May 12, 2014:
This morning, when I walked out of the corridor door, I deeply understood the feelings of the prisoner who had been imprisoned for several years and decades finally stepped out of prison. It was not a joyful jumping around, but a brilliant smile with emotion. Everything in front of me was so vivid and free. Even the little boy was beaten to cry by his mother. I felt that it was a cheerful symphony, and I couldn't feel any pitifulness or sadness at all.
This nearly forty days of confinement has really made me exhausted. It is like going to jail. Every day, I eat milk that is almost so fed up to vomit, milking things, avoid wind, water, tiredness, worry, and everything. There are so many taboos that restrict people from torture, and don’t make people cry because they are afraid of crying!
The most important thing is that this extremely greedy young man around you must wait for milk at any time and cry if he doesn't give it. No matter day or night, no matter whether you are sleepy or tired, you must always wait for it. The so-called love and hate, so
So, I concluded that from the moment I became pregnant, it was equivalent to being caught in a crime and starting to suffer in jail. It was not until the confinement period that I was released from prison and liberated.
But there is only one thing that has cast a shadow on me who was released from prison, that is, my sexual addiction that has disappeared for nearly a year, and it seems that I have started to get involved with me again.
The day after giving birth, I took paper to wipe it after urinating, but just as the tissue was sliding across the wet and soft labia, a strong stimulation like an electric current penetrated the whole body, and my whole body was so clever that it was breathing in my mouth, and then it was uh...oh... Two low and emotional crys, my calves became soft, and I almost slid on the ground. I hurriedly held the wall, struggled to put on my pants, and took a few breaths, and then slowly subsided the heat in my body. But there was a numbness and itch around the vaginal opening. The underwear was covered with lice, as if my hair was covered with lice.
This feeling is so familiar. It has been with me for four or five years. Even though it has been away for half a year, every pore and every inch of my skin have been deeply imprinted. Even the frequency of shaking of the labia minora is as clear as I know. So at this moment, he suddenly came. After I was shocked, I was calm. I just couldn't understand why the sex addiction that had been covered for almost a year, and the baby was reborn and exploded when he was born.
I was optimistic that the arrival of my baby would eliminate the torture of sexual addiction for me, and from then on I would return to my true nature and no longer have sex. Now it seems that it is still too naive. God just took advantage of the pregnancy to temporarily freeze it. God favored my child, not me. Since the child was born safely, then I will still obediently return to the clutches of sexual addiction in the future.
Sure enough, every time I go to the toilet, I feel like I'm clearing, cautious, afraid of touching the sensitive area of my private parts. Liu Jiayuan accidentally touches my breasts or butt, which makes me think and full of lust. These are easy to control. What I can't tolerate the most is that every time my baby eats breasts, he eats sizzling and relishes, but it makes me bitter. As soon as his little mouth is soft on his nipples, I can't stop it.
Immediately afterwards, the quick and naughty sucked like countless fine hairs teasing, rustling, and the fine and dense numbness quickly climbed all over my body with the nipples as the center, making me restless. So every time I breastfeed, it was like bungee jumping, and I was expecting and panic. I never dreamed that one day, my baby would become a catalyst for my sexual addiction. Looking at his innocent and cute appearance when he was breastfeeding, I could only smile helplessly and couldn't help twisting it on his little butt egg.
In this way, the birth of a new life did not bring me a new life. I had no choice but to fall into the cycle of time that never had peace.
June 2, 2014:
Since Liu Jiayuan said yesterday at noon, I was restless after I asked Chief Xu to come to my house for dinner. Logically, I should have invited him to dinner. At the beginning of the year, Jiayuan was promoted and then helped us arrange the hospital delivery. With so much support and help, it is really a trivial matter to come to my house for a meal. And the next day is the Dragon Boat Festival, Chief Xu lives alone again for the time being, so it is normal for him to call for a meal together.
However, the scene of his body lingering with Lu Man is always lingering, especially after having the dream that was almost raped by Section Chief Xu last time, my mood for him became even more complicated. I always feel that this person is so mysterious and complicated, and the woman's sixth sense often reminds me: You must stay away from him, and you cannot let Liu Jiayuan get too close to him.
