In the nursing room of the First People's Hospital, a thin young man sat upright on the white bed. He was handsome and tall, not very old, and was wearing a neat hospital gown. If he hadn't had any focus in his pupils, he would not have seen a patient at all.
He sat upright on the bed for a while, without knowing how little he was at all, and he was not moving like an old monk entering into meditation. Even the sound of opening the door did not attract any attention.
Pushing the door out were several doctors and nurses in white coats, and a haggard middle-aged woman, Liu Yujie. In just one month, she became as if she had withered, her cheeks were deeply inwardly, her eyes were vague, and she looked worried. She looked at the familiar and strange boy on the bed, and she couldn't help but feel sad. For this month, she has been deeply trapped in self-blame and pain every day.
Wang Xin jumped into the lake and committed suicide that day. He was lucky to be rescued by two kind-hearted people walking. After being rushed to the hospital, the rescue was prompt. It should be nothing serious. But it was strange. Although his body was awake, his consciousness seemed to be dead. After waking up, he only retained some basic human instincts, such as being able to swallow food, breathe independently, and walking with support. This is the biggest difference between him and vegetatives.
But all he did was just physical instinct. If he helped him walk and pointed to a wall, he could keep moving forward and hit the wall again and again. After a month of observation and treatment, the doctors and experts at the First People's Hospital were helpless. They consulted the famous neurosurgery and brain experts through remote consultations through computers, but they were still clueless.
Sorry, Ms. Liu, we did our best
A middle-aged male doctor in the house said apologetically that he is Wang Xin's attending physician. He has been in the industry for nearly 20 years and is also the leading expert in China. However, in the face of Wang Xin's situation, he really has nowhere to start. He has tried all kinds of methods, and there is no sign of improvement. At this moment, Wang Xin's situation is like a computer without an operating system. He wants to reinstall the operating system, but the computer refuses external access.
Liu Yujie trembled slightly when she heard this and said with a wry smile: Doctor Hu, does he still have hope of recovery?
Several doctors looked at each other helplessly after hearing this. Dr. Hu said: We cannot predict this situation. The human brain is a special existence that we have not fully understood yet. Maybe he will regain consciousness tomorrow.
He was silent and did not go on, for fear of irritating the mother. Liu Yujieyi took care of her son for a month without taking care of her. The double pressure of mental and physical pressure had already put her to the limit. At this moment, anything might stimulate her fragile nerves. He did not want him to appear on the front page of the newspaper tomorrow, saying that a certain doctor stimulated the patient's family too much, causing the other party to die suddenly.
Liu Yujie took a deep breath and said softly: I understand, thank you
After saying that, she closed her eyes, and two clear tears slowly remained along the corners of her eyes. Even though several medical staff had long been used to life and death, they couldn't help but feel sad.
Dr. Hu wiped his head and checked Wang Xin again. There was still no abnormality in all parts of the body. The value of the brain wave measuring instrument remained at an extremely low level, probably at the same level as a newborn baby.
Liu Yujie stood silently, watching the doctor and nurse busy, her tears gradually blurred her eyes, and her son's figure became more and more blurred in her eyes. She unconsciously raised her hands and slowly stretched forward, trying to grab the gradually blurred figure. Suddenly, she felt a dizzy and fell down. At the moment of unconsciousness, she felt the figure in front of her shaking, but she was unable to see everything clearly, and finally fell into a coma.
It took Liu Yujie to wake up from her coma. It was all white when she could see it.
Is this paradise?
Liu Yujie's mind was not completely awake yet, thinking about it, and she felt that she had no strength all over her body. After finally awakening, she noticed that this was in the hospital ward. She only remembered in a daze that she seemed to have fainted, and she didn't know the rest at all. She looked at her clothes, and was still wearing the clothes before she was unconscious, slowly turned over and got out of the bed, unscrewed the door handle of the ward, and the corridor was quiet. Only then did she notice that it was already late at night.
Liu Yujie was afraid of being alarmed by others, so she held the wall of the corridor and walked forward gently. She looked at the door number of the ward. She was not too far from her son's ward. After passing two doors, she arrived.
She unscrewed the door handle and gently pushed it away. The moment she entered the door, a thought popped up in her mind: Everything before was just a dream, but in fact her son had nothing to do, nothing messy things were gone.
The reason why I was in the hospital was just because I was tired of work. My son was still the sunny and innocent young boy. The relationship between them was still intimate and simple. But when she saw her son lying straight on the hospital bed, all her fantasies were shattered. She covered her mouth in pain, blocked all her sadness, regret, and grief in her throat, collapsed weakly on the ground, her beautiful big eyes could not suppress her tears, I still see her.
