Chapter 144 Anesthesia

Pregnant?

These two words are more dazzling than anal sex. I originally thought that Xiaoying and her father had broken through the boundaries of anal sex. After reading the log, I knew that anal sex did not happen at all, but the possibility of pregnancy made me feel the pain and heartache of L-G.

After 40 days of menstruation, are you really pregnant?

I have always trusted the contraceptive ring too much, but can its contraceptive effect really reach 100%?

If I have to choose one of my pregnancy and anal sex, I would rather choose anal sex...

My breathing is getting faster and faster, as if my asthma is about to be hypoxia

I covered my chest and felt the coldness of my whole body, as if I had lost all my body temperature in one go

I've never been so scared

I control my emotions, I try to control my emotions

I kept admonishing and comforting myself in my heart: I haven't confirmed yet, I must be calm, at least I have to know whether the contraceptive ring can be 100% contraceptive

I adjusted my breathing, kept comforting myself mentally, and there was hope, everything might be a false alarm.

After I closed Xiaoying's log, I opened the web page with my trembling hands and started searching for relevant knowledge about the contraceptive ring

My heart prays that contraceptive is my last life-saving straw, so there must be no accidents.

But reality hit me hard. My search results showed that even if I wear a contraceptive ring, there are precedents of pregnancy failure and failure to get pregnant.

It turns out that there is indeed a possibility of pregnancy. My mood at this time cannot be described. The last glimmer of hope was shattered. My excitement and pain at this time, except for the death of my mother, this time, is the strongest.

My hands tightly held the computer monitor. Because I didn't hold the computer monitor, I was afraid that I would collapse on the floor at this time. I wanted to hold the fingers of both hands into the screen of the monitor.

The computer monitor was creaking and creaking, as if it would be crushed by me who was about to lose control at any time.

I held the computer monitor, as if it was the only support point of my body. My head was hanging down weakly. I took a deep breath. I felt my sweat staying on my face, as if I was about to faint at any time.

And I did my best to maintain soberness and balance

My father and Xiaoying will slowly restrain themselves and cut off their warm relationship. Everything will return to their previous state. But when Xiaoying is really pregnant, will things go back to their previous state?

If Xiaoying is really pregnant, then who is the child?

be mine?

Still from my father

It's possible, I'm still young, and my sperm revitalization is definitely higher than my father. In terms of the probability of pregnancy, there is more probability that my child is me than my father.

But when I think about it another way, my father's ejaculation is much larger than mine. Thinking of the scene where my father's thick white semen flows out of Xiaoying's vagina, it seems that my father's semen has more sperm than mine. I think this is enough to offset the sperm survival rate.

Moreover, my father's penis is much longer than mine, so it is easier to penetrate Xiaoying's uterus and ejaculate the semen deep in Xiaoying's uterus.

Comparing these two points and one comparison, if nothing unexpected happens, this child is most likely to be the father. Overall, the probability of Xiaoying being conceived seems to be greater than that of me.

Before Xiaoying and her father had sex, we had specialized in the issue of having a second child. My father also suggested that we have a second child at that time. After all, the country has opened the second child policy.

We already have a son, Xiaoying always wants a daughter, and there is a son and a daughter under her knees, so the word "child" is truly complete

If the second child is still a son, with our financial strength, there will be no problem in supporting our two sons.

But after studying it, it was disrupted by Xiaoying and I and I, and I never really discussed this topic again.

Now this wish may have been realized by accident, but I didn't expect it to be realized under such a complex family ethical relationship

What if Xiaoying is really pregnant this time?

Can the child?

If Xiaoying is really pregnant, will the little life she has nurtured in her belly be my children, my younger brother or sister?

I sat at the desk and felt sweat flowing along my cheeks bit by bit. I looked at the photo of Xiaoying and me on the desk. It was a photo of us when we were in college. We were a little immature in the photo. We were so happy at that time.

Looking at the photos, am I looking for some comfort to me?

But seeing her at this moment will only make me more painful

I didn't know what to do at this time, so I turned on the real-time monitoring at home and saw Xiaoying lying on our wedding bed.

Xiaoying is lying on her back at this time

Her face became much haggard, and she had been tortured to death in the past two days. Her originally soft hair seemed to have lost its original brilliance and looked a little messy.

But I may also be following in her footsteps, maybe even worse than her

My eyes moved to her abdomen with the camera. Her abdomen was still surrounded by her slender waist as before. Her lower abdomen is still so flat at this moment

I wish I could have a pair of eyes with B-super functions, and through Xiaoying's belly, see if a life is born under her flat belly.

If Xiaoying is really pregnant and if nothing is done at that time, then this flat belly will become bigger and bigger, and finally a new life will be born...

After reading Xiaoying's log, I almost collapsed. I regret reading this post, which may relieve my inner pain.

