Chapter 13 Sister’s Lover

After the incident of pretending to be my boyfriend, Yingying's thoughts about me were completely open and unveiled with the wet kiss in public.

no!Don’t joke with Yingying, this kind of thing can’t be just a joke!I naturally refused flatly, but Yingying acted much more calmly than I thought.

Brother, why don’t you want it? Did I not satisfy you?Or do you say that you dislike me and tell me I can change it.

I was almost driven crazy, and while circled back and forth, I said: Is this a question of whether I am satisfied or not or not?Yingying, don’t play anymore, okay?

Yingying, who was sitting on the sofa watching me circling around, just said lightly: I didn’t play.Brother, I'm serious.

Looking at Yingying, whose expression was dull, I felt weak all over.She is serious.

Yingying is serious. She really thinks so and really plans to do so.

My understanding of Yingying made me very clear about how firm her current thoughts were, but this also made me even more confused.

I even began to regret promising Sakura to play her boyfriend...

Now thinking about it, how could it be the role? It clearly tricked me into so many people, and then performed in public. Raw rice cooked rice Ah.

Yingying, we must have a good talk.I took the initiative to negotiate, and Yingying did not show any objection, but when I was about to sit down, she made a request.

Brother, if you want to talk to me, then sit in front of me and face me, okay?

Yingying's request made me stunned. I was just about to sit on the single sofa farthest from Yingying. This was indeed a way for me to keep a distance from Yingying. Unexpectedly, Yingying saw through it at a glance. After being occupied by the moral high ground, I seemed more passive.

Speaking of it, when I was with Yingying, I seemed to have rarely obtained the initiative since I was a child!

I had to change my seat and sit in front of Yingying.

Looking at Yingying, who was less than one meter away from me, the courage I had just prepared in my heart suddenly began to lose again.

I could only grab the tail of courage and asked: Yingying, why did you say that?

Yingying replied: What does that mean?What, brother, do you suspect that I am just talking about it?Well, as long as you promise me, I will let you see my determination tonight...

stop!Stop!I quickly interrupted the topic, and Yingying looked as if she was sure to win, and continued to look at me with her smart eyes.

Alas... I sighed again. Today, I can't remember how many times I sighed.

Yingying, you must understand one thing: we are brothers and sisters, and brothers and sisters cannot fall in love!I said with a heartache, hoping to open Yingying's defense from the side.

But Yingying was unmoved at all. She looked up at me and said: So what?We two have no blood relationship at all. You are my brother because I am willing to call you like that. Why has this become an obstacle to our being together?

I had to refute her: Yingying, you may have some different ideas, but my opinion of you has always been my sister, and I just treat you as my own sister Ah.

Yingying's voice was also a little deeper: I know, brother.You have been nice to me since you were a child, and I know all of these things and remember them all.

Then her volume was raised again.

So, I like you!I fell in love with a man who was kind to me in the past and would be kind to me in the future. What's wrong with this?

But Yingying...I have really always treated you as my sister, a younger sister who is even more kidding than a kiss.How could I have that kind of thought about my real sister?

However, Yingying's next sentence suddenly hit my weakness.

Yeah?She said calmly, "Brother, can you guarantee that you have no idea about me?"In your heart, there is no other feeling left to me except for your love for your sister?

I closed my eyes in pain, and I really couldn't refute it.

Whether it was the lingering when I was drunk or the boldness I watched around me later, Yingying has been using various actions, which made me realize little by little but irreversibly...

She is a woman, and I also ensure that I have a special feeling for Yingying in my heart.

However, I'm not sure.

I can't confirm whether my love for Yingying has crossed the line between men and women, and even if it has crossed...

How many are it because of herself, and how many are it because of the shadow of Sister Juan, which is sometimes unchanged on her?

I still can't answer Yingying's question.

Well, if you don't say it, I can wait.Yingying finally said what I was most worried about.

You should know that any problem involving feelings will become a confused and unresolved account, and what I am most worried about is that Yingying will ignore my attitude and persevere.

Even if I can protect myself, I will never get out of the curse of insomnia for the rest of my life.

Yingying, don’t be so obsessed with it, okay?Then I'll just say it clearly. As long as you are still calling me brother, there is no such possibility between us!Yingying's expression finally changed.

She looked at me, as if she wanted to get some kind of answer from my face.

