Sister Juan is all about me.
For me at that time, there were only two parts of life: study and sister Juan every day.
Sister Juan is a competent guardian. Whenever I am lazy or tired, she will stand up to correct my behavior.
In this regard, she still plays the role of the orange color of her mother and never gives up on me.
For me, the relationship with Sister Juan is better than everything, and for Sister Juan, my grades are better than everything.
Gradually, I became accustomed to these two-point and one-line days. Although my interpersonal relationships have become very single, and there are almost few friends among my peers who can speak, I don’t feel regretful at all, because I have Sister Juan, who is my sunshine, the light that illuminates the road ahead.
The rest of the days were quickly turned off the calendar.
April passed quickly, and in the blink of an eye, it was already summer, and it was also the day for me to usher in the decisive battle.
As the days of exams are getting closer, my peers around me are becoming more nervous.
Even my high school class teacher, who had always had a stern face, began to stand on the podium, squirting the numbers on the countdown, and preaching the importance of the last moment to the students.
Unfortunately, most of the students below didn't raise their heads and wouldn't watch him speak at all, and I was one of them who buried my head low.
You must remember!This is the best opportunity for you to change your destiny in your life!For many of you, this is the only opportunity!
After shouting this, the head teacher finally walked out of the classroom, and the tense atmosphere eased.
But after all, it has reached the last month before the college entrance examination, and most students are still spontaneously keeping the urgency to seize the final sprint.
But these urgent people do not include my existence.
Looking back afterwards, I was really a very strange person at that time.
All I was thinking about was how to spend the most unforgettable night in my life with Sister Juan after the college entrance examination. During those days, I didn’t know what was written in the textbooks in my hand.
But my changes can't be hidden from Sister Juan's eyes.
Xiaoyu, come here, I want to talk to you.
It was a weekend night, and there were still only three people sitting at the dining table. When the supper was about to end, Sister Juan suddenly called me.
What's the matter, mom?
Yingying looked curious on the side, and I was also a little puzzled.
Logically speaking, Yingying is also present now, and Sister Juan wants to talk to me, it is definitely not the private matters between us.
Don't ask, go back to your room after dinner, be obedient.
Yingying looked at Sister Juan, then looked at me, and finally nodded obediently and left the dining table.
Sister Juan was still sitting there. The bowls and chopsticks in front of her had already been packed up, and she was waiting for me to finish eating.
Sister Juan, let’s go back to the room and talk...
I probably realized what kind of topic it was and proposed to transfer the venue of the conversation.
No, let's talk here.Xiaoyu, don’t even think about running away, I must explain it to you clearly.
Sister Juan, aren’t you afraid of being heard by Yingying?
When I said this, I lowered my voice, but Sister Juan was still unmoved and even became even more excited.
So what happened to hear it?Don’t think about changing the topic, I must tell you about this matter now!
I sighed. If even Yingying could not divert Sister Juan's attention and made her worry, it would only prove that the development of things had really broken through Sister Juan's bottom line and made her desperate.
Sister Juan put a piece of paper on the table.
You know what this is, right?
Well, I know.
I nodded honestly, and after seeing the printed paper, the last trace of luck in my heart disappeared.
OK, since you know, you should also understand what I am going to say to you.Xiaoyu, tell me how many of the titles you took this mock exam.
No. 2 in the class and 21st.
What was your last exam?
No. 4 in the class, age... I can't remember it.
You can't remember it, right?Then let me tell you, you were ranked 89th last time, and your class’s overall grades were relatively good, so you could get below 1.
I scratched my head and said: Sister Juan, you remember it better than me.
Of course I remember it clearly than you!Because you haven't put your attention into your studies for so many days, it doesn't matter to you how much you score or how many rankings you are, right?
Sister Juan's voice rose, and she almost screamed, and she yelled at me.
I knew things were even worse than I thought, so I corrected my attitude and lowered my head.
Xiaoyu, how could you become like this...
Tears were already in Sister Juan's eyes, and the transcript was pressed under her palm, and the edges of the transcript had been rolled up. She must have read it many times before she could make the paper she sent yesterday look like this.
From the beginning, Sister Juan has paid more attention to my grades than me.
When the countdown to the college entrance examination entered one day, I had no feelings for myself, but Sister Juan was nervous and insomnia because of this. The next day, I even got up and made breakfast for her.
