old are you when you think about this kind of thing all day long?I will not think about this kind of thing in the future.
Yingying covered her head and said dissatisfiedly: What's wrong with me?I'm already 22!Brother, why do you still treat me as a child?
Is there any problem with this?You are just a child in my eyes.
Yingying was a little dissatisfied and muttered in a low voice: You said just now that I was growing up...
One code is unified, this is different from that.And what are you saying?During the Chinese New Year, don’t always mention those unlucky things.
Yingying didn't say anything, and I didn't know what to say. The atmosphere in the car was a little frozen for a while.
Am I saying too much?Because I was walking at night, I had to focus on the front of me all the time, and could only use my light to look at Yingying's reaction at this time.
I am very worried about Yingying's current emotions. This is not the first time she has made such a funny joke. Combined with her previous personality, I am really worried that she will do something stupid.
Sakura?
Um……
Fortunately, she is willing to promise me, at least she is not that bad.
Take out your phone and look at the road. It's too dark here. I can't figure out where I'm driving.
Yingying nodded and took out her phone to start operating.
While she was operating her phone, I parked the car on the side of the road and turned on the double flash lights.
Now I can finally watch her speak.
That, Yingying.
Um……
Just now, I might have said too much.
Yingying didn't say anything, but she never raised her head and stared at the screen of her phone without wanting to look at me.
I sighed and said: Actually, I have been worried about you for so many years.
Yingying's hand finally stopped.
At the beginning, when I left, I didn't tell you because I was afraid that you would not accept it, and I regretted it afterwards... After all, that matter was a matter between the two of us. Although it turned out like that in the end, I should also discuss it with you.
Yingying still didn't lift her head, only the voice came: What's the use of saying this now...
When I heard Yingying say this, I could only sigh.
It's Ah, it's been four years. What's the use of saying this now?
I knew in my heart that Yingying must have a lot of dissatisfaction with my never-saying farewell. She must be worried about me if she doesn't show it now. After all, I have maintained intermittent contact with her for the past four years. Before that, she has asked me more than once when I will go home...
No, that tone is no longer a question, it is more like begging.
But I can't overcome the hurdle in my heart every time, and I choose to use various reasons to make excuses.
Until this year, until today.
Brother, tell me.
Um?
Can I really be your sister?
This is a question that directly penetrates the deepest part of my wound.
I gritted my teeth and said in the lightest tone I could pretend: Is it not enough to be a sister?You are my dearest sister, you are the only one in this world.
Yingying didn't say anything, but I could feel that she was definitely not satisfied with my answer.
After a while, I heard her voice sound weakly: Drive.
Sakura...
Drive, brother.I turned around and arrived. I'm cold, let's go quickly.
This sentence is the most obvious rejection that Yingying has expressed to me so far.
I could only keep silent and hold the steering wheel again.
From moving back to reaching the destination, Yingying didn't say another word.
After I parked the car, she took the lead in unbuttoning her seat belt and got out of the car alone, leaving me behind, without the feeling of intimacy she had before.
I was helpless, but I could only choose to allow this alienation to last.
After all, I was not ready to tell Yingying all the truth. If possible, I really wanted to hide it from her for the rest of my life, but I knew it was impossible. I could only do my best to avoid Yingying being hurt before reaching the moment of exposure.
Although I felt uncomfortable, at least the distance at this time was good for Yingying himself.
I can no longer keep getting closer to Yingying.
The snow was still falling, but the small distance from the parking space at the entrance of the hotel to the lobby on the first floor was already falling from the small distance.
Yingying, who got off the bus first, did not enter the room first, but chose to stand at the entrance of the hall and wait for me in the flying snow.
I quickly walked to her side. Just as I was about to speak, Yingying turned around and pushed the door in first, leaving me there again.
Is this angering me?Yingying was always very well-behaved when she was in front of me. We rarely had conflicts or conflicts. This may be the first time I saw Yingying so obviously angry with me.
Although I rarely see Yingying getting angry, I know Yingying's personality or temper very well.
To put it nicely, Yingying's personality is called resilience, to put it bluntly, she is just a stubbornness. She will definitely stick to something that she has determined to the end, and analogy to the current situation...
I'm afraid I won't see Yingying's good face again today.
Alas... Forget it, this is the consequence of self-inflicting consequences.
I sighed and followed Yingying into the door.
It was already very late and the hotel was located in a relatively remote location, so there was no third guest in the lobby except Yingying and I.
