He had decided, and he stopped hesitating, stood up suddenly, found a hemp rope to tie his legs from his knees
Although this will make him unable to move, after a few months, he couldn't correct this habit if he didn't believe it!
At that time, Qingxiao should have smiled, right?
He tightened the rope hard, but he couldn't tie it tightly and fell loosely, like a dead snake, he took a breath and stared at his left hand in the sun. His white and slender fingers were as transparent as jade under the sun, and looked very beautiful, but he knew that the bones inside were broken one by one, and even if they were connected later, they could never be restored to their original state.
Just like him, he still looks good, but he is no longer the same as before.
no
no
no
He kept tightening the rope like a devil, always feeling that if his disabled hand could tie the knot, he could recover smoothly and Qingxiao would not leave
But he tried again and again, but his hands still couldn't use their strength, and the knot would slip loosely
He finally fell to the ground in despair, looking at his already red palm, wanting to cry
But Qingxiao is not around
Who would the only person in the world who cares about him crying for if he is not by his side?
If he doesn't work hard, maybe even that only one will be lost.
He gritted his teeth and told himself not to panic. As long as he worked hard, there would always be progress. Qingxiao could see this silently recite it several times. It seemed that it was really effective. He calmed down and stared at the knot silently for a while. He untied the rope and received it again in the drawer. He was very slow, but he did not hesitate. He found a roll of tape, pulled down his trousers with one hand, and wrapped them around his knees with tape.
This can be done without much effort. The cold tape isolated the air, bringing a feeling of restraint, and the dark memories of the past, he had to stop and breathe heavily, but his hands kept wrapping his hands, his eyes cold and firm
What he can do
He must do it
The tape was tightly wrapped, and his knees were finally tied together. He stood up with difficulty, almost unable to move his steps, and adapted for a long time before he could hold on to the furniture next to him and move little by little, like a small insect squirming in his heart.
He wiped the sweat from his forehead and made a face at the flesh bug in the mirror. No matter what, his legs were put together. If he persisted like this for a few months, the bad habit of sitting unconsciously spreading his legs should be corrected, right?
********************
Lying is a very difficult thing. If the other person is someone you respect, guilt will make it difficult for you to speak. If the other person is a wise person, the look that penetrates everything will make you afraid to speak.
Eisenberg happened to be the person who did not want to cheat or dared to cheat, and countless thoughts quickly changed into his mind. Qingxiao decided to tell the truth, but just carefully cut it down and concealed some things that damaged his image.
As long as what is said does not go against the facts, it is not a deception
The coffee was already cold, and what it was time to say was finished. Qingxiao nervously stirred the coffee with a spoon, staring at the changing light and shadow of the sunshine on the glass table.
The old man let out a sigh and murmured: So that's what it is... The story that happened to your friend is really legendary. No wonder Albert refused to tell me at first...
He glanced at Qingxiao, smiled thoughtfully, and said: No wonder you suddenly dropped out of school and witnessed a good young man being treated so cruelly in order to save you. You can't be touched.
Qingxiao breathed a sigh of relief. The professor seemed to be very considerate of himself, but after thinking about it, he felt something was wrong. The professor's words were very neutral. Is this out of a cautious personality, or does it mean that he has another opinion?
Eisenberg looked at him, and although he was smiling, his eyes had become sharp, and said: But there is one thing you have never mentioned, how did you take him away from that group of people? I don't accept the ridiculous explanation and I believe you won't lie to me.
Qing filial piety was wafting, and she was low for a long time, and she whispered: Can I not say it? Professor
This answer was obviously beyond the old man's expectations. It took a while to say: Of course, it's OK, but... but do you think it's like not to say anything that hasn't happened?
Qingxiao! You were not the one who liked to avoid problems like this before! He raised his voice a little, wanted to say something, but he held it back and shook his head and said: You have really changed a lot!
Qingxiao was shocked and said: Have I changed?
Eisenberg sighed: Three years... Maybe you can't notice it yourself. Changes happen every day. You today will not be the one you yesterday. But to a person who is familiar with you, you now and three years ago are just two people. When the supervisor called me, I couldn't believe that you were not willing to admit that you were following me to study for a doctorate.
They were just two people three years ago... Qingxiao chewed this sentence, and a strange smile gradually appeared on her lips. Do you think of me like this, professor?
