The sun is very bright, he savors the coffee quietly, thinking about those who left, those who died, those who loved him, and those who loved him, and the thoughts spread endlessly, the aroma of coffee, the breath of dust, the smell of sunshine and the wind filled his chest
The city is crowded, and the heart is cold
This is the time to sit in meditation, singing the hymn of life in the quiet leisure and silence
He didn't notice that under the shade of the tree at the corner of the street, an inconspicuous old gray car was parked through the windshield, Qingxiao stared at Yu's figure intently and murmured: Xiaoyu, I'm so happy to see you like this...
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Yu's eyes flashed over the strange old car but did not stop, and of course he did not realize Qingxiao who was sitting in the car.
He smiled and stood up and walked towards the sunset. This was the first time he had felt freedom in his life
The tourists in the square in front of the exhibition hall have dispersed. Only one female teacher brought five or six children and was waiting for the bus stop. It seemed that it was next to a garbage can near the station from a tourist who came from other places. The empty drink can he threw down when he ran away in panic was still untied. A child kicked the few empty cans that fell out as balls, making a laugh from time to time.
Yu's face turned red, and he quickly walked over and picked up the empty drink cans one by one. Suddenly, a soft and soft voice said: Hi! Are you thirsty?
Yu looked up in shock. A little girl of five or six years old was standing in front of her. She had dark hair and dark eyes, and she had obvious oriental characteristics. She smiled and showed her two pointed tiger teeth. She handed him half a can of Coke in her hand: Let me drink it! Anyway, I can't finish it.
It's very natural and casual tone, and it seems that it's normal to give the rest to others
Yu was stunned for a moment, not knowing whether he should take it. The young female teacher had called out: Lilith, what are you doing? Come back soon!
Yu was surprised to find that the female teacher was speaking Japanese! She was about the age of twenties and was wearing a refreshing floral dress with gentle eyebrows and ponytails, her hair was combed into a ponytail, revealing her broad forehead.
The little girl named Lilith wrinkled her nose and said: Don't you? Then I'll leave!
Yu Yixiao took it and said: Thank you, and drank the remaining half can of Coke in one go, throwing the empty can into the plastic bag
The female teacher hurried over, took Lilith's hand, and scolded: How can you give someone your leftover drink? Why don't you apologize to someone else?
This time she spoke English. Although she spoke fluently and fast, she still sounded very strong Japanese accent.
So Yu also replied in Japanese: It doesn't matter. Although I am not thirsty, I do need an empty coke can.
The female teacher suddenly looked up and stared at her eyes widened: You are Japanese!
The shocked and excited expression on her face made Yu feel warm. She remembered the scene when she first met Qingxiao on campus, and she smiled unconsciously
The female teacher said in surprise: I really didn’t expect that there were very few Japanese people here, Ah, I mean, I met very few Japanese people... There are many Asians, but none of them are Japanese...
She said this in one breath and found the garbage bag in Yu's hand, frowned and said: Why are you collecting garbage? You are young, it's not good to do something...
She suddenly covered her mouth, with two blush on her face, and she said in a hurry: Sorry, I said the wrong thing, it's so rude...
Yu was originally nervous, but this girl looked shy than him, which made him much more relaxed. She was about to answer, and a black boy who had just kicked a coke can came over bored: Amy, how long will we have to wait?
Amy's face turned red again and said: We just left the exhibition hall a little late. There was a bus just now. It was a bit late. There was only the last bus. We had to wait for about 40 minutes.
The little boy whistled and said: Wow, Amy, you are too awesome, let us wait for so long! You know that you are biased towards Lilith, but you can't let all of us wait for her to play with the telescope for a few more minutes, right?
Lilith curled her lips and said: Is that right? It seems that everyone is gathering in the hall, waiting for you to go to the bathroom alone? Can't you just hold it back to take care of everyone?
Several other children laughed out loud, the black boy blushed, and Amy comforted with a good temper: This time it was Amy, so we should leave enough time. We will pay attention to this next time. Let's go to the grass over there and sit for a while. Can I tell you a story?
Amid the cheers, the little black boy stuck out his tongue and said: OK, it's OK, but Amy's better speak slowly. Sometimes I really don't understand what you are saying.