Standing behind the counter was a sister who looked about 4 years old. When she saw me coming in, she was very enthusiastic and greeted: Hello, accommodation is right?
Ah, I made a reservation before, my surname is Gao.
Oh, I remember you, your surname is Gao, right... Let me see, Ah, there is!The room is left for you.
That's good.
It seems that it is a good choice to book a room before coming.
I reached into my inner pocket of my coat and took out my wallet to register. Yingying, who was standing beside me, kept silent and just stood beside me and watched.
Ah, both people’s documents must be registered. We must also register according to the requirements of the police station after the latest inspection.
I glanced at Yingying, but she still didn't say anything, just took out her ID card from her bag and handed it over.
OK, it will be fine soon.
The eldest sister behind the counter was very quick and completed all the procedures in less than a minute and returned the room card and ID card together.
At this time, I found that there was only one room card placed on the counter.
Well, this is...
Well, what's wrong?
No, when I called, I said I wanted two rooms, right?this……
Oh, I forgot everything like this.
The eldest sister behind the counter patted her forehead and said, "We only have these two rooms left. This one is a big bed room. I will open it for you first. After the rest of you come, we will open a second room."Now I checked the room strictly. Without an ID card, we cannot open the room directly, but don’t worry, the room must be left for you...
Only then did I realize what I was neglecting.
Although I did ask for two rooms on the phone and kept two rooms as I told me, when I just registered, the elder sister directly registered Yingying and me in the same room.
After all, Yingying and I came together. In the eyes of outsiders, we must have imagined that the man and woman who appeared in the hotel in the middle of the night would have to live in two rooms, right?
Oh, by the way, how many people do you have?
I couldn't help but smile bitterly at the corner of my mouth. My elder sister still thinks we are three or even more people, so she wants two rooms.
Well, sister, we are only two of us...
What?Just the two of you?
The eldest sister behind the counter stretched her neck and swept her face with confusion on Yingying and me, and said hesitantly: Are you not a couple?
us……
Before I spoke, I couldn't help but take a look at Yingying.
She still maintained that silent look, as if she was not going to speak.
That, sister, we... are not married.
After thinking for a long time, I still chose such a concise statement to explain my relationship with Yingying.
After all, Yingying and I have different surnames. If we just say that we are brothers and sisters, the eldest sister in front of us will probably be even more suspicious.
If you are not married, then you are just a boyfriend and girlfriend. Nowadays, there is no difference between a young man and a couple, right?
I could only continue to smile bitterly. The elder sister with a Northeast accent in front of me was really as straightforward as a Northeastern person.
Perhaps I finally noticed my strange expression, and my elder sister suddenly stopped talking. She looked at Yingying, who was obviously standing far away from me, and her tone of speaking became a little cautious: Why don't you... or open two rooms for you?
No, aunty.
Yingying's voice suddenly rang.
She reached out and picked up the ID card and room card placed on the counter, turned around and walked towards the elevator.
Hello, Yingying!
I shouted, but Yingying ignored me at all and kept walking forward.
Are you... quarrel?
The eldest sister behind the counter lowered her voice and asked me. I could only show an apologetic smile to her and then chased her.
After I left, I heard a vague sentence from behind: Am I that old...
Before the elevator door closed, I caught up with Yingying.
Standing in the elevator, the distance between us instantly narrowed a lot.
Yingying still looked like she was keeping people from thousands of miles away, standing at the edge of the elevator without saying a word.
Sakura.
I approached her and called her name, but Yingying still ignored me. After the elevator door opened, she walked out as soon as possible.
Yingying, wait for me!
I followed Yingying closely, took big steps and finally caught up with her.
In order to stop Yingying, I grabbed her hand directly.
The moment we held our hands together, Yingying finally stopped.
Her movements were like a machine that had been unplugged in an instant, and stopped in front of me with a stiff look.
Sakura...
I called her name for the third time, and this time, Yingying finally had a slight reaction.
Her fingers began to move, but instead of throwing my hand away, she grabbed my fingers.
elder brother……
I was a little surprised that Yingying actually spoke in front of me.
What's the matter, I'll listen.
Why did you say that just now?
I instantly understood what Yingying was referring to, but that was obviously not a topic that could start in the corridor, so I said: Go into the room first, let’s talk about this after entering the room.
What is the difference between saying in the room and saying here?
Yingying finally turned around, she looked at me, to be precise, staring at me.
Brother, didn’t you say you only treat me as your sister?Then why didn’t you tell others about our relationship just now?