Maybe we are all changing, but I am too nostalgic. When people get old, I always get used to staying in the same place and missing something. The old man said slowly, his eyes were desolate. Walking on the road of campus, I always think of those days. What are the sayings? Good times in the past? I have a smart and hardworking good student. His name is Sanada Kiyoshi and I can't finish my career in my life. He will continue for me.
He took a sip of coffee, and the cold and bitter taste made him frown. He sighed and said: It seems that I shouldn't say anything anymore. But Qingxiao, remember that people always live in groups. If you have any worries, it's better to ask someone to tell me about it. It may be possible to relieve stress by just pouring out oneself. Maybe I am no longer the object of your trust in congratulations, but I still hope you can find such a person as soon as possible. Your current condition is really bad.
He made a gesture, called the waiter to check out the bill, and was about to get up and leave Qingxiao, and was startled and said in panic: Professor, I don't mean that! I just... I just don't know how to speak, because, because...
Because you care too much about my opinion of you, right? Eisenberg stared at him and sighed helplessly, "Silly boy, do you think I don't know if you don't say it?"
He paused, rubbed his temples, showing fatigue, and said in a deep voice: In the end, you turned to your family and rescued him with illegal means, right?
Qingxiao lowered her head, dared not look directly into the other person's eyes, and said in a daze: Professor...
Eisenberg smiled bitterly and said: It's easy to guess, you are such a passionate and impulsive person.
Qingxiao whispered: After I escaped from the island, some people went to the police, but they had already bribed them. Instead, they came to chase me. I think it is useless to ask for help from the police. Xiaoyu couldn't wait for so long, so... so...
So you just act as a policeman and act as a law enforcement officer? For this reason, you gave up your studies and your future? Eisenberg said excitedly, Do you still remember your original dream? How much did you pay to break with your family?
Qingxiao didn't dare to raise her head and whispered: I haven't contacted them anymore, I just want to Xiaoyu. After I rescued me...
For Xiaoyu! Eisenberg snorted and noticed his loss of composure. He turned his back and tapped his fingers gently on the table, saying: Of course, he is innocent. The problem is you, you have not handled this matter well, and it seems that you still have no idea what to do now.
Five fingers pressed on the table decisively, and the old man said unceremoniously: It can be said that if you overestimate your ability, you will not only not be able to save him, but will also lose yourself.
The gray-blue eyes stared at Qingxiao steadily. The old man shook his head and said: You think the police are useless, so you become a lone hero to save people. Experts tell you that it is difficult to cure. You are a psychologist yourself. What do you think of yourself? God? No one is omnipotent. Qingxiao sanctified.
The old man patted Qingxiao's back of his hand and slowed down his voice: It is not a shame to be unable to do it because of insufficient ability. It is not a shame. Just work hard to solve Qingxiao. Don't force yourself too tightly. You need time and help. You also need patience and forgiveness for yourself and those you want to save.
Did I overestimate myself? Qingxiao murmured, and there was a little more demand for help in his eyes when he looked at Eisenberg. Professor, I...
Eisenberg smiled with satisfaction and said: Come on, kid, tell me all the details. If you can trust an old man's opinion, maybe I can help you.
********************
Yu was lying on the desk with difficulty, his legs tied tightly with tape were very uncomfortable, he supported his body with his hands, looked up at the clear sky and white clouds outside the window, there were children running happily and couples snuggling happily
There is also his favorite person outside, who is working hard for life, hoping that one day he will join
How lucky he is, the person he loves the most, and the person he loves the most
And even more fortunately, this man is still by his side now
If a person's life has such a period of time, it is worthwhile. What he has to do is to continue this period as much as possible.
He looked at his tightly tied legs and clearly felt the powerlessness of his body being bound, but his soul was rising up
The constraints of the present are for the freedom of the future
One day he will walk out of the hut and walk upright to the sun with Qingxiao as if on that morning, they sat side by side on the slope and watched the sun rise
On that day, he could justify and say to Qingxiao: There is one thing I haven't told you, but now I can say it.
That's, I love you
He looked down at the calendar on the table. The cover of the calendar was written with Qingxiao's mobile phone number and his heart was slightly tingling. He pretended not to see it, and drew a red cross on today's page, indicating that he had experienced it today.
