Chapter 6 Yesterday Reappeared (9)

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wave

The gentle waves gently patted him, like my childhood mother singing lullaby and beating him to sleep

He was tempted by this monotonous rhythm and gradually sank, sinking...

Sink to the extreme deep seabed, sink to the dreamless sleep

He was already very tired, except for death, and he no longer prayed for any other gifts.

However, there is always a sound that appears and disappears, but it is always stubbornly present, disturbing his sleep:

Xiaoyu, wake up, I've been waiting for you...

Sorry, I don't know you've come back, I'm just, just... Anyway... I'm sorry...

There was a rustling sound, and the slender and warm fingers reached his forehead, tugging his hair, he held back, not moving, hoping that this man would leave disappointed

But the voice continued: Forgive me, okay? Will you forgive me, right? Although I can't forgive myself...

There was a dull collision sound beside him. The man seemed to be hitting his head against the wall with regret, and he couldn't help but move his eyelids. The small movement was immediately discovered. The man shook him violently and said in surprise: Xiaoyu, you are awake, aren't you? I know you are awake! Your eyelids were twitching just now!

He had to open his eyes, and what caught his eye was Qingxiao's eager eyes. As soon as the eyes of the two of them were docked, he immediately turned his head in a mess and avoided him.

However, Qingxiao's words finally found the listener, and he was willing to give up. He insisted on asking him to speak: Xiaoyu, are you angry? I know it's me that was bad, I blamed you for your mistake, but would you listen to my explanation? I thought you were going to save that bastard...

He could no longer hear Qingxiao be so nagging and blame himself for no reason, so he could only say: I'm not angry, you did nothing wrong

Qing Xiaoxi said: Then you forgive me? Xiaoyu, you are indeed back! I knew you must understand me!

The sunlight fell on that face, and the corners of the eyebrows were full of joy. He didn't dare to look at it, but he was reluctant to look at it. He took a breath. He raised his head calmly, looked straight into the eyes, and said indifferently: You have made a mistake, there is no Asami Yu here, I am... My name is...

He tried twice in a row, but he could not spit out the shameful name. He waved his hand meaninglessly in the air and said: I am that slave

The room suddenly became quiet for a while, and Qingxiao said carefully: Are you still angry? That's why I said that I was just...

Enough

stop

Let everything end

He said in the intercept: I'm very thirsty

Qingxiao immediately stood up and said: I'll pour you a glass of water

This man actually felt sorry for him, it was ridiculous

The water cup was handed to his hand, lukewarm and hot. Just now, Kiyoko was sitting beside him, staring at him with a bright look, and he was almost melted.

The hot gaze made him unable to lift his head, and he smiled bitterly: Can you go out? In front of you, I really... I can't drink it...

Qingxiao didn't immediately speak silent for a while before saying: Xiaoyu, are you okay?

He didn't say anything, just stared at the water cup in his hand

After waiting for a long time without a response, Qingxiao sighed and said with some regret: Okay, you can rest first and I'll go out

The door closed and he was finally the only one left in the world

Facing the heavy years and the unreliable past alone

He breathed a long sigh of relief, a trace of determination flashed in his eyes. He drank the water from the tow in one breath, and knocked the cup on the edge of the small table at the head of the bed. The cup cracked. He did not hesitate anymore, and turned the sharp glass fragments and slashed towards his throat.

When the cup was shattering, Qingxiao, who was waiting outside the door, immediately pushed the door and broke in. He happened to see him slashing his neck with broken glass.

No, Qingxiao screamed and rushed over

As soon as the glass stabbed the metal collar on his neck, Qingxiao's elbow was knocked open. The glass pulled a red mark from the neck to the chin Qingxiao did not hesitate. Regardless of the cutting of his hand, he snatched the broken glass in his hand, threw it on the ground, and stomped it into pieces.

Qingxiao breathed a little relieved, and when he looked at him, his eyes were red, and he said with a trembling voice: Xiaoyu, you...