Then, she made a choice I didn't expect.

Gao Yu.This is the first time I heard Yingying call me by my name.

Just don't call your brother...My breathing stopped instantly and my heartbeat missed half a beat.

Gao Yu, I like you, I have liked you for a long time.I'm about to die.

There are only two roads left in front of me: accept Yingying's confession and break through the bottom line that Sister Juan once warned me; or completely reject Yingying and completely cut off the relationship with Yingying.

Yingying did not leave a middle way for me to walk.

She has been waiting for a long time, and she has tested it many times. What’s ridiculous is that I have always regarded our increasingly intimate relationship as a normal brother-sister relationship. I naively thought that Yingying’s closeness to me was just a ignorant favor, and she was still far away from developing to this point.

I was so wrong.

Yingying's feelings are like a ball of flame. If I refuse to accept this ball of flame, she will burn all of herself.

But I didn't realize it at all.

I, who claims to know Yingying best, ignore the subtle changes in the relationship we get along with.

I even helped the flame burn with my own hands. On the night when Yingying was drunk, I should have stopped directly to keep my calm to the greatest extent, but I saw Sister Juan's shadow from Yingying that night, which made me lose my original judgment and reason, and directly poured oil on this flame that was gradually out of control.

That's why Yingying's feelings heat up so quickly, and she used this confession so decisively to express her feelings.

Yingying had already shown up to me, and she no longer had any concealment or reservations about her feelings.

But I... was even more at a loss, and I didn't even know how to face her passionate relationship!

As if she noticed the entanglement on my face, Yingying's expression finally dimmed.

Brother... In the end, she changed back to the title she was most familiar with and closest to.

If, if this is acceptable to you, I can change my words and I can... endure it.

But you will always be my brother, I will never forget it, I will always remember it in my heart.

You can always reject me, but I will also keep waiting until the day when you are willing to accept me, or I finally give up.

I just hope you can really see me.Not as your sister, but as Chen Yingying.

Brother... Can I really be your sister?

I didn't dare to answer Yingying, and I didn't even dare to raise my head to face her tears at this moment.

Yingying's sob continued for a long time before she calmed down.

When she spoke again, her voice became a little dumb: The day after tomorrow, it’s my 18th birthday. Brother, you must remember it, right?

How could I forget that I even started picking gifts a month ago, and I just got them yesterday.

That day, my friends made an appointment to celebrate my adulthood for me outside.

Brother, this time I don’t want the gift you bought anymore. I want your attitude and an answer.

If you are willing... then come to me and I'll wait for you.

If you don't want to... then wait for me to come back, and then we will continue to be brothers and sisters, and you are still my good brother.

After saying this, Yingying left.

She had already packed her luggage and wanted to stay at her friend's house she just mentioned for a few days.These three days are the deadline she left for me to consider.

After Yingying left, I had no intention of going to college to attend classes. I stayed at home all the time, lying on the sofa and watching the mobile phone screen without any content, killing time in meaningless dullness.

I was the only one left in the room, the doors and windows were closed, and the closed space was so quiet that I could only hear my own heartbeat.

In three days, I couldn't make any decision.I have no friend to discuss, and it is even more impossible to tell Sister Juan about this. This is an option I ruled out from the beginning.

I even tried to call Sister Juan, but she was obviously still busy with work but couldn't hear the subtext I dare not speak out.

I dare not make it clear directly, because it means that I violated Sister Juan’s original warning and allowed the relationship between myself and Yingying to cross the line to this point today.

But I heard Sister Juan’s voice for a long time and heard Sister Juan’s routine concern and advice, which made me feel a little better.

Time came to the afternoon of the third day.

Yingying's birthday party starts at 7 pm.

With the last 2 hours left, I finally made a decision.

I can't accept Yingying's feelings.

It’s not that I don’t want to, but that I can’t.

Just as Sister Juan told me, she didn't know how to deal with it. If that day happened, the new relationship between me, Yingying and her three people changed, this is also the reason why she rejected me.

So do I...

I don’t know if I accept Yingying’s feelings, my sister Juan, my former lover, the person I still love now...

How would she view the more complicated relationship between us, and my mind change and betrayal?

I don’t know how to face Yingying, but I don’t know how to face Sister Juan.

So…that night, until 8 pm, I was still at home.

