January 10, 2014:
Recently, it is not convenient to do anything with a big belly and a normal appetite. My body always feels listless and weak, but this is nothing. What really makes me worry is Jiayuan's various words and deeds and actions.
After New Year's Day, he was selected by his leader and promoted to office director. Three years of hard work and hard work finally brought fruitful results. I am happy for him from the bottom of my heart.
But he didn't feel excited, but instead seemed to have lost the election. He was worried every day and looked full of worries. He often looked pale and didn't say a word for a long time. And I also found that he always avoided my gaze intentionally or unintentionally, as if he had done something wrong. Every time he looked at him, a hint of panic and sadness flashed in his eyes.
I asked several times, and he said that it was because he was a little stressful and unable to keep up with his energy in order to get a promotion, which led to a little dazed and a little discomfort in his stomach. He was afraid that I would worry about affecting the care of the baby, so he didn't tell me in detail
Although I was skeptical, I thought that no matter what, he would not lie to me. There may be some tricky things at work, and it is not convenient to tell me, so I am like this. I can't help with a big belly, so I can only comfort and spend more time with him. There is a universal magic weapon in my belly. Every time I touch my round belly and talk to him about my baby, he will show rare ease and joy.
After dinner last night, we leaned together to watch TV chat. The play was played by Donnie Yen's "Ip Man 1". Although I watched it a few years ago, it still seems to be enjoyable again. In addition to the wonderful action scenes, there are also various changes and persistences in life after a sudden change in life. They are portrayed well. When I was still worried about the fate of Ip Man after being shot, Liu Jiayuan suddenly asked: Zhiyi, how about you, Li Zhao in the movie?
I was slightly surprised and said in confusion: Why do you ask about this? He touched my belly and rubbed it twice quickly, and asked anxiously: I just suddenly became interested in this character and felt it was quite real.
Very plump, so I want to hear how you evaluate him?
I smiled slightly and said: Oh, I have been with my Chinese-taught wife for a long time and have learned to analyze the characters.
He smiled embarrassedly, and I leaned tighter into his arms and continued: Li Zhao, I don’t think he is a person who is simply good or bad. He represents the helplessness and compromise of a large number of people in that chaotic world where the Japanese invaders were rampant. He was forced to live a life and become a lackey translation. However, the kindness in his heart was not lost. In the end, he used his life and the awakened national morality to complete the redemption. Therefore, I also think that Li Zhao’s figure is very real, and his national integrity is inadequate, but he has not completely destroyed the bottom line and conscience.
After saying that, after a few seconds, I heard that he did not respond. I raised my head curiously, but found that he was staring at the TV in a daze, his eyes were dull and motionless. I quickly pushed him twice and said in a sweet voice: Hello, hey, what are you thinking? Pay attention to classroom discipline and disregard numbers in class. I am too disrespectful to the "wife and teacher". Do you dislike me for not saying it well!
He then came back to his senses and replied hurriedly: No... No, wife, you said it very well, very professional. I just thought of the people in life. Although it is a peaceful and well-off society now, many people will also encounter some major changes and accidents, which will become involuntarily and have to do some wrong things, and even change the principles and bottom line of being a human being. In fact, these people must be helpless and painful in their hearts, right? After saying that, he sighed heavily, and his expression became a little disappointed and sad.
I put my hands on his chest and said softly: Well, human nature is complicated. Everyone will make judgments and decisions in their lives due to various tests or changes. There will always be some wrong decisions, but they cannot forgive them with mercy because of helplessness and pain in their hearts. Some bottom lines cannot be touched, such as breaking the law, hurting the interests of others and even life; for example, for the sake of one's own selfish interests, they deceive and hurt the people they are closest to... Such people are not worth sympathy and forgiveness.
His hand mechanically touched my belly, muttering like a muttering: I hurt the person I am closest to, the person I am closest to... I can't forgive...
Seeing that he was still worried and was absent-minded, I quickly shook his arm and smiled and changed the subject:
Oh, I won't talk about this anymore, husband, I ask you, do you think Xiong Dailin is beautiful? He didn't expect my question, but his expression was obviously much relaxed than before. He replied with a smile: Very pretty, and his temperament is also good
I pouted, straightened my body, and asked again as if I was serious: What about comparing with me? Who is beautiful and has a better temperament? At this time, the advertisement for super natural soap powder endorsed by Sun Li happened to be broadcasting on the TV. His eyes turned around and asked: Wife, don’t Sun Li be added in the options?