Sister Juan attaches great importance to my achievements. She hopes that I can seize this opportunity she has lost and reach a higher level.
For this, everything she did was worth it, and she was willing to pay everything for it.
This also includes her body.
But I had a completely different view of that exam.
In my opinion, hard work to study and achieve better grades is just a way for me to improve my attitude towards me. I used to work hard and got good grades, so Sister Juan smiled happily.
I also tasted the sweetness because of this. The biggest turning point in the relationship between Sister Juan and me was that it happened after my grades improved significantly.
But now, it’s a little different... The confession in the bathroom made Sister Juan break the last window paper between me and me.
Our relationship has become unprecedentedly close. Sister Juan no longer regards her physical relationship with me as a reward for my hard work. She began to obey her inner desires and guard me like a real wife.
I have thought countless times that although Sister Juan and I have not yet broken through the last line, what is the difference between the newlywed couple when we spend time together every day and every day?I am very satisfied, and Sister Juan is also very satisfied.
For me, this sense of happiness for the newlyweds is fresh, and for Sister Juan, this happiness is something she has dreamed of for many years but has never been able to get.
Our two hearts are quickly approaching, which also makes us ignore some of the things that were once important.
And the result was bloody before us.
Sister Juan, this exam is quite difficult, and I just didn’t perform well, and I will wait for the next time...
I also wanted to make excuses, but when I looked up and saw Sister Juan's eyes, the alarm bell made a big deal in my heart.
Xiaoyu, you weren't like this before...
Sister Juan, I...
If your grades drop again, we will end it.My agreement with you is also good, and all other things that have been agreed upon will be invalid!
It's here, it's finally here.
I had already expected that Sister Juan would use this method to punish me, but when this moment came, I couldn't help but feel panic.
Sister Juan, would you please give me another chance?
But Sister Juan stopped me from continuing.
Xiaoyu, listen.
Sister Juan looked at me quietly. For the past two days, I have been wondering if I was wrong and if I harmed you.
Sister Juan is not like this. This is all my own reason, it is not your fault!
Maybe that's the case, but you will become like this now and I can't escape responsibility.I'm already dereliction of duty if I haven't made you better.
What Sister Juan said made me wonder how to refute it.
Xiaoyu, in your eyes, I have never been your mother, right?
I know, I always knew it.But I still want to educate you well and make you better like a mother... although, I have done something absolutely unforgivable.
Sister Juan…
Sister Juan’s self-blame makes me feel extremely distressed.
Let's just do it, Xiaoyu, let's separate for a while and let the other party think about it carefully.
After saying that, Sister Juan stood up and began to clean up the bowls and chopsticks on the table.
I sat at the table without moving.
Sister Juan is really separated from me.
Although we still live under the same roof, Sister Juan has completely returned to the attitude we had before the development of our relationship.
No, it's even colder than that.
Every morning when I wake up, I can still see Sister Juan busy.
But this experience has changed from happiness to pain. I have tasted the happiness of being with Sister Juan. Because of this, suddenly cutting off the source of this happiness makes me even more bitter than when I didn’t dare to say my feelings before.
Time will not wait for anyone. When Sister Juan and I were in a cold war, the days of the exam were getting closer.
I knew I had no choice, and now, there was only one way left before me.
I want to use my own achievements to prove to Sister Juan.
Time passed faster after that. In order to save more time for review, I gave up the opportunity to have breakfast at home, and I came back later and later in the evening.
I wake up earlier every morning than Sister Juan, and when I come back, no light at home was on.
I live a dark life, and I devote all my energy and time to review that I ignore, just for the result of that day.
And all my efforts were seen by Sister Juan.
The day before the exam, the school ended class early.
In fact, at this time, there will be no more courses to take. The atmosphere in the classroom is tense but disorderly, and many people are confused, not knowing what they will encounter tomorrow and what they will encounter in the future.
And I returned home with such an atmosphere.
This is the lights I have seen in my home for a long time.
I opened the door and saw two people sitting around the dining table.
Xiaoyu, you are back!
Sister Juan came over and took the initiative to take the backpack I was carrying.