I have to say that this question also makes me feel like a bolt from the blue, and I don't know what to do for a while

Now my feeling is like smoking too much, my whole body is numb and tight, as if I have lost most of my pleasure. I am in a trance and can't find the true thoughts in my mind.

Why, why is the life that was originally peaceful and has to be turbulent again? God, are you really punishing me?

Do you punish me for my random thoughts and actions?

Now let me eat the fruits

No wonder I always feel sad these two days when Xiaoying seems to be mixed with other things in her expression. At the beginning, I felt strange, but I don’t know why, I can only think that I had an illusion. Now when I think about it, there is another reason for all this.

Thinking of Xiaoying's timidity towards me these days, and even kneeling unintentionally implicitly, the pressure she has been under in her heart in the past two days may be greater than mine. She must be very helpless and desperate at this time, but she has been enduring it strongly.

Even if there is a last glimmer of hope, she will not give up on our relationship and this family

But these are the reasons why I should accept this?

If Xiaoying is really pregnant, should this child want it? After all, I can't figure out who the child's father is

Tolerating Xiaoying and her father has been my bottom line. Can I still tolerate Xiaoying having children for her father?

Let your beloved wife add a younger brother or younger sister to yourself?

ＮＴＲPeople who are poisoned may agree with this issue and may even be even more excited, but I still retain the last bit of reason. This issue makes me resist in my heart and cannot accept it at all.

Calm, be sure to calm down. My hands trembled and let go of the computer monitor. My lips trembled, and my whole body was trembling. Even the computer chair was trembling with my body, making a sound of friction with the floor.

After a brief restoration, I gradually calmed down

I dragged my tired body and got up and walked to the floor-to-ceiling window of the office. I was not tired at all, but I felt my whole body was weak.

I slowly came to the window and opened the curtains. I didn't turn on the light at this time. With the faint moonlight, I stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window. I lit a cigarette. There was no wine at this time, and only cigarettes could allow me to temporarily feel the feeling of anesthesia, although it felt very weak.

The cigarettes are burning little by little, and the smoke is lingering in front of my eyes, reflecting my thoughts more psychedelic

I tried hard to experience the comfort and pleasure brought to me by nicotine, and this moment made my body feel a little relieved.

I sucked each cigarette very heavily and very much. Nicotine flowed through my body instantly, calming my body gradually

I force myself to think about this matter most rationally. I cannot lose my mind and let impulsive emotions control myself.

Relying on nicotine and my stronger stress resistance mentality, I began to think, from the perspective of the bystander, fantasizing that I was an outsider at this time, not Xiaoying's husband.

The final determination of this matter can only be based on Xiaoying herself, when she will determine whether she is pregnant, and whether she decides whether she wants this child. If her decision does not match mine, I will think of other solutions.

Xiaoying doesn’t want to show off, so why is it different for me?

If we show up, our relationship will definitely have flaws. Even if we forgive each other after showing up, can we still return to the past?

So, after knowing this, I don't have the idea of ​​showing up.

What should I do if Xiaoying becomes pregnant?

What attitude should I treat her?

First of all, if I still love Xiaoying, if I still want this family, then I must change my attitude towards Xiaoying from tomorrow. After all, I already know the pressure in Xiaoying. If I continue to put pressure on her, if her spirit suddenly collapses and does something stupid, then I will really regret it.

Although I was angry these two days, I couldn't lose Xiaoying. I couldn't imagine what kind of situation I would be when Xiaoying left me.

All along, Haohao and Xiaoying are the motivation for me to live and work hard. I have lost half of my motivation. My second half of my life is unimaginable.

After all, Xiaoying is still a woman, and her ability to bear is still worse than that of a man. If she is stubborn and can’t think so, I lose my wife and my son loses my mother, then is this family still a complete family?

In the past two days, I have achieved results by knocking on the mountain and shaking the tiger.

In the next few days, I should use love and tolerance to influence Xiaoying, so that she can know what it means to lose and gain, so that she can truly understand my goodness and how important this family is to her.

Take one step at a time, after all, whether Xiaoying is really pregnant or a false alarm is not confirmed yet, and it is still too early to make a decision. In short, I cannot lose my mind at this time. Even if there is an accident, I must let things develop in the most correct direction. This matter cannot be wrong, otherwise it may lose all the money.

Maybe I was tired of standing, so I sat limply on the hospitality chair in front of the window. It seemed that it was right not to go home tonight. I could keep me quiet in the company for a while.

I didn't see Xiaoying or my father. I originally liked the lively and extroverted self, but now I enjoyed this loneliness

A sharp pain suddenly came from my fingers. I turned around and looked. It turned out that the cigarette butt had burned to the end, the filter was burning, and I kept grilling my fingers.

Have you been slow to react now?

After being baked in soot for so long, I felt the pain?

I pressed out the cigarette and lit it again. After smoking one, I lit another one again.

If you don’t have wine tonight, just use cigarettes instead of wine to make yourself drunk tonight...