I don't know how many red crosses you have to draw, how many times you deny it before you can welcome that day
Or, is there really a day?
He gently rubbed his somewhat stiff legs, gathering strength bit by bit
********************
You hope he can recover from his former savage, the stubborn and strong man you love. Eisenberg stood up and walked to the rooftop to see his back. His white hair shining in the sunlight.
He is over 60 years old, but his body is still tall and there is no sign of hunchback. His hair has turned white and his snowy white hair makes him look more elegant, but it also reveals his age. The mentor is old. Kiyoko thinks a little sadly. He is not feeling guilty and he still hides some of the information, including that he subdues Ryusuke with drugs, and is still imprisoned.
After all, it takes courage to break his perfect image in the mind of the mentor. He really doesn't want to hurt the teacher who has a strong hope for him anymore.
The silence lasted for a while and the old man slowly turned around and said word by word: Have you ever thought that if there was no such day at all? If he could never be the same as before, would you still love him?
It was not that Qingxiao was shocked that he didn't know that there was this possibility, but he just refused to think about Eisenberg suddenly put the problem in front of him solemnly, and he couldn't help but feel scared.
He reached for the coffee cup and found that his fingers were trembling.
Eisenberg stared at him quietly, his eyes sharp, and shook his head, saying: Don't you know, right? My child, your hands are shaking. If you really love him, you shouldn't be unable to answer this question
Have you ever thought that in my eyes, you are very different from three years ago. You will escape from reality, you will escape from me, you give up your studies and join the underworld again, but I did not give up on you
I am still ready to help you at any time so that you can walk back to the right path because I love you, you are my beloved student
So what about you?
He reached out and gently pressed Kiyoko's hand holding the cup, Eisenberg whispered: Is it because he saved you that you are so obsessed with wanting him to recover? That's why you are so stubborn?
Is it just that the scene of you running away left a deep impression on you, so you feel that you have the responsibility to repair everything, just like you broke a vase, so you want to buy one exactly the same for compensation?
Looking straight into Kiyoko's eyes, Eisenberg asked almost forcibly: If you really like the original vase, you will cherish it and repair it instead of demanding it to restore it to its original state. But you are not
So do you really love him?
Are you sure that you will be able to save him at all costs, is it based on love or morality?
Although this will make him unable to move, after a few months, he couldn't correct this habit if he didn't believe it!
At that time, Qingxiao should have smiled, right?
He tightened the rope hard, but he couldn't tie it tightly and fell loosely, like a dead snake, he took a breath and stared at his left hand in the sun. His white and slender fingers were as transparent as jade under the sun, and looked very beautiful, but he knew that the bones inside were broken one by one, and even if they were connected later, they could never be restored to their original state.
Just like him, he still looks good, but he is no longer the same as before.
no
no
no
He kept tightening the rope like a devil, always feeling that if his disabled hand could tie the knot, he could recover smoothly and Qingxiao would not leave
But he tried again and again, but his hands still couldn't use their strength, and the knot would slip loosely
He finally fell to the ground in despair, looking at his already red palm, wanting to cry
But Qingxiao is not around
Who would the only person in the world who cares about him crying for if he is not by his side?
If he doesn't work hard, maybe even that only one will be lost.
He gritted his teeth and told himself not to panic. As long as he worked hard, there would always be progress. Qingxiao could see this silently recite it several times. It seemed that it was really effective. He calmed down and stared at the knot silently for a while. He untied the rope and received it again in the drawer. He was very slow, but he did not hesitate. He found a roll of tape, pulled down his trousers with one hand, and wrapped them around his knees with tape.
This can be done without much effort. The cold tape isolated the air, bringing a feeling of restraint, and the dark memories of the past, he had to stop and breathe heavily, but his hands kept wrapping his hands, his eyes cold and firm
What he can do
He must do it
The tape was tightly wrapped, and his knees were finally tied together. He stood up with difficulty, almost unable to move his steps, and adapted for a long time before he could hold on to the furniture next to him and move little by little, like a small insect squirming in his heart.
He wiped the sweat from his forehead and made a face at the flesh bug in the mirror. No matter what, his legs were put together. If he persisted like this for a few months, the bad habit of sitting unconsciously spreading his legs should be corrected, right?
********************
Lying is a very difficult thing. If the other person is someone you respect, guilt will make it difficult for you to speak. If the other person is a wise person, the look that penetrates everything will make you afraid to speak.