This is……
Sister Juan’s enthusiasm even made me feel a little uncomfortable. I looked at the exquisite dishes on the dining table, Yingying, who was sitting behind the table with an expectant look on her face, and looked at Sister Juan who looked at me as gentle as water.
The exam is coming tomorrow, and you can finally come back early, so I will cook a few more dishes and let's have a meal together.
I walked to the dining table, pulled open the chair and sat down.
There were more than a dozen plates on the table, and each dish was something I liked to eat, and it was all emitting heat, and it was obviously just brought out.
The aroma of delicious food penetrated into my nose, making me greedy and greedy for a month, who had been with the crude food in the cafeteria every day and did not consider anything except filling my stomach.
But I didn't move my chopsticks, but looked at Sister Juan sitting opposite me.
Hurry, eat it quickly, otherwise it will be no good if it is cold.
I responded, picked up the chopsticks, and silently grabbed the food from the plate into my mouth.
I ate very fast and still maintain the pace of racing against time in school.
Seeing me burying my head and making rice, Sister Juan wanted to speak several times, but couldn't find the right time to insert it.
I've eaten it.
I put down my rice bowl and placed my chopsticks on the empty bowl.
Ah, don't you eat anything more?There are many more dishes...
I'm already full and there are too many dishes, so I can't finish it.
As I said, I stood up from the dining table, picked up my used dishes and chopsticks to the kitchen.
Ah, I'll just brush it there for a while.
Sister Juan's voice sounded behind me, but I washed the dishes and chopsticks by myself, then picked up my schoolbag and walked towards my room.
My door was knocked as I sat at my desk and put on my headphones to listen to English.
Please come in.
The door was pushed open, but the person standing outside the door was someone I didn't expect.
Sakura.
Brother, my mom washed some fruits, then I cut some and brought them to you.
Oh, I get it, you put it there.
Yingying put the fruit plate I held on the coffee table I designated, but did not turn around and leave.
I took off my headphones and looked at her.
What's wrong?
No, nothing... Brother, eat it quickly, otherwise it will not be delicious after it is stored for a long time.
I looked at Yingying, and was silent for a while. I put my headphones aside, then walked to her, picked up an apple that was worn with a toothpick and stuffed it into my mouth.
Yingying watched me eat the apple, but she still didn't leave.
Do you have anything to say to me?
Yingying's shoulders shook, and she lowered her head.
Brother... have you quarreled with my mom?
I was stunned for a moment, and I didn't expect to hear this from Yingying's mouth.
What did you say? Where did I quarrel with her...
But!You guys had a very good relationship before, and I was jealous of the good ones... But recently you two didn't say a word all day long.In the past, you would stay at home for dinner, but now I can’t see you all day long. It was the same when I was having dinner just now. Brother, you just kept eating and didn’t even look at us.
I sighed, walked to Yingying and placed my hand on top of her head.
This is an action I often do to Yingying, and every time I do this, I can calm Yingying's emotions.
Yingying, you're thinking too much.I'm not arguing with your mother, our relationship has always been pretty good.Recently, it’s just because I’m about to take the exam, your mother is a little nervous and I’m under a lot of pressure, so it makes you feel like you’re having a quarrel.In fact, there is no change between us.
Yes, nothing has changed.
I said against my will, without any flaws on my expression.
This month of depression has allowed me to completely cover up my feelings.
But Yingying shook my hand away.
Not so!Brother, you were not like this before!
Yingying's voice was filled with crying voice. She grabbed the clothes on my chest and cried to me: Brother, I'm watching it!You used to smile every time you touched my head, but now you don't have any expression on your face.My mother is the same. The most she does every day now is to sigh, and sometimes she sits at the bathroom door and stares blankly at the place where there is no one.You two are so weird, both of you are becoming so weird!
I sighed and looked at the crying Yingying, but didn't know how to comfort her.
Is that true? It turns out that in the eyes of the third person, we have become like this...
In fact, I also noticed the changes in Sister Juan. Sister Juan has long since become less alienated from me as I was at the beginning, but now I don’t know how to grasp the distance between me and her. Instead, I became the exclusion party, making Sister Juan try again and again and again, and finally became the current deadlock.
Yingying, you don’t have to worry too much.I said that this is all because of the exam. After the exam, everything will be over and will change back.
Yingying raised her tearful eyes and rubbed her face, looked at me, and asked: Is it true?
