The mountains are far away in the evening, and the sky is cold and the house is poor in the white house.
The weather was getting colder before the Chinese New Year, and the coldness of Laba is what I received these days.
It rarely snows in the south, and I don’t even know how to snow the city I live in, but this does not affect my appreciation of the cold winter at all.
In the midst of no self and no space, this is a vast white mountain and snowy land.
The sky was whistling with wind and snow. I leaned against a tall pine tree, and there were scattered pine trees covered with snow.
I was trembling with cold, and I could only keep pulling the thin silk quilt covered with my body.
But no matter how I wrapped the quilt, the strong wind whistling in my ears like an ice skate, mixed with the messy frost and snow made me feel cold, as if my whole body was condensed into ice.
The overwhelming snow-incandescent light made my eyes look slightly narrowed.
Looking around the sparse white pine forest, I was the only one...
I don’t know how long it took, in the white-shirted pine forest in front of me, a beautiful figure appeared on the ground with a thick layer of snow, strolling lightly on the snow.
She has a long figure and a bright and beautiful face.
He was wearing a black breast-wrapped dress, with a skirt and knees, and exposed two calves that were as white as this world.
The shrill wind and snow in the pine forest could only shake her black skirt, and the accumulated mountains and snow did not make her walk deep into it. She always maintained an elegant and graceful posture and walked towards me.
Ten meters in the radius is where she stands with her hands.
I could see her face clearly. Under her clear burgundy long hair, there was a small, fair and melon-shaped face that was as white as snow. A soft light was always released in her dazzling and deep eyes.
Her face and smile are like peach blossoms, and her slender figure with a perfect proportion of soft and lightweight shape is made even more noble under a black breast-boned dress!
She was like a ball of black fireworks, burning gracefully and beautifully in the ice and snow.
Everything about this woman is incompatible with this world, but it makes my near frozen flesh and blood boil in an instant!She is my mother, she is Liang Buping!
Mother!My eyes were fixed on her beautiful face like a 28-year-old girl, and my familiar face made me blurt out and shout.
Then I excitedly rushed out of the thin quilt, causing the snow on my body to scatter, my knees to sink deep into the snow, and I shook my body and walked towards my mother in front of me.
After a few steps, when I was about to get close to my mother in a black dress, she just smiled softly, looked at me playfully and embarrassingly, stretched out her hands hidden behind her, spread them out, opened her ice-skinned jade hands a few times, and turned around...
My mother was still light in a black dress, wearing silver high heels, and strolled in the wind and snow with her hands on her back, shuttled through the scattered white pine forest, looking back at me and smiling.
Mom...wait me...Mom...
I quickly walked hard among the cedar forests and crawled forward. Maybe my hands and feet were frozen stiff, but I couldn't wait to chase my mother's mind, but the more I was ignited, the hotter it became.
I have fallen in the snow for many times, but I have never stopped staring at my mother's neat posture and chasing her back...
Soon, I crossed the white pine forest and came to a snowy mountain.
My mother smiled and looked at me, walking backwards halfway up the mountain.
His steps were light, and his black skirt was slightly swinging under his chest-wrapped dress, and he was above my sight like a dancing dance.
I endured the bitter hurricane in my ears like a knife, my limbs lie on the sand and snow, crawling against the ground, looking up at my mother who had been waving to me with a gentle smile, and couldn't help but speed up my embarrassing pace, and soon, I reached the top of the mountain...
Mom...Don't leave, okay...I miss you very much...
In the snowy world, I lay on the open space on the top of the mountain, looking up at my mother in front of me. She was even more graceful and charming in the snowy high ground.
My mother stopped, looked down at me with her frown and smile, stretched out a soft hand and waved it gently, as if she was saying hello to me.
Xiaoxuan...goodbye...
My mother's warm and delicate voice came, and she stepped back after she said that, suddenly!Then he fell from my eyes to the slope of the mountain behind him and disappeared from my sight...
No!Mom...Mom...
I climbed forward like struggling in the snow, and came to the edge of the mountain bag, watching the hillside where my mother fell, except for the unobstructed thick snow, there was no trace of my mother.
Mom...Where are you...Mom...
Xiaoxuan...goodbye...Xiaoxuan...
I lay on the snow on the edge of the mountain bag, looking around anxiously, looking down at every place in the snowy mountain, without my mother's figure.
Only my ears seemed to be echoing, and the farewell words my mother said before she disappeared.
Gradually, my body was covered with ice and snow again, and I lay on the snow, completely frozen.
The only pair of eyes exposed looked at the snow frost flying all over the sky. In the blurry sight, I seemed to see my mother wearing a black dress, rippling in the ice and snow world, and the sound of my mother whispering my name softly in her ears...
Xiaoxuan!You wake up!Xiaoxuan...
The morning sun that has not been seen for many days shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room and falls on every corner of the residence and every room.
Next to the floor-to-ceiling window is the first to bear the brunt of a bedroom without doors and door frames!
The golden morning light was spread on the edge of the bed, on the ground, in front of the desk, and on the body of the Miaoman Qianying squatting between the two chairs.
As soon as she entered the room, she found her son curled up under the desk, shaking constantly, and muttering to her.
This made her feel heartbroken and began to blame her for running away from home.
Xiaoxuan... wake up...
In a daze, I was pushed a few times, and a gentle and familiar beautiful voice sounded in my ears.Slowly, I opened my eyes and regained my consciousness...
Mother?!
The place I saw was suddenly!I saw my mother who had been away for half a month and was a little unbelievable, so I quickly thought of getting up to confirm.
Bang!The moment I set off, my head pushed to the bottom of the desk and made a heavy impact.
Ah!hiss……
Be careful!It's okay!Come out slowly... When my mother saw that I was hit and hurt, she covered her head with her heart and reached out to touch my head.
The moment my mother's soft and tender hands were placed on my head, I knew that this was not an illusion and I didn't dream!Mom is back!
Mother!
