Chapter 110 The Poor and Beautiful Log (II)

In order to prevent Guan Yiting from appearing suddenly and prevent me from viewing her logs, I didn’t bother to read other logs, but copied and pasted all her logs in Wrd format and saved them in my notebook.After the busyness was over, I closed her QQ space and opened the subsequent logs I copied with confidence.

The contents of logs 2, 3 and 4 are all stories told to me by Guan Yiting in the afternoon, and the two are completely consistent.The content after Log 4 is that she did not tell me this afternoon.

"Written to your pity self before your 19th birthday (Five)"

The content in the log should be about Guan Yiting's remembrance in November 2007, which is her memory.

Log text:

Although the sunset is beautiful, helplessness is just a splendor in one breath, will life be forever?No one has asked me, but I don't know, and I don't want to know either.

I told myself not to think about whether it is always long-term. I also know that you have never loved me. Love is just a one-sided thing for me. It is enough that I have really loved you in this life.Dear, I would like to accompany you to smile and watch the flowers bloom and fall. The earth will last forever, but the night is coming.

I am looking for traces of the past, the warmth of the past, and the pain of being deliberately buried.Those familiar past events are as clear and erratic as they experienced yesterday, as they are like their previous lives.I know that life, love, beauty and evil, longing and forgetting, pain and pleasure are actually just passing clouds.But I don't want to forget you.

If forgetting the past is betraying the future, then I know that my scarred body can no longer bear the love for you after collapse again and again.As Liu Si said, he could train me to be a thoughtless dog.

I hope it can, but I don't know.However, I have talked with many S in QQ groups and know that there are girls younger than me who can be trained to become permanent human-type dogs.But I have dyed the world dirty enough, can I still get this kind of relief?I have no idea.

I hope Liu Si will think of a solution for 200,000 yuan.200,000 Ah200,000, Dear Officer Wu, the girl you liked has no way out.One day, will you be happy when you see me being kept in a cage?If Liu Si wanted to sell me who had lost his soul to you, would you want it?Hahaha??

I opened the mobile phone card that I had not turned on for a long time, and dozens of text messages were all left to me by Qing, all of which advised me not to do stupid things.The more I look back, the more upset I feel. I mention the long story of the three of us together. Can she think I can still save it?

I despise Qing, the fool. She just let Officer Wu play with her and let me play with her again.Even if I can’t even do anything now, I feel so distressed that I still have to despise it.And if you don’t even understand yourself, how can you understand me?If I hadn't made you a troll, what would you know? You wouldn't even understand your own sexual orientation!You think you are very smart, what's the use of being smart? You are just being fooled by me and being played with by me!

Thinking of this, my heart hurts so much, it really hurts.I have loved Qing, and I think love is really loved.Love can transcend gender and transcend everything.If possible, then let me hurt again, don't want to lose this pain.

After adjusting my mood and calculating the day, Qing's aunt probably hasn't come yet.I thought about it and then thought, but I replied to her and said, "I want to fuck you in four words."

Then count and turn off the phone when it is about to count to 100.Ha, sure enough, my fate didn't feel ridiculed enough for me, because before I counted to 20, Qing called the phone.

I lied to her and said I was fine, but I was just a mistress for others, not just a dog that would kill meat-eating people.I still have freedom and asked her to meet tonight.

Qing worked as a piano teacher in the Youth Palace. She told me before what her work unit looks like.It’s nothing more than a group of female teachers competing with each other because of their vanity, comparing who drives a better car, and who has a lot of money at home.I feel that it is no different from working in a nightclub. It is also a group of girls competing with each other whose financial backers are richer.They are obviously very dirty, but they still want to scold others for being dirty.

And power is a good thing.No matter what you are, as long as you own it, you are the master.I ordered a rose in the company's business, dispatched a driver and a car, and booked a room in a designated hotel in a company. It was natural, and I signed the letter.

I know these people know what I am.But it doesn't matter, people are very cheap.It seems that these people who are valuable only when wearing clothes all day are cheaper than me, who is valuable only when not wearing clothes.

It was still drizzling at that time. It was less than five o'clock, and the sky in November was as dark as the bottom of the pot.When I went to Qing's workplace, I saw the dog in the yard looking at the good car. I didn't ask any questions, so I parked the car in the yard of the Children's Palace, while the other cars that picked up people were waiting outside on the roadside.

I was wearing completely men's clothes and covered my hair with a hat.After forgetting that the time was almost over, I got out of the car and started to get wet in the rain with the roses in the rain.

The blood-red rose was eye-catching. Not long after, everyone on all sides saw it and Qing also came down.She saw me, was stunned for a moment, and then ran over with a smile.I handed the flower to her, she took it, hugged me and kissed me.I was showing off at the time, but I didn't expect that under the gaze of so many people, I was still a little confused.

Qing held my arm and walked out of the yard before I recovered.Holding her arm, she opened the car door for her.In the car, although it was not the first time I was with Qing, this time I was a completely man and there was a driver in front of me.

I was still a little embarrassed and nervous, but Qing leaned against me, but she looked very happy.I don’t know what she is happy about, maybe because I am still alive, maybe I am looking forward to me to satisfy her tonight?I know she is the only one who is sexually gangster now.But I don’t want to think about it. It’s a very bitter feeling that I turned her into this.

There is a Japanese restaurant near the hotel. After arriving there, I asked the driver to drive away.I was afraid of being stubborn and holding Qing in, it didn't matter if anyone could tell that I was a girl.Anyway, I was the old man who gave the money. After drinking some wine and ordering something that I don’t know, we went to the hotel.

The rooms in designated hotels are still very well decorated, with a faint fragrance floating in the air, maybe it was just given an air freshener.The bed sheets turned out to be snow-white, like the big bed in the morgue.I turned the room temperature to the highest level, and I should feel that it wouldn't be much colder after taking off.Not long after, with my efforts, Qing was stripped naked by me.