Chapter 29: Breaking the dust

Since you have cheated now, why bother with whether you have cheated?Now cheating is also cheating, and once cheating is also cheating, so what is the essential difference?

some.

In my heart, my mother has always been a good wife and mother, and conservative, traditional, reserved and restrained are engraved in my bones.

If he hadn't met Zhao Fei, his deliberate routines, his strange strategies, and his nearly five months of bombardment and pursuit, how could his mother cheat?

If my mother had cheated in high school, it would mean that my mother was a woman with misbehavior and morally corrupted. So the good wife and mother in my heart were not just my wishful thinking, but she never existed in reality?

I can't accept this conclusion anyway.

If it doesn't exist, who is the woman who once got up early every day to prepare breakfast for me?

Who is the woman who once brought me fruit plates every night?

Who is the woman who once stayed up late to review with me every morning?

However, the warm pictures had just emerged clearly, and all kinds of unbearable pictures rushed over.

Why did my mother let Li Kai suck her nipples that night?

Why did my mother show jealousy when Li Kai and Aunt Ji get close to each other?

Why did my mother feel depressed after learning that Li Kai had a girlfriend?

If it weren't for my provocation and Zhao Fei's taking advantage of the situation, would the person lying next to my mother become Li Kai?

if……

On the night when my mother was in a low mood, Li Kai suddenly appeared beside her mother, told her mother the whole process of knowing Han Jiarui, and explained that the reason why she didn't go home was that she didn't want to see her mother sleeping with other men, and then she confessed her love to her and confessed her love to her. Will the mother's subtle feelings buried in her heart completely explode at that moment, thus breaking through the shackles of mother-son ethics and turning into a romance between men and women?

Has it hurt you?

Zhao Fei's voice interrupted my fantasy. I looked at me and saw Zhao Fei caressing my mother's red and white buttocks.

Mom shook her head, still not replying, but tears flowed from the corners of her eyes.

Zhao Fei moved away from the pillow, hugged his mother from behind, and said softly: Wanyu, I'm sorry!I was so excited just now. What I said and done was definitely not my intention. Don’t be angry, okay?

Mom closed her eyes and didn't say anything.

Zhao Fei murmured to himself: When I think about it now, I can’t believe that I said those words just now.I don't know what's wrong, I'll be so possessive of you.I want to know you, I want to know your past, and I want to know what kind of suitors you have around you, but after hearing this, I feel very uncomfortable and I am afraid that you will be snatched away by others.

My mother's eyes opened slightly, as if she was touched.

Zhao Fei continued: The two girlfriends I have dated have never made me feel this way, including my first love.

Yeah?First love should be your deepest one, right?

My mother actually replied. Did she care so much about Zhao Fei's woman that she forgot the insult Zhao Fei just now?

Zhao Fei smiled and shook his head, saying: When I first entered college, my first love and I had to talk to each other once a day, and sometimes we had to chat for more than an hour at a time.

The relationship is so good?What are you talking about?

It’s nothing, it’s just people and things around you, or interesting stories that happen in school!

snort!

However, this state lasted for less than a month. Later, she and I had a shorter and fewer calls. Later, I called her, but she often refused to answer. Sometimes after answering, she thought I was annoyed and would find various excuses to hang up.

Then have you vented all your anger towards her on me?

No, are you still angry?

My mother didn't reply, and Zhao Fei continued: I just want to tell you that she is my first love, and I have never had the possessiveness of you. If I break up with her, I feel relieved. Maybe I don't really like her at all.

Humph!You said that in front of me, right?

No, I also thought that the reason why I was fascinated by her may be that I was just the curiosity of top students in the specific environment of high school... Oh no, it should be my yearning for excellent grades. Once I left that environment, I was not so attached to her.So last time I was at the riverside, I said that she is not the type I like. I may have been a little hot, but you are different. I love you at first sight, and I like you from the bottom of my heart. I wish I could stick with you every day.

Maybe it’s because you’re just a little hot-hearted and curious about older women?

Don't you believe me?I know exactly what I think now, do you know what I was thinking about last night?

What?

I am regretting why I was not born 20 years ago and met you before you got married. I am the one who can live with you all the time, and you will give birth to my child.

Do you still want to get married?

I thought that as long as you are by my side in my life, I would be very happy in everything I do. This feeling of being calmed down is something I have never had before.

Really?

Of course it is true, then I will have enough time to take you to play.

Where do you want to go?