Well, really, I promise you.If I still do this then, then you come to me again and I will take the initiative to talk to your mother.
Yingying sniffed and stretched out a little finger: Pull the hook, one word is determined.
I smiled and said: How old are you, you still believe in this kind of childish thing.
I don’t care, I just want to pull the hook!
OK, let's pull the hook.
I had no choice but to stretch out a finger, hook Yingying's hand, and swayed back and forth twice as she moved.
Now... you can't regret it.
Well, I don't regret it, I said it from the beginning.
Yingying wiped off her tears. She looked at me and suddenly hugged me tightly, her face completely buried in my chest.
I hugged Yingying and gently patted her back with my hands.
Well, is Yingying already so tall?In my memory, Yingying has always been the thin and tiny when she first came to home.
But now, I found that Yingying's size was already close to my chin, and she was already a little taller than Sister Juan.
Yingying's hair was just ten centimeters away from me, and the fragrance emitted from her hair instantly reminded me of another thing.
What a familiar smell... I have smelled this smell on another person.
It's Sister Juan, and the fragrance on Yingying's body is almost exactly the same as Sister Juan.
And then I suddenly realized that Yingying's body was tightly attached to me.
I could feel the curves that had become concave and convex, even within reach.
Yingying, get up, stop acting cute.
I forced myself not to overlap the figures of Yingying and Sister Juan in front of me, and gently pushed her away.
Brother... Can I ask you something?
Yingying stood in front of me, lowered her head, and said in a thin voice like a mosquito.
What's up?
Didn’t you and my mother quarrel because of my affairs?
I was a little puzzled. The cold war between Sister Juan and me was entirely due to our own reasons. How could it be related to Yingying?
Yingying, what are you saying? How could I quarrel with your mother because of you?
Then...my mom hasn't told you about me?
Yingying's eyes touched me a little.
That was not the clear eyes that belonged to the child that I was familiar with. Yingying's eyes were another more complex emotion. I was a little familiar with it, but I couldn't find the source of that sense of familiarity.
No, your mother hasn't told me anything.
So Ah...
Yingying nodded, and before leaving my room, she asked another question.
Brother, if you get into college, will you go to another place to study?
I thought about it, but found that it was difficult for me to answer this question.
If it were put a month ago, I would have said no without hesitation.
Going to a university in another place means leaving Sister Juan. Although this small town in my hometown is not large, there are several good universities. I will definitely choose these schools and continue to live at home and live under the same roof as Sister Juan.
But now, I'm not sure what I want...
Maybe, maybe not.After all, there are good universities nearby, and I don’t particularly like the feeling of leaving home.It's too early to ask this now, and I don't know if I can pass the exam.
Yingying's expression became much brighter because of my ambiguous answer.
I see!Brother, you have to work hard!
Um.
I watched Yingying leave, but I still couldn't figure out what she was thinking.
But only one thing has taken root in my heart.
Yingying has grown up, she is no longer the little girl I always think.
Although she and I are still very close and still look unprepared to me, I have to start treating her as a opposite sex.
Speaking of which, although I told Sister Juan before that I would tell Yingying about our relationship, now it seems... Yingying really may not accept Ah.
I felt that Yingying really treated me as a relative.
And Sister Juan is undoubtedly Yingying’s dearest and most beloved person.
My relationship with Sister Juan is at least not yet public.
Sister Juan is a married man, and she is my stepmother. I am just a student, and I fall in love with my father's wife.
The relationship between us is undoubtedly a taboo. Once it is made public, it will inevitably be greatly hurt and implicated.
So, can I just continue like this? I thought to myself and smiled with a self-deprecating smile.
What are I worried about? My relationship with Sister Juan is almost unable to maintain.
In the past, I was still too selfish. I regarded Sister Juan as the spiritual pillar of my life. Therefore, I ignored Sister Juan’s feelings and acted according to my own wishes in various places.
Now it seems that I am actually shackles that bind Sister Juan.
Maybe I really should leave and go to a university far away from home so that Sister Juan can return to her normal life.
Just when my heart was in a mess, the door was knocked again.
Sakura?Come in directly, did you fall into something?
But the door to the room was not pushed open.
Xiaoyu...it's me.
I was stuck all over.
The person standing outside the door is Sister Juan.