I was silent for more than ten days in a crying voice, and suddenly burst out!
He crawled out under the desk like a catapult, looking at his new mother, who still had a face, kneeled in front of her, opened his hands and hugged her tightly...
Mom...I never dared to leave anymore...Can you not leave...I bowed to my mother's apricot white coat, and sobbed excitedly between her soft and fragrant hair.
……good!Mom won’t leave anymore. Xiaoxuan is just obedient, and mom will always be with you... Mom may feel my agitation at this moment, and it is rare to care and caress my head.
Mom...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I hugged my mother tightly, as if she was afraid that she would leave again, and kept admitting her mistakes and begging.
Okay, let it go if it’s past!Stop crying.My mother squatted on the ground and comforted me in her arms softly, as if I was the victim at this moment.
Sorry... I felt even more guilty when I heard this, and I burst into tears like a child.
After a long time, my crying sounds gradually stopped in the room.In front of the desk, there was only the scene of me kneeling on the ground and embracing my mother silently.
OK, get up!Come... Mom said warmly in my ear, slowly guiding me to get up and stand up.
Then she saw that I was still holding her tightly and took me to sit on my bed next to me.
I bent down and hugged my mother, lowered my head to my mother's warm neck, and deeply smelled the familiar fragrance between my mother's body and hair. There was no trace of evil desire in my heart, but instead felt unprecedented peace.
I really want time to freeze at this moment forever. I am afraid that I have had enough of my mother's departure, and my heart is in a state of pain all the time...
Xiaoxuan, I'm sorry, mom shouldn't leave you so irresponsibly. Can you forgive mom?
As soon as my mother got home, she saw me who looked inhumane, and combined with the fact that I had just seen her emotionally out of control.
She condemned herself again and looked a little panicked. She was afraid that I would leave a shadow in her heart after this.
When I heard that my mother apologized to me first, I immediately let go of her arms and knelt in front of her again.
No!Mom, I'm sorry for you!It was me who hurt you... You are my best mother, but I... I knelt down with my hands, looked at my mother with tears in my eyes, and said what I have regretted for the past half month.
It's okay... it's all over... get up!My mother was also moved, and her eyes flashed with a hint of relief.
My mother said that she wanted to pull me up, but I shook her head to stop her.He leaned over and slowly grabbed the big wooden stick that had been placed horizontally from the bed beside her, and held his hands in front of his mother.
No past!Mom, hit me!As long as you feel a little better, I will be happy even if you hit me like last time!
My mother looked at my sincere eyes with tears in her eyes, and she held a thick wooden stick in front of her like apologizing for guilt. She couldn't help but smile and looked at me with a little teasing.
I have just left home for a while, and you are going to demolish the home!?Put it away!Mom said that I will never hit you again!
My mother glanced at the bare door, and her thousands of words turned into a comforting look at me.
no!Mom, you must beat me so that you can vent your anger and feel more at ease!I said firmly.
You are my son, how can you feel at ease if I hit you?Get up!Mom is fine. As long as you listen to your mother in the future, study hard, and be a good person, it makes me happier than anything else!
My mother looked at me gently and said softly.
Let me tell you what happened next, mom, please hit me first!I should fight if I do something wrong!I will not let go.
Just know your mistake, get up!Seeing that I was a little twisted, my mother had no choice but to get up and try to help me up.
I don't!If my mother doesn’t hit me, I won’t get up!I insisted on asking my mother to hit me so that her inner depression might be released, which is what I have been concerned about during this period.
No, get up... Mom still looked at me with relief, and refused my request with a soft smile.
I can't afford it, mom... I looked at her stubbornly without finishing my words.
Lu Zixuan!Get up immediately!Mom's face suddenly changed and she shouted fiercely.
Oh... I saw my mother get angry instantly and got up in a hurry obediently.
Throw that thing!
oh……
Clang...
You said you are so good that you don’t sleep in bed and have to get under the table!What to do if you have a cold!If you put such dirty things on the bed, how can I wash them for you...
Sitting on the bed again, I heard my mother beside me scolding me constantly, and while feeling guilty in my heart, I also felt a warm sense of care again.
Mom, I'm sorry... I suddenly grabbed my mother's jade hand, interrupted her, and looked at her with tears in my eyes.
……Um!Okay, such a big man, don’t be so unpromising. I’ve been away from home for a few days, why... My mother stretched out her gentle jade hand and touched my face, but she hadn’t finished speaking.
Mom, the hospital called you before, I understand that you are suffering from depression!I told my mother straight to the point.
My mother paused her hand that touched my face, her expression slightly stunned.
This is just a minor illness, it is all caused by some work pressure!People living in cities nowadays are like this, and office workers don’t have sub-health problems Ah!Mom is fine, don’t worry.
Mom said as if nothing had happened.
A minor illness...what if I am depressed too?
Bah, Bah, Bah, Bah, Bah, what nonsense are you talking about!
……
I looked at my mother's expression that was scolding me for being speechless, and felt distressed to her again.I couldn't help but hold her jade hand that was stroking my face with both hands and truly begged.
Mom, I'm sorry!If you feel unhappy in the future and dissatisfied with me, you will be able to beat me and scold me!Don't keep it in your heart, okay?
A smile that made me stare slowly bloomed on my mother's beautiful face.
You are not a sandbag, why did mom treat you like this!As long as you study hard in the future and grow up safely and healthily.
Um!As long as my mother is satisfied, I will listen to you in the future!But my mother wants to listen to me now. Can we go to the hospital first?As I said, I got up and wanted to pull my mother out and go to the hospital!
At this moment, I urgently want to know my mother's health status, and I am afraid that my mother's condition will become more and more serious...
Hey...sit down!My mother is fine. When I came back, I had already gone to the hospital for a follow-up visit. The doctor said I was much better than before.Mom felt a little relieved and said with a loose look on her face.
What about your case list?Let me take a look!I don't believe her so easily in this regard.