Yingying's voice was very calm, but this calmness was filled with a depressed aura before the storm came.
Yingying, listen to me first. I just said this to avoid causing trouble, and...
I put my other empty hand on Yingying's shoulder, but she did not resist, which was a good sign.
I continued: Yingying I mentioned, you are my closest relative. Although we are not related by blood, in my eyes, you are definitely more close than your own sister.
Kind than a real sister?But it's still not a real sister. If I were your real sister, you would have come to me back then...
Sakura!I grabbed her shoulder and interrupted her.
My voice echoed in the corridor, and even echoed.The revenge mentality of admitting crosses the boundary between her and her ordinary brother-sister relationship.
I'm sorry Yingying.
I am not qualified to be forgiven by her, nor do I have the right to say anything to be responsible for her.but……
Yingying, listen to me.I gently hugged Yingying's shoulder and whispered in her ear.
I know you have been feeling very uncomfortable all these years, and I have thought about it, just never come back, so that you can completely forget me and find another man who is more suitable for you.
I obviously felt Yingying's body begin to tense after I said this.
But, but...
I stepped up my tone and spoke my long-prepared declaration.
Yingying, I'm back.Since I'm back, I won't run away again.
Yes, I won't run away again.
This time, I made everything clear.Let's go together to convince your mother and ask her to agree to our things, okay?
Yingying's voice sounded faintly in my arms: Then, if it were her...
If she doesn't agree, I'll...
I couldn't help but pause, but still gritted my teeth and said the lie that I was most against my will. I'll take you away and let's go to the southwest.Let's get married again.
Yingying didn't say anything, but I could feel it, she nodded.
That's it, that's fine.
I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
Brother, let go of me, I'm a little bored...
I quickly let go of my arms and took a step back.
Yingying, who was regaining her freedom, stood there, looking at me with big red eyes, but this time it was no longer the kind of scrutiny, but with unconcealed surprise and a hint of shyness.
What you said just now is true?
Well, really.After dealing with the family affairs, I plan to tell your mother about this.
Take me away, and this is also...
Yes, I have this plan.But this is also the last move, so I'd like to expect your mother to agree with our affairs.
She would agree, she would definitely agree.
Yingying repeated, the joy on her face became stronger and stronger.
I looked at her and covered up the bitterness in my heart with a smile.
But Ah, Sakura.You should change your name to me in the future.
Alas, why?
You also call me brother outside... Although we are not related by blood, if you don't know what you will think when you hear it, there will still be trouble.
Then, then why would I call you Ah?
I thought about it and replied: Just call my name, or you can think of a name yourself.
Oh, well...
Yingying nodded and responded. She thought for a while before she spoke carefully and shouted: Gao...yu?
Well, just call Gao Yu, it's simple and direct.
No, no!I have never called my brother's name directly, so I am not used to it.
I smiled bitterly and said: Then what do you want to call Ah?
Well, um... Brother Yu?No, no, I still feel like calling out to strangers.
Yingying thought about it and denied the other one, shook her head constantly, and her whole face turned red.
Finally, she whispered: I'd better call me brother. I don't feel used to the rest... At worst, I won't shout when I'm outside.
Well, it's up to you.
We looked at each other, and at that moment, I even had the illusion that such happiness would last forever.
Ah, I almost forgot, room...
Yingying finally realized that we were still standing in the corridor and had been standing for a while.
Speaking of which, I don’t know the room number, and where is the room card?
Here in me, um...I'll take a look.
After seeing the number clearly from the room card in Yingying's hand, I went to find the room first.
But Yingying held my hand. She was not stopping me, and there was no strong force coming from her hand.
What's wrong?
I looked at her and asked.
Brother... Can you continue holding my hand?
Such a simple sentence seemed to exhaust Yingying's strength. She held my hand and looked at me eagerly.
Yingying, who was watched by me, immediately became embarrassed. She lowered her head and shouted as if she was defending herself: I know this is quite stupid, but I just want to... just pull it for a while, will it work for a while?You came here to hold me just now, I'm so happy...
I didn't say anything, but flipped my palms and tied up with Yingying's fingers.
Is this OK?
Well... OK.
Yingying's voice was as low as a mosquito, and after a while, she suddenly pushed me away.
OK, OK!I'm fine, enough!
I looked at her blushing face and knew that she was in a state of being right and wrong, so I didn't let go of her hand.
Hurry up, go to the room quickly, brother...
The cherry blossoms with red cheeks on both sides of their cheeks were particularly attractive, which made me feel itchy.