I can't tell you the specific reason, but when I think of him, I feel inexplicably uneasy. This afternoon, I spent this uneasy mood.
Seeing that it was five o'clock, I coaxed the baby to bed and started preparing dinner
Liu Jiayuan came back at noon and bought the ingredients. I ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding , and stir-fry . Just after six o'clock, I prepared the food and waited for them, braised carp,
Stir-fried cauliflower meat, stir-fried oyster mushrooms, stir-fried small rapeseed, mixed with elbow flowers, garlic and cucumber, plus a beef soup, a plate of rice dumplings, looking at the display of my cooking achievements, I couldn't help but smile with satisfaction
At 6:20, they came in together
I temporarily suppressed all the anxiety and hesitation in my heart before, and greeted me with a smile.
Xu Zhongjun was wearing a slim dark brown jacket with a black round-neck T-shirt inside, and black casual pants on his legs. He was thin and had short hair. He walked into the door with a smile on his face. He felt so easy-going and capable.
After sitting down, they drank low-alcohol liquor. I drank juice to accompany each other. After a few words, they started eating.
After a few glasses of wine, they slowly started chatting. I helped pick up the dishes and boiled them. Occasionally, I got up to look at the doll. The three of them talked and laughed, and the atmosphere was very harmonious.
Finally, I temporarily blocked the shameful and obscene scenes about Section Xu's in my mind, but I was hooked back to reality after not persevering for half an hour.
First, I bent down and picked up the chopsticks that were dropped under the table. As soon as I got together, I happened to run into Section Chief Xu's straight eyes and looked at him. As soon as I lowered my head, my cheeks suddenly became hot. For the convenience of breastfeeding, I didn't wear underwear, but only hung a loose pajama. The uppermost opening was not tied. When I bent down just now, I looked over from Section Chief Xu's perspective and saw it. I coughed lightly in embarrassment, pretending that my clothes were dirty, and I took the opportunity to get the clothes. Section Chief Xu immediately retracted his eyes, smiling, and chatted with Liu Jiayuan calmly. Although it was less than a second before and after, the short-term eye collision still made my heart pound and my cheeks were hot;
Then, a few minutes later, I picked up the doll and played on the sofa, but when I was happy, I lost myself again. My thighs, wearing short skirts, slowly spread apart, and the blue lace panties were extremely bright and clear against the chandelier. When I noticed my indecent movements and hurriedly closed my thighs, the ostentatious light swept into the thorns and met Section Chief Xu's meaningful eyes. Although it was swept by and was hidingly hidden, I still couldn't escape my sensitive sixth sense.
I only blame myself for being careless. Even though I knew that such a sensitive person was visiting at home, I was not careful everywhere. I actually exposed twice in one night. It was like intentional. The more I thought about it, the more I became more and more embarrassed, my whole body was burning, as if I suddenly became Lu Man who was lying under Director Xu's crotch that night. He was bullied by him. Slowly, I felt my anus suddenly contract, my lower abdomen tightened, and a stream of water suddenly burst out from the depths of my vagina. Although it was not much, it was very rapid and sticky. It was blocked by my underwear and sprayed back. For a moment, my underwear and labia became wet, and they were both wet and we felt very uncomfortable when we got together.
I used the excuse to feed the baby, lowered my head and ran back to the bedroom, and quickly changed into my underwear. When I saw the time, it was time for the child to sleep, I fed him a while and coaxed him to sleep.
After I came out, I sat back on the table, tilted my head to drink juice. Before I could put down the cup, I found that the dining table suddenly became quiet. They stopped talking. The two of them looked at me at the same time. Section Chief Xu looked at me with a smile and excitement on his face, and then lowered his head to eat rice dumplings. However, Liu Jiayuan looked nervous and stared at me. This scared me again. He thought that the clothes had not been removed from me. I subconsciously swept across my body and found no abnormality. Then he smiled and asked Liu Jiayuan: Why are you staring at me? Is your face dirty?
