Chapter 19

During the period of hospitalization, I had been in the hospital for about a month. My condition was always very unstable, and I gradually became numb.

What makes me most moved is the concern of my netizens. They are from all over the world, and I receive a lot of calls every day to comfort me, and it also makes me feel warm when I am sick.

There are also some lovers on my Internet that insist on coming to Beijing to see me, which made me frightened

Bian Jing and I just made up, so I didn't want to cause trouble

However, a model from Mianyang, Sichuan came over. Caicai was the online name I gave this model.

We met on QQ by chance. At that time, I was building a new separate chat room in the QQ chat room. No one came for a long time. When I was about to close QQ, she ran in and our story happened.

She is a full-time underwear model, 1.75 meters tall, and her father's family has Russian ancestry, so she looks different from ordinary Chinese people.

We joked enthusiastically with each other, she spoke very funny, I rarely saw women who spoke very humorously, especially beauties, who are more serious, and she is an exception

As I was chatting, I suddenly took the initiative to say to her: Be my girlfriend

She was stunned for a moment, but she didn't react for a long time

Later she posted a big message telling me that she is very picky about men, how difficult it is to serve, how to have a clean obsession, especially loves to buy clothes and shoes, spend money like flowing water, and so on a lot of information.

Anyway, I have to think carefully, and I thought to myself: I am rejecting me, I will definitely not have a break with you!

So I sent her a lot of sweet words that were particularly stingy

At that time, Bian Jing was studying and didn't have much time to stick to me, so I had time to go online

Flirting with Caicai is just a habitual action, but I feel uncomfortable when I was rejected by a beauty. The more she rejected me, the more I get excited

Our entire interaction process includes meeting and breaking up most of the time we contact each other via phone. In ancient times, we send letters to the wild geese, and in modern times, we are the couple of online mandarin ducks who send love to each other every day by phone.

I have to call her once a day, otherwise the vegetable will be fucking

I remember that I didn't call her on Valentine's Day before I was hospitalized, so she called me for a long distance and told me that I was ruthless and unrighteous.

Later, I suddenly got sick and called Caicai to tell her to break up. Unexpectedly, Caicai was crying on the phone and said she would never break up. I said I actually had a girlfriend, and when I told her to make friends, she was just fighting with her.

Caicai said she had been mentally prepared for a long time. It would be too unreal if she had no girlfriend at the age of me.

I asked her why she continued dating me. She didn't say it at first, but then she was so anxious that she cried loudly: I was hurt by your sweet words!

Alas, Sister Guanyin, please forgive me, a sinner!

When I was hospitalized, Cai Cai called me every day and told me very enthusiastically that she was looking for various herbs for hepatitis B. Sure enough, after I was discharged from the hospital, she brought a lot of Chinese medicines when she came to Beijing. It was true! I arranged her in another place of residence, and Bian Jingyou did not know that in order not to affect me, she only stayed in Beijing for a week and returned to Mianyang, Sichuan. Later, she married a German. Now she lives a very happy life and my sister Guanyin has appeared. I feel at ease :)

I wanted to delete Caicai when I was revising this novel, but hesitated for a long time and called her to ask if she could?

Cai Cai immediately became angry (I could hear the sound of her slamming the table on the other end of the phone, and through the phone line I could feel a murderous aura in her wide eyes), and said: If you delete me, you would be so sorry for me!

We had a chat before and said that I would write the vegetables in the future when I write novels.

I understand what Caicai is thinking: I am so sad for you, a big flower-hearted radish, and I still work hard to see you from thousands of miles away, and even give you to that stinky girl Bian Jing. I have never been so generous!

I am taller than Bian Jing, and have distinctive growth than Bian Jing. My thighs are longer than Bian Jing. I am also a mixed-race beauty with a unique flavor. More importantly, I have dedicated myself to you. I don’t want men to sacrifice myself easily. You should always remember my injured little heart.