For me at that time, there were only two parts of life: study and sister Juan every day.
Sister Juan is a competent guardian. Whenever I am lazy or tired, she will stand up to correct my behavior.
In this regard, she still plays the role of the orange color of her mother and never gives up on me.
For me, the relationship with Sister Juan is better than everything, and for Sister Juan, my grades are better than everything.
Gradually, I became accustomed to these two-point and one-line days. Although my interpersonal relationships have become very single, and there are almost few friends among my peers who can speak, I don’t feel regretful at all, because I have Sister Juan, who is my sunshine, the light that illuminates the road ahead.
The rest of the days were quickly turned off the calendar.
April passed quickly, and in the blink of an eye, it was already summer, and it was also the day for me to usher in the decisive battle.
As the days of exams are getting closer, my peers around me are becoming more nervous.
Even my high school class teacher, who had always had a stern face, began to stand on the podium, squirting the numbers on the countdown, and preaching the importance of the last moment to the students.
Unfortunately, most of the students below didn't raise their heads and wouldn't watch him speak at all, and I was one of them who buried my head low.
You must remember!This is the best opportunity for you to change your destiny in your life!For many of you, this is the only opportunity!
After shouting this, the head teacher finally walked out of the classroom, and the tense atmosphere eased.
But after all, it has reached the last month before the college entrance examination, and most students are still spontaneously keeping the urgency to seize the final sprint.
But these urgent people do not include my existence.
Looking back afterwards, I was really a very strange person at that time.
All I was thinking about was how to spend the most unforgettable night in my life with Sister Juan after the college entrance examination. During those days, I didn’t know what was written in the textbooks in my hand.
But my changes can't be hidden from Sister Juan's eyes.
Xiaoyu, come here, I want to talk to you.
It was a weekend night, and there were still only three people sitting at the dining table. When the supper was about to end, Sister Juan suddenly called me.
What's the matter, mom?
Yingying looked curious on the side, and I was also a little puzzled.
Logically speaking, Yingying is also present now, and Sister Juan wants to talk to me, it is definitely not the private matters between us.
Don't ask, go back to your room after dinner, be obedient.
Yingying looked at Sister Juan, then looked at me, and finally nodded obediently and left the dining table.
Sister Juan was still sitting there. The bowls and chopsticks in front of her had already been packed up, and she was waiting for me to finish eating.
Sister Juan, let’s go back to the room and talk...
I probably realized what kind of topic it was and proposed to transfer the venue of the conversation.
No, let's talk here.Xiaoyu, don’t even think about running away, I must explain it to you clearly.
Sister Juan, aren’t you afraid of being heard by Yingying?
When I said this, I lowered my voice, but Sister Juan was still unmoved and even became even more excited.
So what happened to hear it?Don’t think about changing the topic, I must tell you about this matter now!
I sighed. If even Yingying could not divert Sister Juan's attention and made her worry, it would only prove that the development of things had really broken through Sister Juan's bottom line and made her desperate.
Sister Juan put a piece of paper on the table.
You know what this is, right?
Well, I know.
I nodded honestly, and after seeing the printed paper, the last trace of luck in my heart disappeared.
OK, since you know, you should also understand what I am going to say to you.Xiaoyu, tell me how many of the titles you took this mock exam.
No. 2 in the class and 21st.
What was your last exam?
No. 4 in the class, age... I can't remember it.
You can't remember it, right?Then let me tell you, you were ranked 89th last time, and your class’s overall grades were relatively good, so you could get below 1.
I scratched my head and said: Sister Juan, you remember it better than me.
Of course I remember it clearly than you!Because you haven't put your attention into your studies for so many days, it doesn't matter to you how much you score or how many rankings you are, right?
Sister Juan's voice rose, and she almost screamed, and she yelled at me.
I knew things were even worse than I thought, so I corrected my attitude and lowered my head.
Xiaoyu, how could you become like this...
Tears were already in Sister Juan's eyes, and the transcript was pressed under her palm, and the edges of the transcript had been rolled up. She must have read it many times before she could make the paper she sent yesterday look like this.
From the beginning, Sister Juan has paid more attention to my grades than me.
When the countdown to the college entrance examination entered one day, I had no feelings for myself, but Sister Juan was nervous and insomnia because of this. The next day, I even got up and made breakfast for her.