Liu Jiayuan then recovered and said with a smirk: No, I just started chatting with Xu Ke, saying that it was obvious changes in many cases after a woman gave birth to a child. He also said to you, you just happened to be here. I breathed a sigh of relief and said: Yes, Xu Ke? I think I am still like that, but I am getting more tired and worried. It's true.
Section Chief Xu swallowed the things in his mouth, straightened his body, and replied: Of course, there has been a change. Last time I saw you as a bright, capable, full-minded female teacher, but now he is a gentle and considerate wife and mother. He has a more calm and gentle body, and he has become more beautiful and elegant! When I mentioned this just now, Jiayuan said that he didn't notice it. He is: the authorities are confused, and he doesn't know how to be blessed! After saying that, he laughed, and Liu Jiayuan hurriedly picked up the bottle and added juice to my quilt. The corners of his mouth were shaking, and his face was unnatural.
I thought he must be afraid that I would be too careful, so he smiled and said: He is indeed suspicious, but it is more because he put his mind on the baby's diapers and had no time to observe me. Section Chief Xu patted his thighs, took a sip of wine, and then said: Oh, look at how good this wife is to speak, Jiayuan, you have to take care of her. After saying that, all three of them laughed.
After chatting for a while, while serving soup for Chief Xu, I suddenly noticed that a small dark red sachet was hung on the keychain on his waist, with a golden flower embedded on it, and a few strands of tassels falling from it. The style was very exquisite. I asked curiously: Chief, where did you buy your sachet? It's very exquisite. He glanced at his waist and smiled and said: Oh, this one, I didn't buy it. Lu Man has been learning handmade for more than half a year. It's the Dragon Boat Festival soon, so she took the time to make a few. She gave each of our subjects one, and there are also Jiayuan.
Liu Jiayuan heard that he also took out one from the briefcase, but it was just lilac and very delicate. I held it in my hand and admired it. Seeing that I liked it, Liu Jiayuan said: Zhiyi, let's hang it on the doll's bed. This is his first Dragon Boat Festival. My hand gently stroked the tassels, smiled and nodded.
Before I knew it was almost nine-thirty, I suddenly felt a sleepy feeling. I was having a chat and laughing the other second, and the next second I immediately felt a buzzing sound in my head. My eyelids seemed to be hit by a heavy object. I couldn't help but yawned two big yawns. At this moment, Chief Xu picked up the wine glass and said: Come on, Jiayuan, Zhiyi, let's get this glass. Thank you for your invitation. I wish you a happy Dragon Boat Festival. Jiayuan, tomorrow's holiday, and accompany your wife and son. After that, we clinked the glasses, and then drank them all. Liu Jiayuan and I couldn't keep them. Finally, Liu Jiayuan asked me to sleep first, and he accompanied Xu Ke downstairs to take a taxi.
I was always a little sad. I couldn't help but feel sleepy just now, and I was a little obvious. Thinking of this, sleepyness surged up again, my body became completely light and I couldn't do anything. My brain was blank. I wanted to wait for Liu Jiayuan to go upstairs, but as a result, I rushed into the bedroom like a devil. Before I even took off my shoes, I lay down with a thump, and my face was down.
I slept very deeply this time. When I opened my eyes again, it was already eight o'clock this morning. The quilt was neatly covered, my shoes and skirt were taken off, and I put them neatly aside.
When he walked out of the bedroom, Liu Jiayuan had already prepared breakfast and was waiting for me. I smiled shyly and muttered: Maybe I was too tired yesterday and fell asleep all of a sudden. As he said that, he smiled bitterly, lowered his head and served the porridge and said: Go and wash up quickly, Zhiyi, the weather is good today, it's noon, let's take my son out for a walk
I felt warm and walked quickly to the bathroom
Just took off the underwear and sat on the toilet. Before the urine came out, a clear stream of vaginal fluid leaked down. Although the amount was not large, it was as fast as an arrow. After two seconds, the yellow urine slowly flowed out. I could only smile helplessly and secretly scolded myself for being too sensitive. The vaginal fluid that was shyly oozed out by Section Chief Xu last night was actually preserved to this day.
The toilet rumbling, looking at the rapid drop of vaginal fluid, the meaningful eyes of Section Chief Xu flashed out in his heart again last night...
