Chapter 180

Xiaoying bent down for a long time, and she seemed to want to bend over so much that she never straightens up. Although she can't see her face, I can see from her constantly trembling body that she is very scared at this time.

Time passed slowly, she always had to face it. She slowly straightened up and looked at me with extreme fear.

Old...husband, you...didn't you...didn't you lose your memory? Xiaoying's voice was already trembling. At this moment, her face turned pale and her hands were trembling. I've never seen her so scared and nervous

The island... Passionate... Wedding dress... Curtains... Catching off the cliff... I didn't answer Xiaoying positively, but said these six nouns with an extremely cold expression. These six nouns already represent everything

When I said these words, Xiaoying's last trace of fantasy and hope was shattered

Thump... With a muffled sound, Xiaoying's body slid from the edge of the bed, and her legs knelt directly on the floor. She finally couldn't suppress her heart. All the grievances and fears erupted. She began to cry, just kneeling in front of me and crying.

Husband... I was wrong, please forgive me... You beat me... scold me... You can do anything... Xiaoying didn't know what to say or explain, except crying, because all the explanations were futile. She cheated and betrayed her husband, which has become a certain fact, and all the explanations were pale.

I looked at Xiaoying who was crying. Although the established facts between her and her father were caused by me, in the later stage, everything was already the two of them taking the initiative to develop and they had already left my control. I have always maintained my bottom line, that is, Xiaoying should not change her mind, at least she should not fall in love with her father. Although Xiaodao had already had signs before, I have been deceived by myself and unwilling to believe it. I have been thinking too much. But when Xiaoying put on the wedding dress for her father, all my hopes were shattered, the despair in my heart, the original stimulation turned into anger, and everything completely deteriorated

Am I not responsible?

Logically speaking, I should deserve it now, at least I have to suffer myself. But the current situation is completely different from what I had imagined at the beginning. It is beyond my expectations. If I don’t take responsibility, I don’t have responsibility. If I am ridiculed, I will be ridiculed. This is a thing to prove that the relationship between Xiaoying and I is also good, at least it has broken my previous fantasy of our love.

Originally, I hope you can confess to me tonight, I hope you will admit your mistake to me, but Xiaoying, I am really disappointed. At the last moment, you are trying hard to hide it, really treating me as a dementia fool? Playing me around? I didn't beat Xiaoying, didn't scold Xiaoying, and everything should be said to be at least open.

I dare not, I am afraid, I am afraid that you will leave me when you know it, husband, I love you, I don’t want to lose you, so I tried my best to hide it. Xiaoying was crying and knelt on the ground and said, "It was the first time she was so depressed since we met."

From her perspective, everything she said and did seemed to be correct, and it was understandable, but none of this could be my reason for forgiveness.

Love me? Haha, although I was extremely angry at this time, I did not yell, but tried to speak calmly. At this time, I could only smile bitterly and sneer

Really, husband, I really love you. I tell you, I don’t hide it from you now, I tell you all... Xiaoying seems very helpless at this moment. She has no disguise at this moment, and can only make up for her mistakes like a sheep who has lost her.

Love me... If you love me, will you wear a wedding dress for your father? I know the most why Xiaoying has sex with her father. I am the one who makes love with her father. I will not blame her for having sex with her father. My only grudge and unacceptable thing is the scene of the wedding dress

No... Husband, you don't understand. I just want to be in love with my father. I just think he is pretty good... Really, I didn't fall in love with him... Xiaoying was extremely panicked at this time. She didn't know how to explain it to make me believe it, and she didn't know what to say. She seemed very incoherent

So many happened, I saw with my own eyes, do you think I still believe that you don’t love your father? Wedding dress, all the meaning has changed. Because of my physical reasons, I can’t satisfy you. You and my father do it to relieve your desires. I endured it. My own body is not good. The reason is that I am a turtle, I will be deceiving it. But I always hope that you can keep your heart in me. Unexpectedly, I end up losing both physical and mental... Haha... Although I blame Xiaoying, I still expressed my inner psychological feelings, that is, I have always tolerated the relationship between the two of them, but the bottom line is that Xiaoying cannot fall in love with her father, cannot change her mind, and at the same time she also made her point of knowing her attitude

No... Husband, you are not wrong, everything is my fault, you are not in good health, I shouldn't cheat, I am just greedy for desire, I have always had fantasies, I have been deceived to enjoy myself, I am not a qualified wife, but really, husband, what I love the most is you, I can't lose you, if I choose one between you and you, I will definitely choose yours. When I wear a wedding dress, I really didn't think so much, I just wanted to give my father an ending, really, I hesitated before, but I don't know you will... Husband, please believe me... Xiaoying knelt on the floor, held her hands in front of her chest, and said crying.