I said anxiously: OK, that Xiong Dailin, who is more beautiful and elegant than me? He hugged me in his arms again, kissed my forehead lightly, and said affectionately: Actually, good wife, there is no need to ask this question at all. You know, the answer is very obvious: Sun Li! Hahahahaha
Ah, you bad guy, I won’t beat you!
Oh, oh, good wife, I was wrong, I was joking, of course it was you, you are the most beautiful and elegant woman in the world! Ah, it hurts, let me go...
March 25, 2014:
I have been staying in the obstetric nursing room of the municipal hospital about a week before I was in my obstetric nursing room. We didn’t think about this before. First, because I have always been in good health. Although having a baby is a big deal, there is no need to enjoy such a luxurious treatment. Second, the daily nursing expenses here are not expensive, and I have always disagreed to spend money on it.
But yesterday Jiayuan told me that their Section Chief Xu's nephew happened to be the director of the Obstetrics and Gynecology Department. He heard that I was about to give birth. Before Jiayuan refused, he had already helped arrange the bed in advance and reduced the fees to the greatest extent. The road was already done, and the arrow was on the string. Jiayuan said that we would get this love, don't worry, give birth to the baby first, and find an opportunity to repay the favor in the future.
Although I feel that it is inappropriate, how can I repay such a big favor? However, people are so enthusiastic about helping, and if they refuse, they will seem stubborn and ignorant of raising their qualities. In addition, I think of the baby, subconsciously thinking of foolishness. After all, I will be safe here. As soon as the little vanity in my heart is in trouble, I agree.
However, even though I had already lived there, when I thought of this enjoyment coming from Section Chief Xu's care and help, I still felt a lot of entanglement and uneasiness in my mind. The way he was lying on Lu Man that night would flash out of my mind. Therefore, I always had an extremely contradictory mentality towards Section Chief Xu.
On the one hand, from my observation of his words and deeds at the last banquet, and from the introduction and evaluation of Liu Jiayuan on his usual way, I think he is a leader with a bright appearance, shrewd and capable, talented and very capable work ability. He also cares about his subordinates in private and caring for him.
But on the other hand, he actually drank and talked about work with Lu Man's husband while secretly playing with Lu Man. What I saw was just the tip of the iceberg, but the peeking through the leopards showed their usual obscene and indulgentness. It can even be inferred from the fact that Chief Xu divorced a few years ago that he was definitely more than Lu Man, his private life must be chaotic.
Such a very different behavior and behavior are completely unified on the head of the Education Bureau. Lying on the bed arranged by the Education Department Chief for me, I couldn't calm down for a long time
Xu Zhimo wrote the "Farewell to Cambridge" like nature. For most of my time in middle school and college, he was the most romantic and talented modern poet in my mind. I think he is passionate and romantic, gentle as water. I was obsessed with him so much that he was extremely impressed. The whole thick diary was copied all his poems.
But later I read more records about him and learned more about his life records. Especially after checking his emotional experiences, my original worldview collapsed almost instantly. Especially for divorce, he asked Zhang Youyi to have an abortion. After Zhang Youyi's grievance appeal: I heard that someone died of abortion, he actually said indifferently: Someone died of abortion. Someone died of a train. Did you see that they didn't take the train?
I realized that the poet's talent does not represent character, nor does it mean that his values in dealing with people are correct. The romance and emotional disciples gathered together completely on Xu Zhimo.
I remember when I was in my freshman literature class, one time the teacher asked each of us to introduce our favorite poem. Everyone has various kinds of different styles, but most of them are in line with Tang poetry and Song lyrics. Li Du and Su Xin, only one boy introduced me to me and was deeply impressed. The poem was called "Genius Chapter", and the content said: Generosity song Yàn City, calmly become a prisoner in Chu and lead a knife to become a quick one, and live up to the young man's head
The whole poem is passionate and exciting, and has a kind of righteous spirit that is fearless when facing beheading. However, when I learned that the author of this poem is Wang Jingwei, I was in great shock and entanglement. Only then did I realize that the righteous spirit of my youth did not mean that he would make the right choices in his later life. The righteous boy and the traitor were completely united in Wang Jingwei's fate.
It’s not that I don’t know the complexity and changeability of human nature. In the literature field I love, there are many extremely conflicting things. Xu Zhimo’s writers who love and hate and are difficult to judge, including many scandals in the officialdom. I also learned about it through various texts and media, but those are all indirect touches, all of which are other people’s statements and records, and after all, they are separated by a layer, just like a movie.
