Chapter 197

Let's go home these days... I've been holding it in for a long time, and I've kept these words in my mind.

After hearing my words, my father was stunned. From his perspective, it was already a surprise to me that I was able to see him today. Now he even asked him to live home. In his opinion, it was a great gift.

I am very grateful that you can come to see me today. At least you have not given up on me as an incompetent person... As for going home, forget it, I have no shame to go home to face you... My father had tears and touching eyes. My actions and actions undoubtedly made him feel even more guilty.

But he can't face Xiaoying and me all day long now. After all, my father's face is not that thick yet

Just as I was about to speak, the food was back. The food was all my father loved to eat, and I also ordered a pound of liquor. Actually, I like beer more, but my father likes to drink liquor. And today, I still drink liquor bars, which is very exciting.

I poured wine for myself and my father. After the meal came, my father and I didn't say a word.

My father sat there nervously. He hadn't relaxed after so long.

When I saw the white wine poured for him, he couldn't help but lick his lips. During this period, he might have become addicted to alcohol and drown his sorrows with alcohol.

Come on, cheers... Can you do it? The cup I poured for my father and myself is nearly 2 taels and halves. If you want to continue working, you need perseverance and courage.

Thank you... The father said thank you to his son. This thank you contains too many things, such as gratitude, guilt, regret, and...

Cough cough... I was really uncomfortable with the stimulation of liquor. After I forced myself to finish a glass of liquor, I covered my mouth uncontrollably and started coughing, but my father did nothing

After my father finished drinking this cup, he took the initiative to fill it up, and at the same time, he poured me another cup while I was coughing.

Today, don't hide anything in your heart, say everything your psychological words, if you still want my son... After I stopped coughing, I felt my face was a little hot and red

OK... OK... After hearing my words, my father knew that I would ask him a lot of questions today. Maybe his son would take out all his psychological words today.

Of course, my father can not say anything, but if he doesn't say anything, he won't get forgiven by his son. You know, since we met, I haven't called my father Dad, without this Dad, my father knew that I didn't forgive him completely in my heart.

Do you love Aunt Zhang? Since I have been honest, I will go straight to the point without saying so many things

My father was stunned when he heard my first sincere conversation, and at the same time, his hand holding the wine glass suddenly tightened.

I didn't say anything, I ate the dishes with chopsticks, I just planned to know what my father was thinking, knowing himself and his enemy would never be defeated. I decided to understand what my father thoughts and then make a decision.

All along, I know my own thoughts from the three of us. Through Xiaoying's log, I can also understand some of them.

The only thing I can't understand is my father. In the past, I could only judge by observing his expression and daily behavior.

Not loving her does not mean that I can lose her so easily as an elderly person, and I have long lost my passion. My wife and wife are companions when I get old. Although my feelings for her are family affection, they are better than love. Aunt Zhang is a very good person and the most suitable person to spend the rest of her life with me. But... I am sorry for her, I am not worthy of her taking care of and accompanying her, so it is correct for her to leave me. I can't blame others, but I only blame myself... My father did not toast to me. After saying this, he drank half of the wine in the glass.

I believe that Aunt Zhang is old when my father said. For such a woman, who has not known her for a long time, she will not have love. Moreover, her father has tasted Xiaoying's sweetness, so how could she fall in love with Aunt Zhang, who is far from her age and appearance?

What about Xiaoying? What is your relationship with Xiaoying? Since I want to tell everything, I cannot mention this sensitive name. Xiaoying is now a mountain separated by my father and I. If I want to make a complete reconciliation with my father, I must remove this mountain.

After hearing this, my father's face fluctuated a lot. Perhaps he had been avoiding Xiaoying in his heart. He put his hands under the table. I know that his hands must be tangled together to relieve his inner tension and embarrassment.

This...I... my father's mouth is stuttering, I don't know how to answer

I said, I want to listen to the truth... I don't want to hear my father lie and avoid it, and tell my true feelings for Xiaoying in my heart, so that I can have some confidence in my heart

At this moment, I was staring at my father, and I wanted to see the expression on his face to determine whether he was lying

Alas... Xiaoying is a woman with excellent personality, figure and appearance in all aspects. She is very good at personality, figure and appearance. I think she is a normal man and will like him. I am no exception... My father looked at me before he spoke and saw me staring at him. He knew that these psychological words could not be brought into the coffin. After all, I have seen the sex and passion of two people on the island. If I lie, I will definitely notice it. It would be better to say everything and feel more happy in my heart.