...This time it was a private follow-up visit and there was no registration to issue an order.Mom said seriously.
I don't believe it!You are lying to me!Let's go with me again... I held my mother's hand, just like when she was a child, she took me to the hospital for injections.
Wait... Xiaoxuan!The Chinese New Year will be celebrated in a few days. Now, in addition to the gynecological emergency room, there are still people in other departments in the hospital to work!You believe in mom, how could mom lie to you... Mom pulled me back to the bed and sat down, and explained helplessly.
What about your medicine?Take it out and let me take a look!At this moment, I only care about my mother's health, so I will not let go.
...The doctor said I am much better and I don’t need medicine anymore!
How is that possible!You've also...
Xiaoxuan!Mom knows that you care about me, and mom is very happy that you think so!But during this period, after my mother went out to relax, she really figured out a lot of things, and she was no longer as good as before... Can you believe in her mother?
Compared to before, my mother seems to have changed, and she loves to laugh more!
Also, her current black and thick shoulder-length short hair, under her apricot white jacket, paired with tight black trousers, highlighting her two slender and straight legs, which look more youthful and agile than before.
This made me see her for the first time and almost recognized her as my mother!
I was skeptical and couldn't help but ask curiously: Mom, why did your hair cut short?I haven't asked yet, where have you been there during this period!
Does it look good?
Maybe I didn't ask about her condition anymore, so my mother seemed much more relaxed. She tilted her head, shook her black and soft short hair, and smiled and showed two inconspicuous little rabbits staring at me.
Well, it looks good...oh no...not good...I mean... At first I was afraid that my mother would think that I was still thinking about her, so I quickly explained.
……alright!This time I went to Dali, where I saw many magnificent scenery and saw many things I had never seen before... It was refreshing.When I have the chance in the future, my mom will take you there, okay!
When my mother talked about her trip, she obviously talked about it with a smile on her face.
OK... Then... Mom, have you met some new friends or something?I asked without hesitation, and I regretted it for a moment.
...What friends do you think I will know?My mother didn’t know the meaning of my words, and there was a wise color in her dark pupils.
I... don't know... I can't continue and dare not look at my mother anymore.
My mother looked at me with her head hanging down, looking childish.He gave me annoyed look, then he looked serious, as if he promised.
Mom doesn’t have many friends, I know all the ones I should know!This time I went out, I just wanted to be alone and calm down. Now that I come back, I will continue to take care of you with peace of mind. In the future, we will be the two of us in this family!Do you understand?
Oh...I understand...Mom, don't worry, I will definitely obey you in the future and promise not to bother you anymore, and I will not make you angry!I'll take care of you in the future!OK?
When I heard that my mother was not angry, she went outside to meet other friends and made me give up on cerebral palsy behaviors, and I was immediately happy!
Although she was coerced by me before, she blurted out that she had promised me.
But now she reiterated this incident again, which made me feel as if I had a reassurance.
Although I dare not have any bad thoughts about my mother at this moment, no matter what, I don’t want her to have the idea of finding others from the bottom of my heart!
Looking at my smiling and excited look, my mother gave me an angrily look.
Take good care of yourself first!I've just left home for a few days, and what's going on?I'll clean up... Mom got up and looked at my dirty bed sheets and the messy room, and couldn't help but frown.
Hehe...Mom, I'll do it... You just came home, so let's take a rest first!I quickly got up and helped my mother clean up the bed sheets.
Go away!The more you help, the more messy you are. First, brush your teeth, wash your face and change your clothes. It's so dirty!When my mother came back now, she looked at me with a rare disgust.
OK... I enjoyed my mother's angry expression when she disliked me, and she looked indescribable and cute in conjunction with her changing image at this moment.
After saying that, I went to the closet to get a set of clothes, and I was so happy that I jumped out of the room like a child.
My mother looked at my back and felt inexplicably funny. At this moment, she also felt the warmth after returning home. A sweet smile slowly appeared on her beautiful and youthful pretty face.
Unfortunately, I still didn't see it...
What do you always think of me doing?If you have nothing to do, go review!Don’t think you don’t have to study when you are during the winter vacation!
My mother was cleaning the living room. When she looked up, she saw me leaning against the wall and staring at her. She stood up unhappily, pulled down her short hair in her ears, returned to her previous expression, and said domineeringly to me.
Mom, my final exam results have improved a lot. The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I... OK!I'll learn right away...
I reflexed that I wanted to fight my mother, but as soon as she frowned, I was immediately afraid that she would get angry because of this, so I quickly followed.
Can't you stay in your own room?Do you have to come to the living room?When my mother saw that I was reading a book in the living room, but in fact she was still looking at her, she immediately frowned and went up to ask.
Mom, the living room has a good lighting, so you can see it clearly.I continued reading seriously.
Is the bathroom light good?Are you going to come here to read a book?My mother was washing the sink, looking at me holding a book at the door, and asked again.
No, I want to go to the bathroom, but mom, you are busy first, I am not in a hurry... Then I pretended to be waiting to go to the bathroom, but still didn't forget to study.
Mom, where are you going?!I sat on the sofa in the living room and asked anxiously as I watched my mother walk to the door to change her shoes.
Go out to buy groceries!My mother knew what I was thinking, glanced at me and replied casually.
oh!I'll go with you... As I said that, I got up and prepared to go out with her.
Lu Zixuan!Do you have...
My mother looked at me who quickly arrived in front of her and was about to scold me impatiently.But when I saw that I looked like I was a good person, I stopped talking.
Xiaoxuan, my mother just went out for a while and would be back soon!You are such a big person, so don’t always bother your mother like you did when you were a child, okay?What a shame!
My mother knew that her departure during this period might have caused some psychological trauma to me, so she began to comfort me softly.
…Okay… Mom, have you brought your phone with you?I also know that I may have passed some of it, but after experiencing a loss, I really don’t want to leave my mother a minute or a second.
Um!Study hard, mom will be back soon!After my mother finished speaking, she turned around and went out, not saying too many erratic things to me, the older child.