In this way, we walked to the door of the room holding hands, and after opening the door, the appearance of the room almost made me dare not enter.
This room...is amazing...
This is the first sentence that Yingying said when she saw the decorations in the room.
The bright red water is from the bed sheets, quilt covers, pillows to the wooden floor laid on the wall paper on the floor, and even the sofa is red.
I suddenly understood why the elder sister at the counter emphasized that it was a big bed room when registering. The bed in this room was indeed a very standard big bed, but the color was a bit...
I was a little embarrassed, and this style really made me feel a little uncomfortable.
Do you want to change one?I remember they said there was an empty room.
But Yingying grabbed my sleeve and shook her head.
Just this one, isn’t that room a standard room with two beds?I think this is good, very good...
Yingying was a little insincere, but I could see her true thoughts.
Our hands were always holding each other, and Yingying's palms were already feeling a little sweaty.
Then let's take this one, listen to you.
After understanding what will happen tonight, I decided not to be picky.
After closing the door, the atmosphere in the room became more charming.
It was already late at night, and Yingying and I, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the bed, soon had no topics to talk to.
Let's take a shower. We'll get up early tomorrow and go back early.
After hearing what I said, Yingying nodded and stood up from the bed.
Brother, what about you?
I?When you finish washing Ah, I will wash it quickly. Why don’t I wash it first?
Yingying was a little embarrassed, she still held my hand and didn't want to let go.
Yes, or...wash together?
After saying this, I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at my Yingying. Her face turned redder, and I don't know if it was due to the color around me or her own shyness.
For a moment, I was really moved.
But in the end I said: Forget it, it’s so cold today, the bathroom looks quite small, and I guess two people can’t stand there.You go and wash first, put on your clothes after washing, so don’t catch a cold.
Yingying seemed a little disappointed, but she nodded and let go of my hand.
But before entering the bathroom, she stood at the door with a bath towel in her arms, and looked at my reaction with a look of calculating something.
I said, what are you thinking?
Yingying looked at me and suddenly said: Brother, do you want to see me take off my clothes?
What?
I didn't react for a moment.
The air conditioner in the room has been on, and the temperature in the room is not low now, so Yingying and I took off our outermost coat after we came in.
Under Yingying's coat was a knitted sweater that was as long as her thighs. At this moment, her hands were placed on the hem of the sweater, as if she was ready to lift it to show me at any time.
Brother, do you want to see it?
Yingying's voice became glutinous and crawled directly into my heart along my ears.
It's already this time, and it seems that I'm too hypocritical to say anything else.
Well, I want to see it.
After receiving my affirmative answer, Yingying became a little restrained.
She pulled the hem of her clothes and tried several times, but she failed to get it in one step.
Finally, she simply closed her eyes and lifted her clothes in one breath.
Under the sweater... there are naturally underwear. The light pink underwear wraps her well-developed upper body, while the lower body is blocked by the shadow of the bed, but it can be seen that she is wearing thicker leggings.
After taking off the sweater outside, Yingying let go a lot. She directly reached her hand to the hem of her underwear, which was in line with her always habit of taking off clothes. She always took off her upper body and then moved her lower body's clothes.
Today, I originally wanted to wear a beautiful bra.
Before taking off her underwear, Yingying still explained to me with a red face.
As a result, I woke up too late in the morning and was in a hurry at noon... I forgot.
I looked at Yingying's breasts wrapped in a simple, fully surrounded bra and couldn't hear anything.
Before Yingying was about to unbutton her bra, I reached out to stop her.
This is not because I suddenly woke up, but because I was afraid that if I continued to watch this, I would be unable to control myself and jumped over.
OK, let's do it first.You go and take a shower, I'm afraid you will catch a cold.
Although Yingying was a little puzzled, she still obediently walked into the bathroom with a bath towel.
The moment the sound of water in the bathroom sounded, I looked at the tent that had been standing under my crotch and suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.
After four years of leaving home, I lived a life without a doubt with the ascetic monk because of guilt.
I work hard every day, and I didn’t think about solving my daily physiological needs. Over time, I forgot about this.
And now, watching Yingying's youthful body push away the shell called the clothes bit by bit, I really... Ha...
A burst of burning thirst came from my throat. I grabbed the bottle of mineral water placed at the head of the bed, unscrewed it and drank half of it.
The cold water poured into my stomach, which also calmed my feverish brain a little.
Yingying washed so slowly... It was obvious that I asked her to take a shower first, but I couldn't control my impatience.
