Chapter 9: Insomnia for her

Ling's letter moved me and made me feel even more guilty. In her contradictory language, it revealed her complicated heart. Maybe she did not read the written letter again, because in her letter, she wanted to express the dominant thought that she had no feelings for me, but she expressed her love for me in several places.

It is precisely these unintentional emotions that deeply touched me

I thought I wouldn't have any emotional relationship with her, but I was just to steal the fish and satisfy my curious sexual psychology

It is really strange for men to imagine. Even though they know that their wives love them very much, and some are more beautiful than the women they want, they just want to sleep with this woman who has no physical contact. What kind of mentality does it mean to have a sleep with this woman who has no physical contact?

I began to deeply examine my ideological roots. When I first saw Ling, I thought she was very ordinary, just a very neat young woman. There was a certain gap compared to my wife, so I didn't expect any contact with her.

However, whenever I see her watery eyes, I feel deeply attracted. Although my wife's eyes are not small, there is always a little spiritual energy in her eyes. So I think of Ling's eyes full of passion, and then I think of what kind of expression would such a woman beneath her?

Thinking that Ling's eyes must be lustful under her body, I feel that having sex with her will greatly increase her sexual desire and have an orgasm that is different from her wife.

So I wanted to have sex with her

But this idea is only temporary. When your wife satisfies her sexual desire, she will forget this idea. After all, there is no emotion.

However, when I come to work in another place, it is difficult to get normal satisfaction in my physical desires, so I will sleep at night and think that I will think that I am interested in me.

Why don’t I take her for myself by taking advantage of her?

Besides, her husband is not at home, she must be very lonely alone. Women are made of water, full of tenderness and sweetness. I must hope that the man's heart will warm her.

Once, when she opened the door, the vegetables in her hand fell to the ground. I was about to go out. When I saw that she was carrying a lot of things in her hand, it was not convenient to bend down to pick them up, so I hurriedly helped her pick them up and put them in her hand. The look she looked at me at that time was a sense of gratitude that made me move, full of tenderness like water

That was our first close contact with each other. I don’t know why, neither of them spoke, and she didn’t even say a word thank you.

Of course I don't need her to say thank you, but I always feel a little awkward.

But this woman who didn't talk to me brought me a plate of mushroom roast pork when my wife was not at home. This is my favorite dish. Especially when she came to knock on the door, she called my wife's name, which made me even more imaginative.

I thought, she must have known that my wife was not at home, she deliberately called me, which made me feel that it was not specially sent to me for food. As for such dishes, my wife must have mentioned them in front of her, so she extended a caring hand to me while I was alone at home.

So I definitely thought she was a scheming woman. After eating, I immediately sent the plate. I thought that if she cared about me intentionally, she would definitely not want her wife to know about it. But when I gave the plate to her, she did not ask me to enter the house. I immediately felt that I was self-indulgent and just asked me: Is it delicious?

I quickly said: It's delicious, so delicious! Then I went to my house with boring self-interest

My idea is to think that she is creating opportunities for me to get close to her actively and then get along with me. I quickly feel that my heart is dirty

Later, I didn’t have much contact, but she and my wife had more and more contact. I felt that she wanted to get close to me intentionally, otherwise why would she sit with her wife for so long after she had nothing to do?

So for a while, I began to hate her eyes and felt that her eyes were very harmful.

That means I lost interest in her eyes

But lustful men always possess a woman for themselves, looking for various reasons, creating various opportunities, and testing the real intentions of women from all directions. This is simply terrible.

I deeply realize that a man's life is really the smartest in love, so women don't know what the hell is thinking when a man is with her?

After a man reaches his goal, he is even surprised. Why is he so brave to do all kinds of tricks in front of a woman?

Just imagine how a woman can withstand such a scheming attack?

So it's not unreasonable to say that women in love are the most confused.

In the end, I took measures against Ling, which was her pair of breasts that were compared to the grave. I still remember the scene at that time.

Once, my son was playing at her house. I called him to come to her house for dinner, but he didn't come. Ling said she had eaten at her house. I felt very embarrassed, so I gave her the freshly chopped watermelon. This was the first time I came to her house in summer.