Sister Juan attaches great importance to my achievements. She hopes that I can seize this opportunity she has lost and reach a higher level.
For this, everything she did was worth it, and she was willing to pay everything for it.
This also includes her body.
But I had a completely different view of that exam.
In my opinion, hard work to study and achieve better grades is just a way for me to improve my attitude towards me. I used to work hard and got good grades, so Sister Juan smiled happily.
I also tasted the sweetness because of this. The biggest turning point in the relationship between Sister Juan and me was that it happened after my grades improved significantly.
But now, it’s a little different... The confession in the bathroom made Sister Juan break the last window paper between me and me.
Our relationship has become unprecedentedly close. Sister Juan no longer regards her physical relationship with me as a reward for my hard work. She began to obey her inner desires and guard me like a real wife.
I have thought countless times that although Sister Juan and I have not yet broken through the last line, what is the difference between the newlywed couple when we spend time together every day and every day?I am very satisfied, and Sister Juan is also very satisfied.
For me, this sense of happiness for the newlyweds is fresh, and for Sister Juan, this happiness is something she has dreamed of for many years but has never been able to get.
Our two hearts are quickly approaching, which also makes us ignore some of the things that were once important.
And the result was bloody before us.
Sister Juan, this exam is quite difficult, and I just didn’t perform well, and I will wait for the next time...
I also wanted to make excuses, but when I looked up and saw Sister Juan's eyes, the alarm bell made a big deal in my heart.
Xiaoyu, you weren't like this before...
Sister Juan, I...
If your grades drop again, we will end it.My agreement with you is also good, and all other things that have been agreed upon will be invalid!
It's here, it's finally here.
I had already expected that Sister Juan would use this method to punish me, but when this moment came, I couldn't help but feel panic.
Sister Juan, would you please give me another chance?
But Sister Juan stopped me from continuing.
Xiaoyu, listen.
Sister Juan looked at me quietly. For the past two days, I have been wondering if I was wrong and if I harmed you.
Sister Juan is not like this. This is all my own reason, it is not your fault!
Maybe that's the case, but you will become like this now and I can't escape responsibility.I'm already dereliction of duty if I haven't made you better.
What Sister Juan said made me wonder how to refute it.
Xiaoyu, in your eyes, I have never been your mother, right?
I know, I always knew it.But I still want to educate you well and make you better like a mother... although, I have done something absolutely unforgivable.
Sister Juan…
Sister Juan’s self-blame makes me feel extremely distressed.
Let's just do it, Xiaoyu, let's separate for a while and let the other party think about it carefully.
After saying that, Sister Juan stood up and began to clean up the bowls and chopsticks on the table.
I sat at the table without moving.
Sister Juan is really separated from me.
Although we still live under the same roof, Sister Juan has completely returned to the attitude we had before the development of our relationship.
No, it's even colder than that.
Every morning when I wake up, I can still see Sister Juan busy.
But this experience has changed from happiness to pain. I have tasted the happiness of being with Sister Juan. Because of this, suddenly cutting off the source of this happiness makes me even more bitter than when I didn’t dare to say my feelings before.
Time will not wait for anyone. When Sister Juan and I were in a cold war, the days of the exam were getting closer.
I knew I had no choice, and now, there was only one way left before me.
I want to use my own achievements to prove to Sister Juan.
Time passed faster after that. In order to save more time for review, I gave up the opportunity to have breakfast at home, and I came back later and later in the evening.
I wake up earlier every morning than Sister Juan, and when I come back, no light at home was on.
I live a dark life, and I devote all my energy and time to review that I ignore, just for the result of that day.
And all my efforts were seen by Sister Juan.
The day before the exam, the school ended class early.
In fact, at this time, there will be no more courses to take. The atmosphere in the classroom is tense but disorderly, and many people are confused, not knowing what they will encounter tomorrow and what they will encounter in the future.
And I returned home with such an atmosphere.
This is the lights I have seen in my home for a long time.
I opened the door and saw two people sitting around the dining table.
Xiaoyu, you are back!
Sister Juan came over and took the initiative to take the backpack I was carrying.