There are so many places to go!I want to go to Weihai with you to watch the sunrise, go to Hulunbuir to see the grassland, go to Harbin to see the snow, go to Guilin to see the mountains, go to Poyang Lake to see the migratory birds, go to Zhangye to see the Danxia landform, and go to Xinjiang to see the poplar forest.

My mother's eyes became more and more blurred, as if she was already looking forward to the picture depicted by Zhao Fei.

Zhao Fei looked down at his mother and asked: Where do you want to go the most?

I... Before I finished speaking, Zhao Fei had turned her mother's head and kissed her lips from behind. My mother naturally closed her eyes, opened her cherry lips, and took the initiative to send her tongue into Zhao Fei's mouth.

Not long ago, I was still experiencing the double insults of Zhao Fei's actions and language. Now I heard a few love words from Zhao Fei that I didn't know the truth or the false, and I was completely in a state of falling in love. I really remember to eat but not beat me!

Is Zhao Fei sure that his mother's heart?

Or is it that my mother’s feelings for Zhao Fei have reached a point where she is not affected by anything?

Sigh...boo...sigh...

The sucking sounds from my phone made me feel disgusted. I couldn't imagine how emotional my mother kissed her so much that she could make such a loud sound.

The unbearable wet kiss finally ended. Mom turned her head back, and a girlish blush appeared on her shy cheeks.

Why not... we will go to Weihai for the first stop, right?I heard that there is the longest coastal highway there, which is the most suitable for us in love.We got up early and went to the beach to watch the sunrise, then took a walk along the coast, and walked all the way to the end of the road, okay?

Mom was silent for a while and said softly: If... I could be 20 years younger, no, 10 years younger, I would be willing to accompany you to where you want to go, but unfortunately many things can no longer be changed.However, I am already satisfied to be with you and listen to you.

Zhao Fei leaned his jaw on his mother's shoulder and said coquettishly: But I'm not satisfied yet!

Then this is the case. Next time I have the chance, I will accompany you to the lake downstairs to watch the sunrise. It is the largest lake in the west of the lake, and the sunrise will definitely be very beautiful!

Can a lake compare with the sea?Besides, we have been there twice, it's boring, it's better to...

What's worse?

Why not go to the back mountain of our school?The scenery there is beautiful and romantic, which is most suitable for couples like us who are in love!

no!Absolutely not possible!

Haha, nothing can do!

Don't be angry!Think about Ah, aren’t you afraid of being laughed at by your classmates when you and I walking in school?Besides, what if your girlfriend sees it?

Are you afraid that she will see it or that Xiaoyun will see it?

All are afraid of Ah!

hey-hey!Why not secretly match Xiaoyun with my girlfriend!

What?How is that possible?Zhao Fei is really able to talk nonsense.

If Xiaoyun and my girlfriend were together, they would definitely feel ashamed of me, and they shouldn't be disturbing us anymore!In this way, I can concentrate on treating you, so I don’t have to bear the reputation of stepping on two boats, the best of both worlds!

Can Zhao Fei give up Chen Chen for his mother?

Can Chen Chen fall in love with me?

Although it shows that Zhao Fei's nonsense is very important, it is undeniable that my heart, which is like a stagnant water, actually created a ripples.

Wouldn't the worst person become me?

How could it be?

In the eyes of outsiders, I, a married woman who is much older than you, is already bad enough to be with you. If you break up your girlfriend, it will be even worse. If you let your son steal your girlfriend, it will be bad!

Haha, you think so much!First of all, no outsiders know; secondly, I know everything about your situation, and I voluntarily; in the end, I can find a boyfriend for my girlfriend with good character and good personality, which is not a pity for her, right?In addition, if Xiaoyun really likes her and becomes a couple with her, then you will definitely be very happy. If you are happy, I will be happy!

Is Zhao Fei really such a kind heart?

Is mother really that important in Zhao Fei’s heart?

Stop making trouble, just think about some messy things!

hey-hey!Don’t say, this idea is really good, I just think you agree!

I guess Chen Chen has been played with by Zhao Fei a long time ago. Can I still accept it?

Don’t forget that Chen Chen is a school beauty. If he could become my girlfriend and rely on me, I would definitely become the object of envy of boys in the school. By then, I would not have time to cherish her, so how could I mind her past?

I didn’t agree. Do you think a girl is an item?He is so kind to you, but you are still touching his bad thoughts behind his back!

Stop thinking about it. Being my girlfriend must be attracted by me. How could it be that Zhao Fei gave up as soon as he said?

Who told me that I only like you now!I like you and she is still hanging her, didn’t it hurt her?