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The little boy spoke a little exaggeratedly. Amy's basic English communication was still fine. Occasionally, he wouldn't remember the words stuck. Yu had nothing to do, so he spoke to her to remind her. Amy looked at him in surprise. After telling a small story, he let the children play hide-and-seek by themselves and started chatting with Yu Youyou.
She is indeed Japanese, Amy is her English name, Lilith is her niece. She originally worked in a kindergarten in Japan. A year ago, she received a call from her brother-in-law and learned that her sister had died suddenly. She was worried and resigned and came to the United States to take care of her niece. The United States was not easy to find. However, the kindergarten was short of it. She simply set up a family-style job and took five or six children, enough to make a living.
Her English is not very good, and most of the kindergarten is run for her niece. A few children have fun with Lilith and many of them are here to watch the exhibition this time. Lilith is pestering her and wants to come, so she took a long-distance bus for more than an hour and rushed over from a nearby town. No wonder some children are jealous.
Yu heard it strangely, why did Lilith's father not fulfill his responsibilities and make a girl work so hard? But it was inconvenient to ask more questions every time Amy mentioned her brother-in-law, and she also spoke indifferently, and seemed to disapprove of her.
He was puzzled, but he saw Amy raise his eyebrows and look inquiring, and said: Well, I don’t know if it’s rude to ask this question. If you don’t want to answer, you can’t answer. I think you are a good person in English and a gentle person. Why don’t you find a job? You won’t starve to death when you work casually. This is not what I mean, but people should…
Seeing her searching for words and sentences, Yu couldn't help but laugh: Don't be so tactful, I know what you mean, people should work hard just...
He thought about it, but he said vaguely: But I don’t know how to contact people...
His voice gradually lowered: Actually, I am afraid of contacting people...
Amy stared at him in confusion for a while, then suddenly realized and shouted: Did you smuggle?
Yu Yidai, didn't expect she would think about that place
Seeing that he didn't speak, Amy thought he had guessed and whispered: You don't have an identity? Don't worry, I won't say it out, everyone comes from the same place, I will definitely help you
She pondered for a moment and said: Otherwise, you can come to my kindergarten to help me?
Yu was stunned and said for a while: You...you just trust me so much? What if I am a bad person? What if...
Amy's eyes circulated and said funny: I have never seen anyone say that he is a bad person, and I will thank him if I drink the little girl's leftover coke, and then I feel like I'm easily bullied?
She raised her delicate eyebrows, pursed her lips and smiled: Compared to this, I think you seem to be bullied
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When I arrived in M City, Yu found that the locals like Amy, a gentle and friendly oriental woman with a gentle smile. Ethan, a young man who used the summer to volunteer in the church, was especially attentive and often helped Amy do this and that. Yu suspected that he was Amy's suitor, but Amy denied it.
The family-style kindergarten she opened was next to the church. She rented a two-story house. The first floor, basement and the outside yard were converted into a playroom and a playground suitable for children to play. She had to clean such a big house and take care of five or six children. It was really hard for a girl. Strangely, Lilith's father didn't seem to care much. At least Yu hadn't seen him come here to see his daughter for two or three weeks, so he only called him occasionally.
Amy is not a native, and her English is not her native language. Her only advantage is that her service is more thoughtful and caring. Every morning, she will take the initiative to pick up the children who are too busy to send their children to kindergarten. She prepares lunch for the children at noon and sends pastries before leaving in the afternoon so that the children can take them to eat on the road so that they can avoid crying. Since Yu came, these have become his business. Sometimes he will tell stories, sing and play games to the children on behalf of Amy.
He is happy to provide Amy with the best help he can, and is proud of it. This job is the easiest thing he has ever done. He does not have to deal with tricky customers, does not have to calculate risks in the business world, and does not have to be wary of his family with ulterior motives. He is only facing a group of children who are just starting out in their lives. All his emotions are direct. If he likes him, he will hug him and kiss him. Even if he is a trick, he just wants to win more attention from him.
Yes, I know they deliberately spread the spaghetti all over the table, and even made their faces dirty, just so that I could go over and wipe them clean, holding their hands to take them to wash their faces, because last time Lilith knocked over salad sauce, I did this Ah, and children would be jealous, especially Amy's bias towards Lilith is so obvious, they all look forward to finding comfort from me
After everything was settled, Yu began to contact Qingxiao by email and told him about his recent situation so that he would not worry about talking about trivial things in life every day. However, one writes it as a big article. Fortunately, Qingxiao is not annoyed, and he would reply a big article enthusiastically every time, which made him embarrassed. So he wrote it longer and longer every night before going to bed. Receiving and writing letters became his routine. Summarizing the day's life and accepting the comfort of his lover, it would be a joy for life.