Of course, in my heart, Bian Jing is more beautiful, her skin is whiter and tender, and her personality is gentler. Being a wife is more suitable than a vegetable dish

Men get married to avoid worry. When they get married, they will definitely fight and make trouble every day. I don’t want to grow older faster.

We Bian Jing: like a little lamb, soft, smooth, tender and tender

It's not like Caicai, the arrogant whole Virgin Queen Mother, I will marry her for a young follower for the rest of my life, and it's harder to serve than Bian Jing.

Alas, when I heard her tone on the phone, I had to follow Cai Cai's orders. Cai Cai was 33 years old, I was her second man.

Caicai is not the only lover who traveled thousands of miles to see me. Six of my other lovers were crying and coming to see me, but Bian Jing was by my side every day. I really couldn't receive them one by one, so I asked Lao Fan to arrange it for me.

Lao Fan is very friends, and he is very tired. He arranges them in different hotels and hotels separately.

I took advantage of Bian Jing's working hours to sneak out and have a look

Bian Jing was arranged by Song Min in the marketing department of a foreign company

Originally, Bian Jing didn't want to go to work and insisted on accompanying me. I said: It doesn't work if you are always here. My illness will not be cured for a while. You should go to work. The conditions in this hospital are not good. The atmosphere is particularly dull. The crying of the families of the deceased is one after another every day. I don't want you to suffer with me. You are going to support me, so why don't you go to work and make money!

The last sentence is just a joke

I am like this. If I have difficulties, I will feel very uncomfortable if I want to bear it alone.

Besides, there are a few human bombs outside, I don’t know when it will explode

I secretly called Song Min to discuss it. Song Min quickly arranged a work unit for Bian Jing, and went to work the day after the green light of the interview and written test (I appreciate Bian Jing's cleverness)

In that case, if I don’t handle those lovers neatly, Bian Jing and I will not have a peaceful life in the future

Under my pressure, Bian Jing went to work with tears in her eyes. She also knew that I was upset. We had arguing several times in the hospital for more than a month.

Rather than doing this, it's better to separate for some time

In the next month, I continued to treat on the one hand, and on the other hand, I went to various hotels to appease all kinds of female heroes.

Alas, this is the best time to reflect a woman's motherhood. Every time I meet someone, I cry, as if I don't have hepatitis B but have died in the late stage of cancer.

Every woman showed me tenderness and sympathy.

For a while, I felt very ashamed and wished I could die immediately. I really sorry for them

The one who made the most trouble was Miss E in Chenyang. When we were together, she always criticized me and kept educating me.

All the articles I have extracted say, I won't repeat them here

After meeting again, she cried like a rabbit, her eyes were red like a rabbit, and I felt extremely distressed when I saw it.

However, what she asked me made me very embarrassed: Why didn't you want me at the beginning? Did I treat you badly? I said that for your own good. I don't know how to answer her, and she didn't understand after saying it, so I could only tell her that I already have a girlfriend.

Miss E showed the cute and fierce spirit and legacy of the Northeastern women in their bones for the first time, and asked gritted her teeth: I want to see her!

Looks like she is going to fight Bian Jing like that

I thought to myself: What did you do earlier? It would be great to be so cute. I have to hold the lady's stinking airs all day long.

At that time, I really wanted to have sex with her and have a good time to hurt her, but unfortunately my body doesn't allow it.

I calmed her down and kind words for an afternoon before calming her emotions and then sent her onto the plane. Miss E was still crying and angry along the way

Others include a female network administrator from Beijing, Tangtang from Dalian, a female teacher from Sichuan, Duan from Shandong, and Ayun from Jiangsu, who were all sent away one by one.

These lovers are very important in my life. They never leave me in times of danger and travel thousands of miles to visit me. I have a grateful heart for them. I often miss them when the night is late and when people are quiet.

There are many kinds of human feelings, whether it is love, gratitude, obsession, longing, concern, obsession, whether it is love at first sight or impulse, one-night stands, and many night stands are normal emotional and physical needs for men and women in the world.

