Chapter 1

I have received psychotherapy myself, so I know what depression means

My godmother's psychological counselor friend was the one who treated me. In order to take care of my feelings, my godmother did not say that she had treated me, but said that she had brought me with her.

It's been a long time, it turns out that the psychological counselor has contacted my godmother and mother

I understand that she is a friend of her godmother. If she understands her mother, I don’t know why.

However, through this psychological counselor, I learned about several common psychological diseases.

Regarding depression, I know that common characteristics of patients are bad mood and unhappy in life. They also maintain depression for a long time. From the beginning, they are depressed, but when they are severe, they may be heartbroken, pessimistic, or even despair.

What makes me most nervous is that depression may cause patients to commit suicide

I don't know much about depression, but I know deeply that if a person suffers from depression, the situation will be no longer optimistic

Why, I don’t care enough for my mother, why do I use games to help her and spend more time with her? She still suffers from depression

No, she doesn't, she just tends to be depressed. There are many things I can do. I want to work hard to change my current state.

Li Lin, I won't let you have something wrong with Li Lun, I won't let you be hurt, no matter where the damage comes from

I asked for a contact information from my godmother. After all, I came into contact with her when I was about nine years old. Now my impression of her is very blurred. I only know that she is my godmother’s friend.

After asking for the phone number, I called her first, and then rushed back to Donghe City on the weekend and went to her office.

I haven't seen her for many years. The last time I saw her, I was not much more relaxed than now.

But I don’t want to recall the past now, I just want to restore my mother to health as soon as possible.

I came to her office. This was communicated on the phone before, but when I saw her, I was a little uncertain. I didn't know if it was because of my poor memory or her changes. It seemed that she was very strange.

Later, when I started chatting with my godmother, my godmother told me that Hong Yueting actually had plastic surgery, so her appearance changed a bit, which is normal for me to remember.

After chatting with her, she didn't seem to find it was me, but in order not to get involved in the future, I took the initiative to say that I had received her treatment before. She looked at me in surprise

Have you relapsed?

I don't, I'm fine, I replied helplessly

Then what did you come? You can see that she was surprised at all, and she didn't do much expression management.

I told her about my godmother’s introduction, and then told her that the woman my godmother asked her to communicate with was my mother, and the person who tended to be depression was my mother. I want to help her, I want to protect her.

She nodded that's great. So, your mother is just a tendency to depression, not that she has already suffered from depression. It's very important at this time. The company of her family is a better guide.

She paused and added that in fact, at this time, I don’t recommend taking her treatment directly. She shouldn’t realize that her mentality is already in a not-so-healthy state. If you take her treatment, she may tear her self-protection, which may not be a good thing for her psychological recovery.

I'm a little lucky to come and ask first

Then did you tell her when you communicated with her that she already had a tendency to be depressed? I asked hurriedly

No, first of all, Wanqing called me and said that a friend had a bad condition recently and asked me to do a test for her. I asked her the corresponding questions in a questionnaire at that time, but I didn't tell you my mother. In addition, our profession is quite special. If you can introduce the corresponding situation to others in a more peaceful way, you won't tell me directly that you have a mental illness.

She said slowly

I was relieved and asked her a lot of questions about depression, and she also answered them one by one.

After that, she told me carefully not to tell your mother about this. In addition, we will not tell the psychological conditions of others except me in most cases, but the counselor also wants more people to maintain mental health. So this time I told you that my godmother also hopes that she can pay attention to the people she cares about, that is, your mother. In addition, the tendency of depression is not very serious. As long as there is reasonable guidance, you can return to normal. You don’t have to be too nervous.

After listening, I came up with an idea, and she smiled: I didn't expect you to be quite smart, this is a good idea

Then, I made an agreement with her and conducted reasonable guidance with my mother in this way

After a long chat, I took a bus back to Lin County alone.

I was already very tired when I went back, but when I saw my mother, I felt a little relieved.

After returning to Lin County, I decided to start implementing my plan

It was another small exam. In fact, there were so many high school exams that made people feel that they only had the answers except for the exam. I didn’t think anything was wrong now, but I still took the exam seriously. But maybe this time I had a lot of concerns and my scores dropped a lot. The teacher also talked to me. When my mother saw my grades

I felt that she wanted to sigh but held back again, and wanted to blame me for a few words but couldn't say anything.

I guess she also saw that I had worked hard. At this time, I told my mother that I was under a lot of pressure and felt very annoyed.

Under my deliberate guidance, my mother began to think that I needed psychological counseling.

Mom, when you talk about psychological counseling, aren’t godmother a friend who knows psychological counseling? I said in a surprise tone

Yes, I remember Wanqing does know a psychological counselor, maybe we can go to her for a question

Then, naturally, I contacted Hong Yueting, who had already discussed with me before.

No accident happened, we agreed to go to Hong Yueting on the weekend, hoping that she could provide psychological counseling for me, and I hope that this psychological counselor can help my mother get out of the depression haze

When I saw this smiling and generous psychological counselor, I still pretended not to know her. Although I had seen her before, I had made plans with her recently.