Ling was only wearing a translucent shirt at that time. I came to the coffee table with a plate. When Ling came to pick up the plate in my hand, I saw her huge breasts shaking in her top. It turned out that she was not wearing a bra. The dark dots were clearly visible. I was shocked all over. It was such a rare plump breast. I rarely encountered it in real life.

Ling's pair of breasts are big and straight, not sagging at all, while my wife's breasts are a bit inferior, so I thought in my heart that such a wonderful breast must be of unique interest under me, just like the softness of two balls of cotton mentioned in "Dream of Red Mansions"

That night I dreamed that I had sex with Ling, and the situation was very good

Since then, I have always thought about this and always feel that it is a big regret to not have sex with such a woman.

A few days later, the real thing finally happened between me and Ling. I still don’t understand whether Ling intentionally seduces me.

I clearly realize that men are trying their best to seduce women. Once women are indifferent to their behavior, they will be able to stop and find another prey.

A man’s curiosity about women is just like a woman loves every new piece of clothing in a shopping mall. Such a metaphor may not be appropriate, but it is the case.

Once a woman becomes her own prisoner, she loses her original interest, just like a woman wearing a piece of clothing

The ancients compared women to clothes, which seems to be from ancient times.

I have been rereading this letter for several nights and have lost sleep over it

I always recall all the experiences of He Ling from contact to bed, and everything is as vivid as yesterday.

In terms of women, most men start with sex, with sex first and then feelings. However, once a man becomes emotional, sometimes even more than a woman.

My feelings for Ling also start with sex, but because the birth of the child has scared me for a long time, it has a certain impact on our relationship development.

Even once wanted to give up this kind of relationship. The relationship between lovers is not restricted by a marriage certificate like a wife, so the relationship between lovers is very unsolicited. Someone once verified that the relationship between lovers can rarely be maintained for more than ten years unless it develops into a wife, just like the crown prince of Britain.

I always feel that there is nothing serious about my relationship with Ling. First of all, her husband is not around, and she saves the part of hiding. My wife is another woman who is not emotionally sensitive, so it brings me a lot of aspects. If my wife can be guarded against me, of course, it will be different. So today's wives are in danger every moment.

The reason why I was very scared about Ling having my child for a while is that in our country, children born out of wedlock enjoy the same rights as children born in wedlock. How can an ordinary working person like me bear such pressure?

I thought about it and there was no good idea, so I decided to keep it like this first

Liu Li is a sensitive woman. Although she is not married, she has already lived with her boyfriend. When she saw me thinking about it all day, she often sat at my desk and wanted to know what was difficult for me.

She had a good impression of me at the beginning. She once asked me to go out for a walk and have tea. We can be said to be very compatible in terms of knowledge and appearance. How could she feel at ease when she found a man with such an average appearance?

She once told me bluntly that she did not marry for love, and now girls are very practical

But her boyfriend's status made her afraid to find any lover easily. Once she discovered it, it would be an unimaginable tragic result. I stayed away from it.

The relationship between Zhou Min and the director seems to be very clear now. Only a few people in our office know that he once said at a drink table that he was drunk: As long as you do your job well, it is better to take care of it less. If something happens, everyone will not look good. If everyone is separated, it is understandable that they have some thoughts and behaviors in terms of physiology, but don’t cause trouble.

With such an enlightened leader, we all have a relaxed attitude towards women. Except for me and Liu Li, everyone has local relationships.

So it is understandable that Liu Li wants to develop with me. For this, I can't have any ideas in the local area, otherwise she will have a certain opinion of me and may even lead to the family. A woman has a strong desire to retaliate, especially in terms of love.

I feel that it is necessary to get along with Ling. Ling has considered the cost of my round trip so carefully, which touched me. I cannot let a woman with my child be too embarrassed.

With this kind of heart, I came back in the middle of that month. When I saw Ling waiting for me in the station, I was very moved. The service to me in the hotel made me even more enchanting. I was so happy that I couldn't think of my home.

We came out of the station and in the taxi, Ling couldn't wait to kiss me, which made the driver sigh that he was so much better than the newlyweds.