After a while, the tears finally dried up. Liu Yujie slowly stood up with the wall, her body was shaking, and finally recovered a little strength. She moved to the bed tremblingly and looked down at her son's face. His eyes were still wide open. According to the doctor, he had lost the ability to control facial muscles, and his sleep was maintained entirely by injections. A tranquilizer every night can make him fall asleep. Even if his brain entered a rest, his eyes were always open like this, like a living dead.
Liu Yujie sucked gently, and stroked her son's cheek with a trembling hand. Although she knew it was futile, she still tried to close his eyelids. Of course it was useless. She finally stopped this meaningless action. She gently held her son's hand.
Lift his hand up and put it on his cheek. The sleeves of his clothes slowly slid down, revealing his strong forearm. With the faint light, you can clearly see several white scars on it. Liu Yujie couldn't help but tremble. This was a secret that she discovered after her son was admitted to the hospital. There were more than a dozen scars on his arm, and the lid had not fall off yet, and some had not completely healed. It was obviously caused by it recently.
Looking at these scars, Liu Yujie couldn't help but think of the diary she found under her son Simmons' mattress.
Wang Xin has had the habit of keeping diaries since he was a child. Out of respecting his son's privacy, Liu Yujie has never read his son's diary because Wang Xin's diary was not as tight as an ordinary child, but it was just placed in the drawer. Liu Yujie naturally knew what the cover looked like, but she had never seen the book under the mattress.
The cover was a black one, with no patterns and characters, full of strange mystery. The first side of the pencil was turned into a picture of Liu Yujie's pencil sketch, drawing her cheeks and staring at the front. Although there were only a few simple strokes, it outlined the gentle and friendly eyes to the fullest, as if it was done in one go, without any trace of modification. Liu Yujie couldn't help but feel sad, and she trembled and turned on the second page, swiped gently, and was stunned.
July 21, weather, sunny
Today I went to Wang Wei’s house to play electric. At around 3 o’clock, Liu Xiáng also came and took out an old book from his schoolbag mysteriously. I didn’t expect it to be a yellow book. I flipped it around and found it boring, and my words were vulgar and boring. Uh, not all of them. There are several articles. Why do I feel very strange after reading it? It seems that there is a fire in my heart. The plots in it all describe the incest stories of single mothers and sons. Isn’t this the situation in our family?
All the mothers inside stayed alone in the empty boudoir for many years. In the end, the desire broke through the shackles of morality. Is my mother also lonely?
Probably
No, can't watch it anymore
I can't forget the plot when I come back from Wang Wei's house. I'm depressed
At night, I used to massage my mother's shoulders. Oh my god, I can see my mother's breasts from my perspective. They are so big and white. My mother just finished taking a shower and she didn't even wear a bra. I couldn't help but move her nightgown quietly. She didn't notice at all. I could even see the little black nipples. No, I can't do this. I want to close my eyes, but I can't close it. I must forget this and firmly forget it.
No, I can't forget it. I want to write it down. Just like when I was a child, I will feel relaxed when I write unpleasant things in my diary. I want to change my diary, just that black one. I have always liked it and couldn't bear to use it.
July 22, weather, sunny
When I woke up in the morning, I felt a little uncomfortable with my crotch. When I opened it, I found that it was nocturnal emission, which made my whole underwear wrinkle. I dreamed of my mother last night, but I was really ashamed. I actually went to bed with my mother like the plot in the novel. I don’t remember much about the plot. I only remember my mother’s plump breasts swaying in front of my eyes, swaying, no, I thought about it and felt so hard, my cock was so uncomfortable. It was the first time I felt like this. It was so uncomfortable. I want to endure, I want to endure.
July 23, weather, heavy rain
It started to rain last night, and it didn't stop until the morning. I dreamed of my mother again last night, and I had nocturnal emissions when I woke up in the morning
During heavy rain, my mother usually doesn't go to the supermarket, and today is no exception. When I saw me throw my underwear into the laundry basket, my mother seemed to smile a little strangely. Did she realize what I thought of her? No, it shouldn't be. Maybe she thinks her son has grown up.
Mom still wears very little at home today. She always does this. It seems that she has never regarded this son as a man. But I am already seventeen years old, you should pay more attention to Ah, Mom
I was afraid that I would reveal my feet when I was not careful, so I deliberately avoided her. After dinner, I went to the room to write my summer homework. However, I couldn't write a word at all, and my mind was thumping. I didn't finish half of the page in the morning. It was so painful.