At this moment, he typed these words at the computer under the lamp, thinking that Qingxiao must have been waiting in another place to receive the letter, fantasizing about the other person's mood and even his smile, a trace of gentle feelings rose from the bottom of his heart. Because of the distance of space, longing was piled up thicker and thicker, covering every inch of time between him and him
The tenderness and sweetness filled his heart. He had to stop and calm the touch, and then he continued to type: I think, I can know this because I had the same experience when I was a child. I also deliberately tore my socks and shattered the vase, just hoping that my father would take a look at me more, maybe he would notice how childish he is when he thinks about it now.
He smiled alone at the computer screen: But of course there was no such pain as I wished. I used to think that it would never pass, but now I can feel relieved because of you, and Qingxiao, because of those children, it feels so good to be needed by others.
Why did I regard it as a life principle in the past, never asking for help or taking the initiative to provide help to others? It is a kind of coolness to think that it is neither owed to others nor owed to others. In fact, it is just a timid because I don’t have the ability to love others and cannot pay attention to other people’s needs. In order to conceal this failure, I would say that I don’t need it at all. Who in this world will love too much? I just worry that I can’t bear it, so I timidly reject you. When Amy believes in me so simply, how touched and accepted I am, it turns out that it is a kind of happiness.
He stopped and stroked the flame ring on his hand with cherishing care. Everything was resurrected: joy and pain, smile and tears, attachment and sorrow
He was grateful to God for this. After so many things, his heart was still not numb and he still had the opportunity to love and be loved.
However, among these children, what I cherish the most is that Lilith is not a very gentle and obedient child. She is very stubborn and a bit arrogant and domineering, like a little wild cat. But I know that she is very lonely and afraid. When her mother passed away, her father ignored her. Even if there is an aunt who loves her, she cannot replace her parents' love.
She reminded me of myself when I was a child. Although I tried not to be biased when other children were there, I always hoped that she would be happier and happier than now. Her father said that he would come to see her at the end of the month, and this father only came once a month. I really hoped to find an opportunity to talk to him once, because Amy seemed to have a misunderstanding with him. I don’t know if I could do it? Qingxiao, bless me, you are always with me.
He sighed and gently pressed the button and sent the letter out. In fact, he had just arrived for two or three weeks and found the parents of the child to say these words. Isn't it too rash? Amy said that Lilith's father is not an easy person to deal with.
Yu couldn't help but regret it. Maybe he should have written a letter to ask Qingxiao for advice, instead of making such a reckless decision that the yellow light shines on his soft and pure silhouette. He unconsciously turned the ring on his finger and fell into deep thought.
No, he still likes the feeling of making decisions alone. Although he still makes his palm sweat when he wants to talk to a difficult stranger, Qingxiao... He smiled slightly, he knew Qingxiao would definitely support him.
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That day, Lilith wore a pink fluffy skirt, her long black hair tied up with a ribbon, she was as beautiful as a little princess, and she was surprisingly well-behaved all day long. Even the naughty black boy deliberately stepped on her white shoes without scolding him. Just wipe it clean by quietly, but it made the prank little boy a little embarrassed.
After six o'clock, all the children were picked up by their parents. Yu closed the door and joked: Why are you so well-behaved today? Do you want your father to come and praise you? Well, don't worry, I will definitely say a few more good things to you.
Lilith looked at him silently and said calmly: He hasn't come yet, so he means he won't come.
Yu was slightly surprised, took a step back, looking at her dark eyes. If she screamed and cried, he would understand better.
He looked at the overly quiet girl at a loss, and the other party muttered: Every time he comes, he will pick many people, kiss me and hug me in front of everyone, so that they all look at me enviously
She curled her lips and said, "He thought it was cool, so I had to dress up like a Barbie doll and wait for him. I'm so troublesome.
She kicked off the white leather shoes in a few seconds and shouted: I hate these leather shoes the most, it hurts my feet!