Hello, mom!I sat in the living room and opened my mother's cell phone.
Well, what's the matter?At one end of the phone, my mother's beautiful voice came.
It's okay, when will you come back to Ah?I asked as if I acted coquettishly.
...I have only been out for a few minutes, so how quickly it is?I just hang up if I have nothing to do!My mother was a little impatient and hung up the phone after saying that.
Hello, mom, what are you...
Lu Zixuan, are you finished?Call me again and see how I deal with you when I get home!
After that, my mother soon went home, and she didn't do anything to me either.
After dinner, my mother did not ask me to continue to review because the Chinese New Year will be held in a few days. If she strictly urged me to study as before, it would be a bit unkind.
And she also has to be busy preparing and planning various matters for this New Year.
Because my grandparents passed away one after another when I was very young, my mother and I still went to my mother's hometown town to celebrate the New Year with my grandmother and uncle, just like in previous years. The only difference is that we have no father this year...
At around 10 o'clock in the evening, my mother was wearing white split pajamas and sat with me on the sofa in the living room watching TV.
Go to bed early!We will go buy something together tomorrow, and we will go to your grandmother’s house the day after tomorrow.Mom turned off the TV and stood up to arrange it.
Well... OK...
I didn't pay much attention to the TV content at all. I looked at my mother again reluctantly and returned to my room.
After turning off the light, I lay on the bed a little unccustomedly, looking at the living room...
After a while, the living room lights also went out, which made me feel even more inexplicably panic.
This is the mood I have whenever I enter the night for the past half month.
Especially when turning off the lights, even more so after lying on the bed!
A few minutes later, I tossed and turned on the bed, unable to sleep, wrapped myself in the quilt and got out of bed, and walked to the desk in the dark...
Not long after, at some moment when I was drowsy, slap!The lights in my room were turned on all of a sudden!
Xiaoxuan!Why are you sleeping... Come out quickly!
It turned out that my mother was worried about me as if she was feeling, and wanted to see if I was asleep.
But when I arrived at my room, I found that the bed was bare and there was no one and the quilt!
I quickly turned on the light to check it out, and then I realized that I was caught under the desk and crouched into a ball to sleep.
You kid!Why do you have to get under the table if you don’t sleep if you have a bed?You are in the development stage, what should you do if your spine and lumbar spine are deformed!
My mother pulled me out, looked at me with some distress, and scolded me harshly.
Mom...I...I don't know, maybe it's sleepwalking!I was a little drowsy and didn't dare to look at her.
When did you sleepwalking when you grew up? Why didn’t I know?You are really...you want to piss me to death, aren't you?
My mother's face was a little blue. Maybe she thought that I was in this situation when she came back in the morning, so she felt even more worried.
Mom, don’t be angry, I am...just...I promise you that I will never do this again!Don't be angry, okay?I went to bed now... When I saw my mother's angry and sad look, I was immediately shocked and quickly admitted her mistake and prepared to go to bed.
Wait a minute, come with me!My mother grabbed the quilt on my body, threw it on the bed, and pulled my hand and said sternly.
Where to go...
Sleep with me!
I lay on the big red bed in my mother's bedroom, covering the same big red quilt as my mother.
I was not very excited at this moment, but a little nervous because I didn’t know what my mother would think of me, would she think that I was just a trick or something, and wouldn’t she know if it would cause trouble and pressure on her again...
OK, go to bed honestly!My mother covered me with a quilt and turned around and prepared to turn off the lights.
Alas!Mom, wait a moment, can you not turn off the lights?I stared at the bright bedside lamp with some reluctance, which may be one of the few strange habits that can make me feel at ease.
...Well... Let's go to bed quickly!Seeing this, my mother looked at me strangely and said nothing.Then he lay beside me, closed his beautiful eyes and prepared to fall asleep.
After a while.
Not dazzling?Are you doing this every day during this period?My mother finally couldn't help but turn her head and asked softly with her head leaned against my pillow.
Mom, I'm fine. Sometimes when I look at the lights, I feel that my mind will be a little clearer and I can put aside many messy thoughts.
I looked at my mother's short hair scattered on the pillow, and there was a hint of worry on her beautiful face, and explained to her frankly.
My mother looked at me up close for a while, and when she saw that I was not too abnormal, her expression calmed down a lot.Then I got up again, bang!With a sound, the light turned off.
sleep!
My mother lay down next to me. After fumbled through her jade hand in the quilt, she held my hand with her ten fingers tightly, as if she wanted to make me feel at ease.
Xiaoxuan, are you asleep?In the darkness, my mother asked softly.
without!I replied.
...I'm sorry, mom will never leave you again!My mother's tone was stable, but she held my hand tightened.
No!It’s me that I’m sorry to mom, you are not wrong!It is me who disappointed your expectations for me and your education for me.I hurt you like that before, and sometimes I feel that I am quite a bastard... I said what I kept reflecting on myself during this period.
It’s okay, as long as you listen to your mother and study hard in the future, you will still be your mother’s good child!My mother said gently as if she was comforting me when she was a child.
...Mom, you are so good!I have done so many wrong things, and you are willing to continue to take care of me... Why do you want to be so kind to me...
I held my mother's warm and boneless hand, and remembered the bad things I had done to my mother before, and my breathing was a little rapid, my throat choked, and tears fell silently.
Because...I am your mother... No matter what you do wrong, I will always be your mother!
My mother said things she said countless times before, but her tone was a little different from before. This time, I obviously heard this sentence, which contained my mother's care, protection, and determination for me!
good!You will always be my mother!forever!I took a deep breath and responded strongly.
In the darkness, in the mother's bedroom.
At this moment, although my mother and I were sleeping on the bed covered with the same quilt, we leaned against each other and held hands.
But I know in my heart that the distance between my mother and I have already developed compared to the previous period!
I know even more that this distance will be a gap that I dare not and cannot cross now!
