Chapter 19

Su Qing hadn't noticed my change yet, she was still moaning in an extremely soft and seductive tone. Maybe she really wanted Yan beside her to believe that we were already having sex. Maybe she was immersed in her own world. In short, she was very devoted.

And I, as soon as my body reacted, moved my body instinctively for a moment, moved my body back.

Such a small action naturally avoids contact between the erect penis and Su Qing's lower body

I don’t know why, but it’s just subconsciously. Perhaps, such behavior is a subconscious rejection for Su Qing. For a woman, this can be said to be a kind of disrespect, and to be more serious, it can even be said to be a kind of harm!

Now Su Qing was actually sitting on my abdomen. She leaned over and put her face close to me, spread her hands on both sides, and looked at me with a slight squint. There was a kind of confusion in her eyes. Although she stared at my eyes, she seemed to be not looking at me at all. She was completely wandering outside the sky, perhaps she was immersed in her own world, as if the one left on me was just a shell.

I turned my face away and wanted to avoid the erotic eroticism that came to me, but I saw Yan next to me move again

Her movements were not obvious. If she hadn't paid much attention, she might not have noticed that she had moved. However, this movement happened to happen the moment I turned my head, and I saw it

Yan leaned on the bed, and she got on the bed without changing her clothes, so she was still wearing a skirt.

The two-headed clothes pulled the top because of the arms raised up, revealing a piece of green onion skin around her waist. The hem of the short skirt was also rolled up because of the bent knees, and the entire thigh was exposed outside. The bent legs also made her hips slightly raised, like a beautifully curved piano body.

She is right next to me and is asleep!

In the past, she slept by my side like this every day and night, and I was always satisfied with this

But today, for the first time I knew she was not asleep as peacefully as I believed, she was pretending!

Yan is still graceful when she sleeps, and even when she is sleeping, she never shows any indecent postures.

I have watched her sleep countless times before. In my eyes, it is an eternal scenery, and I will never get tired of watching it.

But now I suddenly realized that this woman who had been sleeping by my side for four years seemed to be extremely far away from me. Although she was so close that she could not grasp her firmly!

I tried hard to recall the night I used to be with her on this bed, every part of her naked body, and all the expressions she had when she had sex with her

All this was originally deeply imprinted in my mind, and even if she was not by my side, I could still recall it easily

But now, those familiar scenes suddenly become strange and distorted, very unreal, and even feel a little strange!

I began to doubt Yan, and I doubted whether the Yan who was sleeping beside me was still the woman who once loved me deeply and vowed to live and die.

Maybe what I doubt is not only Yan, but also my love!

Su Qing's buttocks were very soft, and the smooth legs were coldly pressing against my body, as if they were about to melt on my body.

Women are water, all women have the same skin as water, and the same winding water

Women in this world are all circling on men as gentle as water, which is hard to grasp and unpredictable.

Su Qing was flowing water, which seemed to be clearly visible, but she could not see her flow clearly

Maybe it was because she was too devoted, maybe she was tired, Su Qing moved back and her buttocks touched my penis, slightly and shallowly touched it.

She stopped and opened her squinting eyes suddenly

Her expression was a little strange, as if she was surprised, as if she was delighted, and she looked at me in disbelief.

Her butt, which she sat down, pressed back against my penis, letting the penis stay in the crotch, which had a natural curve, just embedded the penis inside.

I originally wanted to prove it to her, but now I have proved it, but there is no trace of relief, but on the contrary it is even more embarrassing

I am like a contradictory complex, with faith and ideas entangled with each other

Flowers and snakes, trees and vines, purity and desire, persistence and charm are all intertwined, flowing in the body, conflicting left and right

When I have no ability, I never have to consider the problem, and it also emerges with my erection.

Can I really or should I have sex with Su Qing here with my wife?

Even in the name of comfort and salvation!

If I have a skin-friendship with this woman on my body, then what is our relationship?