Although I will also be happy or sad with the plot and performance, it will not really make me unforgettable. However, the dirty things that Section Chief Xu, all the things he has done, are all seen by me, and scenes are reflected into my eyes without any obstacles. I feel that I have become a part of this movie. All the doubts, surprises and shocks are completely from the heart. Life is the director, Section Chief Xu and Liu Jiayuan are the protagonists, and I occasionally witness some supporting roles with bloody facts, so I was extremely shocked. For the first time, I realized that my life may be more cruel and real than in books or movies.
I am grateful for the comfortable hospital environment provided by Section Chief Xu, but the contempt and disdain in my heart are also hard to let go of.
Lying on the soft bed, I fell asleep in this tangled state of mind. I thought that after I fell asleep, my mood would slowly calm down, but I didn't know that nightmare was coming again
When I dreamed that I was about to give birth, Section Chief Xu suddenly sent all the medical staff away and wanted to rape me. It was useless to beg for mercy. I also threatened that if I didn't follow, I would stab my child in my belly to death. I was heartbroken and endured humiliation and agreed to him. I held the huge cock that had been inserted into Lu Man's pussy. He smiled lewd my little mouth while thrusting on the phone with Liu Jiayuan who was working overtime. He said that he would take good care of me and reassure Liu Jiayuan. Before he finished speaking, he was already full of tears. The tears and saliva were sticky together, slowly flowing to the ground. A large pool of light white lotion reflected my pale and desperate face.
Just as his cock was about to be inserted into my body, I woke up from my dream. My body shook suddenly and I sat up. I didn't realize that two screams of ah, and a large amount of cold sweat had already oozed out of my back. Liu Jiayuan, who was sitting on the bed pouring water, was scared by me and looked confused. He rushed over and hugged me. At this time, I had no choice but to care about the strange gazes of other nurses and patients around me, and rushed into Liu Jiayuan's arms and cried in a daze: Husband, you... hug me tightly, I'm afraid, the dream just now was so scary!
He stroked my back and kept comforting me softly. I slowly relieved a lot, but this strange and humiliating dream still came to my heart from time to time. Since then, in addition to contempt and disdain for Section Chief Xu, I gradually became more afraid...
Recently, it is not convenient to do anything with a big belly and a normal appetite. My body always feels listless and weak, but this is nothing. What really makes me worry is Jiayuan's various words and deeds and actions.
After New Year's Day, he was selected by his leader and promoted to office director. Three years of hard work and hard work finally brought fruitful results. I am happy for him from the bottom of my heart.
But he didn't feel excited, but instead seemed to have lost the election. He was worried every day and looked full of worries. He often looked pale and didn't say a word for a long time. And I also found that he always avoided my gaze intentionally or unintentionally, as if he had done something wrong. Every time he looked at him, a hint of panic and sadness flashed in his eyes.
I asked several times, and he said that it was because he was a little stressful and unable to keep up with his energy in order to get a promotion, which led to a little dazed and a little discomfort in his stomach. He was afraid that I would worry about affecting the care of the baby, so he didn't tell me in detail
Although I was skeptical, I thought that no matter what, he would not lie to me. There may be some tricky things at work, and it is not convenient to tell me, so I am like this. I can't help with a big belly, so I can only comfort and spend more time with him. There is a universal magic weapon in my belly. Every time I touch my round belly and talk to him about my baby, he will show rare ease and joy.
After dinner last night, we leaned together to watch TV chat. The play was played by Donnie Yen's "Ip Man 1". Although I watched it a few years ago, it still seems to be enjoyable again. In addition to the wonderful action scenes, there are also various changes and persistences in life after a sudden change in life. They are portrayed well. When I was still worried about the fate of Ip Man after being shot, Liu Jiayuan suddenly asked: Zhiyi, how about you, Li Zhao in the movie?
I was slightly surprised and said in confusion: Why do you ask about this? He touched my belly and rubbed it twice quickly, and asked anxiously: I just suddenly became interested in this character and felt it was quite real.
Very plump, so I want to hear how you evaluate him?
I smiled slightly and said: Oh, I have been with my Chinese-taught wife for a long time and have learned to analyze the characters.