This is……
Sister Juan’s enthusiasm even made me feel a little uncomfortable. I looked at the exquisite dishes on the dining table, Yingying, who was sitting behind the table with an expectant look on her face, and looked at Sister Juan who looked at me as gentle as water.
The exam is coming tomorrow, and you can finally come back early, so I will cook a few more dishes and let's have a meal together.
I walked to the dining table, pulled open the chair and sat down.
There were more than a dozen plates on the table, and each dish was something I liked to eat, and it was all emitting heat, and it was obviously just brought out.
The aroma of delicious food penetrated into my nose, making me greedy and greedy for a month, who had been with the crude food in the cafeteria every day and did not consider anything except filling my stomach.
But I didn't move my chopsticks, but looked at Sister Juan sitting opposite me.
Hurry, eat it quickly, otherwise it will be no good if it is cold.
I responded, picked up the chopsticks, and silently grabbed the food from the plate into my mouth.
I ate very fast and still maintain the pace of racing against time in school.
Seeing me burying my head and making rice, Sister Juan wanted to speak several times, but couldn't find the right time to insert it.
I've eaten it.
I put down my rice bowl and placed my chopsticks on the empty bowl.
Ah, don't you eat anything more?There are many more dishes...
I'm already full and there are too many dishes, so I can't finish it.
As I said, I stood up from the dining table, picked up my used dishes and chopsticks to the kitchen.
Ah, I'll just brush it there for a while.
Sister Juan's voice sounded behind me, but I washed the dishes and chopsticks by myself, then picked up my schoolbag and walked towards my room.
My door was knocked as I sat at my desk and put on my headphones to listen to English.
Please come in.
The door was pushed open, but the person standing outside the door was someone I didn't expect.
Sakura.
Brother, my mom washed some fruits, then I cut some and brought them to you.
Oh, I get it, you put it there.
Yingying put the fruit plate I held on the coffee table I designated, but did not turn around and leave.
I took off my headphones and looked at her.
What's wrong?
No, nothing... Brother, eat it quickly, otherwise it will not be delicious after it is stored for a long time.
I looked at Yingying, and was silent for a while. I put my headphones aside, then walked to her, picked up an apple that was worn with a toothpick and stuffed it into my mouth.
Yingying watched me eat the apple, but she still didn't leave.
Do you have anything to say to me?
Yingying's shoulders shook, and she lowered her head.
Brother... have you quarreled with my mom?
I was stunned for a moment, and I didn't expect to hear this from Yingying's mouth.
What did you say? Where did I quarrel with her...
But!You guys had a very good relationship before, and I was jealous of the good ones... But recently you two didn't say a word all day long.In the past, you would stay at home for dinner, but now I can’t see you all day long. It was the same when I was having dinner just now. Brother, you just kept eating and didn’t even look at us.
I sighed, walked to Yingying and placed my hand on top of her head.
This is an action I often do to Yingying, and every time I do this, I can calm Yingying's emotions.
Yingying, you're thinking too much.I'm not arguing with your mother, our relationship has always been pretty good.Recently, it’s just because I’m about to take the exam, your mother is a little nervous and I’m under a lot of pressure, so it makes you feel like you’re having a quarrel.In fact, there is no change between us.
Yes, nothing has changed.
I said against my will, without any flaws on my expression.
This month of depression has allowed me to completely cover up my feelings.
But Yingying shook my hand away.
Not so!Brother, you were not like this before!
Yingying's voice was filled with crying voice. She grabbed the clothes on my chest and cried to me: Brother, I'm watching it!You used to smile every time you touched my head, but now you don't have any expression on your face.My mother is the same. The most she does every day now is to sigh, and sometimes she sits at the bathroom door and stares blankly at the place where there is no one.You two are so weird, both of you are becoming so weird!
I sighed and looked at the crying Yingying, but didn't know how to comfort her.
Is that true? It turns out that in the eyes of the third person, we have become like this...
In fact, I also noticed the changes in Sister Juan. Sister Juan has long since become less alienated from me as I was at the beginning, but now I don’t know how to grasp the distance between me and her. Instead, I became the exclusion party, making Sister Juan try again and again and again, and finally became the current deadlock.
Yingying, you don’t have to worry too much.I said that this is all because of the exam. After the exam, everything will be over and will change back.
Yingying raised her tearful eyes and rubbed her face, looked at me, and asked: Is it true?