A lover who was tacitly approved by his wife?

Su Qing, what is it to me?

Savior?

If it were another woman, I might have considered accepting such a ridiculous balance, but I dare not for Su Qing!

Because I know very well that deep in my heart, Su Qing already has a huge temptation.

I especially appreciate her behavior and the temperament she reveals between her frown and smile. I don’t even have any disgust for her unbearable past.

I clearly know that I am like dry mud. No matter how hard it is, I will eventually collapse into her tenderness one day

So I refuse

What I reject is my desire, not to give up saving the marriage

When I unexpectedly pushed Su Qing away from me, she was stunned for a moment and looked down at her breasts

The full breasts as full as peaches still trembled slightly in the afterglow of her movements, crowded in front of me, and their nipples stood proudly

Then she looked at me, and there was a feeling of indescribableness in her eyes, which was like pity and praise, and a hint of loss was contained in the faint helplessness.

Finally, she smiled silently, a little reluctantly, but soon, the barely forced her eyes to dissipate with the corners of her eyes, leaving only a smile covering her face.

She sat between me and Yan with her legs tilted, her smooth body facing the light, leaving a shadow of her breasts on her lower abdomen, her slender and white neck stalks straight up, and her chin was slightly raised, like a lonely goddess, proud and beautiful

She had no intention of putting on clothes, and let her naked chest look at me

After smiling and looking at me for a few seconds, I suddenly reached out and patted my chest.

She took a very light shot, like a feather brushing across the water. If I were her lover, then such a shot would be like caressing between lovers.

This is a very wonderful feeling!

A long time ago, my Yan and I often had similar situations. We didn't say anything, we just needed a move, a gesture, or even a look to understand the meaning of each other.

It is an interaction that transcends lust, and only exists tacitly in the hearts of an intimate lover!

I used to think that it was love, eternal and everlasting, as ever as stars

The true love I pursue and the life and death that I pursue are all hidden in it.

This unclean woman has seen countless men, and perhaps even now, she can still find traces of men's caressing from her flawless body

But it was her, on such a night that was so charming that it was almost like a dream, she suddenly understood my heart!

However, she is Su Qing, she is just a passerby who is destined to not intersect my life.

And the person I am looking forward to is not her, but Yan!

Yan slept beside me, always

But I don't know if her heart has never left

I am a doctor and know the structure of the human body well. This is the source of all my confidence.

I always thought that a human heart is like a human body and has a connection, just like a simple Yan, always within my control.

How naive I am!

It was not until now that I realized that the heart was originally illusory and no one could understand it

Turning sideways, holding Yan in her arms, hugging her tightly, letting her soft body press on my heart

I leaned over and took a deep breath between her hair, but couldn't smell her!

Some are just a faint smell of alcohol and the perfume smell of Su Qing

Should I wake you up? Should I tell you how sad I am now?

Su Qing didn't put on her clothes, she lay beside me and fell asleep calmly

Maybe she has completely believed me, or she doesn't care about me at all, maybe she doesn't care about all the men anymore

Yan has never woken up and has not opened her eyes. Maybe she doesn't want to see these things herself, or she pretends to be very hard, maybe she thinks that after living tonight, a new life will begin.

I lay between two women, with my eyes open and looking at the purple stripes on the ceiling. In the late summer night, I felt cold all over. Even if the two women lie beside me, I still couldn't resist the heart-wrenching coldness.

If someone sees this scene, he will definitely think that this is the most ambiguous and beautiful scene in the world, and he will definitely think that I am the happiest, satisfied and energetic man in the world.

If this man wasn't me, I would have thought so much

What broke the tranquility of the room was a cry from Fen Jiajia in the early morning

Before she woke up, she suddenly burst into tears in her sleep

He shouted at his mother and mother, his little hands spread out and stretched out in the air, like a frightened elf, looking for support and comfort

Yan suddenly got up, stepped over the bed and jumped to the ground, rushed over and grabbed her daughter's hand

She knelt on the ground, held her daughter's hand in her palm, and whispered in Jiajia's ear with a gentle tone: Good, Jiajia, good, mother is here...