This morning, when I walked out of the corridor door, I deeply understood the feelings of the prisoner who had been imprisoned for several years and decades finally stepped out of prison. It was not a joyful jumping around, but a brilliant smile with emotion. Everything in front of me was so vivid and free. Even the little boy was beaten to cry by his mother. I felt that it was a cheerful symphony, and I couldn't feel any pitifulness or sadness at all.
This nearly forty days of confinement has really made me exhausted. It is like going to jail. Every day, I eat milk that is almost so fed up to vomit, milking things, avoid wind, water, tiredness, worry, and everything. There are so many taboos that restrict people from torture, and don’t make people cry because they are afraid of crying!
The most important thing is that this extremely greedy young man around you must wait for milk at any time and cry if he doesn't give it. No matter day or night, no matter whether you are sleepy or tired, you must always wait for it. The so-called love and hate, so
So, I concluded that from the moment I became pregnant, it was equivalent to being caught in a crime and starting to suffer in jail. It was not until the confinement period that I was released from prison and liberated.
But there is only one thing that has cast a shadow on me who was released from prison, that is, my sexual addiction that has disappeared for nearly a year, and it seems that I have started to get involved with me again.
The day after giving birth, I took paper to wipe it after urinating, but just as the tissue was sliding across the wet and soft labia, a strong stimulation like an electric current penetrated the whole body, and my whole body was so clever that it was breathing in my mouth, and then it was uh...oh... Two low and emotional crys, my calves became soft, and I almost slid on the ground. I hurriedly held the wall, struggled to put on my pants, and took a few breaths, and then slowly subsided the heat in my body. But there was a numbness and itch around the vaginal opening. The underwear was covered with lice, as if my hair was covered with lice.
This feeling is so familiar. It has been with me for four or five years. Even though it has been away for half a year, every pore and every inch of my skin have been deeply imprinted. Even the frequency of shaking of the labia minora is as clear as I know. So at this moment, he suddenly came. After I was shocked, I was calm. I just couldn't understand why the sex addiction that had been covered for almost a year, and the baby was reborn and exploded when he was born.
I was optimistic that the arrival of my baby would eliminate the torture of sexual addiction for me, and from then on I would return to my true nature and no longer have sex. Now it seems that it is still too naive. God just took advantage of the pregnancy to temporarily freeze it. God favored my child, not me. Since the child was born safely, then I will still obediently return to the clutches of sexual addiction in the future.
Sure enough, every time I go to the toilet, I feel like I'm clearing, cautious, afraid of touching the sensitive area of my private parts. Liu Jiayuan accidentally touches my breasts or butt, which makes me think and full of lust. These are easy to control. What I can't tolerate the most is that every time my baby eats breasts, he eats sizzling and relishes, but it makes me bitter. As soon as his little mouth is soft on his nipples, I can't stop it.
Immediately afterwards, the quick and naughty sucked like countless fine hairs teasing, rustling, and the fine and dense numbness quickly climbed all over my body with the nipples as the center, making me restless. So every time I breastfeed, it was like bungee jumping, and I was expecting and panic. I never dreamed that one day, my baby would become a catalyst for my sexual addiction. Looking at his innocent and cute appearance when he was breastfeeding, I could only smile helplessly and couldn't help twisting it on his little butt egg.
In this way, the birth of a new life did not bring me a new life. I had no choice but to fall into the cycle of time that never had peace.
June 2, 2014:
Since Liu Jiayuan said yesterday at noon, I was restless after I asked Chief Xu to come to my house for dinner. Logically, I should have invited him to dinner. At the beginning of the year, Jiayuan was promoted and then helped us arrange the hospital delivery. With so much support and help, it is really a trivial matter to come to my house for a meal. And the next day is the Dragon Boat Festival, Chief Xu lives alone again for the time being, so it is normal for him to call for a meal together.
However, the scene of his body lingering with Lu Man is always lingering, especially after having the dream that was almost raped by Section Chief Xu last time, my mood for him became even more complicated. I always feel that this person is so mysterious and complicated, and the woman's sixth sense often reminds me: You must stay away from him, and you cannot let Liu Jiayuan get too close to him.
