Chapter 383

When my father was inserted for the first time, I had an unprecedented experience. I was not afraid of you being angry when I said it. After completing my first intercourse with my father, I realized what real sex was. At that time, I was always in struggle and psychological entanglement. I said that I did not put all my spirits on the experience of sex, but that feeling was unforgettable for my life even... Even when I was raped by my father, my body and mind actually appeared... There was an alternative and strong stimulation. The stimulation was the strongest at the first time, because that time was the time when I resisted the most and most reluctantly. The father also used strongness in the next few times, and each time it was more exciting than usual. I don’t know if you have noticed these situations when you watched the video, but I discovered them myself, and I have never been willing to admit it, but the feeling of the body cannot deceive myself...

After a while of silence, Xiaoying's tone was restrained and she took a deep breath and said, but the words she said were beyond my expectations again.

During the few times when Xiaoying was used by her father, I really found that Xiaoying's physical sensitivity had improved. However, every time Xiaoying and her father had sex, their physical reactions were very strong, but I didn't compare them carefully. Thanks to her father's strong sexual ability and her sexual needs that Xiaoying suppressed for a long time, I didn't expect that there would be such a difference. If Xiaoying didn't say it, I might never find out in my life that Xiaoying actually had the mentality of getting pleasure when she was raped?

So if she was suddenly raped by a stranger on the street, then... I can't imagine it, but I believe Xiaoying still has the bottom line, at least she doesn't want to be raped by a stranger. As for whether she will have a strong orgasm by being raped by a stranger, she doesn't know whether Pa herself is. After all, no one will use this to do a special experiment.

Since then, you've been out of control, right?

After hearing Xiaoying's words, I felt mixed emotions and couldn't help but ask. This sentence has a sarcastic meaning. I don't know if it was sarcastic or sarcastic.

Yes, after trying my first time with my father, although I hated my father and was very sad, since then, the scenes with my father and the unforgettable stimulation, I recall every day, and even whenever I think of that picture and feeling, my body will react. From then on, I knew that there would be no real sex between us. At least you can never give that feeling. You can't give that feeling physically because there is a gap between you and your father's body... and you can't give it psychologically. You are my husband, and it is natural to have sex with you. But my father is my father-in-law, and having sex with him is a taboo. It is this taboo relationship that will bring about a psychological stimulation. This physiological and psychological stimulation, and this taboo sex, did not decrease with the increase of the number of times my father had, but it became more and more intense. I don’t know why my father seemed to be a drug, making me more and more addicted. I found that I could not quit. But at that time, for you, I still decided to break off my relationship with my father. Please don’t doubt me about this. I really decided to break off my relationship with my father later, but...

But you suddenly discovered the dongle and surveillance video, saw the truth of the matter and the whole process, and saw your husband’s real face, right?

I interrupted and answered Xiaoying's words. After hearing my words, Xiaoying seemed to not know how to answer, because my words were self-deprecating. Xiaoying agreed no, nor did she not agree or not.

You keep talking... and then say...

I adjusted my mentality and stopped interrupting. This would make all my efforts tonight's conversation was wasted. Perhaps this is the only opportunity to understand Xiaoying's heart.

Later I discovered everything, found that the surveillance was installed at home, and found that all the actions and behaviors of my father and I had been exposed in your sight, so naked, and I discovered many things that I couldn't believe, especially the manipulator of all this, you know? Do you know what it is when I know the truth? Angry, disappointed, ashamed, helpless... I feel that my whole world and outlook on life have collapsed, especially seeing that my own husband has so many sides that I don't know, especially the person who knows that I am in a desperate situation, it is actuallyI love and trust the most, you can't understand the feeling at all. After I finally calmed down, I fell into a long period of sadness. At that time, all my guilt and debt towards you disappeared. All that was left was hatred. I won't say much about the specifics. At that time, you will definitely feel that after calming down, I am really disappointed with you, and more of it is hatred. May I have had so many relationships with my father, and I hate myself, but I start to hate you and myself, and I hate my father, and all the parties involved. Maybe I was too extreme at that time, but I just couldn't control my heart...

So I started to take revenge on you until... until you saw the AV video I recorded myself. All of this was intentional, in order to take revenge on you and my father. At that time, I seemed to be possessed and just wanted to destroy this family and let everyone die together, and be burned together...

Speaking of this, Xiaoying suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. Such a long narrative seemed to have consumed all her courage in her life. She expressed everything she thought in her heart under pressure and shame, but she still finished speaking. It was only at the last moment that she seemed a little scared, so she started to simplify the words a lot. At this time, I couldn't help but regret it. Perhaps it was because I just interrupted and my sarcastic behavior that dispelled Xiaoying's courage.

Then why have you regretted it now? I took care of me when I was hospitalized and saved my family. At the moment when I was self-harm, didn’t your goal be achieved? Isn’t the current practice contradictory? To be honest, Xiaoying, I don’t know which one is the real you…

But I still didn't give up. I tried hard to recall and judge the answers I wanted to know, and continued to ask Xiaoying. This opportunity may be the only one night this year

Also, I was very curious, who saved me that night? Is it you, father, or Leng Bingfrost? I remember that after I was self-harmed, at the speed of my bleeding, maybe in less than an hour, I would die because of the blood flowing out...

Then I asked another question, which was also a question that has been bothering me since I was saved. It was really something I didn't expect to be saved. When I waited for the last thought before I fell into a coma, I thought I would definitely die.

What I care more about is who saved me. After asking this question, the room fell into silence. Maybe it was Xiaoying thinking about how to answer, or maybe it was Xiaoying who didn't know how to answer, or Xiaoying was deciding whether to tell me the truth or lies...