In the afternoon, I was still hiding in the room. My mother brought a glass of water and brought it in. When she bent down, I glanced secretly. My mother has a very good figure. Why did I realize today that it is not okay? My dick is hard. What am I thinking about? I deserve to die.
July 24, weather, sunny
My mother was not at home in the morning, and I lay in a daze. Somehow I thought of my mother. I didn't control myself and put my mother into the character in the pornographic novel. I closed my eyes and daydreaming, as if my mother's breasts were close at hand. I held the quilt, as if this was my mother's body, kissing her wildly, and my dick became more and more uncomfortable. I don't know how long it took, I suddenly felt comfortable all over and quickly turned over and got out of bed. My underwear was already sticky and wet by my semen.
In the afternoon, I tossed and turned on the bed again. It felt so comfortable. After a long time, my cock ejaculated again. It was so cool. I think I can't live without this feeling.
July 25, weather, sunny
It was very hot. In the afternoon, my classmates made an appointment to play basketball. I didn't want to go, but I couldn't resist it, so I had to go. When I came back, I didn't expect that my mother had already arrived home and was doing yoga on the floor of the living room. When I saw me in, my mother smiled at me. I was fainted at that time. My mother's breasts were highlighted by the tight yoga clothes. It was big and round. As her movements, her breasts swayed gently. It was so tempting that I didn't dare to look at it anymore. I rushed back to the room, took the clothes to change and rushed to the bathroom.
Facing the mirror in the bathroom, I saw that my cock had grown thick and long, which should be considered very large. After visual inspection, it was about twenty-one or two centimeters long. I couldn't help but think of the plot in the novel. The son in it had a thick and big cock. He relied on this big cock to conquer his hungry mother. Maybe I should rush out now, pressing my mother down to have sex with her like in the novel book, and then my mother will fall in love with me and serve me like serving my husband. That feeling must be very good.
But I don't dare, that's just the plot in the novel. If I really do that, my mother will definitely be very angry. I can only fantasize about my mother's appearance in my mind, hold my dick in my hand and stroke it quickly. This is called masturbation. I heard from the teacher in hygiene and physiology class before, but I didn't expect that I would use it. It's so comfortable.
July 26, weather, heavy rain
The weather forecast says that there will be continuous heavy rain in the past few days, which may cause local floods. It seems that my mother will be at home these days, which is really unbearable.
My mother seemed to notice my coldness these days, so I could only pretend that it was okay and try to avoid contact with her body. I was afraid that I would not be able to hold back myself.
The day has finally passed, it's so hard, mom is so beautiful, I love you mom
July 27, weather, heavy rain
Today I did a lot of things with my mother, cleaning housework together, making dumplings together, and when I went out to buy vegetables, my mother held hands with me. Her palms were so soft and it was so comfortable to pinch them. I was a little reluctant to let go.
At home, she was still wearing shorts and a vest. Only when my mother turned her back to me did I dare to look at her secretly. As a result, another discovery was that my mother's butt was so round and she wanted to touch her so hard that she wanted to touch her.
The subsequent diary recorded every bit of it with my mother every day, including both the warm record and the son's sexual fantasy. Liu Yujie was full of burning face and was flustered. She couldn't tell whether it was surprised or melancholy. The more she went to the back, the more her son's description became more and more exposed. Liu Yujie lived in widowhood for many years, and her desire in her heart was stirred up by the exposed words, and her lower body was wet without realizing it.
August 19, weather, cloudy
I masturbated three times in the morning. It was so good. My mother's breasts were big and soft, and it was so comfortable to touch. Her breasts were white and tender, but her nipples were black and shiny, and she looked very sexy. My hands were big. I could grab a basketball with one hand, but I still couldn't hold my mother's breasts with one hand. I held a big breast with both hands and put the nipples in my mouth and sucked them back and forth. It was so comfortable. It was so cool.
August 23, weather, heavy rain
Hate, mom doesn't go to the supermarket today, no, I can't help it
Lying on my mother's thigh, she looked at me with a smile. It looked so beautiful. She was wearing my favorite black bra on her upper body. The small piece of cloth could barely cover a little bit of the place near her nipples.
