Chapter 3

This is the story

I listened to my father and slowly told the whole story. I really want to understand what I experienced. What made my father look stable, but it was so unpredictable.

At that time, just after 2000, everyone was very happy about entering the new century. So did I. At that time, our school was one of the very few schools that opened a law major. I was very glad that I chose the law major and was very proud of my achievements today.

He looked at me

Continue: But when I just graduated, I had nothing and ran into a wall. At that time, fortunately, my mother was with me, otherwise I might have been many years later.

When I graduated, I was full of passion and thought about passing the legal exam. I was a very powerful person. I wanted to use my legal knowledge to show my skills. But what I saw and encountered were like slaps on my face. When I was in college, I performed very well. I was even very proud at that time. I felt that I could do everything. So your mother asked me to go back to Donghe City with her. I disagree. I think I should display my talents in a larger place.

But in the end, she convinced me. Maybe it wasn't her who convinced me, but the two people who loved each other were not willing to separate from each other at that time. I didn't want to leave her. Junxi. Your mother is the woman I love most in my life, and now she is also

He noticed my eyes widened

But, there are some things that you don’t like or don’t like. You can decide if you love or don’t love. Maybe you will understand in the future.

Let’s talk about graduation. After I returned to Donghe, I realized that judicial practice was very different from what I had imagined. It is not too much to say that the laws were empty at that time. At that time, the so-called legal institutions were all a huge network, a network of relationships. As long as our so-called lawyers still crawled on it, they would have to be hunted by spiders like mosquitoes on it. I had no choice. I was unwilling to be an exam in the system to be a small clerk for the rest of my life. In addition, I also had survival and economic pressure at that time, and I could only be a lawyer. If I could not be a lawyer, I would not be able to survive no matter what I chose, and I was not willing to choose other industries by myself. So, even if this website was terrifying, I had to go in.

At that time, I had just graduated, had no connections, no source of cases, and I didn't know anyone in the public security, procuratorate and court. In the end, it was your mother who told you in front of your grandfather for a long time. With your grandfather's introduction, I finally got into a law firm. However, I just entered a law firm, and no one took me in it. I don't know if your grandfather could make things difficult for me or if he didn't have enough face. When I first entered, my master didn't teach me. When I was discussing the case with my colleagues, I said to me Jianxun, go out and go out., This is the situation I faced at the beginning. At that time, I brought tea, poured water, cleaned up, and thought about writing various legal documents by myself. I tried my best to please them, and they all squeezed me out of the door, but I still insisted on reading the files repeatedly, and read the files as many as I had. I also used the meager salary to buy books, buy legal books, buy lawyers' debate skills, participate in speech competitions, and participate in debate competitions. Maybe they really saw my efforts and my abilities, so I finally asked me to take charge of the records occasionally.

Junxi, I really don't want my children to experience these

At this time, I looked at his eyes. His eyes were full of firmness and calmness. It was the vicissitudes of a middle-aged man for twenty years, the precipitation and the love of a father for his children. Why do people like his father separate from his mother? I suddenly had more patience to listen to it.

When I listened to his slowly telling, I felt that every step my father took was not easy at that time. I could only admire him for being able to reach this point. I had no confidence to do that.

There is a difference between me and my father. He is a rational person, but I seem to be emotional. He is a social awesome person, but I have social phobia.

In my heart, he is a very outstanding person, a much better person than me

Now it seems that he has experienced many ups and downs and encountered many setbacks. Maybe he has experienced much crueler than what I have heard, maybe he said he has seen much more realistic than what I know

But what does this have to do with him being separated from his mother?

I discovered the change in my mind. I am just curious now. I don’t have the hysterical idea of ​​asking for justice for my mother at the beginning.

Just simple curiosity, yes, I don't know my father enough

If he doesn't tell me these things, I'll never know them

Although he is an open-minded parent and is willing to communicate with me in everything, today I realized that the content of my communication with him was filtered by him, and I can accept such an arrangement

But I was also a little puzzled. Why did my father, who carried many things like this, separate from his mother?

You should know that he paused, looked at me, and then continued: You were at your godmother's house before you were four years old.

At that time, I was studying hard every day, looking for cases, and even doing a lot of things that I felt were not consistent with my own principles, but what I had always done by myself was meaningful and valuable, and I was very glad that your mother was by my side. She was the best woman in the world and had a very cute son. We were all satisfied with life and felt very happy.

Until, until that short time, I happened to have a divorce case for the relative of the director of the law firm. The eldest sister was very nice and didn't keep anything. Maybe she trusted me more, and even told me that her current child was not her ex-husband at all, but now her ex-husband still bears child support every month, and her words were full of mockery of her ex-husband.

At the end of the case, the elder sister invited me to dinner. At the dinner table, I instilled a lot of strange statements in me. Of course, I didn't want to listen to it, but I was a little lucky. I listened a little bit to what she said, otherwise I might not be able to find you in my life.

I vaguely understand something

After I took the case, when I went home to play with Xiaofan, I noticed that he had single eyelids, but I didn't pay much attention. After checking the information later, I realized that Xiaofan was not my son

(Little Fan refers to Ye Yifan)

Of course it's not my son. My son has been reported to the wrong person. He said it with a wry smile, but I didn't know at that time.

