Chapter 302 Yingying’s Log (II)

I suddenly wanted to drink at a high school classmate party, and my mind always looked like we were happy together in high school. At that time, he always had a weird smile on his face, which was bad and difficult to figure out. If he had anything to do, he would always make small fuss with me. He would ride his motorcycle to take me around everywhere, and would stick a note of marriage to me when I was not paying attention. Of course, the clearest memory of my memory was the time when he kissed me. In fact, I felt it very much, and my whole body was so nervous. But seeing his confused expression after kissing me, my self-esteem made me say nothing about it.

I don’t know how much I have drunk. Anyway, I really want to drink. I feel dizzy when I drink hard. When Mr. Zhang Qing turned to look at me, holding the wine glass and found that when he looked at me, he felt a sense of pleasure in his heart. Unfortunately, the pleasure didn’t last long, so I felt so uncomfortable. After vomiting in the bathroom, I wanted to continue drinking. The bastard didn’t let me drink it, and even snatched my wine. I scolded him, and didn’t give it to me, and even pinched it to me. I cried. I don’t know how strong I am?

Isn’t it just a drink? Why don’t I let me drink? I feel uncomfortable and I have no place to say, isn’t it okay to drink some wine by myself? Don’t you always say that it’s so easy to have some wine when you feel uncomfortable? What right do you have to prevent me from drinking!!!

His temper broke out again and threw the wine bottle on the wall, which scared me. I ran downstairs and cried for a long time and came to me. I didn't want him to see me crying!

So I laughed hard and told him I was fine, but as I smiled, tears still fell without any effort

He hugged me in front of his chest and patted me on the shoulder, telling me not to cry,

His chest was so warm. I really didn't want to leave. I lay on his chest and I could hear his rhythmic heartbeat. At that moment, I hope time can stop!

I suddenly remembered Qin Chu. I'm so sorry for her. I broke away from his arms and left with all my might. I jumped onto the motorcycle next to me and ran away. I looked back at him. He stood there in a daze under the night. My face, which was tear-slipping, was blown by the cold wind. It hurts. Zhang Qing, you bastard, why do you want to hug me?

At that time, I leaned my head on the wall behind and took a deep breath. My eyelids seemed to be a movie screen, and the contents in Yingying's text were reflected. That day, the north wind was accuse me, and the winter was tight. The dark night was spreading flat above me, with a few star lights embedded on it.

Yingying was crying quietly under the bare tree. I stepped forward and hugged her. Whenever I saw Yingying's tears, my heart hurts.

He and Qin Chu have been looking for me. Actually, I don’t want to escape something, I just want to be quiet for myself. I am not a quiet person, but sometimes I really want to calm down and think about something. When Zhang Qing found me, I was a little moved. He still remembered the location when we broke up. I know that he is also a nostalgic person.

School is about to start, so I stayed with my parents for a few more days. The first time I had such a strong urge to return to school. I used to be afraid of going back to school after holidays.

I seem to understand my emotions more and more. Zhang Qing, you still put me in your position as your brother, but I don’t seem to be. Do you know that you are a person who is good at hiding your emotions? Even though we have known each other for so long, I can’t tell whether you are happy or sad sometimes. You never express your mood on your face, nor do you know whether you are tired or not. During this period, every time I see you, I can feel that you have a lot of worries, but you never say it, no matter who you are to whom.

Now I seem to be used to this kind of life. I force myself not to contact Zhang Qing. Occasionally I will watch him play football secretly in the corner of the playground. Although he still plays so badly, I just want to see him. No matter what he is doing, whether it is eating or sleeping in class, it is him, Zhang Qing. I think I seem to have been like him all the time, but I haven't noticed it before, but what should I do now? Qin Chu is so good, and I am also a sister. What should I do? Who can help me?

Recently, I have become very anxious and have less and less contact with him. I suddenly find that he seems to be avoiding me. Why? Did I do something wrong?

Yesterday's dream was so terrible. He turned into a half-human and half-beast monster. He ate me in one bite. He said he was hungry, so I gave him food. Qin Chu also came, and she also started to tear my arms. Both of them had blood in their mouths, which scared me directly and was sweating. Zhang Qing, do you want to eat me?

Until now, my heart is still beating, and his words are still surrounding my ears. It turns out that your feelings for me have also changed. When I heard you say those words, do you know how excited I was? In the end, I couldn't help but say to you what I wanted to say most in a long time: I like you, but I thought about it and added: Only tonight because you have Qin Chu, you have to treat her well. I can see that she really loves you. She is gentler and beautiful than me, and has a higher temperament than me. Oh, I am a little Chaihuo girl. In your words, it is: Yingying, you are a crazy little girl.

So, you have to forget me, you have to be good with Qin Chu, and I will not leave you, because I can't try a life without you, and I will adjust my mentality with Qin Chu, and continue to be a good sister with her. Believe me, I believe in myself, Yingying, come on! Wipe your tears and show your shrew's energy! What kind of love and friendship is not, it's enough to be happy every day.

I want to keep myself busy. When I get busy, I won’t think of anything else. In the library, classroom, dormitory, I try my best to find things for myself. At worst, I can be a literary young woman and watch those messy world classics and try my best!

I'm still confused...

I want to say sorry to many people, I'm sorry to Qin Chu. I can't let myself forget Zhang Qing. No matter how hard I try to adjust, I find that I still like him, sorry to Zhang Qing. The promise I gave myself cannot be done, because I want to see you every day. Even if you have a back, I have to say sorry to myself. Let myself endure such great pain every day, but I can't tell others. I can only secretly shed some tears in the corner where others can't see. There is a saying that is right, people are selfish, and I also have my own selfishness. Is this love?

I haven't seen you for two days, and I didn't call me. After self-study, I ran to the back of the small tree near your dormitory building. I wanted to take a look at you secretly, but I stood there waiting like a rabbit in my heart. But when the dormitory door was almost closed, I didn't see you. But, what's wrong with me? Why did I reach this point? Second fool Yingying, will you die if you don't look at him?

I guess I was frozen when I was secretly waiting for Zhang Qing last night. My nose was not breathable and my throat was swollen. It seemed like I had a cold and my head began to dizzy. It was so uncomfortable...

Today, I finally saw my dad regain his mightyness back then. He was fucking with one punch and trembled. Both of them dared not fight back. I was about to help him, but my dad said: Do you still need your help?

If his brothers go together, I will beat them and call me Master

When he grew up so old, most of the time he had only heard others talk about his glorious deeds. He hadn't seen him a few times. Today he saw him, and his domineeringness leaked!

At the beginning, B was looking for trouble, shouting downstairs, my dad said, "Stand, don't move and go downstairs." That Lisao is definitely a 20-year-old monkey. After going downstairs, he found that B retreated for at least ten meters and jumped onto the street. He thought my dad dared not act in person, but unexpectedly, my dad jumped over and punched me. He was so happy that he was so happy that he trembled.

None of the brothers dared to take action, I followed him. If they dared to fight back, 120 would definitely be a free shuttle for them.

Those two are our business competitors and have been doing bad things behind their backs.

Today I was scared to those two SBs, they should have five or six more