I urged my mother to feed me quickly. My mother agreed with a smile. She lifted her bra directly to her breasts. Two heavy breasts immediately jumped out. I couldn't help it and bit a nipple when I looked up. My mother lowered her body and breastfeeded me gently, letting me play with her breasts casually. She is really my good mother
August 31, weather, sunny
I'll go to school tomorrow, and my mother promised to sleep with me. I spent the night in my mother's bedroom for the first time. Her body was so smooth. We hugged each other all night, kissed and caressed each other. My mother's breasts were licked over and over again, but there was no impatience at all. Seeing my cock swelling, my mother took the initiative to help me masturbate. Her palms were so comfortable. I ejaculated three times that night, and every time I ejaculated on my mother's breasts. It was really fun.
September 2, weather, sunny
On a bad day, before I got the test paper for the small exam, I knew I was dead. When I was taking the exam yesterday, I couldn’t concentrate. I always remembered my mother and had not finished the test paper. Sure enough, I, who always ranked in the top three, was a shame after reaching 30 for the first time.
My mother held her breasts and leaned against my bedside. I couldn't help but want to go over. No, I'm doing my homework now. No, Ah, I'm going crazy. My mother's nipples became hard and thick in my mouth. No, I'm crazy.
September 6, weather, cloudy
Today, the head teacher talked to me again. This is the second time. My friends asked me if I was sick, otherwise why would I be lying on the table after class? Otherwise, I couldn't say that my cock was too hard and could not move. Now my symptoms are getting worse and worse. I would fantasize about having sex with my mother anytime and anywhere. My hard cock was strangled by my jeans. I couldn't help but ejaculate when I was still in class yesterday. It was so embarrassing. I must get rid of it.
It hurts so much, Ah, the blade is really a good thing, I seem to be able to concentrate on studying now, oh, no, why does there be a shadow of my mother in the homework book, the blade, the blade, the Ah, it hurts so much
September 18, weather, sunny
When I was facing the mirror in the morning, I felt so haggard. I couldn't help it last night and masturbated twice. God, please forgive me. I didn't mean to breach the contract. I really couldn't sleep. I felt uncomfortable.
My mother asked me strangely why the weather is so hot and she is wearing a long-sleeved shirt. I can only explain that it is the school's rule, otherwise it would be more difficult to explain if she saw the scratches on her arm.
The blade feels useless, maybe I should use something new
As Liu Yujie looked at it, tears could no longer be suppressed. She held the notebook sadly and felt pain. From the lines, she deeply felt her son's entangled heart. The suppressed impulse could only relieve the impulse of being deceived by self-harm, which made her mother feel sad. The anger in her heart caused by seeing her son's sexual fantasy turned into nothing with her sadness.
Finally stopped the internal water, the diary was wet, Liu Yujie's trembling hands took several times to separate the paper sticking together, and turned to the next page
At noon on September 23, the weather is cloudy
I haven't written a diary for several days, because I was really not feeling well, my mother went to school today. Hehe, I actually knew that there would be such a day and everything should be over. She asked me what caused my grades to become worse. What can I say? I can tell her because I fell in love with my mother in a crazy way!
I've already felt that something big will happen these days. Maybe this is the sixth sense.
Why has my mother lived so hard in the past seven years? There is only one answer, that is, me. If not, maybe my mother will have a happy family again. Fortunately, it is not too late. With the beauty of my mother, I will definitely find someone who loves and cares for her. I wish you happiness, Mom
The diary ends here. The writing style of the last text is messy, obviously it is written in the extremely ups and downs of mood. On the page next to it, there is a very simple sketch, drawing the portraits of two people, one of which is Liu Yujie, who leans intimately on the shoulder of the person next to her. For some reason, Wang Xin did not draw a man's face, but only outlined a smile and satisfied mouth.
The son's secret diary brought huge impact to Liu Yujie. She really walked into her son's heart for the first time and discovered the unknown pain and sorrow in his heart. After reading the diary, Liu Yujie never understood. Anger, sadness, and sadness, and regret changed. Love, pain, and confusion. She didn't know how she would get along with him once her son woke up. Under the constraints of ethics and morality, Wang Xin chose to destroy himself.
From this point of view, he successfully redeemed himself with death. No matter how big the mistake he made before, he had washed away the sins with his life. Liu Yujie began to examine the relationship between her son and herself because of the discovery of her diary. After stripping away her ethics, she saw the heart that loved her extremely passionately. A man was willing to give up his life for himself. How precious is this love? In the month of taking care of her son, she was willing to give up her life.
Every time he saw the self-abuse scars and unsightly eyes on his arm, the soft part in Liu Yujie's heart was stinging. After a month, her heart was covered with bruises and no longer had any resentment or regret for her son. She just hoped that he could wake up. If there was a purgatory that was unfair in this world, she would be willing to be trapped in the karma of soul refining forever and burn her soul in exchange for her son to call herself mother.