My daughter grabbed one of Yan's fingers, and became quiet. She moved her little mouth a few times and fell asleep again.

Yan leaned over and kissed her on the cheek, trying to pull out her hand, but her fingers were tightly grabbed. She gave up and stayed on the side of the bed in a kneeling position.

Looking from the bed, the scene of mother and daughter hugging each other is so warm that it is intoxicating.

Yan never looked back and gave me a soft back with a scattered long hair draped over her shoulders, and the pendant that had not been removed from her earlobe shining brightly under the light.

I stopped my eyes on her shoulders and waited quietly for her to look back at me. I wanted to stare at her with the eyes that once made her believe in so much, telling her that my eyes were full of my heart, and that she was the only one who could stay.

Yan has never looked back

I had a premonition that she knew I was looking at her, she hadn't learned how to deceive people

From the trembling of her shoulder, you can understand: She doesn't want to look back at me now

Maybe I haven't figured out how to face everything in bed, maybe it's the language of organization, and I'm ready to forgive my husband who made a mistake

Maybe... the man who is heartbroken by himself no longer belongs to her alone

She pressed her face against her daughter's cheek, rubbing gently, slowly, and nostalgic

My sleeping daughter probably twisted her head because of itchyness and avoided it

Her face froze there, staying motionless, like a statue

Su Qing put one arm on me, hugging me as if she wanted to hug her lover.

Her head snuggled against my shoulders and her body was close to her, as if she was looking for safety in her sleep

This woman in her thirties is as helpless as a child at this moment

I coughed gently and screamed: Yan...

Yan's body trembled significantly, and she let go of her daughter's hand in frightened

She still didn't look back, just lowered her head and was silent for a while, saying: I... go buy breakfast...

I just want milk...

Su Qing suddenly said

I was startled and didn't know when she woke up. I looked down at her and found that she was still closed with her eyes, with a peaceful and comfortable expression

Well... I know

Yan's voice was filled with some choking smell. She walked into the bathroom with her head down, and then, the sound of brushing her teeth and washing her face.

Until she walked out of the room, she didn't look at me, and she hurried away as if she wanted to escape.

Su Qing opened her eyes as soon as Yan went out of the door, let out a sigh of relief, smiled at me who was looking at her, and said: Don't look at me with such a glance! Like you, I didn't fall asleep at all, she didn't fall asleep either, but she could really bear it, she didn't even turn over in one night! Alas, it was pretending too real, but it turned into a fake and obvious

I moved my body and separated from Su Qing a little, covering up a little embarrassedly: I didn't pay attention, I slept pretty well

Come on, you still dare to say this?

Su Qing looked at me with a smile: So far, you have changed your posture 19 times in total, and you have adjusted it once every 20 minutes on average. This is also called good sleep? Both of you and your wife are both wise and know each other's thoughts, but they are silent! Tell me, what kind of couple is called? If you change another family, you have caused such a big thing, you will have to make a big move. I am afraid that there will be many fights and beat you back, let alone quarrels... If it is really noisy and beat you, I think it is a good thing. Maybe you will make the matter clear and put it on the table and it will be easier to deal with it!

She spoke like a cannon, and finally stretched her waist in front of me, yawned a big yawn, then leaned her body lazily and casually on my legs, held her head with her palm, looking at me with her eyes slightly narrowed, and asked: Liang Yan, how much love do you think you have for Yan?

I was stunned for a moment and said: Many

How many are there? To put it simply, for example, how much love is?

How much do I love Yan?

No one has ever asked me that, nor have I ever thought of such a question

Can love be quantified?

What is the metaphor used?

Deeper than the sea?

Higher than the sky?

