Chapter 8 A letter that touches me

I was carrying this letter and was thinking all the way, but I couldn't read it in the car because it was clearly a long letter

I was holding this letter. Although I was not as excited as my first love letter, I was still uneasy. After all, it was also a love letter.

I don’t know how many times I have seen the scenery along the road, but I have no longer attracted me, but I still turn my attention to the familiar scenery and try to discover new beauty from it. For Ling, should I do this too?

I arrived at the location and couldn't wait to sit in my office. When I opened the letter and was about to read it, Director Zhou suddenly notified the meeting to convey the spirit of the meeting of the headquarters in the morning. I had to put the letter carefully in my pocket and prepare to read it carefully when I rested in the evening.

I have read many letters written by women to men. I think that Ling's letters are the same, but when I lay on the bed after dinner and opened them, I was still surprised by her thoughts and was very moved by her thoughts.

Dear, my man!

When I picked up the pen and was about to write this letter to you, I suddenly felt very embarrassed. I was wondering, what should I call you?

I want to call your husband, but I feel that I am not qualified enough. I want to call you, but I feel that I am not close enough, so I call my man

Although the word "man" is a bit rustic, I like it very much because what I really need is a man. From our relationship, this title is very good. You are my man, my man in my life.

Maybe you will ask me why I wrote this letter?

My culture is not as good as you, and my writing is not as good as you. Besides, didn’t I talk a lot yesterday?

Is there anything that cannot be explained clearly in person?

You may be right, but I still feel it is necessary to write this letter. I want this letter to play a milestone role in our relationship. That is to say, after reading this letter, you either treat me as your dear wife or treat me as a lowly slut, in short, there must be a result.

Of course I hope you treat me as your wife!

I'm talking stupid again, right? How can I call you a wife?

Don’t have any worries, I just want you to treat me as your little wife. If you don’t agree, just call me my woman!

My woman, I like this title, just like I like to call you my man. Since there is no better title, we can only call it that way

My man, my woman, this is very good, very primitive, and it also reflects the true meaning of our being together

You asked me a lot of questions yesterday, which is the main reason that forced me to write this letter

I think you are still very suspicious of our relationship, so it makes me feel very upset

I feel like I'm relying on you. You think that since I don't have a man to meet my physiological requirements, I want to find a man to vent my sexual desire, right?

Of course this is true, but not all

Dear, my man, I remember I told you that I got your ideas after reading a lot of your books.

When I read your foreign classics such as Madame Bovary, Anna Kalanina, and Red and Black, I felt a lot of changes in my heart.

I told you that when I agreed to marry Liu Gang, I planned to find a lover in the future. At that time, I didn’t have much feelings about sex. Although I also had a sexual desire for a girl, it was just a matter of my mind, because I had no real feelings. Except for Liu Gang and you, I have not had any men who have had relationships with me.

This is not to say that I am such a good girl, the fact is the opposite, I am not a good girl

In such a family, I cannot have any evil behavior because I want to make a good look for my sisters.

I had my first love. When I was in high school, many boys pursued me. To be honest, although I can't be considered a beauty, I am still the kind of beautiful. More importantly, my breasts are very sexy, bigger than ordinary girls. A boy once said: Your pair of breasts is like two graves.

I didn't understand at first, but later I realized that it was Guo Moruo's poem

I'm very embarrassed, but I'm also proud of my curvaceousness, because many girls in our class were called by boys to Princess Taiping

Isn't that a more indecent name?

Do you remember that when you first had sex with me, wasn’t it just attracted by my breasts?

When you see my breasts, your eyes are suddenly fixed there, and I am fully prepared in my heart. Before that, I have decided to get you

Anna's husband can't give her feelings or sex, so she found a lover

So I began to realize that a woman no longer has love. If there is no sex again, what is the meaning of her life?

When I first had sex with you, I really felt so happy. Liu Gang and I only had a few couples, but every time it made me hate it. His fat figure made me feel like a basketball. What happiness can I say?

But it's different from you. When you take off all your clothes, I see your masculine body. Especially when I see your firm lower body lifting towards me, it's like a brave soldier demonstrating to me. My whole body is trembling for it, and I have become your captive.

I can't imagine how you look when you enter my body. It's simply an intoxicating feeling. My body is slowly sublimated in your twitching, as if it is about to float to the sky. My whole consciousness has lost control. Under you, I have truly become a happy woman. I will not forget every ecstatic sex you gave me.

Since that time, I have been thinking about that wonderful moment every day. It turns out that a woman’s happiness comes from a man’s masculinity.

But I also realized that you have no feelings for me. I thought that you would regret that behavior, so it is not easy for me to get you.

I am trying hard every day to get your sex forever. I don’t ask you to have love for me, although I already love you very much.

I am willing to share the same man with another woman. I am a secondary position, but this cannot be guaranteed, so a plan to have children began to emerge in my heart.

You love your children so much, but so what about you who gave birth to your children with me?

I don’t blame you, but you shouldn’t be responsible for me!

What explanation do you have to do to me when you come back this time?

In order not to harm your body, I have not received the satisfaction I deserve. If this continues, what should I do?

Why not have sex with you?

So the purpose of my writing this letter is to let you know that although I love you, I don’t want you to love me too. I am definitely not a woman who prays for love, but if you want to meet my physical needs, I will not affect your husband and wife’s relationship.

For this, I hope you will come back for me once a month. I can put my child in my mother's place, my sister has also started an internship, and we can check in the hotel.

The money I give you is the travel expenses and the living expenses for the next month. I hope you can understand the mood of my woman who loves you deeply.

What you asked me seemed too redundant. Are you judging whether I am a very casual woman?

But what does it matter?

It is impossible for me to have any emotional consequences with you, so I need you for my own physiological needs. Don't worry, I won't bother you.

I hope you can even give me a verbally a title so that I can have a good excuse when I sleep with you

I'll wait for your return and return for me!

Love you Ling

After reading this letter, I felt very uneasy. I felt that Ling was deliberately avoiding the relationship with me, and the purpose was to be afraid of my worries. If I don’t want to have feelings for her, then I can’t even get the minimum sex. Therefore, she said that she would not have emotional entanglement with me.

In fact, it is impossible for a woman to have sex with a man. As for those women who sell themselves, it is a different matter.

I began to realize my responsibilities. In fact, I often think of my children. It is impossible for me not to think of him. This is human nature. Will Ling realize this?

If she realized it, she shouldn't think I would leave her, but doesn't she understand the truth?

When the child was born, I felt very scared. I didn't know what would happen. Until now, I was worried about the child's problems. I was afraid that he would have a serious illness. Once he needed blood transfusion, he would be found to have the same blood type as me, which would be troublesome.

I really want to know if Ling's husband is of the same blood type as me, so that will be better

Ling's sister is lucky than her. Her two sisters are both in college. Her eldest sister has just graduated for internship and is in a good foreign-funded company.

And the little sister, just got into the first year of the year

All of this is both a happy thing for Ling, and it can also cause her to worry about her future.

If I hurt her feelings again, what would she look like?

I have considered Ling's letter a lot. In order not to make her afraid of losing me, I accepted her financial help, and I also let her know that I cannot have any feelings for her.