Until now, no matter what I do, I have a sense of futility. Even if I want to simply maintain a stable relationship with a woman, I can't be sure if that sense of futility can leave me.

In fact, I hope to be reborn, but it is extremely difficult. I was very honest for a while, but there are always all kinds of temptations. All kinds of women came to me, making me confused and I can't stop.

Song Min is right: Not only men need women, but women also need men

Everyone has different psychological and physiological needs. It is absolutely impossible for a person to satisfy the other person in all aspects throughout his life. Sometimes, in other people, you can find different feelings and qualities. That subtle feeling and the impulse of time give wings to passion, freely flying in the sky, and a day that never stops.

Isn’t life full of color because of this?

There is no difference between mental infidelity and physical infidelity

Going to bed and having sex are two different concepts. Going to bed is just a habitual movement, it is human nature

I like you before I go to bed with you

I love you and make love with you

Just like Bian Jing loves me, she has to have sex with me every day, making love has become a way for her to express love. It was almost a pious ceremony. On the altar is her holy heart, her endless love for me

She told me in body language that she loved me so much that she loved me. This madness made me gradually crazy with Bian Jing, making me willing to die on her. I have never gotten this feeling from other women until today.

I don't know if I'll get better or worse after writing this novel

I think I have become better. At least I don’t pretend to be fake Taoism and scold others for being lustful, but I also want to be lustful in my heart, but I don’t have the chance or courage.

According to Lao Fan, I am not a gentleman, but a gentleman

Song Min's statement is even more cute: I'm not a villain, I'm just a bastard

The truth can be seen through the fog of lies and find the true face of things

Most people never like life too much. They would rather live morally, politically, and live like animals, but they would rather live happily.

If someone wants to live a more enjoyable life, they will be criticized. This is really interesting.

But I know that most people have a dream in their hearts, but everyone has different luck.

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When Bian Jing is at work, she always calls me during lunch time and sends me a sweet message whenever she has free time: I miss you so much! Do you miss me?

Have you been sleeping? Sleep well. I'm eating. I miss you once every bite of food. Have you eaten?

When will I get off work? I want to see you so much!

I can't stand it anymore! I want to go back to the hospital to find you!

I am so depressed, I feel comfortable with you in the hospital, oh... I have 5 minutes left to get off work, and I will fly to you immediately, ÁÁ!

Ha! There is one last minute! I'm going to see you!ÁÁ

As soon as I arrived at the hospital, Bian Jing hugged me and jumped and screamed, like a long time ago.

Every time she gets off work, she brings the latest newspapers, the latest sports and fashion magazines, or the latest published novels and poems, etc. After dinner, we sit together on the balcony of the hospital. She takes out a book to read the poems in it, or read the news in the newspaper to me.

She is willing to do anything insignificant for me, and I am deeply fascinated by her...

Since Bian Jing learned the secret between me and Song Min, her aura has become higher than me. Every time I see her, I feel a little unconsciously ashamed. As if I was encouraged by me, her attitude towards me became more and more arrogant, and she has regained the masturbation of a young lady. I also tolerated it everywhere.

This is the love war between men and women, there is no eternal winner

I am still very sure of her. She is very rude on the surface, but I have seen through it in my bones. She is just a paper tiger.

I always compare her with Song Min in my heart. Both of them are cheerful and cheerful, and dare to love and hate. But Song Min's tricks to deal with men are something that Bian Jing will never learn. Song Min never asks me some very sour questions, such as whether you love me or not.

Bian Jing asks me almost every day: Do you love me or not?

I think I am so old, and I told a little girl that the sour writing was really losing my identity, so I said: I said it the first time I met you, you made me feel suffocated

No, can you just click it directly? It's so difficult for you to say love me

Not enough, you are the only one in this world that suffocates me

I have heard enough of you playboy’s clichés. Who knows how many women you have told you, I want you to say you love me!