Yu walked over and picked her up, trying his best to bring out a relaxed smile: Then change your sneakers, little fool
Lilith's pink little hands grabbed his arm, and her tender body trembled gently in his arms, like a little pigeon trapped in a cage and fluttered desperately. After a while, tears poured out from her eyes, wet Yu's shoulders and asked with sobs: Uncle, why don't dad like me?
Yu felt mixed emotions and had a long time to squeeze out a sentence: This is not your fault...
Lilith looked up at him with tears in her eyes, her eyes were like black grapes soaked in water, and Yu felt his heart hurt. She used to feel that Qingxiao could not understand him and could not give him enough comfort. Now she realized that even if she had the same experience, she could not comfort the girl in front of her.
All the confusion can only be seen by yourself, and others can't do anything for you.
The voice from next door seemed to be a quarrel. At first, there was a little scruple, but gradually heavier and heavier Yu never thought that Amy, who had always been gentle, could make such anger, as if the phone was dropped. Amy walked out angrily, looking at Lilith's eyes red, adjusting her breathing evenly, and slowing down her voice: Your father called and said he couldn't come to see you. Next time he said he had something important to deal with. It was at a critical moment and he couldn't get out of his body.
A sarcastic smile appeared on her pretty face: I don't know, what's more important than his only daughter.
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It's fake to say you're not angry
Yu thought at that time that no matter how difficult the other party was, as long as he could see him, he must say that what he didn't expect was that the other party came in advance this time. Just three days later, this father, who was plagued by Pepsi, came to M City.
As soon as he entered the door, Yu saw a tall and burly figure sitting with his back to the sun, his whole body falling in the shadow, unable to see his eyebrows and eyes clearly, but he suddenly had a very strange feeling, like a jungle beast smelling danger, or as if he had seen someone familiar and strange.
He suddenly felt a little scared. He was originally indignantly trying to blame the irresponsible parent, but was overwhelmed by an inexplicable fear. He had to control himself with all his might to stop his impulse to run outward
He quietly moved back a few steps and wanted to exit the door quietly. At this time, the man had noticed him. The moment his eyes fell on him, the man's muscles tensed, but he didn't say anything, but just owed his body and slowly stood up from the shadows.
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It has been written so far, and it has exceeded 310,000 words. It is estimated that there will be about 30,000 words left. The full text is very hard for everyone to follow the article. Some of them have been pursuing it from the beginning and have been pursuing it for more than a year.
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The city is crowded, and the heart is cold
This is the time to sit in meditation, singing the hymn of life in the quiet leisure and silence
He didn't notice that under the shade of the tree at the corner of the street, an inconspicuous old gray car was parked through the windshield, Qingxiao stared at Yu's figure intently and murmured: Xiaoyu, I'm so happy to see you like this...
********************
Yu's eyes flashed over the strange old car but did not stop, and of course he did not realize Qingxiao who was sitting in the car.
He smiled and stood up and walked towards the sunset. This was the first time he had felt freedom in his life
The tourists in the square in front of the exhibition hall have dispersed. Only one female teacher brought five or six children and was waiting for the bus stop. It seemed that it was next to a garbage can near the station from a tourist who came from other places. The empty drink can he threw down when he ran away in panic was still untied. A child kicked the few empty cans that fell out as balls, making a laugh from time to time.
Yu's face turned red, and he quickly walked over and picked up the empty drink cans one by one. Suddenly, a soft and soft voice said: Hi! Are you thirsty?
Yu looked up in shock. A little girl of five or six years old was standing in front of her. She had dark hair and dark eyes, and she had obvious oriental characteristics. She smiled and showed her two pointed tiger teeth. She handed him half a can of Coke in her hand: Let me drink it! Anyway, I can't finish it.
It's very natural and casual tone, and it seems that it's normal to give the rest to others
Yu was stunned for a moment, not knowing whether he should take it. The young female teacher had called out: Lilith, what are you doing? Come back soon!
Yu was surprised to find that the female teacher was speaking Japanese! She was about the age of twenties and was wearing a refreshing floral dress with gentle eyebrows and ponytails, her hair was combed into a ponytail, revealing her broad forehead.
The little girl named Lilith wrinkled her nose and said: Don't you? Then I'll leave!
Yu Yixiao took it and said: Thank you, and drank the remaining half can of Coke in one go, throwing the empty can into the plastic bag
The female teacher hurried over, took Lilith's hand, and scolded: How can you give someone your leftover drink? Why don't you apologize to someone else?