He sat upright on the bed for a while, without knowing how little he was at all, and he was not moving like an old monk entering into meditation. Even the sound of opening the door did not attract any attention.
Pushing the door out were several doctors and nurses in white coats, and a haggard middle-aged woman, Liu Yujie. In just one month, she became as if she had withered, her cheeks were deeply inwardly, her eyes were vague, and she looked worried. She looked at the familiar and strange boy on the bed, and she couldn't help but feel sad. For this month, she has been deeply trapped in self-blame and pain every day.
Wang Xin jumped into the lake and committed suicide that day. He was lucky to be rescued by two kind-hearted people walking. After being rushed to the hospital, the rescue was prompt. It should be nothing serious. But it was strange. Although his body was awake, his consciousness seemed to be dead. After waking up, he only retained some basic human instincts, such as being able to swallow food, breathe independently, and walking with support. This is the biggest difference between him and vegetatives.
But all he did was just physical instinct. If he helped him walk and pointed to a wall, he could keep moving forward and hit the wall again and again. After a month of observation and treatment, the doctors and experts at the First People's Hospital were helpless. They consulted the famous neurosurgery and brain experts through remote consultations through computers, but they were still clueless.
Sorry, Ms. Liu, we did our best
A middle-aged male doctor in the house said apologetically that he is Wang Xin's attending physician. He has been in the industry for nearly 20 years and is also the leading expert in China. However, in the face of Wang Xin's situation, he really has nowhere to start. He has tried all kinds of methods, and there is no sign of improvement. At this moment, Wang Xin's situation is like a computer without an operating system. He wants to reinstall the operating system, but the computer refuses external access.
Liu Yujie trembled slightly when she heard this and said with a wry smile: Doctor Hu, does he still have hope of recovery?
Several doctors looked at each other helplessly after hearing this. Dr. Hu said: We cannot predict this situation. The human brain is a special existence that we have not fully understood yet. Maybe he will regain consciousness tomorrow.
He was silent and did not go on, for fear of irritating the mother. Liu Yujieyi took care of her son for a month without taking care of her. The double pressure of mental and physical pressure had already put her to the limit. At this moment, anything might stimulate her fragile nerves. He did not want him to appear on the front page of the newspaper tomorrow, saying that a certain doctor stimulated the patient's family too much, causing the other party to die suddenly.
Liu Yujie took a deep breath and said softly: I understand, thank you
After saying that, she closed her eyes, and two clear tears slowly remained along the corners of her eyes. Even though several medical staff had long been used to life and death, they couldn't help but feel sad.
Dr. Hu wiped his head and checked Wang Xin again. There was still no abnormality in all parts of the body. The value of the brain wave measuring instrument remained at an extremely low level, probably at the same level as a newborn baby.
Liu Yujie stood silently, watching the doctor and nurse busy, her tears gradually blurred her eyes, and her son's figure became more and more blurred in her eyes. She unconsciously raised her hands and slowly stretched forward, trying to grab the gradually blurred figure. Suddenly, she felt a dizzy and fell down. At the moment of unconsciousness, she felt the figure in front of her shaking, but she was unable to see everything clearly, and finally fell into a coma.
It took Liu Yujie to wake up from her coma. It was all white when she could see it.
Is this paradise?
Liu Yujie's mind was not completely awake yet, thinking about it, and she felt that she had no strength all over her body. After finally awakening, she noticed that this was in the hospital ward. She only remembered in a daze that she seemed to have fainted, and she didn't know the rest at all. She looked at her clothes, and was still wearing the clothes before she was unconscious, slowly turned over and got out of the bed, unscrewed the door handle of the ward, and the corridor was quiet. Only then did she notice that it was already late at night.
Liu Yujie was afraid of being alarmed by others, so she held the wall of the corridor and walked forward gently. She looked at the door number of the ward. She was not too far from her son's ward. After passing two doors, she arrived.
She unscrewed the door handle and gently pushed it away. The moment she entered the door, a thought popped up in her mind: Everything before was just a dream, but in fact her son had nothing to do, nothing messy things were gone.
The reason why I was in the hospital was just because I was tired of work. My son was still the sunny and innocent young boy. The relationship between them was still intimate and simple. But when she saw her son lying straight on the hospital bed, all her fantasies were shattered. She covered her mouth in pain, blocked all her sadness, regret, and grief in her throat, collapsed weakly on the ground, her beautiful big eyes could not suppress her tears, I still see her.
