Chapter 15

After this breakup, she went back and wrote to me and said something like this: If you love him, you always want to stay together forever.Even if you separate for a moment, your thoughts will grow wildly into vines, entangling everything about him, even if it is just a white sock.When the miss breaks, he is like the most hardworking craftsman, building a solid castle madly, just to keep everything about him, all his voice, appearance, smile, even if it is just a trace of sweat.As long as it is related to him, no matter whether it is right or wrong, no matter how beautiful or ugly, no matter how high or low it is, it will all be treasures collected.

I was speechless and didn't reply to her letter because I couldn't give her the opportunity to stay together forever, because I despise myself as affectionate, so passionate, and so lingering as her.

In my memory, except for the sexual orgasm I got from having sex with her crazy days, the psychological pleasure brought by binding and abuse, and the enjoyment of her sleep and food service with peace of mind, I can't remember much of my warmth and romance for her.

I know I owe her too much, and many times I understand that I am not worthy of being loved and loved by her like this.

Later, when W had left me and married a wife, I heard "Taste" played on the train's radio again during a lonely trip, and my heart suddenly burst into pieces. My heavy mood made me almost unable to breathe. Listening to the familiar melody and lyrics, I almost burst into tears.

In fact, W knew that I was a man who was married, had children, and had a harmonious couple's life and family. She never made any requests to me, or even had no hints.

She just loves me, she loves me very simply, never makes me feel embarrassed, never affecting my normal work and life, but I just hope that when I have the opportunity, I can stay quietly with me for a while so that her never-ending longing for me can have a harbor to rest.

Although she also knew that I liked her and knew that I was obsessed with her youth and body, she never childishly thought that I would give her a result that all those who love each other hoped for.

Moreover, it is precisely because of her unrewarded love for me that she always accommodates me and tolerates me in sex, and even encourages me to do whatever I like to do on her as I wish, and release pleasure and desires with all my heart and without any scruples.

During those days of cohabitation and the days that followed, her body was not on guard against me. She would give it to me as long as I wanted it. No matter how I wanted it, she would have no complaints.

Following the letter, she also sent the lyrics of another song on the album "Taste", expressing her different emotions and her perception of our relationship in this way.

The song is "Enlightenment", and the lyrics read:

I thought I would cry, but I didn't.I just stared at your footsteps and gave you my last blessing.

Isn’t this a kind of understanding?

Let me see myself clearly, although the pain of lovelessness will be in the deepest part of my soul day and night.

I thought I would take revenge, but I didn't.When I saw the man I loved deeply, he was as helpless as a child!Isn’t this a kind of understanding?

Let you see yourself clearly, being loved is a luxury blessing, but unfortunately you never care.

Ah!A relationship ends here.Ah!One heart is going to be desolate.

If our love is wrong, I hope you and I will not suffer in vain.If you have given your sincere efforts, you should be satisfied!

Ah!What a painful realization, you were all about me.But when I look back on every step of the way I came, I took so lonely.

Ah!What a painful realization, you were all about me.I just hope you can break free from the shackles of love and the shackles of love, chase them at will, and stop suffering for love.