After I privately confirmed that Xiaofan was not my son, I was in pain and worked hard outside. As a result, my son was not his biological son, so I felt extremely distressed. At that time, my reason told me that I should believe in your mother. At that time, she was still very considerate. After finishing her own affairs, she would go home to cook early, very considerate and gentle. However, at that time, I might be under great pressure and forgot how to communicate, so I said a lot of hurtful words.

I know that if a person loses his mind, he will make mistakes

That's how my father was at that time

After all, I told your mother about the unpleasant way. I remember that was the time when I saw your mother cry the most in my life. After giving birth to you, your mother got sick and couldn't breastfeed. She was very distressed and depressed. She cried many times, but it was not as serious as that time. She said I didn't believe her. She said she would never do anything that would be sorry to me in her life.

What happened later? I finally said something

Later, I said more annoying words. At that time, she must be very wronged. Thinking about it, this kind of thing is so inexplicable, but it happened to us, so she began to ignore me.

I felt bad either. On the one hand, I wanted to believe her, but when things were in front of me, it was difficult for me to convince myself to believe her, so I made a mistake.

At that time, there was a special criminal case. I was a lawyer for not long, so I could only be considered a young lawyer who had just started. In the past few years, I showed myself, and with your grandfather's relationship, some cases came from that moment. A criminal case came. A woman was suspected of drug crime. Xixi, you may not have that concept, but I will introduce to you that drug crime has always been a serious crime in our country. As long as the quantity and weight reach a certain level, drugs such as transportation, manufacturing, and trafficking may be a death penalty or life imprisonment.

He took a sip of tea and moistened his throat

This is a particularly serious criminal case. In addition, the defense fee for that case is also very good. I remember it very clearly. It was 1.2 million yuan. It was already an astronomical figure in the past few years. I originally thought it was impossible for me to handle it, but I don’t know why, the family of the suspect knew that your grandfather knew that this way would be useful because, when we saw her case, we all knew that it was basically the death penalty, and there was no other possibility at all.

Then after I took over that case, I really wanted to save the client from the death penalty or a better result. Based on this extremely utilitarian experience, I continued to make mistakes. According to the provisions of the Criminal Law, women during pregnancy will not be sentenced to death.

Hearing this, I stared at him with wide eyes

I probably understand what he means, and what he means by making a mistake

He was a little heavy to his voice. You are right. While receiving this person, I found a relationship and sent the staff of the detention center at that time, making her pregnant.

I was stunned on the spot. It turned out that the mistake my father said was such a mistake.

But I don't know what to say or evaluate it. In his position, if he knows it, his wife may have betrayed him and what choice would he make when he takes over a particularly important commission?

I certainly wouldn't make that choice, but I can't put myself into my father's perspective to think about this and make a choice

He was stunned when he saw me

A little smile, then said: The female suspect was indeed exempted from the death penalty later, and she was also exempted from the sentence during the life imprisonment process. At that time, there were too many loopholes in the criminal law to find, and there were few regulations on reducing sentences when the sentence was sentenced, that is, the sentence could be reduced.

That woman was under Wang Wenhan's group, she was considered a relative of Wang Wenhan. It was also through that case. I handled many cases in Wang Wenhan's hands. Of course, in this process, I avoided myself from falling into the vortex of his illegality, and also helped him avoid many legal risks.

After the case was handled, I probably got a million yuan. From that case, I was considered independent. Whether it was a partner or a director in the law firm, there was nothing to teach me. As for the source of the case, I knew and the people I made friends with could provide me with sufficient cases. In addition, although I was a little resistant, your grandfather's relationship did help me a lot. In that era, most of the people in the public security bureau of the courts and procuratorates were transferred to the army. Therefore, many judges and prosecutors were more or less supporting me based on your grandfather's relationship, and your grandfather was also in an important position in the government.

The first time I heard my father say so much, something I had almost never come into contact with and almost couldn't understand. Most of the things I heard today were high-energy, impacting me in a wave of waves, and my worldview was constantly impacted and refreshed. So after listening to him talk about these, I was in a ignorant state

I never deny that your mother has helped me a lot. In addition to life, she has also helped me a lot in her job as a lawyer. The reason is that your grandfather is actually

He drank some tea and continued to replenish: Not long after, I became the top ten lawyers in Donglin City. Of course, at that time I also thought about Xiaofan's problem repeatedly, and finally thought about whether the hospital was holding the wrong person. Then, it took a while before I found you and took you back

When I picked you up, I felt very guilty. I hated myself for blaming your mother and tried hard to do everything and let her forgive me. But maybe she was really hurt by me before, so she kept planting a barrier in her heart

Fortunately, after you came back, your mother's focus was on you, so at that time I understood how to restore my relationship with your mother. You are the best link between us. We devoted all our efforts to you. This is the same. Your mother finally forgives me.

I heard him sigh

However, some errors have already occurred and cannot be corrected

Why? I'm very puzzled. Didn't my mother forgive him?