I can't tell you the specific reason, but when I think of him, I feel inexplicably uneasy. This afternoon, I spent this uneasy mood.
Seeing that it was five o'clock, I coaxed the baby to bed and started preparing dinner
Liu Jiayuan came back at noon and bought the ingredients. I ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding , and stir-fry . Just after six o'clock, I prepared the food and waited for them, braised carp,
Stir-fried cauliflower meat, stir-fried oyster mushrooms, stir-fried small rapeseed, mixed with elbow flowers, garlic and cucumber, plus a beef soup, a plate of rice dumplings, looking at the display of my cooking achievements, I couldn't help but smile with satisfaction
At 6:20, they came in together
I temporarily suppressed all the anxiety and hesitation in my heart before, and greeted me with a smile.
Xu Zhongjun was wearing a slim dark brown jacket with a black round-neck T-shirt inside, and black casual pants on his legs. He was thin and had short hair. He walked into the door with a smile on his face. He felt so easy-going and capable.
After sitting down, they drank low-alcohol liquor. I drank juice to accompany each other. After a few words, they started eating.
After a few glasses of wine, they slowly started chatting. I helped pick up the dishes and boiled them. Occasionally, I got up to look at the doll. The three of them talked and laughed, and the atmosphere was very harmonious.
Finally, I temporarily blocked the shameful and obscene scenes about Section Xu's in my mind, but I was hooked back to reality after not persevering for half an hour.
First, I bent down and picked up the chopsticks that were dropped under the table. As soon as I got together, I happened to run into Section Chief Xu's straight eyes and looked at him. As soon as I lowered my head, my cheeks suddenly became hot. For the convenience of breastfeeding, I didn't wear underwear, but only hung a loose pajama. The uppermost opening was not tied. When I bent down just now, I looked over from Section Chief Xu's perspective and saw it. I coughed lightly in embarrassment, pretending that my clothes were dirty, and I took the opportunity to get the clothes. Section Chief Xu immediately retracted his eyes, smiling, and chatted with Liu Jiayuan calmly. Although it was less than a second before and after, the short-term eye collision still made my heart pound and my cheeks were hot;
Then, a few minutes later, I picked up the doll and played on the sofa, but when I was happy, I lost myself again. My thighs, wearing short skirts, slowly spread apart, and the blue lace panties were extremely bright and clear against the chandelier. When I noticed my indecent movements and hurriedly closed my thighs, the ostentatious light swept into the thorns and met Section Chief Xu's meaningful eyes. Although it was swept by and was hidingly hidden, I still couldn't escape my sensitive sixth sense.
I only blame myself for being careless. Even though I knew that such a sensitive person was visiting at home, I was not careful everywhere. I actually exposed twice in one night. It was like intentional. The more I thought about it, the more I became more and more embarrassed, my whole body was burning, as if I suddenly became Lu Man who was lying under Director Xu's crotch that night. He was bullied by him. Slowly, I felt my anus suddenly contract, my lower abdomen tightened, and a stream of water suddenly burst out from the depths of my vagina. Although it was not much, it was very rapid and sticky. It was blocked by my underwear and sprayed back. For a moment, my underwear and labia became wet, and they were both wet and we felt very uncomfortable when we got together.
I used the excuse to feed the baby, lowered my head and ran back to the bedroom, and quickly changed into my underwear. When I saw the time, it was time for the child to sleep, I fed him a while and coaxed him to sleep.
After I came out, I sat back on the table, tilted my head to drink juice. Before I could put down the cup, I found that the dining table suddenly became quiet. They stopped talking. The two of them looked at me at the same time. Section Chief Xu looked at me with a smile and excitement on his face, and then lowered his head to eat rice dumplings. However, Liu Jiayuan looked nervous and stared at me. This scared me again. He thought that the clothes had not been removed from me. I subconsciously swept across my body and found no abnormality. Then he smiled and asked Liu Jiayuan: Why are you staring at me? Is your face dirty?