Hello, I am Lin Wanqing's friend, my name is Hong Yueting, I am a psychological counselor. Her pleasant voice sounds very comfortable.

Hello, my name is Li Ling, one with the word "女" and the word "女" is, but because this word is not easy to recognize, I usually ask others to call me Li Lin.

Mom also replied politely with a smile.

Yes, my mother's real name is Li Le. When I was in the hospital before, the criminal asked where Li Shu was. At that time, although I felt that the criminal was not very educated, I was more convinced that my mother's name was not easy to recognize. However, she didn't use this name very much, usually Li Lin's

My mother turned to me, but said to Hong Yueting: This is my son. He has been under a lot of psychological pressure recently. I brought him to do tutoring. I hope Teacher Hong can help me.

I'm nodding beside me

Then Hong Yueting let us sit opposite her, asking us questions while recording

After asking a lot of questions, she definitely said: Indeed, I can feel that he is indeed under a lot of pressure

What should I do? After hearing this, my mother asked anxiously

This is nothing. I can take time to chat with him more, but this also requires Ms. Li's cooperation.

Cooperate, how do I cooperate? Mom is a little strange

That's right, because it's psychological counseling, I hope he can be in an environment that is more accustomed to natural conditions. What I need Ms. Li to do is that when I do psychological counseling with him, you are also on the side. This will make the psychological counseling better and can restore his psychology to normal more quickly.

Hong Yueting slowly stated on the side

Seeing her striking appearance, I really think I have a mental illness.

But how to say it, this psychological counselor is also very good at acting. When I saw her today, she didn't reveal anything. She also said it seriously when she introduced my situation to her mother.

But this is great. I am receiving tutoring, but in fact my mother is receiving tutoring. I feel that Dr. Hong has a good idea, too.

Although I don't know what my mother thinks of her, I still believe in Dr. Hong.

Later, I confirmed the time and number of times. Because considering that I was a hard-working student who was studying at Gao Fu, Hong Yueting proposed to take half a day on the weekend to go directly to Lin County to provide psychological counseling for me.

I was a little surprised, this shouldn't be the case, but then I thought, my godmother trusted her so much, and she was willing to do this because she had a good relationship with her godmother.

So my mother thanked me again and told me a lot, so she discussed seeing me on the weekend

On the way back, I comforted my mother. I was fine. Although I could see that she was a little worried, I should trust Dr. Hong more, so she was confident about my psychological counseling in the future, and I was also full of expectations for my mother's psychological recovery.

Suddenly I thought of something funny. My mother thought she was taking me to do psychological counseling. In fact, I took her to see the doctor. I couldn't help but admire the idea I had.

Then I thought about it and it was a bit strange. Didn’t the psychological counselor Hong Yueting talk to her mother before? Why didn’t her mother notice it today? There are other reasons.

I was a little curious and asked Hong Yueting, because I used my job to communicate with my mother, so my mother didn't know either.

However, after chatting with her face to face today and asking questions, Hong Yueting told me that my mother does have a tendency to be depressed and is still developing in a bad direction.

I'm worried, and I'm a little lucky to find out at this time

No, when I was nine years old, my mother probably met this doctor. Why didn't she remember this doctor? Then I thought, it was normal for me to have no impression of my mother.

Later, my godmother told me that Hong Yueting had plastic surgery before, so it was normal for people who didn't know each other before.

Maybe my mother and I were thinking that this doctor could help each other, so I felt less heavy. I was talking and laughing along the way, but I returned to my home in Lin County soon.

She also took out her cell phone and said she wanted to play with me. I saw that she was very interested. Although I was not very interested in games, I still got up late and used Li Bai to massacre the opposite side. I even got a five-kill in the opposite jungle area. My mother kept exclaiming next to me. Awesome! Awesome!

Seeing her admire me so much, I felt secretly happy in my heart when I watched her play games as happy as an ordinary girl. Flowers bloomed in my heart

Chiu Xixi, what are you laughing at? She asked me

Nothing, I calmed down and replied calmly

Playing games is so great, but you only know how to play games, but you don’t know how to spend time studying, just watch the game!

She also joked with me at this time, thinking that maybe I was under such pressure, so I could let go

However, after only one game, I was about to continue reading. Although I knew someone had sent me QQ and WeChat messages, I was too lazy to go back

After returning to my bedroom, I took out the book and placed it on the desk, but I couldn't help but think about it. What else can I do about my mother's mental health? Can I do better? Is there any shortcomings I haven't noticed?

The next time was to have normal classes every week and receive psychological counseling on weekends. In fact, I watched Dr. Hong treat my mother because the psychological counselor asked her more questions than I asked me, and my mother also felt something was wrong. However, this psychological counselor named Hong explained that her mother also accepted this way of tutoring me.