Perhaps, at this moment, I can't even have this kind of thought anymore...
The weather was getting colder before the Chinese New Year, and the coldness of Laba is what I received these days.
It rarely snows in the south, and I don’t even know how to snow the city I live in, but this does not affect my appreciation of the cold winter at all.
In the midst of no self and no space, this is a vast white mountain and snowy land.
The sky was whistling with wind and snow. I leaned against a tall pine tree, and there were scattered pine trees covered with snow.
I was trembling with cold, and I could only keep pulling the thin silk quilt covered with my body.
But no matter how I wrapped the quilt, the strong wind whistling in my ears like an ice skate, mixed with the messy frost and snow made me feel cold, as if my whole body was condensed into ice.
The overwhelming snow-incandescent light made my eyes look slightly narrowed.
Looking around the sparse white pine forest, I was the only one...
I don’t know how long it took, in the white-shirted pine forest in front of me, a beautiful figure appeared on the ground with a thick layer of snow, strolling lightly on the snow.
She has a long figure and a bright and beautiful face.
He was wearing a black breast-wrapped dress, with a skirt and knees, and exposed two calves that were as white as this world.
The shrill wind and snow in the pine forest could only shake her black skirt, and the accumulated mountains and snow did not make her walk deep into it. She always maintained an elegant and graceful posture and walked towards me.
Ten meters in the radius is where she stands with her hands.
I could see her face clearly. Under her clear burgundy long hair, there was a small, fair and melon-shaped face that was as white as snow. A soft light was always released in her dazzling and deep eyes.
Her face and smile are like peach blossoms, and her slender figure with a perfect proportion of soft and lightweight shape is made even more noble under a black breast-boned dress!
She was like a ball of black fireworks, burning gracefully and beautifully in the ice and snow.
Everything about this woman is incompatible with this world, but it makes my near frozen flesh and blood boil in an instant!She is my mother, she is Liang Buping!
Mother!My eyes were fixed on her beautiful face like a 28-year-old girl, and my familiar face made me blurt out and shout.
Then I excitedly rushed out of the thin quilt, causing the snow on my body to scatter, my knees to sink deep into the snow, and I shook my body and walked towards my mother in front of me.
After a few steps, when I was about to get close to my mother in a black dress, she just smiled softly, looked at me playfully and embarrassingly, stretched out her hands hidden behind her, spread them out, opened her ice-skinned jade hands a few times, and turned around...
My mother was still light in a black dress, wearing silver high heels, and strolled in the wind and snow with her hands on her back, shuttled through the scattered white pine forest, looking back at me and smiling.
Mom...wait me...Mom...
I quickly walked hard among the cedar forests and crawled forward. Maybe my hands and feet were frozen stiff, but I couldn't wait to chase my mother's mind, but the more I was ignited, the hotter it became.
I have fallen in the snow for many times, but I have never stopped staring at my mother's neat posture and chasing her back...
Soon, I crossed the white pine forest and came to a snowy mountain.
My mother smiled and looked at me, walking backwards halfway up the mountain.
His steps were light, and his black skirt was slightly swinging under his chest-wrapped dress, and he was above my sight like a dancing dance.
I endured the bitter hurricane in my ears like a knife, my limbs lie on the sand and snow, crawling against the ground, looking up at my mother who had been waving to me with a gentle smile, and couldn't help but speed up my embarrassing pace, and soon, I reached the top of the mountain...
Mom...Don't leave, okay...I miss you very much...
In the snowy world, I lay on the open space on the top of the mountain, looking up at my mother in front of me. She was even more graceful and charming in the snowy high ground.
My mother stopped, looked down at me with her frown and smile, stretched out a soft hand and waved it gently, as if she was saying hello to me.
Xiaoxuan...goodbye...
My mother's warm and delicate voice came, and she stepped back after she said that, suddenly!Then he fell from my eyes to the slope of the mountain behind him and disappeared from my sight...
No!Mom...Mom...
I climbed forward like struggling in the snow, and came to the edge of the mountain bag, watching the hillside where my mother fell, except for the unobstructed thick snow, there was no trace of my mother.
Mom...Where are you...Mom...
Xiaoxuan...goodbye...Xiaoxuan...
I lay on the snow on the edge of the mountain bag, looking around anxiously, looking down at every place in the snowy mountain, without my mother's figure.
Only my ears seemed to be echoing, and the farewell words my mother said before she disappeared.
Gradually, my body was covered with ice and snow again, and I lay on the snow, completely frozen.
The only pair of eyes exposed looked at the snow frost flying all over the sky. In the blurry sight, I seemed to see my mother wearing a black dress, rippling in the ice and snow world, and the sound of my mother whispering my name softly in her ears...
Xiaoxuan!You wake up!Xiaoxuan...
The morning sun that has not been seen for many days shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room and falls on every corner of the residence and every room.
Next to the floor-to-ceiling window is the first to bear the brunt of a bedroom without doors and door frames!
The golden morning light was spread on the edge of the bed, on the ground, in front of the desk, and on the body of the Miaoman Qianying squatting between the two chairs.
As soon as she entered the room, she found her son curled up under the desk, shaking constantly, and muttering to her.
This made her feel heartbroken and began to blame her for running away from home.
Xiaoxuan... wake up...
In a daze, I was pushed a few times, and a gentle and familiar beautiful voice sounded in my ears.Slowly, I opened my eyes and regained my consciousness...
Mother?!
The place I saw was suddenly!I saw my mother who had been away for half a month and was a little unbelievable, so I quickly thought of getting up to confirm.
Bang!The moment I set off, my head pushed to the bottom of the desk and made a heavy impact.
Ah!hiss……
Be careful!It's okay!Come out slowly... When my mother saw that I was hit and hurt, she covered her head with her heart and reached out to touch my head.
The moment my mother's soft and tender hands were placed on my head, I knew that this was not an illusion and I didn't dream!Mom is back!
Mother!
I was silent for more than ten days in a crying voice, and suddenly burst out!