This time she spoke English. Although she spoke fluently and fast, she still sounded very strong Japanese accent.
So Yu also replied in Japanese: It doesn't matter. Although I am not thirsty, I do need an empty coke can.
The female teacher suddenly looked up and stared at her eyes widened: You are Japanese!
The shocked and excited expression on her face made Yu feel warm. She remembered the scene when she first met Qingxiao on campus, and she smiled unconsciously
The female teacher said in surprise: I really didn’t expect that there were very few Japanese people here, Ah, I mean, I met very few Japanese people... There are many Asians, but none of them are Japanese...
She said this in one breath and found the garbage bag in Yu's hand, frowned and said: Why are you collecting garbage? You are young, it's not good to do something...
She suddenly covered her mouth, with two blush on her face, and she said in a hurry: Sorry, I said the wrong thing, it's so rude...
Yu was originally nervous, but this girl looked shy than him, which made him much more relaxed. She was about to answer, and a black boy who had just kicked a coke can came over bored: Amy, how long will we have to wait?
Amy's face turned red again and said: We just left the exhibition hall a little late. There was a bus just now. It was a bit late. There was only the last bus. We had to wait for about 40 minutes.
The little boy whistled and said: Wow, Amy, you are too awesome, let us wait for so long! You know that you are biased towards Lilith, but you can't let all of us wait for her to play with the telescope for a few more minutes, right?
Lilith curled her lips and said: Is that right? It seems that everyone is gathering in the hall, waiting for you to go to the bathroom alone? Can't you just hold it back to take care of everyone?
Several other children laughed out loud, the black boy blushed, and Amy comforted with a good temper: This time it was Amy, so we should leave enough time. We will pay attention to this next time. Let's go to the grass over there and sit for a while. Can I tell you a story?
Amid the cheers, the little black boy stuck out his tongue and said: OK, it's OK, but Amy's better speak slowly. Sometimes I really don't understand what you are saying.
********************
The little boy spoke a little exaggeratedly. Amy's basic English communication was still fine. Occasionally, he wouldn't remember the words stuck. Yu had nothing to do, so he spoke to her to remind her. Amy looked at him in surprise. After telling a small story, he let the children play hide-and-seek by themselves and started chatting with Yu Youyou.
She is indeed Japanese, Amy is her English name, Lilith is her niece. She originally worked in a kindergarten in Japan. A year ago, she received a call from her brother-in-law and learned that her sister had died suddenly. She was worried and resigned and came to the United States to take care of her niece. The United States was not easy to find. However, the kindergarten was short of it. She simply set up a family-style job and took five or six children, enough to make a living.
Her English is not very good, and most of the kindergarten is run for her niece. A few children have fun with Lilith and many of them are here to watch the exhibition this time. Lilith is pestering her and wants to come, so she took a long-distance bus for more than an hour and rushed over from a nearby town. No wonder some children are jealous.
Yu heard it strangely, why did Lilith's father not fulfill his responsibilities and make a girl work so hard? But it was inconvenient to ask more questions every time Amy mentioned her brother-in-law, and she also spoke indifferently, and seemed to disapprove of her.
He was puzzled, but he saw Amy raise his eyebrows and look inquiring, and said: Well, I don’t know if it’s rude to ask this question. If you don’t want to answer, you can’t answer. I think you are a good person in English and a gentle person. Why don’t you find a job? You won’t starve to death when you work casually. This is not what I mean, but people should…
Seeing her searching for words and sentences, Yu couldn't help but laugh: Don't be so tactful, I know what you mean, people should work hard just...
He thought about it, but he said vaguely: But I don’t know how to contact people...
His voice gradually lowered: Actually, I am afraid of contacting people...
Amy stared at him in confusion for a while, then suddenly realized and shouted: Did you smuggle?
Yu Yidai, didn't expect she would think about that place
Seeing that he didn't speak, Amy thought he had guessed and whispered: You don't have an identity? Don't worry, I won't say it out, everyone comes from the same place, I will definitely help you
She pondered for a moment and said: Otherwise, you can come to my kindergarten to help me?
Yu was stunned and said for a while: You...you just trust me so much? What if I am a bad person? What if...