But to be honest, I really want to communicate with professionals in this kind of professional, and after communicating with them, my state has changed significantly. I can feel that although I still feel that I am under a lot of pressure, I feel that I can face this pressure correctly, and I can face it and think about how to solve the current dilemma.

The result is gratifying

Today is December 10th, and I have received psychological counseling several times. I specifically asked the psychological counselor about my mother. She said that she has developed in a good direction now, but she still needs to be exposed to positive things and avoid being alone.

This is simple. After I got home, I found an excuse to move to my mother's room to review. I sniff the fragrance of the woman in her room. Although it is sometimes distracting, it generally makes me feel very at ease and allows me to review peacefully.

Even, I discussed with my mother not to go to evening self-study and would go home as long as the get out of class was over in the afternoon. However, my mother disagreed. She believed that reading books by herself alone was different from reading books by a group of people, and she often gave lectures at night.

In addition, my results improved a little bit in December's quiz

The science comprehensive science has returned to normal levels, and the English language is barely 110. It’s not bad in the class. Those who are good at distances are probably 20 or 30 points. There is no way. Lin County No. 1 Middle School is a school like this. My level is here. As long as I have a degree, I will be a person at the end of the crane.

However, this test barely reached 620 points, which is a barely enough. But if I continue to adjust later, I still have the chance to have the top universities from now on. After this period of tutoring, I have been thinking about how to do better, rather than thinking that if my condition declines, I will not have the opportunity to compete with those top schools.

I heard a news today that the composition primary election I participated in before was over. The three of our class participated in the competition, Huang Xu and I entered the semi-finals, and the other one had no chance. However, I was somewhat helpless. I actually didn't want to participate. I hope to spend more time with my mother. If I had more time, I would like to study and read books. I could use it for more time to play games.

Anyway, I'm not very concerned about such a thing as showing up in public

However, since the teacher asked, Huang Xu and I continued to write as required and as new requirements.

This time the teacher's requirements were higher. I changed it two or three times in a row, and the teacher barely passed it for me, and said that I was not attentive enough

It's really good. After all, the teacher, I directly saw that I was not attentive enough.

When I was telling me the composition, Huang Xu also listened. Then I noticed that this girl is also a relatively kawaii type. Her hair is tied into a short ponytail and her back is on her back. She is wearing a light yellow sweater, which reminds me of the name of a comic I had read before, "Anyway, it's very cute". Seeing her being obedient and listening to the teacher scolding me, I was a little embarrassed.

Occasionally, when I look at her, I smiled at her. This girl seemed a little flattered. It was true that the person I was closer to in our class was the people around me, especially my deskmate, who really didn't know much about other people and didn't have enough contact.

After listening to the teacher's reprimand, I went back to continue to do the questions

After I got home, I still reported to my mother about the composition competition. My mother was very pleased. I don’t know what happened. Things I didn’t care much about. She paid more attention to, so she asked me to do my best.

OK, I told myself in my heart that since my mother made the request, I would do it well, but I would not change it if I had submitted it. If I could make it to the finals, I would perform well.

As usual, I spoke to my father on the phone. When I heard his calm tone, I always felt very strange. I was sure that he cared about me, but I didn't know why I always felt awkward, but I didn't think too much.

But in fact, I have a deep gap with him. I think I have never accepted the divorce from his mother since before. Although they did a good job of keeping confidentiality, maybe only the two of them knew that they had divorced, but this incident has really had a great impact on me. This incident has caused too much trauma to my mother. Rather than saying that I am dissatisfied with my father and my mother didn't tell me, it would be better to say that I saw my father sorry for my mother. I am very dissatisfied with my father's actions.

In this kind of thing, my position is really embarrassing. Both of them are my closest elders. I can't say my opinions without any worries. Moreover, in what they know, I already know that they have divorced.

So, I have to cooperate with them and pretend that I don’t know they are divorced. It’s so fucking humor!

Xixi, I feel like you are in a bad mood? Did you encounter something unpleasant? He asked on the other end of the phone

No, I'm fine, but the pressure is a bit heavy

Should I tell him what my mother almost got depressed? Is it necessary? Maybe there is no need. There is no need to let him disturb his mother's normal life again. There is no need to let him bring sadness and tears in his mother's life again.

Is there anything I want to buy? Dad can buy it for you or transfer money to you

No, no, I don't need anything special recently, I quickly refused, I really don't need anything, and when I was with my mother, I felt very satisfied

After chatting for a few more words, he said that he would cut off the phone if he had something to deal with.

Not long after that, I sent a text message to the bank to receive a transfer of 10,000 yuan, but in the end I still transferred it.

What happened between them? I asked this question more than once and still torture me

Think rationally, does this matter affect my learning status?

I can't draw conclusions, but it has some influence. How many people can learn normally when their parents divorce. Anyway, I'm not this kind of person

After reading the book, I fell asleep again

However, although I have participated in a lot of things between my father and mother, I don’t understand much about it or understand it.

However, it may be destined to have reached this point now. My father is that kind of father, and my mother is that kind of mother.