Introduction

My name is Ling Xiaowei. I am 26 years old and a female teacher. My parents divorced when I was a child. I grew up with my grandma. My parents only give my grandma some living expenses every month and rarely come to see me. Because of this, I am more introverted and not talkative, so I am always lonely when I go to school and have few friends.

When I was in junior high school, I was always bullied by my male classmates

After entering high school, the environment gradually improved and I also had a few friends. At that time, since they were 16 or 7 years old, everyone began to feel excited. The girls always talked about which boy was more handsome, and the boys also kept catching up with beautiful girls all day long.

Friends all say that I look like a pure jade girl Gao Yuanyuan. I was 168cm tall in high school. My well-proportioned figure was regarded as a target by many boys. I was surrounded by me all day long, helping me and that one, but I didn’t seem to have any interest in them, just treating them like classmates. But when the girl approached me, I felt very kind. I especially like being with beautiful and cute girls.

When I was in my second year of high school, I suddenly realized that when I saw girls peeing in front of me, I had an inexplicable impulse. Since the school toilets were all without compartments, everyone squeezed into the toilet together, so every time I went to the toilet, I could see countless girls peeing in front of me, and my face would become red and red

This situation makes me feel very ashamed. I am a girl, why do I feel excited when I see a girl peeing?

In order to reduce this embarrassment, I tried to drink less water and go to the toilet as much as possible, and minimize the occurrence of such things. But if I persist for a few days, I couldn't help but recall the feeling, and I would involuntarily go to the school toilet to watch other girls pee, and then feel that inexplicable feeling. Several times I even thought about the girls' urine if they pee on me, but this perverted thought was immediately wiped out by my moral standards.

Later, when I was online, I came into contact with the word homosexuality. That was the first time I knew that there were men in the world who like men, and women like women.

My mind suddenly thought about whether I am gay?

I can't tell whether it is or not, but I'm sure I really don't like boys but girls. When I'm with girls, I feel happy and excited

But I never showed any abnormal behavior. In addition, I didn't like to talk very much, so my classmates never discovered this secret.