Chapter 3: Unbearable love

I looked at Ling's almost praying expression, and I always felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. Will such a woman really love me?

Will she keep her mouth shut about our affairs?

I used to be proud of having a beautiful wife, and I also decided not to be unfaithful to her, but how could a man's oath appear so pale and powerless in front of a woman?

Ling sat quietly on the edge of my bed, holding the child I had with her in her arms. At this time, the child suddenly started crying, which made me uneasy. I wanted to call her home

But looking at her expression, there is no intention of going home

Just when I was anxious about the child's crying, Ling lifted her top and exposed her huge breasts. She held it with her hands and sent the red one to the child's mouth.

As soon as the child had milk, he stopped crying, and my heart calmed down a little. Ling looked at me while feeding the child, with a glimmer of infatuation in her eyes.

My heart was very complicated, so I looked Ling in the eyes and said to her seriously:

Ling, I know you and my wife get along well, and I also know that you and your husband have no feelings for you, but I am a person with a wife and children. Life cannot make me carefree and benevolent. I never thought I would betray her before. Our life can be said to be very happy. Although it is not rich, for us, feelings are the most important thing. Since that happened to you, I have always wanted to control my feelings. In fact, I was completely impulse and had no intention of getting along with you. I couldn't like you. To be honest, I didn't know what was wrong at that time. If I didn't help you mention the battery, maybe it would be fine. It's all my fault. Maybe I think I like you, right?

After saying this, I stood in front of Ling. My purpose was to let her not pester me anymore because we live too close. As the saying goes: Rabbits don’t eat grass beside their nests, I want to end this relationship with her.

After listening to my words, Ling's tears immediately flowed out. Maybe what I said was a bit too severe, hurting a woman's self-esteem.

Yes! How can a woman tolerate a man who has sex with her and still say she doesn’t like it?

Who did you think of her as?

What's more, we have a child?

Ling just shed tears silently. She hadn't said a word for a long time. I knew she hated me very much. The child had already eaten his breasts and fell asleep in her arms.

Just as I was about to explain my words, Ling immediately got up and left my house. She closed the door heavily when she went out, which scared me and sweated.

I know that she will not have a good result when she is angry. Sometimes she will commit suicide. She is the person who cannot bear the harm. I regretted my words and followed her immediately, but they have already closed it.

When I knocked on her door, she pretended not to hear it, but I could obviously hear her crying, almost crying loudly

I shouted a few words and stood quietly in front of the door because I was afraid that someone would hear it

Just as I was about to leave, the crying suddenly stopped, and then the door creaked, maybe it was because she didn't hear me calling her

She opened the door there, entered the room and sat on the sofa

I knew she was letting me in, but my feet were always trembling. Ling sat on the sofa and looked at me, maybe she was laughing at my cowardice. Thinking of this, I walked to her without thinking

Ling immediately got up and closed them, and was busy pouring me a glass of boiling water.

I'm sorry for you just now. Don't care what I say, it's all I said casually. I don't ask her if she likes it. Anyway, just let her breathe

Don't say these useless words, I'm not a woman that no one wants. You have your family and I have my freedom. Now that we don't miss the river, I won't bother you anymore

But my heart suddenly became nervous. What does it mean that she said she was not a woman no one wanted?

Would she look for another man?

Are you looking for someone else? I tentatively said

It's not your business, please don't ask! She said angrily

I don't care if you find someone, but the child will suffer! I'm anxious to tell her

Does the child have anything to do with you? She stared at me with her eyes

Why doesn't it matter? Isn't it both of us... I suddenly stopped and knew that what I said was a bit too much

I thought you didn't feel anything at all?

I know that in your eyes, men are not good things. I admit that my own insolence has left me with irreparable regrets, but you shouldn't use such despicable means to ask me and your children.

What happened to me? I just wanted you? I just like you. I fell in love with you since the day I moved in. I swore that I must have a beautiful child with you. As I was saying that, a light of confidence appeared in her eyes.

I couldn't convince her for a moment, and staying together like this would make her even more angry. Seeing that the teacup on the table was no longer steaming, I brought it over and drank it in one breath.

At this time, Ling stopped talking, just looked at me drinking water ugly

She felt that I must be very thirsty, so she went to pour water again. I immediately got up and prepared to leave, but just as I reached out to open the door, Ling suddenly ran over and hugged me tightly, holding the empty cup in one hand.

I won't let you go, you stay, I won't blame you anymore, don't be angry, okay? I feel her face pressing against my back

I couldn't break free from her. Her wrist holding the cup was tightly held by her other hand and placed it on my lower abdomen. It seemed that she had used all her strength.

Okay, I won’t leave, you can let go! I said helplessly

Really? Keep your word! She still doesn't let go, afraid that I will run away

I really won't leave, keep my word, I'll say for sure

It was not until then that she let go of her hand and she pulled me to sit on the sofa

When I sat down, she immediately ran into the house, took out the key, locked the security door from the inside, and then came to me and sat on my legs

When she brought her lips, I couldn't help but hug her body and kiss her.

Her breasts that were just put in the child's mouth were shaking in front of me through the loose T-shirt

I had the idea of ​​learning to feed my children. I suddenly thought that I had forgotten about eating breastfeeding when I was young, but this thought just flashed and passed.

My wife did not feed her children when she gave birth to her children, so my mother was very angry about this, so her slim figure was exchanged for the price of her children eating milk.

Ling may have seen me looking at her breasts, so she moved her hand between my legs. When her hand touched my lower body, I still firmly stopped her.

I want to control my desires. I think as long as I can hold on, I will slowly cut off this relationship with her.

Seeing that I didn't want to be intimate with her, Ling stopped and said: I'll cook for you to eat. Just tell me what you want. There are many dishes you like at home.

Whatever you want, you didn't say anything about your cooking skills, I'll tell you truthfully

Then make one pork rib. I made two fish last night, ate one, and another one. You won’t think it’s the rest, right?

How could it be? I'm not that kind of person, I just eat it!

I lay on the sofa and went to bed. She said: Don't sleep, you'll be done in a while

She ran to the bedroom in a apron with orchids and brought me a magazine for me to read.

It was a popular female publication, full of articles about women and sex. I saw a passage like this:

How does it feel inside a woman when having sex?

This is a very special phenomenon and an important issue that has been discussed until now.

This phenomenon is a phenomenon that is often seen as a desire to insert

It is an integral part of the same issue we just discussed, namely: the feeling of difference between sexual orgasm with sexual activity and sexual orgasm without sexual intercourse

This feeling of strong desire, or desire (full desire), accumulates sexual excitement until the arrival of sexual orgasm, itself is very close to the moment when sexual orgasm arrives, and then it merges into the spasmodic and contracting sensation of sexual orgasm

To summarize it in combination with personal sexual experiences, the situation is as follows: sometimes when sexual excitement accumulates to sexual orgasm and the coming moment, there is a strong sense of happiness/pain deep inside, a desire to be inserted or touched inside, or just a wonderful feeling of happiness

It is almost a hollow feeling, and what causes this feeling is that the part deep in it expands, expands, and becomes a place that is theoretically described as a pool of semen so that the semen can gather and stay

Some women think this feeling is empty, and there are unpleasant feelings of nothingness.

But other women find that this feeling gives people a huge and strong feeling of pleasure

Of course, at this moment, whether you want a man to insert into that part is completely your personal preference.

For most women, when inserted into that part, the body feels less intense; the firmness of a man seems to have a comforting effect and dissipate that desire, so it all depends on whether you are willing to experience that feeling.

Reading such words, my heart surged and my whole body became uneasy