Liu Jiayuan then recovered and said with a smirk: No, I just started chatting with Xu Ke, saying that it was obvious changes in many cases after a woman gave birth to a child. He also said to you, you just happened to be here. I breathed a sigh of relief and said: Yes, Xu Ke? I think I am still like that, but I am getting more tired and worried. It's true.
Section Chief Xu swallowed the things in his mouth, straightened his body, and replied: Of course, there has been a change. Last time I saw you as a bright, capable, full-minded female teacher, but now he is a gentle and considerate wife and mother. He has a more calm and gentle body, and he has become more beautiful and elegant! When I mentioned this just now, Jiayuan said that he didn't notice it. He is: the authorities are confused, and he doesn't know how to be blessed! After saying that, he laughed, and Liu Jiayuan hurriedly picked up the bottle and added juice to my quilt. The corners of his mouth were shaking, and his face was unnatural.
I thought he must be afraid that I would be too careful, so he smiled and said: He is indeed suspicious, but it is more because he put his mind on the baby's diapers and had no time to observe me. Section Chief Xu patted his thighs, took a sip of wine, and then said: Oh, look at how good this wife is to speak, Jiayuan, you have to take care of her. After saying that, all three of them laughed.
After chatting for a while, while serving soup for Chief Xu, I suddenly noticed that a small dark red sachet was hung on the keychain on his waist, with a golden flower embedded on it, and a few strands of tassels falling from it. The style was very exquisite. I asked curiously: Chief, where did you buy your sachet? It's very exquisite. He glanced at his waist and smiled and said: Oh, this one, I didn't buy it. Lu Man has been learning handmade for more than half a year. It's the Dragon Boat Festival soon, so she took the time to make a few. She gave each of our subjects one, and there are also Jiayuan.
Liu Jiayuan heard that he also took out one from the briefcase, but it was just lilac and very delicate. I held it in my hand and admired it. Seeing that I liked it, Liu Jiayuan said: Zhiyi, let's hang it on the doll's bed. This is his first Dragon Boat Festival. My hand gently stroked the tassels, smiled and nodded.
Before I knew it was almost nine-thirty, I suddenly felt a sleepy feeling. I was having a chat and laughing the other second, and the next second I immediately felt a buzzing sound in my head. My eyelids seemed to be hit by a heavy object. I couldn't help but yawned two big yawns. At this moment, Chief Xu picked up the wine glass and said: Come on, Jiayuan, Zhiyi, let's get this glass. Thank you for your invitation. I wish you a happy Dragon Boat Festival. Jiayuan, tomorrow's holiday, and accompany your wife and son. After that, we clinked the glasses, and then drank them all. Liu Jiayuan and I couldn't keep them. Finally, Liu Jiayuan asked me to sleep first, and he accompanied Xu Ke downstairs to take a taxi.
I was always a little sad. I couldn't help but feel sleepy just now, and I was a little obvious. Thinking of this, sleepyness surged up again, my body became completely light and I couldn't do anything. My brain was blank. I wanted to wait for Liu Jiayuan to go upstairs, but as a result, I rushed into the bedroom like a devil. Before I even took off my shoes, I lay down with a thump, and my face was down.
I slept very deeply this time. When I opened my eyes again, it was already eight o'clock this morning. The quilt was neatly covered, my shoes and skirt were taken off, and I put them neatly aside.
When he walked out of the bedroom, Liu Jiayuan had already prepared breakfast and was waiting for me. I smiled shyly and muttered: Maybe I was too tired yesterday and fell asleep all of a sudden. As he said that, he smiled bitterly, lowered his head and served the porridge and said: Go and wash up quickly, Zhiyi, the weather is good today, it's noon, let's take my son out for a walk
I felt warm and walked quickly to the bathroom
Just took off the underwear and sat on the toilet. Before the urine came out, a clear stream of vaginal fluid leaked down. Although the amount was not large, it was as fast as an arrow. After two seconds, the yellow urine slowly flowed out. I could only smile helplessly and secretly scolded myself for being too sensitive. The vaginal fluid that was shyly oozed out by Section Chief Xu last night was actually preserved to this day.
The toilet rumbling, looking at the rapid drop of vaginal fluid, the meaningful eyes of Section Chief Xu flashed out in his heart again last night...
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