I clearly remember that I have said countless times before, and there are cases to be investigated

Check your head and say it now!

Why bother? There are so many people, and the hospital is not talking about this place.

I'm going to listen now! Are you going to be happy

I... I'm really embarrassed. In the past, Bian Jing said it first

What am I? Bian Jing's eyebrows are raised, looking straight into my eyes, pinching my neck, and being fierce. Love...

The last word!

Is it that important? We two are already inseparable and blended together

You're poor, if you don't tell me today, I'll be over with you

I'm thin-skinned

You are so thin that you will say no, I will leave if I don’t say no!

After saying that, she picked up her bag and turned around and walked out. I hurriedly grabbed her and said: Look at you, you are throwing a tantrum again. What big thing is you going to have to... OK, OK, OK, OK, I was wrong, you come back first

I turned her over and pressed her to the chair to sit down. She looked at me angrily, waved her fists and said: This is a big deal for women!

I found that Bian Jing seemed to have grown up a lot, and in an instant, she went from a little girl to a silly girl to a woman. This made me frightened. Women are too smart or too persistent, and sometimes they really scare men.

Many years later, I asked Song Min what she had told Bian Jing. Song Min talked about my bed characteristics and my various benefits for women, etc.

Although that was just Song Min's one's words, these words made Bian Jing's vigilance much stronger and became more worried about gains and losses.

Maybe she thinks I have invested too much emotional energy in other women and is not sure whether I will be nice to her in the future or just have sex with her.

So, Bian Jing needs me to express my love for her clearly, and just like her love for me

Looking at her extremely pure eyes, my heart softened again

She loves me as pure water without any impurities, as if a breeze from ancient times has been endless, as if a cold spring from the deep sea has come from a cold sea

She has no desires and no desires for me, she does not expect me to be a marquis and generals, she does not expect me to be rich and noble

She has her own wishes, but she will not impose her wishes on me and put a lot of pressure on me.

She just hopes that I love her is fine. It's simple and the only requirement.

I love you

When she heard me say it, her eyes immediately emitted a dazzling light!

Jump up and hug me tightly

I saw a tear she had fallen for me

I seemed to be back in my dream. In the dream, I owe her a tear and never returned it to her for three lifetimes.

In this life, I will return it to her, otherwise I will die with my eyes open!

I love you

I will love you forever!

Really? Forever? Until the day I die?

Yes, sure, I will die with you if you die. If you want to live, live happily together!

So, I will be your girlfriend in the next life, okay?

OK, I don’t want anyone in the next life. I just wait for you alone, I want you alone!

Really, then I will be dying of happiness! I will still be a virgin in my next life, so I will give you my first time!

Don't talk about the next life, even in tens of thousands of years, I will ask you to be my girlfriend

Well, I listen to you and only serve you as a girlfriend. I love you so much! …

I can't remember what happened later. We said a lot of enthusiastic and sincere words to each other. If time can stop, if the earth can stop rotating, if it can go back to the past, if the world will no longer change, I am willing to stay with Bian Jing forever forever at that moment.

In the days since then, I would say to Bian Jing every day. She became happy when she heard me say this every day. She was just sleeping with me except for going to work.

My condition has been delayed, and the aminotransferase is always around 200. I am in a bad mood. If she hadn't been with me, I would have been crazy

One day, Bian Jing's mother came to see me, and Bian Jing was there. The mother and daughter talked for a while. Bian Jing asked Bian Jing to go out for a while and said she wanted to talk to me. Bian Jing walked out obediently.

Mother Bian asked about my condition kindly and comforted me for a while

Then said: Mr. Xie...

I hurriedly brought a glass of water to my mother Bian and said: Just call me Xiao Xie

Bian's mother took the water and smiled and said: Xiao Xie, you have been dating Ajing for more than a year.