He stared at Qingxiao's bloody hand, but after only a moment, he moved his eyes away, leaned dejectedly on the bed, Qingxiao could not see his face, he could only see his shoulders swaying slightly, as if crying, but he did not make any crying sounds

Qingxiao saw his back muscles tensed, as if he was competing with his fierce heart. From beginning to end, he did not make any sound. This silent cry made Qingxiao feel more painful than a loud shout.

Qingxiao slowly bent down, and as soon as his hand touched his shoulder, he spasmed violently, making a sound of breathing that seemed to have been stabbed by someone, curled up in a ball, avoiding his touch

His hands stopped stiffly in the air, and his heart was cold. At this moment, Qingxiao suddenly realized: he might be the person he didn't want to face the most

Qingxiao stood there blankly, for a moment, he had no idea where he was, staring at the person who was lying on the bed and refused to look at him, slowly arming himself, and said in a voice with dignity and grace as much as possible: I know you want to stay alone, you will feel uncomfortable here, but I can't just watch you and leave like this...

Speaking of this, his voice was a little choked, but he immediately stopped himself from silence for a while, sat down on the chair, rubbed his temples tiredly, and said: I know you are very tired, otherwise I will sleep for a while, I will not touch you again, nor will I make any noise. Just think I don’t exist.

He stared at the ceiling blankly and murmured: I don’t know what to say, I always seem to be doing stupid things... But I don’t know how to be smart, but...

The man on the bed moved a little, stretched out his body, but he still turned his back to him, unable to see his eyebrows and eyes clearly

He stared at the back in a daze and said, "What should I do if you leave?" If that's the case, we might as well stay on that island and don't come back. Do you know how I lived in the past few years?... Forget it, it's not interesting. I just want you to know that I wouldn't live well without you.

He spoke very calmly, his tone seemed to be saying that the weather was pretty good today. The man in bed didn't know if he listened, he didn't move, as if he was dead.

Qingxiao really wanted to reach out and touch it to try whether the body was still hot. Finally, she reluctantly held it back and sighed long and said: Don't treat me like this, you can't treat me like this... You can't treat me too unfairly. I've been waiting for you for a long time...

He said these words repeatedly, his eyes were a little dull, and suddenly laughed meaninglessly, saying: Look, I can't speak out, but you're always nagging. You must be annoyed by listening, right? But if these words are not told to you, who can I say to? From that day on, I was out of touch with the world and didn't study. My mentors and classmates were all disconnected and they had a quarrel with their family. If you don't want me, I don't know why I'm alive...

This time, he saw the man on the bed trembled a lot, hugged his chest with his hands, leaned forward without saying anything, and waited patiently for a long time, and finally heard a slight voice: You, you shouldn't be like this...

Qingxiao said quietly: I promised you that I will come back to save you. I will not forget that you have persisted, because I promised me that I will never give up? Now we are finally together...

He couldn't say anything, and his left hand, scratched by broken glass, was still bleeding. He put his injured fingers in his mouth and sucked them, folded them into small squares and pressed them tightly with a tissue.

The blood finally stopped. He breathed a long sigh and said: No matter what, since you have survived, let's live well. All the things have passed, right?

The person on the bed was silent, and after a while, he said softly: I don’t know how to survive...

The voice was low and dumb, and the mood seemed not very intense but it was dull, but it was even more worrying.

Qingxiao rubbed his face hard to make himself feel the strength, then slowly stretched out his hand, gently touched the man's shoulder, and the man shrank slightly, without avoiding it.

Kiyoko took a breath, increased his strength, calmly and firmly pulled the man over, making his voice as calm and powerful as possible: I don't know, but we can always find a way together

The man's long eyelashes trembled slightly, but he didn't open his eyes

Kiyoko looked at him nervously, feeling a little sweaty in his palms, he licked his dry lips and said: Me, can I kiss you?

The man made no sound, his face was expressionless, and his pale and cold face was like a jade carving

Qingxiao slowly bent down and approached the light water-colored lips little by little. When the other party suddenly opened his eyes and said lightly: This mouth is specially used for oral sex.

Qingxiao stopped and looked at him in disbelief.