He smiled embarrassedly, and I leaned tighter into his arms and continued: Li Zhao, I don’t think he is a person who is simply good or bad. He represents the helplessness and compromise of a large number of people in that chaotic world where the Japanese invaders were rampant. He was forced to live a life and become a lackey translation. However, the kindness in his heart was not lost. In the end, he used his life and the awakened national morality to complete the redemption. Therefore, I also think that Li Zhao’s figure is very real, and his national integrity is inadequate, but he has not completely destroyed the bottom line and conscience.
After saying that, after a few seconds, I heard that he did not respond. I raised my head curiously, but found that he was staring at the TV in a daze, his eyes were dull and motionless. I quickly pushed him twice and said in a sweet voice: Hello, hey, what are you thinking? Pay attention to classroom discipline and disregard numbers in class. I am too disrespectful to the "wife and teacher". Do you dislike me for not saying it well!
He then came back to his senses and replied hurriedly: No... No, wife, you said it very well, very professional. I just thought of the people in life. Although it is a peaceful and well-off society now, many people will also encounter some major changes and accidents, which will become involuntarily and have to do some wrong things, and even change the principles and bottom line of being a human being. In fact, these people must be helpless and painful in their hearts, right? After saying that, he sighed heavily, and his expression became a little disappointed and sad.
I put my hands on his chest and said softly: Well, human nature is complicated. Everyone will make judgments and decisions in their lives due to various tests or changes. There will always be some wrong decisions, but they cannot forgive them with mercy because of helplessness and pain in their hearts. Some bottom lines cannot be touched, such as breaking the law, hurting the interests of others and even life; for example, for the sake of one's own selfish interests, they deceive and hurt the people they are closest to... Such people are not worth sympathy and forgiveness.
His hand mechanically touched my belly, muttering like a muttering: I hurt the person I am closest to, the person I am closest to... I can't forgive...
Seeing that he was still worried and was absent-minded, I quickly shook his arm and smiled and changed the subject:
Oh, I won't talk about this anymore, husband, I ask you, do you think Xiong Dailin is beautiful? He didn't expect my question, but his expression was obviously much relaxed than before. He replied with a smile: Very pretty, and his temperament is also good
I pouted, straightened my body, and asked again as if I was serious: What about comparing with me? Who is beautiful and has a better temperament? At this time, the advertisement for super natural soap powder endorsed by Sun Li happened to be broadcasting on the TV. His eyes turned around and asked: Wife, don’t Sun Li be added in the options?
I said anxiously: OK, that Xiong Dailin, who is more beautiful and elegant than me? He hugged me in his arms again, kissed my forehead lightly, and said affectionately: Actually, good wife, there is no need to ask this question at all. You know, the answer is very obvious: Sun Li! Hahahahaha
Ah, you bad guy, I won’t beat you!
Oh, oh, good wife, I was wrong, I was joking, of course it was you, you are the most beautiful and elegant woman in the world! Ah, it hurts, let me go...
March 25, 2014:
I have been staying in the obstetric nursing room of the municipal hospital about a week before I was in my obstetric nursing room. We didn’t think about this before. First, because I have always been in good health. Although having a baby is a big deal, there is no need to enjoy such a luxurious treatment. Second, the daily nursing expenses here are not expensive, and I have always disagreed to spend money on it.
But yesterday Jiayuan told me that their Section Chief Xu's nephew happened to be the director of the Obstetrics and Gynecology Department. He heard that I was about to give birth. Before Jiayuan refused, he had already helped arrange the bed in advance and reduced the fees to the greatest extent. The road was already done, and the arrow was on the string. Jiayuan said that we would get this love, don't worry, give birth to the baby first, and find an opportunity to repay the favor in the future.
Although I feel that it is inappropriate, how can I repay such a big favor? However, people are so enthusiastic about helping, and if they refuse, they will seem stubborn and ignorant of raising their qualities. In addition, I think of the baby, subconsciously thinking of foolishness. After all, I will be safe here. As soon as the little vanity in my heart is in trouble, I agree.
However, even though I had already lived there, when I thought of this enjoyment coming from Section Chief Xu's care and help, I still felt a lot of entanglement and uneasiness in my mind. The way he was lying on Lu Man that night would flash out of my mind. Therefore, I always had an extremely contradictory mentality towards Section Chief Xu.
On the one hand, from my observation of his words and deeds at the last banquet, and from the introduction and evaluation of Liu Jiayuan on his usual way, I think he is a leader with a bright appearance, shrewd and capable, talented and very capable work ability. He also cares about his subordinates in private and caring for him.