He crawled out under the desk like a catapult, looking at his new mother, who still had a face, kneeled in front of her, opened his hands and hugged her tightly...
Mom...I never dared to leave anymore...Can you not leave...I bowed to my mother's apricot white coat, and sobbed excitedly between her soft and fragrant hair.
……good!Mom won’t leave anymore. Xiaoxuan is just obedient, and mom will always be with you... Mom may feel my agitation at this moment, and it is rare to care and caress my head.
Mom...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I hugged my mother tightly, as if she was afraid that she would leave again, and kept admitting her mistakes and begging.
Okay, let it go if it’s past!Stop crying.My mother squatted on the ground and comforted me in her arms softly, as if I was the victim at this moment.
Sorry... I felt even more guilty when I heard this, and I burst into tears like a child.
After a long time, my crying sounds gradually stopped in the room.In front of the desk, there was only the scene of me kneeling on the ground and embracing my mother silently.
OK, get up!Come... Mom said warmly in my ear, slowly guiding me to get up and stand up.
Then she saw that I was still holding her tightly and took me to sit on my bed next to me.
I bent down and hugged my mother, lowered my head to my mother's warm neck, and deeply smelled the familiar fragrance between my mother's body and hair. There was no trace of evil desire in my heart, but instead felt unprecedented peace.
I really want time to freeze at this moment forever. I am afraid that I have had enough of my mother's departure, and my heart is in a state of pain all the time...
Xiaoxuan, I'm sorry, mom shouldn't leave you so irresponsibly. Can you forgive mom?
As soon as my mother got home, she saw me who looked inhumane, and combined with the fact that I had just seen her emotionally out of control.
She condemned herself again and looked a little panicked. She was afraid that I would leave a shadow in her heart after this.
When I heard that my mother apologized to me first, I immediately let go of her arms and knelt in front of her again.
No!Mom, I'm sorry for you!It was me who hurt you... You are my best mother, but I... I knelt down with my hands, looked at my mother with tears in my eyes, and said what I have regretted for the past half month.
It's okay... it's all over... get up!My mother was also moved, and her eyes flashed with a hint of relief.
My mother said that she wanted to pull me up, but I shook her head to stop her.He leaned over and slowly grabbed the big wooden stick that had been placed horizontally from the bed beside her, and held his hands in front of his mother.
No past!Mom, hit me!As long as you feel a little better, I will be happy even if you hit me like last time!
My mother looked at my sincere eyes with tears in her eyes, and she held a thick wooden stick in front of her like apologizing for guilt. She couldn't help but smile and looked at me with a little teasing.
I have just left home for a while, and you are going to demolish the home!?Put it away!Mom said that I will never hit you again!
My mother glanced at the bare door, and her thousands of words turned into a comforting look at me.
no!Mom, you must beat me so that you can vent your anger and feel more at ease!I said firmly.
You are my son, how can you feel at ease if I hit you?Get up!Mom is fine. As long as you listen to your mother in the future, study hard, and be a good person, it makes me happier than anything else!
My mother looked at me gently and said softly.
Let me tell you what happened next, mom, please hit me first!I should fight if I do something wrong!I will not let go.
Just know your mistake, get up!Seeing that I was a little twisted, my mother had no choice but to get up and try to help me up.
I don't!If my mother doesn’t hit me, I won’t get up!I insisted on asking my mother to hit me so that her inner depression might be released, which is what I have been concerned about during this period.
No, get up... Mom still looked at me with relief, and refused my request with a soft smile.
I can't afford it, mom... I looked at her stubbornly without finishing my words.
Lu Zixuan!Get up immediately!Mom's face suddenly changed and she shouted fiercely.
Oh... I saw my mother get angry instantly and got up in a hurry obediently.
Throw that thing!
oh……
Clang...
You said you are so good that you don’t sleep in bed and have to get under the table!What to do if you have a cold!If you put such dirty things on the bed, how can I wash them for you...
Sitting on the bed again, I heard my mother beside me scolding me constantly, and while feeling guilty in my heart, I also felt a warm sense of care again.
Mom, I'm sorry... I suddenly grabbed my mother's jade hand, interrupted her, and looked at her with tears in my eyes.
……Um!Okay, such a big man, don’t be so unpromising. I’ve been away from home for a few days, why... My mother stretched out her gentle jade hand and touched my face, but she hadn’t finished speaking.
Mom, the hospital called you before, I understand that you are suffering from depression!I told my mother straight to the point.
My mother paused her hand that touched my face, her expression slightly stunned.
This is just a minor illness, it is all caused by some work pressure!People living in cities nowadays are like this, and office workers don’t have sub-health problems Ah!Mom is fine, don’t worry.
Mom said as if nothing had happened.
A minor illness...what if I am depressed too?
Bah, Bah, Bah, Bah, Bah, what nonsense are you talking about!
……
I looked at my mother's expression that was scolding me for being speechless, and felt distressed to her again.I couldn't help but hold her jade hand that was stroking my face with both hands and truly begged.
Mom, I'm sorry!If you feel unhappy in the future and dissatisfied with me, you will be able to beat me and scold me!Don't keep it in your heart, okay?
A smile that made me stare slowly bloomed on my mother's beautiful face.
You are not a sandbag, why did mom treat you like this!As long as you study hard in the future and grow up safely and healthily.
Um!As long as my mother is satisfied, I will listen to you in the future!But my mother wants to listen to me now. Can we go to the hospital first?As I said, I got up and wanted to pull my mother out and go to the hospital!
At this moment, I urgently want to know my mother's health status, and I am afraid that my mother's condition will become more and more serious...
Hey...sit down!My mother is fine. When I came back, I had already gone to the hospital for a follow-up visit. The doctor said I was much better than before.Mom felt a little relieved and said with a loose look on her face.
What about your case list?Let me take a look!I don't believe her so easily in this regard.
...This time it was a private follow-up visit and there was no registration to issue an order.Mom said seriously.