After a while, the tears finally dried up. Liu Yujie slowly stood up with the wall, her body was shaking, and finally recovered a little strength. She moved to the bed tremblingly and looked down at her son's face. His eyes were still wide open. According to the doctor, he had lost the ability to control facial muscles, and his sleep was maintained entirely by injections. A tranquilizer every night can make him fall asleep. Even if his brain entered a rest, his eyes were always open like this, like a living dead.
Liu Yujie sucked gently, and stroked her son's cheek with a trembling hand. Although she knew it was futile, she still tried to close his eyelids. Of course it was useless. She finally stopped this meaningless action. She gently held her son's hand.
Lift his hand up and put it on his cheek. The sleeves of his clothes slowly slid down, revealing his strong forearm. With the faint light, you can clearly see several white scars on it. Liu Yujie couldn't help but tremble. This was a secret that she discovered after her son was admitted to the hospital. There were more than a dozen scars on his arm, and the lid had not fall off yet, and some had not completely healed. It was obviously caused by it recently.
Looking at these scars, Liu Yujie couldn't help but think of the diary she found under her son Simmons' mattress.
Wang Xin has had the habit of keeping diaries since he was a child. Out of respecting his son's privacy, Liu Yujie has never read his son's diary because Wang Xin's diary was not as tight as an ordinary child, but it was just placed in the drawer. Liu Yujie naturally knew what the cover looked like, but she had never seen the book under the mattress.
The cover was a black one, with no patterns and characters, full of strange mystery. The first side of the pencil was turned into a picture of Liu Yujie's pencil sketch, drawing her cheeks and staring at the front. Although there were only a few simple strokes, it outlined the gentle and friendly eyes to the fullest, as if it was done in one go, without any trace of modification. Liu Yujie couldn't help but feel sad, and she trembled and turned on the second page, swiped gently, and was stunned.
July 21, weather, sunny
Today I went to Wang Wei’s house to play electric. At around 3 o’clock, Liu Xiáng also came and took out an old book from his schoolbag mysteriously. I didn’t expect it to be a yellow book. I flipped it around and found it boring, and my words were vulgar and boring. Uh, not all of them. There are several articles. Why do I feel very strange after reading it? It seems that there is a fire in my heart. The plots in it all describe the incest stories of single mothers and sons. Isn’t this the situation in our family?
All the mothers inside stayed alone in the empty boudoir for many years. In the end, the desire broke through the shackles of morality. Is my mother also lonely?
Probably
No, can't watch it anymore
I can't forget the plot when I come back from Wang Wei's house. I'm depressed
At night, I used to massage my mother's shoulders. Oh my god, I can see my mother's breasts from my perspective. They are so big and white. My mother just finished taking a shower and she didn't even wear a bra. I couldn't help but move her nightgown quietly. She didn't notice at all. I could even see the little black nipples. No, I can't do this. I want to close my eyes, but I can't close it. I must forget this and firmly forget it.
No, I can't forget it. I want to write it down. Just like when I was a child, I will feel relaxed when I write unpleasant things in my diary. I want to change my diary, just that black one. I have always liked it and couldn't bear to use it.
July 22, weather, sunny
When I woke up in the morning, I felt a little uncomfortable with my crotch. When I opened it, I found that it was nocturnal emission, which made my whole underwear wrinkle. I dreamed of my mother last night, but I was really ashamed. I actually went to bed with my mother like the plot in the novel. I don’t remember much about the plot. I only remember my mother’s plump breasts swaying in front of my eyes, swaying, no, I thought about it and felt so hard, my cock was so uncomfortable. It was the first time I felt like this. It was so uncomfortable. I want to endure, I want to endure.
July 23, weather, heavy rain
It started to rain last night, and it didn't stop until the morning. I dreamed of my mother again last night, and I had nocturnal emissions when I woke up in the morning
During heavy rain, my mother usually doesn't go to the supermarket, and today is no exception. When I saw me throw my underwear into the laundry basket, my mother seemed to smile a little strangely. Did she realize what I thought of her? No, it shouldn't be. Maybe she thinks her son has grown up.
Mom still wears very little at home today. She always does this. It seems that she has never regarded this son as a man. But I am already seventeen years old, you should pay more attention to Ah, Mom
I was afraid that I would reveal my feet when I was not careful, so I deliberately avoided her. After dinner, I went to the room to write my summer homework. However, I couldn't write a word at all, and my mind was thumping. I didn't finish half of the page in the morning. It was so painful.