Speaking of this, Zhao Fei glanced at her mother. Seeing that her mother looked shy, she continued: It would be better to ask her to find a boy like Xiaoyun who is more suitable for her.Besides, I didn’t give her to Xiaoyun. I might not be willing to give her to her. I just gave them a chance to get in touch. As for whether Xiaoyun likes her or not, whether she can grasp her if she likes her depends on Xiaoyun himself.

That's right, if Zhao Fei just created opportunities for me and secretly helped me, and I would definitely do my best to love Chen Chen, then is it possible that Chen Chen would really fall in love with me?

Mom pressed Zhao Fei's hand on her chest and said softly: I don't want you to give so much for me. Just treat me well and don't lie to me!

Zhao Fei took advantage of the situation and grabbed one of his mother's fat breasts and said with a lewd smile: How could I lie to you?

You said before that you don’t have a girlfriend, so it’s not considered lying to me?

Do you still remember this in your heart?I wanted to be with you so much at that time that I lied!

You know that I also have a family, so why should you lie to me?

snort!You accepted it now and I said that. I didn’t know who said he wanted to cut off contact with me before!

snort!Anyway, you lied to me and made up a story about breaking up with your girlfriend!

Except for the breakup, the rest are all real!

snort!Who knows!

Unbelievable, my mother's movements, expressions, tone, and even voices at this moment were exactly the same as those girls of the same age who acted coquettishly in front of her boyfriend.

Is this the most real thing about my mother?

Could it be that only in front of Zhao Fei can my mother show herself so relaxedly?

What about you?Haven't lied to me?

What am I lying to you?

I just admitted it, but I forgot it?

Mom was stunned, then lowered her head, and her expression gradually became melancholy.

Zhao Fei must be referring to the incident between her mother and her young male colleague, which also made me feel uneasy.

If my mother had really cheated at that time, how could she show that she would rather die than surrender under Zhao Fei's violent confession?

But if my mother had a clear conscience, she wouldn’t be able to argue when Zhao Fei hit the nail on the head, right?

Don't take it seriously, I just say it casually.Zhao Fei said softly.

Mom sat up and asked after a while: Do you really think there is something between me and him?

To be honest, I thought you were just afraid that I would misunderstand and told a kind lie, but judging from your current appearance, I think something must have happened, right?

After saying that, Zhao Fei stood up and sat opposite his mother.

In your eyes, am I just a very casual woman?

Of course not!I believe you, even if there is something, you must not be willing.

Then would you mind?

Do you care so much about Zhao Fei’s feelings?

If you really cheat, you should mind me and my father. What does it have to do with Zhao Fei?

What's more, I didn't know Zhao Fei at that time.

Thinking of this, my heart felt a bone-broken chill again.

It's all the past, what's there to mind?I was just curious, what happened when you went to his house?

Uh... After I arrived at his house, I found that I was the only one, and he said the others hadn't arrived yet.But after waiting for almost an hour, no one came. I asked him who he called. He stammered a few times. I was about to call him to urge him, but he immediately stopped me.

Then what?

He only told me at this time that he actually called me alone.

The intention is already obvious, aren't you angry?

There is one thing, but after all, they have worked hard to cook a table of good dishes. I can't just say that I will turn against you and leave immediately, right?Besides, he didn't do anything rude to me!

You are alone in his house!Are you not afraid that he has any bad intentions towards you?Even if you don’t know, if you want to confess something to you, you are embarrassed to refuse?

How did you think so much at that time?

hey-hey!Did you think at that time that as long as you can grasp the measure, it would be no big deal to have a meal with a boy who loves you, right?

Where is it?I...I...I just treat him as an ordinary friend, and I would not think about those things that are there or not!

I would feel happy occasionally with someone who likes me. I would be willing to Ah!

How do you understand so much?

Because I had this kind of mentality towards my girlfriend in the early stage!I think you started to treat me with this kind of mentality, right?Mom's face turned slightly red and she lowered her head a little embarrassedly.

Don't do this!What I am talking about is a normal mindset, not a bad mind. Besides, we are all in this relationship, are there any secrets that cannot be told?

Mom smiled shyly and continued: When I was having a meal, I was quite embarrassed at first and didn’t know what to talk about. Later, he started to look for topics first, and the atmosphere was much more eased.

What topic?

They are all daily topics, I really don't remember it for so long.

What happened later?He didn't express that meaning?

Mom nodded and said: Later, I thought that there was no one else there anyway, so I happened to explain the report to him.

What did he say?

