Chapter 183

After Xiaoying stood up hard, we slowly walked down the steps. At this time, Xiaoying and I didn't know where to go.

Go home?

Is that still our home?

We have no legal relationship

All I can do now is go home to clean up. Although I decided to give all my property to Xiaoying, some personal belongings must be brought with me.

Xiaoying's body was already limp. At this time, she seemed to have no strength to cry. Her face was pale and bloodless.

We got into the car aimlessly. Although I was calm on the surface at this time, when I signed the sign, I felt extremely sad and sad.

Actually, if you think about it carefully, today's ending error is not entirely caused by Xiaoying and her father, but the source is still caused by me.

I know that this matter has ended with the end of divorce. I am very irresponsible and it is not too much to say that I am not a man.

But, I can't look back, I am cowardly and irresponsible, not a man, even if I endure the abuse of the world, I must do this, because when I think of the scene of Xiaodao's wedding dress, I can't overcome that hurdle, and I just want to escape. I know that after this incident, my future life trajectory will be completely changed.

The car was moving slowly. At this time, the car was not walking on the road, but the end of Xiaoying and I

When the car arrived at home, Xiaoying and I slowly went upstairs. After arriving at the room, I inspected the house again, then took out my luggage for every business trip, and I started to pack my clothes and necessities.

Xiaoying was sitting on the sofa wearing clothes, not knowing what she was thinking, but at this moment she seemed to have lost all her soul

I originally thought that Xiaoying would talk to me after I got home, but she didn't. She just sat quietly, without blinking for a long time, and was quiet and a little terrible.

My heart was already numb at this time. Because my luggage was limited, I wanted to take away what I needed most.

After a while, I packed up and put my suitcase in the living room

Dong... When the sound of the heavy suitcase falling to the ground sounded, Xiaoying's eyes fluctuated a little

She looked up at the luggage box on the living room floor, then looked up at me again, with a hint of silence in her eyes.

Divorce Xiaoying, the thing I worry most is that Xiaoying will be unable to think about it.

Since I got married to my father and Xiaoying, my father went to the hospital and almost lost his life. I fell off the cliff and went to the hospital, and I almost couldn't wake up forever. I don't want Xiaoying to go to the hospital again or lose her life. I divorced, just hope that everything can be terminated and all life can start again.

How will Xiaoying live after I leave?

Remarry?

Or continue to maintain a lover relationship with my father?

I no longer care about all this, and it has nothing to do with me.

At this time, I am a coward who abandoned my wife and father, a coward who can only escape...

I looked up at the time. When Haohao was about to finish school, I was going to pick Haohao up with my suitcase. Then we two went straight away and flew away

I am going to buy a train ticket to Guangzhou at that time. We two are sitting on the train. It will take nearly 40 hours to get from my house to Guangzhou. At that time, I will sit by the train and watch the scenery passing by. Which city's scenery attracted me, I will take Haohao to get off in that city and start again.

So, which city I will go to next, I have no goal at all, everything will follow God's will...

Are you leaving tonight? Just as I was ecstatic at the clock on the wall, Xiaoying, who was sitting on the sofa, finally spoke. The sadness in her words was obvious and extremely depressed.

I didn't answer Xiaoying, but just nodded gently. She saw me staring at the alarm clock and knew that I was going to pick up Haohao and leave.

Let's have another supper, let's take Haohao, okay? I'll make it for you... the last time... Xiaoying's eyes couldn't help but burst into tears. I turned my head. To be honest, I want to escape as soon as possible and leave this home early. Everything here can keep me repeating memories in my mind.

But I really can't refuse Xiaoying's request. Is this request too much after so many years of relationships?

I finally nodded again, Xiaoying stopped crying and showed a sad smile

Xiaoying's smile has always been so sunny and beautiful, but the smile has no longer had that positive feeling during this period.

Xiaoying took a look at the time, then got up and took off her coat. She had not taken off her coat for so long after she had been home.

You go to pick up the child later, I cook at home, and I will do it as I like... Xiaoying's tone is very weak. This is the first time I feel Xiaoying is so weak

Xiaoying started to be busy in the kitchen. After I waited for a while, I went downstairs to drive to pick up the child.

When I was driving on the road, I kept thinking about Xiaoying's condition today. Undoubtedly, this is the first time I have seen Xiaoying's condition today.

The silence in Xiaoying's eyes has always made me feel uneasy. I always feel that something will happen to Xiaoying after I leave

It seems that before I leave, I have to make some preparations and plans.

I received Haohao and I returned home. Xiaoying cooked very quickly. There were only two simple dishes, not quite rich, but they were my favorite home-cooked dishes and the two dishes I have eaten the most so far. Of course, Xiaoying is also the best.

Haohao is still young, he doesn't know that he has become a single-parent family. He has no mother legally, only his father is the guardian.

After entering the door, he greeted Xiaoying with a smile, and then went straight to the dining table. This kid had no other specialty, even if he could eat, because of this, the child was very strong and great.

Let's have a drink... How about drinking a glass? Xiaoying took off her apron and said to me, then walked to the refrigerator and took out a bottle of red wine.

I nodded, what else can I refuse for the last supper?