Is it love? My father said it was ambiguous, but what I needed was a definite answer

Yes, Xiaoying gives me a stronger feeling than your mother. It was not yet. It was just that something happened. Maybe Xiaoying had already told you that after those things, I couldn't control myself. Although I kept reminding myself in my heart that she is my son's wife and I shouldn't have feelings for her, but who can completely control my inner thoughts... But, Jincheng, I never thought about taking Xiaoying away from you from beginning to end. Really, I originally planned to have that night on the island after that night., I will marry your aunt Zhang with peace of mind, and live with her for the rest of my life in the future. I will forget everything. I will bring it into the coffin. I admit that I am an animal thinking with my lower body. I have made these irreversible mistakes. In fact, before you come, I didn’t think about letting you forgive me. I just want to live in a drunken and dream of death. How long will it last? As long as you and Xiaoying are happy, I will die in peace and tranquility. It’s just that I have too many sins on me. I can’t face you, let alone face my departed wife, that is, your mother...After my father said these words, he could no longer control himself and lowered his head and started to cry. He was helpless, helpless, regretful and hatred

At this time, my father was like an addict. When he was a drug addict, he tried to take drugs to relieve himself. When the drug addiction was temporarily satisfied, he started crying regretfully, and then he was repeatedly between unable to suppress and regret.

I looked at my crying father and drank half of the glass of wine in my hand.

Even a man cannot tolerate another man loving his wife, even if this man is his father, if I didn't understand the cause and effect of the matter, if I hadn't seen my father's love for Xiaoying, if I hadn't known that all the mistakes were not on my father alone, I might have rushed up like a normal person and grabbed my father's neck and questioned and scolded him loudly.

But I didn't. After I drank half a glass of wine, the hotness of the wine transferred my heart's sorrow

Although in the past, my father's feelings for Xiaoying were judged through videos, the meaning of the father's words was different for the first time. At this time, I couldn't help feeling a little uncomfortable and sad.

What are you going to do in your future life? After knowing my father’s views on Aunt Zhang and Xiaoying, I have to care about my father’s thoughts on his future life

Don’t worry about me, as long as you, Xiaoying and Haohao’s family of three are happy, let me, a sinner, die for themselves... My father wiped his tears and dried the remaining half of the glass again. Then he closed his tears and felt the stimulation and sensation of alcohol with his tears.

If you can't continue like this, I still need your help. If you still want to relieve your guilt, use your second half of your life to atone for your sins... Seeing my father like this, the grudge in my heart was eliminated. No matter what, Aunt Zhang was right. No matter what his father did wrong, I can't not support him.

Atonement? Help? What else can someone like me who has half of my body buried in the soil do for you? If I can do anything, even if I give my life... This is not the first time my father has heard this from me, so he has doubts on his face at this moment, and of course, with a glimmer of hope. If he can do something for me, maybe he will feel better in his heart

Stop doing this job, go home to help me take care of Xiaoying... I made a request, but since I didn't make a decision in my heart at this moment, I didn't say it out exactly, let my father go home first

Go home? Take care of Xiaoying? My father's head obviously didn't turn around. Such requests and help seemed too simple.

I currently take a job and need to travel frequently and even go abroad. Xiaoying's condition has not been cured now, and I don't know how long it will take to recover, so I need someone to take care of her. My parents-in-law need to take care of Haohao, and it is impossible for me to live in my house all the time, so I need you to come back to take care of her. At least she has a few things. Someone can find out that Xiaoying will not take any more poison... I am going to take over Leng Bingshuang's company. My father was talking to his father-in-law, and he heard about it, but he didn't know much.

But he still knew Leng Bingshuang, because when she was at home, Xiaoying often mentioned this person

Do you have to go on a business trip or abroad? My father didn't agree, and there was a hint of embarrassment on his face. I could tell that he didn't want to face Xiaoying and me all the time, these two people he felt sorry for.

There is not much money left in my family now, I have to earn money to support my family, and this job is hard to come by. For the sake of my family, for my family, and for myself, I cannot give up... I have firmness in my eyes, and I believe my father has seen this too

Can you still trust me? After seeing my expression, my father knew that there seemed to be no room for maneuver in this matter, and he couldn't help but say this. After all, he had already done something like that with Xiaoying at home behind my back. Perhaps this was the last reason he could find the rejection of me.

I can trust it, I believe that after so many things, you no longer have the mind and courage... No matter what, let my father go home first. If I want to implement my idea, my father agrees, and Xiaoying also needs to do her job, so I can't express my thoughts before I am extremely sure.

Is there really no room for maneuver? My father said with obvious reluctance on his face. His expression was not pretending. He really didn't want to face the family and the people at home again.

If you want to do something for me to make up for it, just listen to me. If you can't agree to this request and you can't help with this, then let's stop today's conversation... I looked at the wine glass and didn't fill it up. If my father didn't agree, then I would have no need to talk anymore. I got up and left. I can't tie my father back...

My father looked at me for a long time, and there was a flash of struggle in his eyes, and there was a hint of disappointment. Maybe he thought that I asked him to go home and could come to him, just to ask him to help take care of his family, for the sake of interests.

When I saw my father's expression, I didn't explain anything. Now I'm looking for my father, and it is true that most of the interests account for the most part.

After hesitating for a long time, my father sighed and said nothing, but picked up the bottle and filled the wine glasses for me and himself again...