I remember reading some novels like "Surprise the Case" and "Calling the World" a long time ago, which mentioned the most. The sentence I remember most is: husband and wife are birds in the same forest, and each one flies when the deadline comes.

Most couples who talk about worldly love cannot be separated for three lives, and separation is the norm in life.

The cause of the previous life is the result of the present life, and the result of the present life is the cause of the later life. Cause and effect are endless and endless

I don't believe in gods and ghosts, so I don't believe in past and future lives.

I only know that from birth to death, I will keep my loved ones from birth to death, and never leave them until death.

Therefore, I can never agree with such a couple, and I will never forgive the abandonment for any reason

I think I have reason to ask for loyalty because my love has never wavered

My love for Yan can definitely transcend the normal state of worldly love, absolutely transcend the beauty and ugliness of beauty, poverty and humbleness, life and death together

Change your life

I thought about it and replied: If so, I am willing to give it to you with my life

Change your life...

Su Qing repeated my words, a little surprised, and restrained her expression just now

She looked away from my face and looked at the wall for a while, as if she was thinking about something

After a long time, I said softly in a tone with a little emotion: At my age, if I still believe in love, I am afraid that even those who listen to it will laugh at me! But when you said this, I suddenly lived back for more than ten years. I was surprised that you, a middle-aged man, would say such a lovely sentence! I don’t know if you should laugh at you or be moved by you. I have seen many men, and there are all kinds of people, but no matter what kind of men, no matter how much they love women, in fact, what you really love in the end is yourself. You live your own life. All the people around you are ultimately passers-by. Love so much that you can even give up your life. Isn’t it put the cart before the horse? Isn’t your own life meaningless?

I didn't answer. If you don't understand, then I'll tell you, and you won't understand either

Only those who love to the point of being unforgettable can they experience the taste of it!

Like a fish drinking water, you will know the temperature and temperature.

Love is not worth it or not, considering gains and losses itself has nothing to do with love

At this time, Su Qing got up and got off the bed barefoot, walked to the coffee table, picked up her bag, opened it, and searched for something inside

Say: Let me ask you a question first. You have lived with her for so many years. Logically speaking, you should know her very well, right? Tell me, how well do you know her?

How well do I know Yan? It’s ridiculous to ask! How could I not know her?

I know what she likes to eat, what she likes to wear, what she likes to wear, what she likes to love the most, what the meaning of every gesture and expression, and every tiny detail in her life...

I said slowly to Su Qing's back: No one is more familiar with her than me, even his parents! From the day I met her, she began to live in my eyes and heart. She has always been pure, as clear as transparent water. If I hadn't met that hooligan, I believe she would have continued to be pure until we are old, until her face is no longer delicate, and her wrinkles are crawling all over her forehead. In my eyes, she will be pure

Appearance...

Su Qing took out her cell phone from her bag, shook it at me, and said: Do you remember the experiences I told you? If I had not been discovered that time, I believe that in the eyes of my ex-husband, I must be as pure and virtuous as your Yan, the man does not understand women. Even if you have lived with her for the rest of your life, you must not say that you understand her! Sometimes, even women do not understand themselves. For the person you love, hiding defects is a woman's instinct, especially those secrets that may not be understood by your lover, and they will not easily tell them.

She looked at her watch and said: Yan went out now, we had already agreed. She would not come back in an hour. This period was a buffer period for you so that you could sort out your emotions. Of course, I would also enlighten you in time, hoping that you can let go of your perfect knot and forgive her for being unfaithful. But now I suddenly changed my mind because I overestimated you before, and I got involved in the trouble between you and your wife. It was not a mess! If I made you worse, I would become a sinner.

I stared at Su Qing blankly, not knowing what she wanted to say

We will use this hour to let you know your wife

Su Qing said

She returned to the bed while looking at her phone, sat down to my legs, and then pressed the phone.

Yan's voice suddenly came from her phone