Chapter 12

Three and a half days of living together in Jingbei and dozens of times of having sex have established my relationship with W.

Although we are 16 years apart, we do not feel any gap in our communication.

Since we are not in the same city, we express our thoughts, care and separation through phone calls and letters.

We all carefully avoid talking about real issues and do not discuss our future, but just look forward to the wonderful time of lingering when we meet each other in our dreams.

It seems that W is very satisfied with his trip to Jingbei and is obsessed with it. He always mentions a certain detail and a certain scene in the letter and phone. He often says with regret that something would be fine if he did that, and if he did something, he would be happier.

She even regretted why she didn't tied up a few more times by me, or tied it up a little harder, so that we could stay for a few more days.

Sometimes, I would ask her if she hurt her in those days.

She would sigh and say, "I like it, fool."

She told me that after she returned home, her family saw her happy appearance and asked her how happy she was.

She said that she had been to S for a few days and was so happy.

She told me that in fact, it was whenever she remembered the scene of her being hugged and kissed by me, she couldn't help but laugh.

I often get into conflicts about my relationship with W.

On the one hand, I am very greedy for my feelings for me, her youthful and delicate body, and the extraordinary carnal enjoyment she brings me; on the other hand, I will be troubled by the responsibility of my family and the inability to give any promises.

The last time I returned home from Jingbei, although my wife didn't say anything, she was still surprised because I didn't take it for two consecutive days.

Because in her impression, it is really rare and incredible that I, a sexually lustful man, didn't ask for love with her after a few days on a business trip.

My wife and W are both good women. I think I am really sorry for them, but I can't bear to leave them.

The greed and condemnation of my conscience made me panic and often at a loss. I just couldn't help but walk forward with the pace of time, not knowing where I finally went.

During this period, I often use plausible theories and opinions to convince and arm myself, so that my behavior will not feel so shameless and panicky when I think of it.

I told myself that I am still very responsible for my family. I don’t take the responsibility of my family just because I am good with W. I am still very active in working, taking care of my children and doing housework every day. I also gave my own feelings for W, and I did not neglect her after I got her. I still care about her and love her very much.

Moreover, I also care about her emotional life and hope that she can find a good boy to fall in love well. It is not like some men who dominate other girls and interfere with their freedom of marriage.

So, I am more concerned about the boy W and she talked to me.

I learned that shortly after W broke up with me in Jingbei and returned home, the boy also returned home.

He is in his junior year and has some social practice activities during the summer vacation, so he did not return home until mid-August and only stayed at home for about a week.

Of course, he often went to W and asked her to go out for fun.

Of course, W would agree to go out to play with him. As a classmate, it would be nothing to play with.

Besides, the elderly in both families are optimistic about their relationship and support them in playing together.

At that time, going to the karaoke hall to sing and dance was a fashionable way to have fun, and of course they would go there too.

I asked W: Are you excited when you hugged each other and danced?

What's there to be excited about?I don't feel anything, but he's a little excited, I think.

She said on the other end of the phone.

She told me that the boy liked her more and kept chasing her, but she was not very enthusiastic. As a result, the boy was always a little timid in front of her, for fear that something would not be done well to make her unhappy.

And this is exactly what she doesn't like. She hopes that boys will be more proactive, domineering, and bolder.

For example, when they went out to play, the boy wanted to get close to her and stroke her body, but he didn't dare, so he had to pretend to touch her breasts with his elbow.

If I want to touch my breasts, I will touch Ah. Why are you so sneaky that it makes both of you unhappy... After she had sex with me, she became more presumptuous when she talked to me.

I told her that little boys have no experience and it is difficult to figure out what girls want, and they don’t know that when girls say no, they mostly say yes. So you must be patient with such boys and have more concerns. Don’t be petty, otherwise the little boy will be at a loss.

Haha, trouble.It’s better to be an old man. With a look, you can tell what we little girls are thinking, right?

She might have been tired of my preaching and even teased me on the other end of the phone.

In those days, most of our communication was carried out in this way. My preaching and advice were often interrupted by her jokes, and her longing and affection for me were also conveyed in such jokes.