Well, really, I promise you.If I still do this then, then you come to me again and I will take the initiative to talk to your mother.
Yingying sniffed and stretched out a little finger: Pull the hook, one word is determined.
I smiled and said: How old are you, you still believe in this kind of childish thing.
I don’t care, I just want to pull the hook!
OK, let's pull the hook.
I had no choice but to stretch out a finger, hook Yingying's hand, and swayed back and forth twice as she moved.
Now... you can't regret it.
Well, I don't regret it, I said it from the beginning.
Yingying wiped off her tears. She looked at me and suddenly hugged me tightly, her face completely buried in my chest.
I hugged Yingying and gently patted her back with my hands.
Well, is Yingying already so tall?In my memory, Yingying has always been the thin and tiny when she first came to home.
But now, I found that Yingying's size was already close to my chin, and she was already a little taller than Sister Juan.
Yingying's hair was just ten centimeters away from me, and the fragrance emitted from her hair instantly reminded me of another thing.
What a familiar smell... I have smelled this smell on another person.
It's Sister Juan, and the fragrance on Yingying's body is almost exactly the same as Sister Juan.
And then I suddenly realized that Yingying's body was tightly attached to me.
I could feel the curves that had become concave and convex, even within reach.
Yingying, get up, stop acting cute.
I forced myself not to overlap the figures of Yingying and Sister Juan in front of me, and gently pushed her away.
Brother... Can I ask you something?
Yingying stood in front of me, lowered her head, and said in a thin voice like a mosquito.
What's up?
Didn’t you and my mother quarrel because of my affairs?
I was a little puzzled. The cold war between Sister Juan and me was entirely due to our own reasons. How could it be related to Yingying?
Yingying, what are you saying? How could I quarrel with your mother because of you?
Then...my mom hasn't told you about me?
Yingying's eyes touched me a little.
That was not the clear eyes that belonged to the child that I was familiar with. Yingying's eyes were another more complex emotion. I was a little familiar with it, but I couldn't find the source of that sense of familiarity.
No, your mother hasn't told me anything.
So Ah...
Yingying nodded, and before leaving my room, she asked another question.
Brother, if you get into college, will you go to another place to study?
I thought about it, but found that it was difficult for me to answer this question.
If it were put a month ago, I would have said no without hesitation.
Going to a university in another place means leaving Sister Juan. Although this small town in my hometown is not large, there are several good universities. I will definitely choose these schools and continue to live at home and live under the same roof as Sister Juan.
But now, I'm not sure what I want...
Maybe, maybe not.After all, there are good universities nearby, and I don’t particularly like the feeling of leaving home.It's too early to ask this now, and I don't know if I can pass the exam.
Yingying's expression became much brighter because of my ambiguous answer.
I see!Brother, you have to work hard!
Um.
I watched Yingying leave, but I still couldn't figure out what she was thinking.
But only one thing has taken root in my heart.
Yingying has grown up, she is no longer the little girl I always think.
Although she and I are still very close and still look unprepared to me, I have to start treating her as a opposite sex.
Speaking of which, although I told Sister Juan before that I would tell Yingying about our relationship, now it seems... Yingying really may not accept Ah.
I felt that Yingying really treated me as a relative.
And Sister Juan is undoubtedly Yingying’s dearest and most beloved person.
My relationship with Sister Juan is at least not yet public.
Sister Juan is a married man, and she is my stepmother. I am just a student, and I fall in love with my father's wife.
The relationship between us is undoubtedly a taboo. Once it is made public, it will inevitably be greatly hurt and implicated.
So, can I just continue like this? I thought to myself and smiled with a self-deprecating smile.
What are I worried about? My relationship with Sister Juan is almost unable to maintain.
In the past, I was still too selfish. I regarded Sister Juan as the spiritual pillar of my life. Therefore, I ignored Sister Juan’s feelings and acted according to my own wishes in various places.
Now it seems that I am actually shackles that bind Sister Juan.
Maybe I really should leave and go to a university far away from home so that Sister Juan can return to her normal life.
Just when my heart was in a mess, the door was knocked again.
Sakura?Come in directly, did you fall into something?
But the door to the room was not pushed open.
Xiaoyu...it's me.
I was stuck all over.
The person standing outside the door is Sister Juan.
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