In the afternoon, I was still hiding in the room. My mother brought a glass of water and brought it in. When she bent down, I glanced secretly. My mother has a very good figure. Why did I realize today that it is not okay? My dick is hard. What am I thinking about? I deserve to die.
July 24, weather, sunny
My mother was not at home in the morning, and I lay in a daze. Somehow I thought of my mother. I didn't control myself and put my mother into the character in the pornographic novel. I closed my eyes and daydreaming, as if my mother's breasts were close at hand. I held the quilt, as if this was my mother's body, kissing her wildly, and my dick became more and more uncomfortable. I don't know how long it took, I suddenly felt comfortable all over and quickly turned over and got out of bed. My underwear was already sticky and wet by my semen.
In the afternoon, I tossed and turned on the bed again. It felt so comfortable. After a long time, my cock ejaculated again. It was so cool. I think I can't live without this feeling.
July 25, weather, sunny
It was very hot. In the afternoon, my classmates made an appointment to play basketball. I didn't want to go, but I couldn't resist it, so I had to go. When I came back, I didn't expect that my mother had already arrived home and was doing yoga on the floor of the living room. When I saw me in, my mother smiled at me. I was fainted at that time. My mother's breasts were highlighted by the tight yoga clothes. It was big and round. As her movements, her breasts swayed gently. It was so tempting that I didn't dare to look at it anymore. I rushed back to the room, took the clothes to change and rushed to the bathroom.
Facing the mirror in the bathroom, I saw that my cock had grown thick and long, which should be considered very large. After visual inspection, it was about twenty-one or two centimeters long. I couldn't help but think of the plot in the novel. The son in it had a thick and big cock. He relied on this big cock to conquer his hungry mother. Maybe I should rush out now, pressing my mother down to have sex with her like in the novel book, and then my mother will fall in love with me and serve me like serving my husband. That feeling must be very good.
But I don't dare, that's just the plot in the novel. If I really do that, my mother will definitely be very angry. I can only fantasize about my mother's appearance in my mind, hold my dick in my hand and stroke it quickly. This is called masturbation. I heard from the teacher in hygiene and physiology class before, but I didn't expect that I would use it. It's so comfortable.
July 26, weather, heavy rain
The weather forecast says that there will be continuous heavy rain in the past few days, which may cause local floods. It seems that my mother will be at home these days, which is really unbearable.
My mother seemed to notice my coldness these days, so I could only pretend that it was okay and try to avoid contact with her body. I was afraid that I would not be able to hold back myself.
The day has finally passed, it's so hard, mom is so beautiful, I love you mom
July 27, weather, heavy rain
Today I did a lot of things with my mother, cleaning housework together, making dumplings together, and when I went out to buy vegetables, my mother held hands with me. Her palms were so soft and it was so comfortable to pinch them. I was a little reluctant to let go.
At home, she was still wearing shorts and a vest. Only when my mother turned her back to me did I dare to look at her secretly. As a result, another discovery was that my mother's butt was so round and she wanted to touch her so hard that she wanted to touch her.
The subsequent diary recorded every bit of it with my mother every day, including both the warm record and the son's sexual fantasy. Liu Yujie was full of burning face and was flustered. She couldn't tell whether it was surprised or melancholy. The more she went to the back, the more her son's description became more and more exposed. Liu Yujie lived in widowhood for many years, and her desire in her heart was stirred up by the exposed words, and her lower body was wet without realizing it.
August 19, weather, cloudy
I masturbated three times in the morning. It was so good. My mother's breasts were big and soft, and it was so comfortable to touch. Her breasts were white and tender, but her nipples were black and shiny, and she looked very sexy. My hands were big. I could grab a basketball with one hand, but I still couldn't hold my mother's breasts with one hand. I held a big breast with both hands and put the nipples in my mouth and sucked them back and forth. It was so comfortable. It was so cool.
August 23, weather, heavy rain
Hate, mom doesn't go to the supermarket today, no, I can't help it
Lying on my mother's thigh, she looked at me with a smile. It looked so beautiful. She was wearing my favorite black bra on her upper body. The small piece of cloth could barely cover a little bit of the place near her nipples.
I urged my mother to feed me quickly. My mother agreed with a smile. She lifted her bra directly to her breasts. Two heavy breasts immediately jumped out. I couldn't help it and bit a nipple when I looked up. My mother lowered her body and breastfeeded me gently, letting me play with her breasts casually. She is really my good mother
August 31, weather, sunny
I'll go to school tomorrow, and my mother promised to sleep with me. I spent the night in my mother's bedroom for the first time. Her body was so smooth. We hugged each other all night, kissed and caressed each other. My mother's breasts were licked over and over again, but there was no impatience at all. Seeing my cock swelling, my mother took the initiative to help me masturbate. Her palms were so comfortable. I ejaculated three times that night, and every time I ejaculated on my mother's breasts. It was really fun.