But I felt a little strange. After I picked up Haohao, Xiaoying suddenly became like a human being. Except for her pale and haggard face, she seemed to have no worries, and her face seemed to be relaxed.

Strange, so strange

At this time, I looked at the food and red wine on the dining table, and I couldn't help but feel a little doubtful.

Xiaoying won’t put medicine in the meal, right?

Want to poison myself and Haohao to death?

Although I am divorced, I will die together even if I die?

This idea is a bit fantastic, but it is not impossible in this case.

The divorce is too exciting for Xiaoying, and I want to leave forever with Haohao, only she is left. I can imagine the despair in her mind.

What crazy things can't be done if a person is in a desperate state?

Although I feel that Xiaoying's chance of poisoning is very small, I am still very careful. If I feel a little uncomfortable, I will call the police and ambulance immediately. In today's society, Xiaoying cannot buy strong poison, so I keep my own mind

Haohao was eating very much at the dinner table. Xiaoying gently picked up food for Haohao and me, but she rarely ate it. She looked at Haohao and me, with endless tenderness and reluctance in her eyes

I can feel that Xiaoying tried hard to control her tears and prevent herself from crying in front of her children

Cheers... Xiaoying and I didn't have any other words when we were drinking, only two short words

With children around me, Xiaoying and I couldn't talk about too sensitive topics. Haohao has already gone to kindergarten and has some of his own knowledge. If the child finds something, it may affect his life.

Son, eat more, you may not be able to see your mother for a long time? After Xiaoying and I finished drinking, they picked up food for Haohao again. The reluctance in their eyes reached the extreme, and the tears in their eyes could no longer be controlled.

Why? Mom, why are you crying? Haohao saw Xiaoying crying, quickly put down the dishes and chopsticks. He reached out to wipe Xiaoying's tears, and his little face showed a trace of confusion and panic

It's nothing. Your father will take you out for a trip after dinner. It will take a long time. Mom can't accompany you because of work. You have to take good care of yourself. You are already a man. Listen to your father well. Do you know? Xiaoying let Haohao wipe her tears, but no matter how Haohao wipes it, Xiaoying's tears can't be wiped clean.

Xiaoying finally grabbed Haohao's hand and said in great spoiledness.

Seeing this scene, I turned my head over. At an angle that Xiaoying and Haohao could not see, I held my hands on the corner of my eyes. As I was about to separate, the reluctance and sadness in my heart had reached its peak.

Well, mom, don't worry, I will be obedient. I won't play for a long time. Come back early to accompany my mother... Haohao said well-behavedly

Well, good son...

The meal was over. The originally delicious meal, but I didn't taste any delicious food in this meal. Some were just bitter. Xiaoying and I didn't eat too much, most of them were eaten up by Haohao, the child.

After eating, Haohao drank the juice in big mouthfuls

Xiaoying looked at me with tears in her eyes, as if she wanted to imprint my appearance in her eyes. I couldn't stand Xiaoying's eyes, so I could only look at Haohao drinking juice heartlessly with his cheeks puffed.

Haohao, let's go... I can't catch the car after a while... Seeing that Haohao had almost finished eating, I glanced at my phone time, then stood up and said

When I said this, Xiaoying's body tightened suddenly and her body began to tremble. What should come will come. No matter how long the time is, there will always be an expiration time.

I was going to dress Haohao, but before I reached out, Xiaoying took the child's clothes from my hand and started to wear them for Haohao.

The thread in the hand of the loving mother, the clothes on the wandering son were sewn tightly before leaving, fearing that he would return late, who said that the heart of a grass can repay the spring sunshine? I couldn't help but think of this poem in my heart. Seeing Xiaoying wearing Haohao's clothes with tears in her eyes, I couldn't help but feel a little emotional. In this situation, I could only try my best to suppress myself

Xiaoying could finish dressing Haohao in half a minute, but this time it took him five minutes.

First, because Xiaoying's hands kept trembling, it took many times to pull the zippers and other things.

Second, she hopes that time will be slower and that she can stay with us for one more minute.

Son, my mother... The clothes were finally turned by Xiaoying. Xiaoying squatted down and hugged Haohao, with endless love and pain in her eyes

Bo...Mom, don't worry, I will come back early... Haohao is young after all, he likes to play. I heard that he likes traveling the most. He never realized that the adult world is actually extremely complicated. He will only realize the special meaning of this dinner after a few years.

Give me a hug... After Xiaoying hugged Haohao, she stood up and rushed towards me with her arms wide open. The tears in her eyes never stopped

I didn't say anything, put down the box in my hand and hugged Xiaoying with me

This time, we hugged each other very tightly. After hugging for a long time, Xiaoying refused to leave.

After about a minute, Xiaoying and I separated. I didn't have the courage to look at Xiaoying again. I picked up the box with one hand and picked up Haohao with the other hand and opened the door.

Goodbye Mom... When the door was about to close, Haohao in my arms waved to Xiaoying and said, Bang... The door was closed, everything became a permanent separation

My back to Xiaoying, holding my luggage in one hand and holding Haohao in the other hand. My tears could no longer be controlled and flowed down my eyes.

I don't know how long I haven't cried...