He did not retreat under Qingxiao's stare, and even a smile appeared on his lips, with a little provocative meaning, saying: I have good oral sex skills, and I can have deep throats even if I lie down. No matter how high the other party's requirements are, I can also serve him so much that I am so eager to die that I have drunk more semen than water. Of course, that is my main task?

Qingxiao stood up silently, feeling his heart was burned by a small fire, he slowly clenched his hands, the trauma of his left hand broke again, and blood surged out

He glanced at Qingxiao's blood-dropped hands, continued to smile, and said: You should have seen it, right? At that time, didn't you go on the island all the time? I was on that platform, where I could see it all over the island, serving everyone and every beast on the island... You should see it very clearly? Do you think my service is very professional?

He unleashed his scars mercilessly, with bloody and cruel pleasure: Or the distance is too far, you didn't see it clearly? Then take a look now, it's this mouth that has sucked countless people's penis...

Qingxiao changed her color and shouted: Stop talking!

He suddenly stopped, his face still had a miserable smile, bathing in the white summer sunshine

Qingxiao could no longer help it, opened his arms, hugged him tightly, and said: Stop talking, don’t say it! Those things have passed, don’t punish yourself for other people’s mistakes...

He smiled bitterly, his voice finally trembled, and he said: What does it matter whose fault? Those things have happened, and they cannot be regarded as not happening before...

He choked and said: You, why do you have to remember me? Do you know how much time it took me to forget those...

Even though I held back again and again, tears still flowed down, wetting Qingxiao's clothes

Kiyoko hugged him tightly, trying to convey a little bit of strength as much as possible, and at the same time kept kissing his black hair, saying: Sorry, I'm too selfish, I always hope you can understand me quickly and respond to me... Is this good? I'll call out Kazuma Ninja and let him hypnotic you again and forget these? If those memories really make you so painful...

Before he finished speaking, he had already changed his tragic expression and shouted: No, no!

Qingxiao immediately hugged him tightly, kissed him hard, and slowly calmed down, saying in a trembling voice: I, I don’t want to see him, I don’t want to!

Qingxiao breathed a sigh of relief and said: OK, if you don’t see me, I don’t want you to see him. We will find another hypnotist. Anyway, he is not the only one who can…

He smiled bitterly and said: Forget it, since you have already remembered it, why forget it

He sighed and murmured: Didn’t those things happen if you pretend to be unable to remember them?

Hearing this sentence, Qingxiao's heart that had been hanging over was finally let go, let go of his hand slightly, and still hugged him, and said with a smile: It would be great that you could think like this! I knew that my Xiaoyu was the strongest, and that bastard couldn't beat you up...

When he heard Qingxiao mention that person, he couldn't help but even his soul trembled. He buried his head in Qingxiao's arms and whispered: Please, don't mention him, okay? Me, I...

Qingxiao secretly regretted that he had said the wrong thing and repeatedly said: OK, if you don’t mention it, the matter has passed, he can’t hurt you anymore...

His head was buried lower and he whispered: Qingxiao...

Um?

Can you agree to my request?

Say it, as long as I can do it

Could you please take me away? Take me out of here He snuggled in Qingxiao's arms, his whole body shrank into a ball, absorbing it as much as possible on Qingxiao's body, and said tremblingly, when he thought of that person... that person was in the basement, I...

Qingxiao hugged him tightly in response and said without hesitation: OK, let's go, I'll ask my uncle to send someone to guard him. He will never disturb us again. I will take you away. Go far away, go to Boston, go back to Harvard, and start our lives again...

The summer sun is so bright, Qingxiao is gradually immersed in his beautiful vision: Let's go back and rent the apartment you lived in before, and travel the places we have been to again. Didn't you say you wanted to travel around the world before? The power of time I will accompany you is very powerful, and no matter how deep the wound is, it will be smoothed by time. We will have a future, and we will definitely!

He said nothing, and gentle tears gradually soaked his eyes. Finally, he smiled and said: Ah, Qingxiao, know me, how unlucky you are!

He quietly snuggled in Qingxiao's arms, feeling the familiar warmth, and a voice whispered in his heart: I have no future, I only have you