But on the other hand, he actually drank and talked about work with Lu Man's husband while secretly playing with Lu Man. What I saw was just the tip of the iceberg, but the peeking through the leopards showed their usual obscene and indulgentness. It can even be inferred from the fact that Chief Xu divorced a few years ago that he was definitely more than Lu Man, his private life must be chaotic.
Such a very different behavior and behavior are completely unified on the head of the Education Bureau. Lying on the bed arranged by the Education Department Chief for me, I couldn't calm down for a long time
Xu Zhimo wrote the "Farewell to Cambridge" like nature. For most of my time in middle school and college, he was the most romantic and talented modern poet in my mind. I think he is passionate and romantic, gentle as water. I was obsessed with him so much that he was extremely impressed. The whole thick diary was copied all his poems.
But later I read more records about him and learned more about his life records. Especially after checking his emotional experiences, my original worldview collapsed almost instantly. Especially for divorce, he asked Zhang Youyi to have an abortion. After Zhang Youyi's grievance appeal: I heard that someone died of abortion, he actually said indifferently: Someone died of abortion. Someone died of a train. Did you see that they didn't take the train?
I realized that the poet's talent does not represent character, nor does it mean that his values in dealing with people are correct. The romance and emotional disciples gathered together completely on Xu Zhimo.
I remember when I was in my freshman literature class, one time the teacher asked each of us to introduce our favorite poem. Everyone has various kinds of different styles, but most of them are in line with Tang poetry and Song lyrics. Li Du and Su Xin, only one boy introduced me to me and was deeply impressed. The poem was called "Genius Chapter", and the content said: Generosity song Yàn City, calmly become a prisoner in Chu and lead a knife to become a quick one, and live up to the young man's head
The whole poem is passionate and exciting, and has a kind of righteous spirit that is fearless when facing beheading. However, when I learned that the author of this poem is Wang Jingwei, I was in great shock and entanglement. Only then did I realize that the righteous spirit of my youth did not mean that he would make the right choices in his later life. The righteous boy and the traitor were completely united in Wang Jingwei's fate.
It’s not that I don’t know the complexity and changeability of human nature. In the literature field I love, there are many extremely conflicting things. Xu Zhimo’s writers who love and hate and are difficult to judge, including many scandals in the officialdom. I also learned about it through various texts and media, but those are all indirect touches, all of which are other people’s statements and records, and after all, they are separated by a layer, just like a movie.
Although I will also be happy or sad with the plot and performance, it will not really make me unforgettable. However, the dirty things that Section Chief Xu, all the things he has done, are all seen by me, and scenes are reflected into my eyes without any obstacles. I feel that I have become a part of this movie. All the doubts, surprises and shocks are completely from the heart. Life is the director, Section Chief Xu and Liu Jiayuan are the protagonists, and I occasionally witness some supporting roles with bloody facts, so I was extremely shocked. For the first time, I realized that my life may be more cruel and real than in books or movies.
I am grateful for the comfortable hospital environment provided by Section Chief Xu, but the contempt and disdain in my heart are also hard to let go of.
Lying on the soft bed, I fell asleep in this tangled state of mind. I thought that after I fell asleep, my mood would slowly calm down, but I didn't know that nightmare was coming again
When I dreamed that I was about to give birth, Section Chief Xu suddenly sent all the medical staff away and wanted to rape me. It was useless to beg for mercy. I also threatened that if I didn't follow, I would stab my child in my belly to death. I was heartbroken and endured humiliation and agreed to him. I held the huge cock that had been inserted into Lu Man's pussy. He smiled lewd my little mouth while thrusting on the phone with Liu Jiayuan who was working overtime. He said that he would take good care of me and reassure Liu Jiayuan. Before he finished speaking, he was already full of tears. The tears and saliva were sticky together, slowly flowing to the ground. A large pool of light white lotion reflected my pale and desperate face.
Just as his cock was about to be inserted into my body, I woke up from my dream. My body shook suddenly and I sat up. I didn't realize that two screams of ah, and a large amount of cold sweat had already oozed out of my back. Liu Jiayuan, who was sitting on the bed pouring water, was scared by me and looked confused. He rushed over and hugged me. At this time, I had no choice but to care about the strange gazes of other nurses and patients around me, and rushed into Liu Jiayuan's arms and cried in a daze: Husband, you... hug me tightly, I'm afraid, the dream just now was so scary!
He stroked my back and kept comforting me softly. I slowly relieved a lot, but this strange and humiliating dream still came to my heart from time to time. Since then, in addition to contempt and disdain for Section Chief Xu, I gradually became more afraid...
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