During that time, although I saved the female criminal from the death penalty, she gave birth to a child, so she was your sister

I'm not that surprised anymore, maybe I'm used to being surprised

After she was born, I often took care of her. After all, it was my own bloodline. I have been paying attention to her situation. She is four or five years younger than you. She is now in the first year of junior high school and is very lively. Sometimes I think, if I were given a chance to make a new choice, what choice would I make, but there was no such opportunity. The most important thing is that the child is innocent and I have no choice. Or, no matter how I choose, I will never give up on the child.

Then take her back

He shook his head

Your mother actually later learned which sister you existed. Because she had no choice, she agreed. She just had a cold war with me for a long time, but after a long time, she still let go of this matter.

The key is, in addition to this matter, before I took you back, I also accepted the pursuit of a female classmate from the Provincial Public Security Department. She was my college classmate. Her father belonged to the Ministry of Public Security, so she went to the Public Security Department of Jiangnan Province after graduating from university. She even knew that I was married.

I know that my father was an extremely excellent person when he was in college. It is normal for one or two people to remember him.

But what does it mean to accept pursuit

He saw my doubts, so he didn't wait for me to ask, and then said that my classmate's surname was Deng and his name was Deng Jia. I was very distressed and painful at that time. I was captured by her tenderness. Then, she and I also had a child, four or five years younger than you, and now I am in the first year of junior high school in the provincial capital.

I feel that nothing can be more surprised now, because the bloodiest things happen to me one by one, so no matter how weird things are, I can't touch me.

Why? I just asked lightly

Xixi, I have always wanted you to have enough things. In this way, after you have come into contact with everything and learn enough information, you can make the choice you want most. In this way, your choice is the choice that you will not regret. This is also the state I have always wanted. The state of communication with you equally, and whether you have regrets or not is my original intention. Moreover, I don’t want my own mistakes to affect your life, and I don’t want the relationship between my mother and you to make you feel very painful. This is not what we want, nor is it what we hope, so we didn’t tell you if we divorced.

Then why didn’t you divorce before, but now you want to divorce?

Because your mother couldn't accept it, she used to know that when I was handling a criminal case, she helped the female suspect get pregnant. At that time, she quarreled with me for a long time, but it was finally over. However, Deng Jia, Deng Jia is an extremely persistent person. She has been waiting for my divorce with your mother. I have never responded to her expectations positively and has always been hiding well. But your mother knew about it last year, so my mother and I can say that they have completely broken up since last year.

I really don't know what to say at this time. Mom is a poor person, father, I don't want to evaluate it anymore

Is he a victim? I don't know

The hateful thing may be that hospital. Without that hospital, our family might not have been here today.

I sorted out my own ideas, and this should be the case. My father thought my mother had cheated, and then he had sex with the woman when he took over the criminal case and made her pregnant

At the same time, I also accepted the pursuit of my college classmates and had a child with my college classmates.

Then my college classmate kept thinking about marrying her father, and finally let her mother know about this, so her mother and her father completely broke up.

Although my father didn't add it, I can imagine that my father might not want to divorce, because he told me more than once that the woman he loved the most was his mother

But things have happened, things have happened in the past and cannot be saved

The question is what should I do now and what should I do to help mothers who are already depressed

When my father was talking to me these words, he refused to answer several calls. Sometimes, my father felt very twisted. I think he valued his family very much, but he was doing things that hurt the family.

Later, I asked him some questions I had always wanted to ask, and after getting the answer, I no longer wanted to ask more questions.

Because he was going to the bathroom, he asked me to pay with my mobile phone first

Then after he went to the bathroom, he went to see a psychologist with me. He actually went to see the person involved and took me to see the psychologist by the way.

I asked: Are you still looking for my mother?

Let's talk about it, wait until the person involved has finished meeting, and I can hear some freedom from his tone

So, I took his cell phone to pay

Curiously, he looked through his WeChat records. After a brief look, dozens of people were sending messages, but he did not reply

One of them is Thank you Director Chen

I suddenly became curious and clicked in to take a look

It was a conversation between a father and a girl. The reason why I decided that it was a girl was that the girl was that the notes were intern lawyer Qin Jiajia

After a rough look at the conversation, it was probably because the girl went out for social events last night and drank too much. She had no female friends around her and was worried that others would send her home, so she asked her father to pick her up.

My father replied on WeChat: Then I will arrange for the administrative director in the office to come and pick you up.

Then the next message from that girl is that I'm safe home

The last one is the one I saw at the beginning. Thank you Director Chen

I quit, changed the message to an unread state, and then went to pay and waited for my father

I don't quite understand my father, even though he always looks like he wants me to understand him

What does he want me to know about him? Seeing these chat records, I can really see that he is a decent person. Even if he has such temptation, he can push him far away in a reasonable way.

He is a complicated person

I searched the Red Circle while I was waiting

The main reason for the Red Circle Institute is the top law firm in a certain place. I think the main reason why my father's law firm can become a Red Circle Institute is that his father is a top lawyer like his father.

There are many curious stories about him, or some intriguing scandals between men and women, but I am not interested in it anymore

I only care about the woman who had been sobbing in front of me before watching the cigarette butts burning slowly while sobbing in front of me.