I don't believe it!You are lying to me!Let's go with me again... I held my mother's hand, just like when she was a child, she took me to the hospital for injections.
Wait... Xiaoxuan!The Chinese New Year will be celebrated in a few days. Now, in addition to the gynecological emergency room, there are still people in other departments in the hospital to work!You believe in mom, how could mom lie to you... Mom pulled me back to the bed and sat down, and explained helplessly.
What about your medicine?Take it out and let me take a look!At this moment, I only care about my mother's health, so I will not let go.
...The doctor said I am much better and I don’t need medicine anymore!
How is that possible!You've also...
Xiaoxuan!Mom knows that you care about me, and mom is very happy that you think so!But during this period, after my mother went out to relax, she really figured out a lot of things, and she was no longer as good as before... Can you believe in her mother?
Compared to before, my mother seems to have changed, and she loves to laugh more!
Also, her current black and thick shoulder-length short hair, under her apricot white jacket, paired with tight black trousers, highlighting her two slender and straight legs, which look more youthful and agile than before.
This made me see her for the first time and almost recognized her as my mother!
I was skeptical and couldn't help but ask curiously: Mom, why did your hair cut short?I haven't asked yet, where have you been there during this period!
Does it look good?
Maybe I didn't ask about her condition anymore, so my mother seemed much more relaxed. She tilted her head, shook her black and soft short hair, and smiled and showed two inconspicuous little rabbits staring at me.
Well, it looks good...oh no...not good...I mean... At first I was afraid that my mother would think that I was still thinking about her, so I quickly explained.
……alright!This time I went to Dali, where I saw many magnificent scenery and saw many things I had never seen before... It was refreshing.When I have the chance in the future, my mom will take you there, okay!
When my mother talked about her trip, she obviously talked about it with a smile on her face.
OK... Then... Mom, have you met some new friends or something?I asked without hesitation, and I regretted it for a moment.
...What friends do you think I will know?My mother didn’t know the meaning of my words, and there was a wise color in her dark pupils.
I... don't know... I can't continue and dare not look at my mother anymore.
My mother looked at me with her head hanging down, looking childish.He gave me annoyed look, then he looked serious, as if he promised.
Mom doesn’t have many friends, I know all the ones I should know!This time I went out, I just wanted to be alone and calm down. Now that I come back, I will continue to take care of you with peace of mind. In the future, we will be the two of us in this family!Do you understand?
Oh...I understand...Mom, don't worry, I will definitely obey you in the future and promise not to bother you anymore, and I will not make you angry!I'll take care of you in the future!OK?
When I heard that my mother was not angry, she went outside to meet other friends and made me give up on cerebral palsy behaviors, and I was immediately happy!
Although she was coerced by me before, she blurted out that she had promised me.
But now she reiterated this incident again, which made me feel as if I had a reassurance.
Although I dare not have any bad thoughts about my mother at this moment, no matter what, I don’t want her to have the idea of finding others from the bottom of my heart!
Looking at my smiling and excited look, my mother gave me an angrily look.
Take good care of yourself first!I've just left home for a few days, and what's going on?I'll clean up... Mom got up and looked at my dirty bed sheets and the messy room, and couldn't help but frown.
Hehe...Mom, I'll do it... You just came home, so let's take a rest first!I quickly got up and helped my mother clean up the bed sheets.
Go away!The more you help, the more messy you are. First, brush your teeth, wash your face and change your clothes. It's so dirty!When my mother came back now, she looked at me with a rare disgust.
OK... I enjoyed my mother's angry expression when she disliked me, and she looked indescribable and cute in conjunction with her changing image at this moment.
After saying that, I went to the closet to get a set of clothes, and I was so happy that I jumped out of the room like a child.
My mother looked at my back and felt inexplicably funny. At this moment, she also felt the warmth after returning home. A sweet smile slowly appeared on her beautiful and youthful pretty face.
Unfortunately, I still didn't see it...
What do you always think of me doing?If you have nothing to do, go review!Don’t think you don’t have to study when you are during the winter vacation!
My mother was cleaning the living room. When she looked up, she saw me leaning against the wall and staring at her. She stood up unhappily, pulled down her short hair in her ears, returned to her previous expression, and said domineeringly to me.
Mom, my final exam results have improved a lot. The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I... OK!I'll learn right away...
I reflexed that I wanted to fight my mother, but as soon as she frowned, I was immediately afraid that she would get angry because of this, so I quickly followed.
Can't you stay in your own room?Do you have to come to the living room?When my mother saw that I was reading a book in the living room, but in fact she was still looking at her, she immediately frowned and went up to ask.
Mom, the living room has a good lighting, so you can see it clearly.I continued reading seriously.
Is the bathroom light good?Are you going to come here to read a book?My mother was washing the sink, looking at me holding a book at the door, and asked again.
No, I want to go to the bathroom, but mom, you are busy first, I am not in a hurry... Then I pretended to be waiting to go to the bathroom, but still didn't forget to study.
Mom, where are you going?!I sat on the sofa in the living room and asked anxiously as I watched my mother walk to the door to change her shoes.
Go out to buy groceries!My mother knew what I was thinking, glanced at me and replied casually.
oh!I'll go with you... As I said that, I got up and prepared to go out with her.
Lu Zixuan!Do you have...
My mother looked at me who quickly arrived in front of her and was about to scold me impatiently.But when I saw that I looked like I was a good person, I stopped talking.
Xiaoxuan, my mother just went out for a while and would be back soon!You are such a big person, so don’t always bother your mother like you did when you were a child, okay?What a shame!
My mother knew that her departure during this period might have caused some psychological trauma to me, so she began to comfort me softly.
…Okay… Mom, have you brought your phone with you?I also know that I may have passed some of it, but after experiencing a loss, I really don’t want to leave my mother a minute or a second.
Um!Study hard, mom will be back soon!After my mother finished speaking, she turned around and went out, not saying too many erratic things to me, the older child.