Amy's eyes circulated and said funny: I have never seen anyone say that he is a bad person, and I will thank him if I drink the little girl's leftover coke, and then I feel like I'm easily bullied?
She raised her delicate eyebrows, pursed her lips and smiled: Compared to this, I think you seem to be bullied
********************
When I arrived in M City, Yu found that the locals like Amy, a gentle and friendly oriental woman with a gentle smile. Ethan, a young man who used the summer to volunteer in the church, was especially attentive and often helped Amy do this and that. Yu suspected that he was Amy's suitor, but Amy denied it.
The family-style kindergarten she opened was next to the church. She rented a two-story house. The first floor, basement and the outside yard were converted into a playroom and a playground suitable for children to play. She had to clean such a big house and take care of five or six children. It was really hard for a girl. Strangely, Lilith's father didn't seem to care much. At least Yu hadn't seen him come here to see his daughter for two or three weeks, so he only called him occasionally.
Amy is not a native, and her English is not her native language. Her only advantage is that her service is more thoughtful and caring. Every morning, she will take the initiative to pick up the children who are too busy to send their children to kindergarten. She prepares lunch for the children at noon and sends pastries before leaving in the afternoon so that the children can take them to eat on the road so that they can avoid crying. Since Yu came, these have become his business. Sometimes he will tell stories, sing and play games to the children on behalf of Amy.
He is happy to provide Amy with the best help he can, and is proud of it. This job is the easiest thing he has ever done. He does not have to deal with tricky customers, does not have to calculate risks in the business world, and does not have to be wary of his family with ulterior motives. He is only facing a group of children who are just starting out in their lives. All his emotions are direct. If he likes him, he will hug him and kiss him. Even if he is a trick, he just wants to win more attention from him.
Yes, I know they deliberately spread the spaghetti all over the table, and even made their faces dirty, just so that I could go over and wipe them clean, holding their hands to take them to wash their faces, because last time Lilith knocked over salad sauce, I did this Ah, and children would be jealous, especially Amy's bias towards Lilith is so obvious, they all look forward to finding comfort from me
After everything was settled, Yu began to contact Qingxiao by email and told him about his recent situation so that he would not worry about talking about trivial things in life every day. However, one writes it as a big article. Fortunately, Qingxiao is not annoyed, and he would reply a big article enthusiastically every time, which made him embarrassed. So he wrote it longer and longer every night before going to bed. Receiving and writing letters became his routine. Summarizing the day's life and accepting the comfort of his lover, it would be a joy for life.
At this moment, he typed these words at the computer under the lamp, thinking that Qingxiao must have been waiting in another place to receive the letter, fantasizing about the other person's mood and even his smile, a trace of gentle feelings rose from the bottom of his heart. Because of the distance of space, longing was piled up thicker and thicker, covering every inch of time between him and him
The tenderness and sweetness filled his heart. He had to stop and calm the touch, and then he continued to type: I think, I can know this because I had the same experience when I was a child. I also deliberately tore my socks and shattered the vase, just hoping that my father would take a look at me more, maybe he would notice how childish he is when he thinks about it now.
He smiled alone at the computer screen: But of course there was no such pain as I wished. I used to think that it would never pass, but now I can feel relieved because of you, and Qingxiao, because of those children, it feels so good to be needed by others.
Why did I regard it as a life principle in the past, never asking for help or taking the initiative to provide help to others? It is a kind of coolness to think that it is neither owed to others nor owed to others. In fact, it is just a timid because I don’t have the ability to love others and cannot pay attention to other people’s needs. In order to conceal this failure, I would say that I don’t need it at all. Who in this world will love too much? I just worry that I can’t bear it, so I timidly reject you. When Amy believes in me so simply, how touched and accepted I am, it turns out that it is a kind of happiness.
He stopped and stroked the flame ring on his hand with cherishing care. Everything was resurrected: joy and pain, smile and tears, attachment and sorrow
He was grateful to God for this. After so many things, his heart was still not numb and he still had the opportunity to love and be loved.
However, among these children, what I cherish the most is that Lilith is not a very gentle and obedient child. She is very stubborn and a bit arrogant and domineering, like a little wild cat. But I know that she is very lonely and afraid. When her mother passed away, her father ignored her. Even if there is an aunt who loves her, she cannot replace her parents' love.