I only believe what I saw, and all the explanations were pale... I didn't tell Xiaoying that it was time to know, and Xiaoying didn't take the initiative to ask me

It doesn’t make sense to explain it any more. Xiaoying has thought about it, I have thought about it a long time ago. Maybe there is authenticity in her words, but is everything still important?

I already have knots and grudges in my heart, can I still live happily together?

Husband... When Xiaoying saw me get up and go around her kneeling, Xiaoying cried out, and her hands that were originally put on her chest suddenly grabbed my trouser legs. Perhaps after knowing that I didn't lose my memory, Xiaoying was particularly worried about my every move.

I want to go to rest... Don't disturb me... At this time, I don't want to continue talking anymore, and there will be no result if I talk again. It's already late, and I can't do anything. Let's wait until dawn.

I was going to go to the sofa to rest. When I finally said this to Xiaoying, I had no passion or motivation, and my voice was very pale and powerless.

After hearing my voice, Xiaoying slowly let go of her hands. I slowly walked out of the bedroom and closed the door. Finally, I only heard Xiaoying crying loudly in the bedroom, and the crying was full of despair.

After I walked out of the bedroom, I came directly to the sofa. I was just lying on the sofa in my clothes. Tonight was a sleepless night for Xiaoying and I. I was thinking about tomorrow's plan and planning what I would do tomorrow. The worries in my heart no longer exist, and it's time to leave.

I was in a daze. Although I was not completely asleep, I was still half asleep and half awake. In a daze, I felt a quilt covered with my body. I opened my eyes and saw that it was Xiaoying. At this moment, her eyes were already bitter and swollen, and her face was extremely haggard.

Seeing me suddenly open my eyes, she hurriedly avoided my gaze, covered the quilt, and quickly withdrew her hand, looking very afraid of me

I...I'm just...I'm afraid...you catch a cold... After saying this, Xiaoying slowly walked towards the bedroom. Her originally beautiful back now looked very lonely

It's already late at night. If Xiaoying doesn't cover me with a quilt, I'll be a little cold

At this time, I am both looking forward to dawn and afraid of dawn

I want to leave this home, but if I leave at that time, I will definitely not be so free and easy. After all, this home once had so many wonderful memories.

My eyes patrolled the house. Every photo and object in the room was chosen and purchased by Xiaoying and I. In order to decorate our home, we spent a lot of effort. Every part of this house was a witness to our love, but all this will leave me.

Thinking of my future life, I don’t know why, but I really want to cry, and I want to cry a lot.

If I hadn't made such a decision at the beginning, and if everything was still as plain as before, wouldn't I and Xiaoying be happy?

It's a pity that time can't go back

Slowly, it was dawn, looking at the rising sun outside the car window, but I didn't think the weather outside was so sunny

Xiaoying has not come out of the room. To be honest, after I left home, I was not worried about anything. The only thing I was worried about was that Xiaoying would do stupid things. Although I didn't want to be with her, I didn't want her to have any accidents.

I sat upright from the sofa, then slowly walked to the bathroom to start washing. When I finished washing and walked out of the bathroom, I found that Xiaoying had walked out of the bedroom. At this time, she was very haggard, with fluffy hair and blood on her face. She was originally very beautiful, but now she was like a terminally ill woman.

I'll buy something in the morning... Xiaoying just waited for the bathroom door so blankly. After seeing me coming out, she lowered her head and asked, her fingers were just around each other, making her very nervous

Seeing Xiaoying's appearance, my heart couldn't help but feel very painful. I've never seen her like this before, and the slightest worry in my heart couldn't help but become stronger.

No, I don't want to eat anything... I walked around Xiaoying, then walked to the clothes hanger, and started wearing my own coat

Xiaoying just stood in front of the bathroom door and didn't move, looking very helpless. She didn't know what she should do at this time

At this moment, she looked very scared when she saw me wearing clothes.

Old...husband...what do you want to...do? Xiaoying has been stubbornly calling me husband, and has never changed his name from beginning to end, even if we have such a relationship now

When she saw that I was going out, she seemed very worried that I would leave like this, and she couldn't help but look very nervous.

Go out to do something... I said while lowering my head and putting on my pants. Although I lowered my head, I could still see Xiaoying's body trembling in my aftertaste. She seemed to have a premonition and was very scared. At this time, her brain was already full of various worries and seemed very suspicious.

I...I'll be with you... okay? Xiaoying asked in a trembling voice. I looked up at her. Her eyes looked very worried, with begging and longing in her eyes.

No, I won’t leave like this, there will be an explanation between us... I rejected Xiaoying’s request and told her indirectly my attitude, but did not say it directly...

After I put on my clothes, I walked out the door. I wanted to do what I should do. The faster the time, the better...