September 2, weather, sunny
On a bad day, before I got the test paper for the small exam, I knew I was dead. When I was taking the exam yesterday, I couldn’t concentrate. I always remembered my mother and had not finished the test paper. Sure enough, I, who always ranked in the top three, was a shame after reaching 30 for the first time.
My mother held her breasts and leaned against my bedside. I couldn't help but want to go over. No, I'm doing my homework now. No, Ah, I'm going crazy. My mother's nipples became hard and thick in my mouth. No, I'm crazy.
September 6, weather, cloudy
Today, the head teacher talked to me again. This is the second time. My friends asked me if I was sick, otherwise why would I be lying on the table after class? Otherwise, I couldn't say that my cock was too hard and could not move. Now my symptoms are getting worse and worse. I would fantasize about having sex with my mother anytime and anywhere. My hard cock was strangled by my jeans. I couldn't help but ejaculate when I was still in class yesterday. It was so embarrassing. I must get rid of it.
It hurts so much, Ah, the blade is really a good thing, I seem to be able to concentrate on studying now, oh, no, why does there be a shadow of my mother in the homework book, the blade, the blade, the Ah, it hurts so much
September 18, weather, sunny
When I was facing the mirror in the morning, I felt so haggard. I couldn't help it last night and masturbated twice. God, please forgive me. I didn't mean to breach the contract. I really couldn't sleep. I felt uncomfortable.
My mother asked me strangely why the weather is so hot and she is wearing a long-sleeved shirt. I can only explain that it is the school's rule, otherwise it would be more difficult to explain if she saw the scratches on her arm.
The blade feels useless, maybe I should use something new
As Liu Yujie looked at it, tears could no longer be suppressed. She held the notebook sadly and felt pain. From the lines, she deeply felt her son's entangled heart. The suppressed impulse could only relieve the impulse of being deceived by self-harm, which made her mother feel sad. The anger in her heart caused by seeing her son's sexual fantasy turned into nothing with her sadness.
Finally stopped the internal water, the diary was wet, Liu Yujie's trembling hands took several times to separate the paper sticking together, and turned to the next page
At noon on September 23, the weather is cloudy
I haven't written a diary for several days, because I was really not feeling well, my mother went to school today. Hehe, I actually knew that there would be such a day and everything should be over. She asked me what caused my grades to become worse. What can I say? I can tell her because I fell in love with my mother in a crazy way!
I've already felt that something big will happen these days. Maybe this is the sixth sense.
Why has my mother lived so hard in the past seven years? There is only one answer, that is, me. If not, maybe my mother will have a happy family again. Fortunately, it is not too late. With the beauty of my mother, I will definitely find someone who loves and cares for her. I wish you happiness, Mom
The diary ends here. The writing style of the last text is messy, obviously it is written in the extremely ups and downs of mood. On the page next to it, there is a very simple sketch, drawing the portraits of two people, one of which is Liu Yujie, who leans intimately on the shoulder of the person next to her. For some reason, Wang Xin did not draw a man's face, but only outlined a smile and satisfied mouth.
The son's secret diary brought huge impact to Liu Yujie. She really walked into her son's heart for the first time and discovered the unknown pain and sorrow in his heart. After reading the diary, Liu Yujie never understood. Anger, sadness, and sadness, and regret changed. Love, pain, and confusion. She didn't know how she would get along with him once her son woke up. Under the constraints of ethics and morality, Wang Xin chose to destroy himself.
From this point of view, he successfully redeemed himself with death. No matter how big the mistake he made before, he had washed away the sins with his life. Liu Yujie began to examine the relationship between her son and herself because of the discovery of her diary. After stripping away her ethics, she saw the heart that loved her extremely passionately. A man was willing to give up his life for himself. How precious is this love? In the month of taking care of her son, she was willing to give up her life.
Every time he saw the self-abuse scars and unsightly eyes on his arm, the soft part in Liu Yujie's heart was stinging. After a month, her heart was covered with bruises and no longer had any resentment or regret for her son. She just hoped that he could wake up. If there was a purgatory that was unfair in this world, she would be willing to be trapped in the karma of soul refining forever and burn her soul in exchange for her son to call herself mother.
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