She reminded me of myself when I was a child. Although I tried not to be biased when other children were there, I always hoped that she would be happier and happier than now. Her father said that he would come to see her at the end of the month, and this father only came once a month. I really hoped to find an opportunity to talk to him once, because Amy seemed to have a misunderstanding with him. I don’t know if I could do it? Qingxiao, bless me, you are always with me.
He sighed and gently pressed the button and sent the letter out. In fact, he had just arrived for two or three weeks and found the parents of the child to say these words. Isn't it too rash? Amy said that Lilith's father is not an easy person to deal with.
Yu couldn't help but regret it. Maybe he should have written a letter to ask Qingxiao for advice, instead of making such a reckless decision that the yellow light shines on his soft and pure silhouette. He unconsciously turned the ring on his finger and fell into deep thought.
No, he still likes the feeling of making decisions alone. Although he still makes his palm sweat when he wants to talk to a difficult stranger, Qingxiao... He smiled slightly, he knew Qingxiao would definitely support him.
********************
That day, Lilith wore a pink fluffy skirt, her long black hair tied up with a ribbon, she was as beautiful as a little princess, and she was surprisingly well-behaved all day long. Even the naughty black boy deliberately stepped on her white shoes without scolding him. Just wipe it clean by quietly, but it made the prank little boy a little embarrassed.
After six o'clock, all the children were picked up by their parents. Yu closed the door and joked: Why are you so well-behaved today? Do you want your father to come and praise you? Well, don't worry, I will definitely say a few more good things to you.
Lilith looked at him silently and said calmly: He hasn't come yet, so he means he won't come.
Yu was slightly surprised, took a step back, looking at her dark eyes. If she screamed and cried, he would understand better.
He looked at the overly quiet girl at a loss, and the other party muttered: Every time he comes, he will pick many people, kiss me and hug me in front of everyone, so that they all look at me enviously
She curled her lips and said, "He thought it was cool, so I had to dress up like a Barbie doll and wait for him. I'm so troublesome.
She kicked off the white leather shoes in a few seconds and shouted: I hate these leather shoes the most, it hurts my feet!
Yu walked over and picked her up, trying his best to bring out a relaxed smile: Then change your sneakers, little fool
Lilith's pink little hands grabbed his arm, and her tender body trembled gently in his arms, like a little pigeon trapped in a cage and fluttered desperately. After a while, tears poured out from her eyes, wet Yu's shoulders and asked with sobs: Uncle, why don't dad like me?
Yu felt mixed emotions and had a long time to squeeze out a sentence: This is not your fault...
Lilith looked up at him with tears in her eyes, her eyes were like black grapes soaked in water, and Yu felt his heart hurt. She used to feel that Qingxiao could not understand him and could not give him enough comfort. Now she realized that even if she had the same experience, she could not comfort the girl in front of her.
All the confusion can only be seen by yourself, and others can't do anything for you.
The voice from next door seemed to be a quarrel. At first, there was a little scruple, but gradually heavier and heavier Yu never thought that Amy, who had always been gentle, could make such anger, as if the phone was dropped. Amy walked out angrily, looking at Lilith's eyes red, adjusting her breathing evenly, and slowing down her voice: Your father called and said he couldn't come to see you. Next time he said he had something important to deal with. It was at a critical moment and he couldn't get out of his body.
A sarcastic smile appeared on her pretty face: I don't know, what's more important than his only daughter.
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It's fake to say you're not angry
Yu thought at that time that no matter how difficult the other party was, as long as he could see him, he must say that what he didn't expect was that the other party came in advance this time. Just three days later, this father, who was plagued by Pepsi, came to M City.
As soon as he entered the door, Yu saw a tall and burly figure sitting with his back to the sun, his whole body falling in the shadow, unable to see his eyebrows and eyes clearly, but he suddenly had a very strange feeling, like a jungle beast smelling danger, or as if he had seen someone familiar and strange.
He suddenly felt a little scared. He was originally indignantly trying to blame the irresponsible parent, but was overwhelmed by an inexplicable fear. He had to control himself with all his might to stop his impulse to run outward
He quietly moved back a few steps and wanted to exit the door quietly. At this time, the man had noticed him. The moment his eyes fell on him, the man's muscles tensed, but he didn't say anything, but just owed his body and slowly stood up from the shadows.
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