Eisenberg happened to be the person who did not want to cheat or dared to cheat, and countless thoughts quickly changed into his mind. Qingxiao decided to tell the truth, but just carefully cut it down and concealed some things that damaged his image.
As long as what is said does not go against the facts, it is not a deception
The coffee was already cold, and what it was time to say was finished. Qingxiao nervously stirred the coffee with a spoon, staring at the changing light and shadow of the sunshine on the glass table.
The old man let out a sigh and murmured: So that's what it is... The story that happened to your friend is really legendary. No wonder Albert refused to tell me at first...
He glanced at Qingxiao, smiled thoughtfully, and said: No wonder you suddenly dropped out of school and witnessed a good young man being treated so cruelly in order to save you. You can't be touched.
Qingxiao breathed a sigh of relief. The professor seemed to be very considerate of himself, but after thinking about it, he felt something was wrong. The professor's words were very neutral. Is this out of a cautious personality, or does it mean that he has another opinion?
Eisenberg looked at him, and although he was smiling, his eyes had become sharp, and said: But there is one thing you have never mentioned, how did you take him away from that group of people? I don't accept the ridiculous explanation and I believe you won't lie to me.
Qing filial piety was wafting, and she was low for a long time, and she whispered: Can I not say it? Professor
This answer was obviously beyond the old man's expectations. It took a while to say: Of course, it's OK, but... but do you think it's like not to say anything that hasn't happened?
Qingxiao! You were not the one who liked to avoid problems like this before! He raised his voice a little, wanted to say something, but he held it back and shook his head and said: You have really changed a lot!
Qingxiao was shocked and said: Have I changed?
Eisenberg sighed: Three years... Maybe you can't notice it yourself. Changes happen every day. You today will not be the one you yesterday. But to a person who is familiar with you, you now and three years ago are just two people. When the supervisor called me, I couldn't believe that you were not willing to admit that you were following me to study for a doctorate.
They were just two people three years ago... Qingxiao chewed this sentence, and a strange smile gradually appeared on her lips. Do you think of me like this, professor?
Maybe we are all changing, but I am too nostalgic. When people get old, I always get used to staying in the same place and missing something. The old man said slowly, his eyes were desolate. Walking on the road of campus, I always think of those days. What are the sayings? Good times in the past? I have a smart and hardworking good student. His name is Sanada Kiyoshi and I can't finish my career in my life. He will continue for me.
He took a sip of coffee, and the cold and bitter taste made him frown. He sighed and said: It seems that I shouldn't say anything anymore. But Qingxiao, remember that people always live in groups. If you have any worries, it's better to ask someone to tell me about it. It may be possible to relieve stress by just pouring out oneself. Maybe I am no longer the object of your trust in congratulations, but I still hope you can find such a person as soon as possible. Your current condition is really bad.
He made a gesture, called the waiter to check out the bill, and was about to get up and leave Qingxiao, and was startled and said in panic: Professor, I don't mean that! I just... I just don't know how to speak, because, because...
Because you care too much about my opinion of you, right? Eisenberg stared at him and sighed helplessly, "Silly boy, do you think I don't know if you don't say it?"
He paused, rubbed his temples, showing fatigue, and said in a deep voice: In the end, you turned to your family and rescued him with illegal means, right?
Qingxiao lowered her head, dared not look directly into the other person's eyes, and said in a daze: Professor...
Eisenberg smiled bitterly and said: It's easy to guess, you are such a passionate and impulsive person.
Qingxiao whispered: After I escaped from the island, some people went to the police, but they had already bribed them. Instead, they came to chase me. I think it is useless to ask for help from the police. Xiaoyu couldn't wait for so long, so... so...
So you just act as a policeman and act as a law enforcement officer? For this reason, you gave up your studies and your future? Eisenberg said excitedly, Do you still remember your original dream? How much did you pay to break with your family?
Qingxiao didn't dare to raise her head and whispered: I haven't contacted them anymore, I just want to Xiaoyu. After I rescued me...
For Xiaoyu! Eisenberg snorted and noticed his loss of composure. He turned his back and tapped his fingers gently on the table, saying: Of course, he is innocent. The problem is you, you have not handled this matter well, and it seems that you still have no idea what to do now.
