Chapter 17 Attack the Heart

Xiaoyu was stared at by my eyes very unnaturally. Her expression was a little awkward, but her eyes were still red.

I asked straight to the point: Xiaoyu, it seems you have some understanding of the harm of SM Ah, knowing that it is as obsessed as drugs.Then when are you going to quit this circle?Xiaoyu said in surprise: Why should I quit the SM circle?I enjoyed the pleasure and pleasure that SM brought me, just like drug use that made me obsessed.Although I have never taken drugs, and my several owners love me very much, they don’t allow me to take drugs, I guess it should be the same as the addicts’ obsession with drugs.

Didn’t you just say that after you entered the SM circle, you have always felt guilty, abandoning your husband and children, and being unprofessional and competent?I also saw your eyes red when you said this.

I am a female M, a female slave, but I am also a human and have emotions.I was out of control just now, and now I should be better.Xiaoyu said, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with her fingers.

It seems that all my previous efforts are wasted, which I don’t want to see.To pry Xiaoyu's mouth open, I need to learn from Zhu Jun, the host of "Art Life", play the emotional card, and start from the weakest part of people's hearts.

OK, let's not talk about SM anymore.I don’t know much about SM, and you won’t be happy if you say too much.

Xiaoyu mèi smiled and said: That's right, Brother Yan is still a smart person and knows how to be considerate.

Xiaoyu, we don’t talk about SM, nor do we touch your privacy. Can we talk about your children?You are so beautiful and elegant, I guess your lover is not much worse.You two must be as talented as you are, and your children must be beautiful, cute and smart, right?

When Xiaoyu heard me say this, her face showed a motherly gentleness. Yes, Brother Yan, my son is lively, cute, and beautiful. Every time I see him, I feel that no matter how much I suffer, it is worth it.

It's Ah, but it can be the hearts of all parents in the world.Only children are happy and happy, and parents don’t care much.I echoed.

Has Brother Yan started a family? Do you have children?Xiaoyu asked me on his own initiative.

Oh, I don’t have that blessing!Now I am still alone, and my whole family is not hungry if I eat one person.

Why is that Ah?Look at Brother Yan’s talent and good conversation and insight, there should be many girls who are moved by you.Could it be that your conditions are too high?Oh, maybe you have divorced and have not married yet, right?Unexpectedly, Xiaoyu suddenly brought the topic to me. This was obviously a defensive counterattack she was carrying out to protect herself. It seems that she is also a personal talent.

Not what you said.I have never been married, nor have children, and it is not because I am too high.I wanted to pull the topic away from myself as soon as possible, so I answered in a hurry.Oh, this is fun.That's why Ah, can Brother Yan talk to me?Xiaoyu seemed to be interested in my affairs.

I think this is good. Only by communicating with each other can we communicate and pry open Xiaoyu's mouth.

I kept telling her the story of Qiqi living with me without hiding it.When talking about my confession after abandoning Qiqi, my mood suddenly became dim and I felt sad. I could no longer speak and I kept silent for a moment.

Xiaoyu did not comfort me, but instead covered her mouth and said with a smile: I didn’t expect that Brother Yan, who is like a hot wind and thunder, is still a love species, haha??

Why do you say that to me?I was a little excited by Xiaoyu's words of love.

Are you not?After three or four years, you still miss you Qiqi. What is it that you are not a love seed?

That's because I feel ashamed of her.I think even if I can't walk with her, I should help her, but I can't find her until now.After saying this secret that has been hidden in my heart and dare not touch it, my eyes turned red.I'm embarrassed to let Xiaoyu see my sad look.He stood up with his head down, walked slowly to the window, and looked at the early winter landscape outside the window.

In late December, the sky was gray, the leaves of the outdoor tung tree had fallen out, the grass was yellow, and the children who had always liked to come out to play were gone, and there were only a few hungry wild birds for food everywhere.A bleak scene of winter.

This scene made me feel sad, and the sadness immediately enveloped my heart, making me feel even more depressed and breathing harder.

Xiaoyu also walked over, stood shoulder to shoulder with me, looking out the window silently, thinking.

After a long time, Xiaoyu said to me: Sorry, Brother Yan, it was me who reminded you of the past, which made you sad.

How could I blame you?I did something wrong myself, and I should accept the punishment of my conscience.I remember Rousseau said in his famous book "Confessions" that the conscience of a sinner will definitely avenge the innocent.Whenever I think of this sentence, I feel very painful like boiling oil, and my whole body is so hot that I wish I could strip myself all over and throw myself into cold water to feel better.I said with some excitement.

The conscience of a sinner will definitely avenge the innocent, and the conscience of a sinner will definitely avenge the innocent. This is really good!Xiaoyu chewed this sentence repeatedly in her mouth, as if her heart was moved.

This sentence is really a good word!I read Rousseau's Confessions when I was in high school. Rousseau's words have always been unforgettable.Of course, Rousseau also said, "There is no one who has no abominable shortcomings." We are ordinary people with physical bodies and all have seven emotions and six desires, and it is inevitable that one or another mistake will be made.As long as we sincerely repent and work hard to correct our mistakes, we will not be able to be liberated from our mistakes.While comforting Xiaoyu, I began to observe her expression.

This time, Xiaoyu was sad and sad. She walked back to her seat without saying a word, lowering her head and silently making a sound.

Xiaoyu, do you have any worries?Can you tell me?I poured her a glass of water and handed it to her.

Xiaoyu did not drink water, nor did she put the cup on the coffee table beside her, but just held the cup in her hand and was in a daze.

Xiaoyu, what's wrong with you?I asked her with concern.

Brother Yan, in your eyes, am I a tyrannical woman who is unforgivable?Do I still have hope of redeem?Xiaoyu raised her head, her beautiful eyes flushed again, but her eyes were full of expectations and seemed to be full of regret.

This is really hard to say, because I don’t know much about you and it’s hard to draw conclusions easily.I told the truth.

good!Brother Yan, then I will tell you my story today and you can help me judge, okay?Xiaoyu stared into my eyes and said anxiously.

OK, thank you for your trust in me.I am willing to listen to your story and judge and analyze it for you.I said to her sincerely.

Brother Yan, I believe in you because you are a good person, I can see this.

Xiaoyu, why do you think I am a good person?

After hesitating for a moment, Xiaoyu said firmly: Brother Yan, because you and many of the men I know are different.No matter how much a person disguises, the kindness revealed in his eyes will not be disguised.And in your eyes, not only kindness is revealed, but also kind of integrity is revealed, so I am willing to believe in you.