Hello, mom!I sat in the living room and opened my mother's cell phone.
Well, what's the matter?At one end of the phone, my mother's beautiful voice came.
It's okay, when will you come back to Ah?I asked as if I acted coquettishly.
...I have only been out for a few minutes, so how quickly it is?I just hang up if I have nothing to do!My mother was a little impatient and hung up the phone after saying that.
Hello, mom, what are you...
Lu Zixuan, are you finished?Call me again and see how I deal with you when I get home!
After that, my mother soon went home, and she didn't do anything to me either.
After dinner, my mother did not ask me to continue to review because the Chinese New Year will be held in a few days. If she strictly urged me to study as before, it would be a bit unkind.
And she also has to be busy preparing and planning various matters for this New Year.
Because my grandparents passed away one after another when I was very young, my mother and I still went to my mother's hometown town to celebrate the New Year with my grandmother and uncle, just like in previous years. The only difference is that we have no father this year...
At around 10 o'clock in the evening, my mother was wearing white split pajamas and sat with me on the sofa in the living room watching TV.
Go to bed early!We will go buy something together tomorrow, and we will go to your grandmother’s house the day after tomorrow.Mom turned off the TV and stood up to arrange it.
Well... OK...
I didn't pay much attention to the TV content at all. I looked at my mother again reluctantly and returned to my room.
After turning off the light, I lay on the bed a little unccustomedly, looking at the living room...
After a while, the living room lights also went out, which made me feel even more inexplicably panic.
This is the mood I have whenever I enter the night for the past half month.
Especially when turning off the lights, even more so after lying on the bed!
A few minutes later, I tossed and turned on the bed, unable to sleep, wrapped myself in the quilt and got out of bed, and walked to the desk in the dark...
Not long after, at some moment when I was drowsy, slap!The lights in my room were turned on all of a sudden!
Xiaoxuan!Why are you sleeping... Come out quickly!
It turned out that my mother was worried about me as if she was feeling, and wanted to see if I was asleep.
But when I arrived at my room, I found that the bed was bare and there was no one and the quilt!
I quickly turned on the light to check it out, and then I realized that I was caught under the desk and crouched into a ball to sleep.
You kid!Why do you have to get under the table if you don’t sleep if you have a bed?You are in the development stage, what should you do if your spine and lumbar spine are deformed!
My mother pulled me out, looked at me with some distress, and scolded me harshly.
Mom...I...I don't know, maybe it's sleepwalking!I was a little drowsy and didn't dare to look at her.
When did you sleepwalking when you grew up? Why didn’t I know?You are really...you want to piss me to death, aren't you?
My mother's face was a little blue. Maybe she thought that I was in this situation when she came back in the morning, so she felt even more worried.
Mom, don’t be angry, I am...just...I promise you that I will never do this again!Don't be angry, okay?I went to bed now... When I saw my mother's angry and sad look, I was immediately shocked and quickly admitted her mistake and prepared to go to bed.
Wait a minute, come with me!My mother grabbed the quilt on my body, threw it on the bed, and pulled my hand and said sternly.
Where to go...
Sleep with me!
I lay on the big red bed in my mother's bedroom, covering the same big red quilt as my mother.
I was not very excited at this moment, but a little nervous because I didn’t know what my mother would think of me, would she think that I was just a trick or something, and wouldn’t she know if it would cause trouble and pressure on her again...
OK, go to bed honestly!My mother covered me with a quilt and turned around and prepared to turn off the lights.
Alas!Mom, wait a moment, can you not turn off the lights?I stared at the bright bedside lamp with some reluctance, which may be one of the few strange habits that can make me feel at ease.
...Well... Let's go to bed quickly!Seeing this, my mother looked at me strangely and said nothing.Then he lay beside me, closed his beautiful eyes and prepared to fall asleep.
After a while.
Not dazzling?Are you doing this every day during this period?My mother finally couldn't help but turn her head and asked softly with her head leaned against my pillow.
Mom, I'm fine. Sometimes when I look at the lights, I feel that my mind will be a little clearer and I can put aside many messy thoughts.
I looked at my mother's short hair scattered on the pillow, and there was a hint of worry on her beautiful face, and explained to her frankly.
My mother looked at me up close for a while, and when she saw that I was not too abnormal, her expression calmed down a lot.Then I got up again, bang!With a sound, the light turned off.
sleep!
My mother lay down next to me. After fumbled through her jade hand in the quilt, she held my hand with her ten fingers tightly, as if she wanted to make me feel at ease.
Xiaoxuan, are you asleep?In the darkness, my mother asked softly.
without!I replied.
...I'm sorry, mom will never leave you again!My mother's tone was stable, but she held my hand tightened.
No!It’s me that I’m sorry to mom, you are not wrong!It is me who disappointed your expectations for me and your education for me.I hurt you like that before, and sometimes I feel that I am quite a bastard... I said what I kept reflecting on myself during this period.
It’s okay, as long as you listen to your mother and study hard in the future, you will still be your mother’s good child!My mother said gently as if she was comforting me when she was a child.
...Mom, you are so good!I have done so many wrong things, and you are willing to continue to take care of me... Why do you want to be so kind to me...
I held my mother's warm and boneless hand, and remembered the bad things I had done to my mother before, and my breathing was a little rapid, my throat choked, and tears fell silently.
Because...I am your mother... No matter what you do wrong, I will always be your mother!
My mother said things she said countless times before, but her tone was a little different from before. This time, I obviously heard this sentence, which contained my mother's care, protection, and determination for me!
good!You will always be my mother!forever!I took a deep breath and responded strongly.
In the darkness, in the mother's bedroom.
At this moment, although my mother and I were sleeping on the bed covered with the same quilt, we leaned against each other and held hands.
But I know in my heart that the distance between my mother and I have already developed compared to the previous period!
I know even more that this distance will be a gap that I dare not and cannot cross now!
Perhaps, at this moment, I can't even have this kind of thought anymore...
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