No, I have to do something to distract myself.
Thinking of this in my mind, I grabbed the TV remote control placed on the bedside table and turned on the TV.
Speaking of which, when I was outside, I always had a companionship with my computer and keyboard. I haven't done anything that I often do at home for a long time.
Just as I was bored and pressing the remote control to change the channel, a vibration suddenly came from under me.
Well, a cell phone?I was rummaging around me, but when I turned around, I found my cell phone lying quietly on the head of the bed.
But the vibration continued.
I continued to search and finally found Yingying's cell phone underneath the quilt.
But the name displayed on the call made my heart tremble.
Buzz
The phone continued to vibrate in my hand, but I didn't dare to answer the phone.
Finally, the vibration stopped and the person who called seemed to give up.
But just as I was about to throw my phone aside and throw this aside, the phone vibrated again.
It's still the same number, the same name.
what to do?I took a look at the direction of the bathroom. Yingying's shadow was still moving inside, and it seemed that it would not appear in a short period of time.
Now the room is filled with the sound of TV programs, and the replay of late-night variety shows is quite noisy, so there should be no unnecessary sounds in the bathroom.
After thinking about it over and over again, I still slide the touch screen and answered the phone.
I put my phone in my ear.
Sakura?Why are you answering my phone call now?Where have you been? Did you drive away the car at home?Where did you drive alone when it snows so heavily?
A series of questions came out of the receiver, and the speaker was quite anxious, but the familiar tone almost moistened my eyes.
I was silent and didn't reply.
The female voice on the phone became even more anxious, and her speech speed gradually accelerated: Yingying, you speak Ah, why can't I hear you speak?Wait, what's the sound over you? Are you watching TV?Where are you? Tell your mother quickly!
It is this voice, this voice Ah... It is to hear this voice again that I chose to return here today four years later.
Maybe it was my sob sound that I heard, and the voice on the phone changed tone again: Hello, hey?Who are you, are you Chen Yingying?Where is she?Hello?
I controlled my emotions, lowered my voice, and said: Sister Juan.
In an instant, the phone was silent.
After a while, another voice came out of the phone, with obvious trembling: Gao Yu?You... are back?
Sister Juan, it’s me, I’m back...
I dare not say more, I am afraid that my emotions will be out of control in the next second.
The other end of the phone fell silent again, and then the sound coming significantly lowered the temperature and was no longer as emotional as the first time: Are you... now with Yingying?
There was a little bad in my heart. Sister Juan called Yingying. I would definitely think of this when I answered it like this.
But I still couldn't lie to her and answered truthfully: Well, Yingying and I were with me.She is going to take a shower now and shouldn't be able to hear us.
I don’t know why I specifically explained Yingying’s condition, but Sister Juan’s voice obviously became much easier because of this.
That's good... I understand, when are you going to come back?
Tomorrow morning, we will leave when the snow stops.
OK, be careful on the way.
After saying that, Sister Juan's voice disappeared.
Sister Juan!
I couldn't help but shout, but when I took my phone open, I saw that only the words "end of the call" were left.
Sure enough, it's still the same... Since that day four years ago, Sister Juan has been avoiding me and is unwilling to have too much contact with me.
But I still can't forget Ah... I put my phone in my original position and restored everything to its original appearance.
The variety show on TV is still continuing, but the sound of water in the bathroom has stopped, and Yingying has already washed it.
Brother, I've finished washing... Yingying just opened the bathroom door and I walked past her body and entered the bathroom.
I knew this must be abnormal. Yingying also shouted after I closed the door: Brother, what's wrong with you?Are you feeling uncomfortable?
I covered my nose to prevent my breath from appearing too abnormal, and then replied: It's okay, I just have a stomachache and may have diarrhea.
Yingying's voice sounded outside the door: Ah, I said you eat too fast at night. If you put so many peppers and drink them so hot, you will definitely have a stomachache.
I followed Yingying's words and said: Well, maybe it was too spicy... I'll be fine right away. You can turn the temperature of the air conditioner a little first, so don't catch a cold.
Well, I get it.
Yingying seemed to notice my abnormality. Her figure disappeared from the bathroom door, and I was finally able to sit on the toilet and relax my breathing that I had been suppressing.
Ah, I feel so dizzy... I haven't felt this way for a long time.
Just hearing Sister Juan’s voice and just a few words, I was almost unable to control my emotions.
This feeling...is bad.
But I can't resist.
Because... Sister Juan.
She is my true lover.
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