I am drinking, and only alcohol can make me forget the current time, my situation, and my feelings that have been let down...

But I still put my phone in the most conspicuous and accessible place, and I was waiting for the final judgment to arrive.

Time just walked until 9 pm.

There were already a bunch of empty cans around me, and my phone... didn't make any sound.

There is no more wine.I stood up shakingly and prepared to go to the supermarket downstairs to replenish the essentials of today's doomed sleepless night.

Then the door was knocked in such a coincidence-filled time.

My brain had been soaked in alcohol for five seconds before I could react.

Yingying is back?

While my brain was still crashing due to this news, my body had already taken action first.When I realized it, the door was already opened by my own hands.

But Yingying was not the only one standing outside the door.

Yingying was indeed back, but she was brought back with her back with her conscious mind on the shoulders of another person.

The person who supported Yingying looked as young as Yingying. His tall figure and short buzz cut made me misjudgment my gender for a while.

Are you Yingying’s brother?That Gao Yu?But the crisp and cold voice still clarified the gender of the visitor.

What are you doing when you stand there?Hurry up and help me, I'm almost unable to hold on..

The tall girl's crisp voice that was completely inconsistent with her neutral appearance finally reminded me, and I quickly stepped forward to take Yingying, whom she was holding.

Yingying looked completely unconscious, and there was a strong smell of wine on her body. The two of us planned to carry Yingying into her room directly, but Yingying suddenly started to retching on the way. In desperation, I carried Yingying on my shoulder and ran wildly towards the bathroom. Finally, I asked her to hold the toilet before she vomited it out.

Yingying vomited for a long time, but what she vomited was transparent liquid, which was just a more pungent smell of alcohol.

The tall girl who had been helping her hands on the side also said lightly after seeing this scene: She has vomited three times tonight, this is the fourth time.The first three times I had already vomited all the things I had eaten, and now I vomited all the wine she drank after she vomited.

I looked at her and couldn't help but use a reproachful tone: How could she drink so much wine?

It was what she wanted... In fact, we were all stopping her. No one planned to drink tonight because we were all afraid that something would happen to her.

The tall girl said, staring at me with a reproachful look, but we couldn't stop her, and no one dared to stop her.Because we all know that Yingying broke up tonight, she drank so much wine.Although no one knows who that man is... but all of us, especially those boys, and me, want to teach the bastard who makes Yingying so sad, if I know who he is...

I looked at the tall girl's obviously hostile eyes and unnaturally moved away.

How did you... come back.I can only change the subject.

Taking a taxi, I wasted a lot of time in order to make the driver willing to take us... Then I carried her over here from the entrance of the community. Yingying didn't want others to know her specific address, so I was the only one here.

The girl's answer was quite decisive, but she exuded a sharp look that matched her neutral appearance.

Why don't I call me, I'll answer...

How can you pick us up in your current state?The tall girl interrupted me and kicked away the empty wine can that rolled to her feet.

I was speechless.

Moreover, she didn't let me call you. She was waiting for you at the beginning. When I finally couldn't help but say that I was coming to find you, she still stopped me.Then she started drinking, not listening to anyone's advice, not even listening to me.

The tall girl said, unable to help but glar at me again.

I heard her muttering in a low voice: I really can't tell what you deserve to be her... But she was standing next to me, and the muttering sound was small, but it was enough for me to hear it clearly.

Yingying in the bathroom finally calmed down. This time, the tall girl didn't let me do it. She sent Yingying to the room alone, and didn't even let me enter Yingying's room.

After a moment, the tall girl walked out.

She fell asleep.After briefly explaining Yingying's situation, she walked straight towards me until she approached me.

Oh, I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Deng Lijun.It’s not Teresa Teng’s Li, but the other words are indeed the same. I will change this name sooner or later.

After a very personalized self-introduction, she stared at me again. I forgot to say just now, in fact, I was also heartbroken tonight.Although it was not the first time, I confessed my love to Yingying tonight and was rejected again.

She touched her hair, which was no different from a man and even shorter than me, with her hands, and said: I like Yingying, which is the kind of love for women, but I know Yingying will not accept me. In her eyes, I will only be her good friend and will not become a lover.So after today, I will give up completely.

But I'm still very unwilling to accept it!I was rejected by Yingying so many times, and every reason I had before was that she already had someone she liked.Today, she was dumped. The person she liked didn't want her, but she still refused me.