Five fingers pressed on the table decisively, and the old man said unceremoniously: It can be said that if you overestimate your ability, you will not only not be able to save him, but will also lose yourself.
The gray-blue eyes stared at Qingxiao steadily. The old man shook his head and said: You think the police are useless, so you become a lone hero to save people. Experts tell you that it is difficult to cure. You are a psychologist yourself. What do you think of yourself? God? No one is omnipotent. Qingxiao sanctified.
The old man patted Qingxiao's back of his hand and slowed down his voice: It is not a shame to be unable to do it because of insufficient ability. It is not a shame. Just work hard to solve Qingxiao. Don't force yourself too tightly. You need time and help. You also need patience and forgiveness for yourself and those you want to save.
Did I overestimate myself? Qingxiao murmured, and there was a little more demand for help in his eyes when he looked at Eisenberg. Professor, I...
Eisenberg smiled with satisfaction and said: Come on, kid, tell me all the details. If you can trust an old man's opinion, maybe I can help you.
********************
Yu was lying on the desk with difficulty, his legs tied tightly with tape were very uncomfortable, he supported his body with his hands, looked up at the clear sky and white clouds outside the window, there were children running happily and couples snuggling happily
There is also his favorite person outside, who is working hard for life, hoping that one day he will join
How lucky he is, the person he loves the most, and the person he loves the most
And even more fortunately, this man is still by his side now
If a person's life has such a period of time, it is worthwhile. What he has to do is to continue this period as much as possible.
He looked at his tightly tied legs and clearly felt the powerlessness of his body being bound, but his soul was rising up
The constraints of the present are for the freedom of the future
One day he will walk out of the hut and walk upright to the sun with Qingxiao as if on that morning, they sat side by side on the slope and watched the sun rise
On that day, he could justify and say to Qingxiao: There is one thing I haven't told you, but now I can say it.
That's, I love you
He looked down at the calendar on the table. The cover of the calendar was written with Qingxiao's mobile phone number and his heart was slightly tingling. He pretended not to see it, and drew a red cross on today's page, indicating that he had experienced it today.
I don't know how many red crosses you have to draw, how many times you deny it before you can welcome that day
Or, is there really a day?
He gently rubbed his somewhat stiff legs, gathering strength bit by bit
********************
You hope he can recover from his former savage, the stubborn and strong man you love. Eisenberg stood up and walked to the rooftop to see his back. His white hair shining in the sunlight.
He is over 60 years old, but his body is still tall and there is no sign of hunchback. His hair has turned white and his snowy white hair makes him look more elegant, but it also reveals his age. The mentor is old. Kiyoko thinks a little sadly. He is not feeling guilty and he still hides some of the information, including that he subdues Ryusuke with drugs, and is still imprisoned.
After all, it takes courage to break his perfect image in the mind of the mentor. He really doesn't want to hurt the teacher who has a strong hope for him anymore.
The silence lasted for a while and the old man slowly turned around and said word by word: Have you ever thought that if there was no such day at all? If he could never be the same as before, would you still love him?
It was not that Qingxiao was shocked that he didn't know that there was this possibility, but he just refused to think about Eisenberg suddenly put the problem in front of him solemnly, and he couldn't help but feel scared.
He reached for the coffee cup and found that his fingers were trembling.
Eisenberg stared at him quietly, his eyes sharp, and shook his head, saying: Don't you know, right? My child, your hands are shaking. If you really love him, you shouldn't be unable to answer this question
Have you ever thought that in my eyes, you are very different from three years ago. You will escape from reality, you will escape from me, you give up your studies and join the underworld again, but I did not give up on you
I am still ready to help you at any time so that you can walk back to the right path because I love you, you are my beloved student
So what about you?
He reached out and gently pressed Kiyoko's hand holding the cup, Eisenberg whispered: Is it because he saved you that you are so obsessed with wanting him to recover? That's why you are so stubborn?
Is it just that the scene of you running away left a deep impression on you, so you feel that you have the responsibility to repair everything, just like you broke a vase, so you want to buy one exactly the same for compensation?
Looking straight into Kiyoko's eyes, Eisenberg asked almost forcibly: If you really like the original vase, you will cherish it and repair it instead of demanding it to restore it to its original state. But you are not
So do you really love him?
Are you sure that you will be able to save him at all costs, is it based on love or morality?
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