Chapter 48 Monologue

The night is so quiet, there is no traffic during the day outside the window, except for the faint street lights, everything seems so quiet

The only sound comes from my husband who is snoring and sleeping soundly beside me. Looking at my husband's quiet sleeping position like a baby, I feel really happy, but it is also very complicated. I love my husband very much, but now I am still qualified to love him?

A lot of things have happened recently. When I was writing the previous log, I originally planned to stop my close contact with my father-in-law, but God made people feel like hell. All of this was broken by my father-in-law's sudden injury.

Since my father-in-law was injured, my husband was not at home, I had to take care of everything about my father-in-law.

Taking care of my father-in-law, you must have physical contact with me. When I saw my father-in-law's majestic genitals again, my desire to suppress was aroused, and I came into contact with me again.

But as I contacted my father-in-law more and more, my guilt began to decrease day by day.

When I am intimate with my father-in-law, I will forget my family, forget my ethics, forget my husband, and only desires in my mind

But every time after desire, when I think of everything, I feel deep self-blame and guilt in my heart

And I am so greedy for time with my father-in-law. Sometimes I ask myself, have I fallen in love with my father-in-law?

But when I saw my husband's photo, I realized that I loved my husband, and his position in my heart could not be replaced.

It's just that he can't be satisfied with me because of his physical reasons

Sometimes I think carefully about what kind of emotions do I have for my current father-in-law?

love?

Maybe there is a little bit, but compared to my husband, the love he loves for his father-in-law may be negligible. He is my elder, my father-in-law, and I am more kinship to him. If I have to explain why I have to have close contact with him, it is to satisfy my own sexual desire. I tried my best to treat my father-in-law as a masturbation device and let him replace my husband to satisfy my sexual desire, but he cannot replace my husband's position in my heart.

The only thing that makes me thankful is that my father-in-law has always been very regular, never forced me, and always respected my opinions.

I have always been careful to control the scale of contact with my father-in-law, kissing, breasts, deep vagina and other forbidden areas, such as my husband.

Although my father-in-law has touched, touched, and kissed other places, they have been enjoyed countless times by my husband, so I feel less guilty in my heart

Due to the return of my husband, I have fewer opportunities to have close contact with my father-in-law. After so long contact with my father-in-law, I found that my desire is getting stronger and stronger now, even better than before. Every time I see my father-in-law's majestic genitals, my lower body is so itchy that my lower body is so itchy

Just a few days ago, I took the initiative to take off my underwear and let my father-in-law have a blowjob for me. Perhaps without having sex, this is the best way to satisfy me. I am selfish and greedy for everything, but because of my love for my husband, I have always been holding on to the last line of defense for him.

But, just last night, I still couldn't control myself and actually did something for my father-in-law that I had never done for my husband, that was oral sex

That was last night. Due to the accumulation of sexual desire these days, while my husband was drunk and sleeping, I couldn't help but walk to my father-in-law's room, stroked my father-in-law's penis, and smelled the strong hormonal smell. Everything was so familiar and infatuated. However, after holding my father-in-law's genitals and masturbating for a while, I found that masturbation was far from being able to reach orgasm.

I am very eager and anxious, but can I have sex with my father-in-law?

No, the collision sounds of legs are quite loud. Although my husband sleeps heavily, I still dare not take this risk. Do I have sex with my father-in-law?

I can't do this. No matter what peak my desire reaches, I can't completely betray my husband. I want to protect this forbidden area for him.

I was still thinking, but looking at my father-in-law's penis, my body began to get hotter and hotter

My father-in-law's penis seemed to be a pair of strong aphrodisiacs, which had been taking effect, attacking my body's immune system. My body was about to fall. I suppressed my desire to ride on my father-in-law's body and insert my penis into my vagina.

Finally, when I had no choice, I was finally conquered by the charm of the male hormone in my father-in-law's penis

My brain was in a daze, and I took the only way I could use. I put my father-in-law's sexual organs in my mouth.

This is something I have never had for my husband before, but I didn't expect to give my father-in-law the first time I had a blowjob.

When my father-in-law's smell of stinky genitals poured into my mouth, I didn't feel nauseous. The smell seemed like a drug that made me unable to extricate myself

At this moment, my husband was in my mind, but it was just fleeting, and my thoughts were controlled by desire.

Husband, let me be selfish once, even if it is only once

This is the only reason in my heart to comfort myself, I really can't control myself

I greedily enjoyed my father-in-law's smell, and the itching in my lower body became more and more severe. My father-in-law slowly woke up. But at this moment, I was not panicked at all, but instead felt that all this was what I should have done for my father-in-law.

I satisfied my father-in-law, but my body was not satisfied

My body seemed to have completed the 69-style position uncontrollably. When my father-in-law sucked my private parts and was holding my father-in-law's genitals in his mouth, I felt great satisfaction.

At this time, I had no guilt, no self-blame, no family, no ethics, only my husband flashed through my mind, but I was still filtered out by myself and I deceived myself and found excuses.

I just want to enjoy everything I have now

Finally I reached orgasm first, and it felt like I had risen to the sky, just thinking that a person with a drug addiction attack suddenly got drugs

After the orgasm, I continued to satisfy my father-in-law while the aftermath of the climax, but when his father-in-law ejaculated, he inserted his genitals deeply into my throat, and the semen was ejaculated violently. Unpredictable, I swallowed a lot of my father-in-law's semen.

I ran to the bathroom to rinse my mouth, take a shower, and after the orgasm, I felt only nauseous about my father-in-law's semen. I imagined that the thick and fishy semen was swallowed into my stomach. I felt very nauseous. I vomited desperately, but in the end I didn't spit out the dirty things.

After the climax, I regret it very much, but can time go back?

Can you still go back to the past?

Why was I so cowardly at that time?

Why didn't you control yourself?

I washed my body, but I still felt so dirty. I remembered my husband. I felt so guilty. The feeling I just now was sweet, but now my tears are bitter and salty.

Back in the bedroom, looking at my sleeping husband, I was both in pain and blamed myself

I thought that I had never had a blowjob for my husband, but I gave it to my father-in-law

My guilt towards my husband reached its peak. I just wanted to make up for the loss, but was it really too late?

I tried my best to have a blowjob for my husband, but my husband failed in the end because of his physical reasons. Perhaps because he accidentally swallowed my father-in-law's semen, I swallowed everything about my husband into my stomach, and I wanted my husband to get more treatment than his father-in-law, but are these useful?

All these treatments have been enjoyed by my father-in-law first

It's too late to fix the sheep

Thinking back on all the things just now, I was really at a loss

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I felt very confused about the road ahead, as if there was a layer of fog blocking the road ahead, making me unable to see the road ahead clearly

Just as I was thinking now, the clip of the oral sex of my father-in-law just shone in my mind again. Sadness, sadness, self-blame, and guilt appeared in my heart again. But everything has happened and I can't go back to the past. I can only say one thing: Husband, I'm sorry for you...

What should I do if my husband discovers all this one day?

My husband will definitely leave me

Sometimes, I imagine how would I feel if my husband left me?

After thinking for a long time, I finally confirmed my feelings and heart. If my husband leaves me one day, then I will only choose one way, that is, leave this world.