Deng Lijun stared at me and said in an angry tone: So I really want to see what kind of person is the man Yingying liked for so long and finally rejected her.Now... I'm really disappointed.

Then, she no longer had any concealment and said to me directly: What you are now really disappointing me, and it makes me sad for Yingying, feeling it is not worth it for her!

I have known her for a long time. Since we first met, I have been hearing your name from her, and I heard her chant "Brother" and "Brother" every day.

She always thought of you in her heart, and she pretended to be you.She hasn't changed her mind for so many years. Isn't you clear about this?

It was you who made Chen Yingying become like this, it was you who made her become like she only thinks about you, it was you who left her heart.

If you don’t want her, do you think... how much time does she have to forget you, and how much time does it take to start over?Deng Lijun finished these words in one breath.

She insisted on leaving because she didn't want to stay in the same room as her rival.

Before leaving, she left her last sentence: Take care of herself.The four simple words were deeply engraved into my heart.

After Deng Lijun left, I came to Yingying's room in silence.

Before I came, I subconsciously looked around, but all I saw was an empty wine can.But at this time, no matter how much alcohol is, I can't forget the sorrow in my heart.

But there are some things I have to say.

I sat beside Yingying's bed and looked at her face with her eyes closed.

Then, I spoke.

Sakura.

Do you remember the day we first met?I was surprised at the time because you were a little thinner than I thought. Do you still remember what I called you at that time?Little monkey... because you were really thin and small at that time, like a monkey.

Later you didn't like this name, and you are no longer the little girl who would have hung on me back then, and you may have forgotten it.

But I didn't forget.You have always been my sister, and you have never changed in my heart. You have always been the little girl that makes me feel distressed.

But you have grown up, you have grown up.

You have become beautiful and charming. You are my pride. You don’t know how proud I am when we both went out together and watching those people look at you.

But your thoughts have also changed. I only know that it is all because of me. Sometimes I can’t figure out whether I treat you as my sister or... But Yingying, you have always been my most important person, and this will never change.

I looked at Yingying, who was still closed her eyes but had changed her position at some point, and sighed: Can't you pretend to be asleep anymore?

Okay, I'm done, you keep sleeping, I'll leave... Before I finished speaking, I felt a hot ball rushing into my arms.

Don't leave!Brother, don’t leave!Stay, stay by my side, okay, don’t leave!Yingying's crying and tears quickly penetrated my chest.

I wanted to reach out to hug her, but I didn't dare to touch her body.

Now, I no longer know what is the right distance to get along with Yingying, and I am full of fear of every choice in front of me.

But the feeling of cherry blossoms is quickly infecting my body and mind.

Brother, I don’t want your answer anymore, I don’t want your answer anymore!I just need to be with you, as long as I can go back to the past!I'm not that greedy anymore. Don't leave, okay? Don't want me, okay... I sighed and still hugged Yingying's back.

But Yingying Ah has already made this step. If you want to go back... how easy is it?

I wanted to push Yingying away, but she resisted with greater strength.

don't want!I won't let you go!

I smiled bitterly and said: Then you have to let go of me too. Are we just sitting on the floor like this?

Yingying paused for a moment, and she suddenly raised her head and looked at me with wet eyes: Then... go to bed.

What is this girl talking about?

I wanted to refuse, but found that my eyes were inseparable from Yingying's body.

Wait, what did she take off her clothes?

No... Did she take off her clothes from the beginning? Then the warmth and softness of my arms were all...my breath became heavy.

This must be a problem of alcohol, it must be alcohol at work... I desperately denied my instinctive reaction, but could not resist Yingying traction and traction, and moved closer to the edge of the bed step by step.

No, no, I can't do this... My instinct easily broke through the obstacles of reason, driving my hands, and hugged Yingying's body even more tightly.

Yingying's breathing also became rapid.

She was already sitting on the bed, hooking one hand against my neck and the other hand against my waist.

It only takes one action...it only takes one thought...Brother.Yingying first called out a voice habitually, but this time, she changed her name to me.

Gao Yu... My reason was broken because of the appearance of these two words.

When I pressed Yingying's body, she closed her eyes, and the half sentence she couldn't say turned into a vague whisper, which seemed to have completely changed.

This moment.

Yingying is no longer my sister.

She is mine, sister lover.