He said he knew it must be Xiaoya's report, because Xiaoya often wanted to ask him out and secretly expressed his intention to date. He either was perfunctory or refused politely, and never went out with Xiaoya once, so Xiaoya was angry when she saw those paper cranes.

In the eyes of a young man, a young girl is not as attractive as you. Are you very proud at that time?

Mom glanced at Zhao Fei coquettishly.

Zhao Fei continued: But there is a little suspicious!That's why he emphasized that he never went out with Xiaoya once?

Let me tell the truth!

Do you think it is possible that he went out with Xiaoya, and then slept with Xiaoya, but he did not confirm his relationship with Xiaoya. Otherwise, why would Xiaoya have to risk offending you and let him lose his job? How much hatred does this mean?If you can't just be courtship, you won't be able to break the verge of death, right?

I don't know this...you!Just forget it if you are bad, but you still think of others as bad as you!

well!You keep going!

well!I regret it too. I wouldn't have mentioned this if I had known it!

What did he say?

He asked me, do you still don’t understand his true intention after seeing so many paper cranes?

Then what did you say?

He said this, which made me very embarrassed. I had to say that I was married and my son was not much younger than him. Then I advised him not to waste his thoughts on me, a married woman. Even if Xiaoya is not suitable, she can find another suitable girl of the same age.

Isn’t this what you said to me before?Haha, how did he answer?

My mother rolled her eyes at Zhao Fei and said: I can't remember it very clearly. The rough idea is that when I first met me... that... I liked me. At that time, I didn't know that I was married. Later, after I found out that I was married, I knew that my behavior was immoral, but I could no longer control my heart!

This answer is perfect, he is indeed a master!

People are simpler than you, but they are not as good as you!

Then you accept him?

How is that possible!I told him not to say anything anymore, nor to have such irrational thoughts, otherwise we would not even be able to do anything with friends.

Wow!Then he really didn't say anything?

Of course!

That's all?

Mom lowered her head and was silent.

Why is silence?Is something really happening?My bad premonition is getting stronger and stronger.

Seeing this, Zhao Fei hugged his mother in his arms, slowly stroked her long hair, and said softly: It’s not your fault that he likes you, you don’t need to have a psychological burden. Only by saying it out loud will you feel truly relieved.

After a long time, my mother said: I helped him clean up the table and washed the dishes with him. Just as I was about to leave... he... suddenly pressed me... on the sofa, pressed my hands, and then said a lot... I like me and the like.

No?Isn't this a force?Didn't you resist?

Of course resisted!I never expected him to be like this. I was really shocked at that time and just wanted to break him away as soon as possible.

Break free?

The more I resisted, the more strength he became. Gradually, I felt more and more that I had no strength.

Then you let him kiss?

He wanted to kiss, but I didn't let him.

Then what?

Then he didn't kiss me anymore and just told me something. After hearing this, I felt soft-hearted.

What did he say?

He said that the leader asked him at that time who were the paper cranes written for. He did not say that they were written for me, but said that they were written for Xiaoya. The purpose was to protect me and did not want me to be gossiped by colleagues in the unit.He also said that even if he resigns, he will have to ask the leader for the biscuit barrel, because I will put it in a paper crane with my own hands every day.Then he looked at the TV cabinet, and the biscuit bucket was indeed placed there.

Then how can you be soft-hearted?

When I saw the cookie bucket, I remembered the paper crane he gave every day, and thought of some of the content that impressed me on the paper crane. In that atmosphere, I was indeed a little moved and felt soft-hearted.

No, I'm asking what you said about soft-heartedness did with him?

Mom turned her face and said softly: Kiss...I'm going to say.

When I heard this, my heart became even colder, even colder than seeing my mother cheat on Zhao Fei with her own eyes.

How long have you kissed?

I don't remember it either.

That will take at least ten minutes!Have you stuck out your tongue?

Do you have to ask so much?

want!The more I like someone, the more I want to know her, and even a little detail I can't miss.

At first there wasn't.

That's right, you have kissed him for at least ten minutes, so you must have been kissed very comfortably. Since it's comfortable, how could you not stick out your tongue!

No, I didn't feel good at that time.

Why?He can't kiss?

No, I feel very conflicted!

contradiction?I understand, do you feel that you have betrayed your family?Mom nodded.

Zhao Fei then said: But it was really satisfying to kiss a man other than her husband for the first time. He really couldn't resist the temptation of both men and women, right?

Mom shook her head and said: I think he is so infatuated with me and has thought so much about me. I really can't bear to reject him.

Can you still be so rational in the process of kissing?

I thought so at the beginning until...he...he put his hand... into my clothes.