I nodded and said: Yes, it's been a year and three months

Mother Bian suddenly pulled her face down and said: Ajing is still a child, she is not very sensible. Do you often annoy you?

I said: No, we have a good relationship

Mother Bian said slowly: Then why do I always see A Jing crying secretly? Xiao Xie, if you think A Jing is not bad, you should treat her well and never hurt her...

Mom Bian made a gesture to tell me not to interrupt. She took a sip of water and her tone was a little calmer, and said: You probably know the affairs of Ajing’s father and I. I’m just like this in my life. I don’t want my daughter to be as grateful as me. I think you must have experienced a lot. Ajing is too simple. You have to be wholeheartedly dedicated to her, and never let her down on her feelings for you.

I blushed for a long time and sincerely assured to Bian's mother: Aunt, don't worry, I will treat Ajing wholeheartedly! I will never let you down!

Bian's mother said lightly: Well, maybe I'm doing this for nothing. There's no way. I'm just a silly daughter. She looks very much like me. I haven't educated her well. I've never let her know about many dark things in this world. Maybe I'm wrong. But I think you are more experienced in society than her. I hope you can take care of her for the rest of your life and not let her go my old path. After that, Bian [** has been blocked**] Her eyes turned red, and she turned her back and wiped her tears.

I felt very guilty and quickly said a long and unwavering confession to Bian Jing.

A smile gradually appeared on Mother Bian's face and said: I'll be relieved if you say this. I can also see that you are a responsible man. I believe you

After saying that, my mother called Bian Jing and accompanied her to go home.

I kept sending them and their daughter to the outside of the hospital gate

Back at the ward, I called Lao Fan: Lao Fan, Ajing's mother came just now

Lao Fan immediately understood and said: Is it because he is coming to ask for punishment? You, please calm down after you recover from the illness and drive away all your lovers! Forget it! It is best to get married immediately!

I said: Damn! I think so, isn't this good?!

Lao Fan said: I dare to issue a military order, your disease will definitely be cured!

I couldn't help laughing: Haha, if it doesn't work, you come to see me with the head!

Lao Fan smiled and said: It’s nothing if it’s not good. You young couples don’t work so hard when they go to the room in the future, hahahaha!

Lao Fan always hit the nail on the head, and I smiled bitterly and said: I don’t dare to think about this now, I’m worried about when the root cause of this disease can be removed, damn! Isn’t it harmful to drag it so hard that I’m sorry for others.

Lao Fan said in a tough tone: If you don’t marry her, you will harm her! Do you understand?

I understand this simple truth

The next day, after Bian Jing got off work, I went to my ward and asked her: Do you always cry on my back?

Bian Jing blushed, her mouth flattened, and said: Yes, you always bully me, and you are so fickle, I am even more bitter than Qin Xianglian. Her personality is so cheerful and straightforward, and she never pretends to be deep

I asked again: Have you told your mother about my past?

Bian Jing snorted and said: I won’t tell my mother about those messy things about you, but I’m relieved.

Bian Jing stretched out her slender jade finger, tapped on my head, and said: If you bully me in the future, I will ignore you forever! Humph! You have to remember, what I said is true!

I laughed and carried her to my lap and said: OK, will I follow you from now on

The border said in a sweet voice: OK OK, OK, you will be a good little lamb from now on... Oh, why are you touching again? Look at you, it's not that you can't touch it anymore. She jumped up and dodged my hand. I hopped at her and said with a smile: I need comfort.

She jumped onto the bed, then jumped from the other side of the bed to the ground, giggling and said: No, you are a patient now, wait for you to get well, I promise to serve you well in the future, haha, just stay honestly for a while...

We were like children playing with eagles catching chickens. The room was fluttering for a long time. I finally stopped and the two of us sat together quietly. She stroked my face and asked me gently: Do you really want to do it?

I was a little embarrassed and said: No, I can stand it

She held my face, kissed my forehead, and said: I want to have sex with you too, and life will be long in the future. I will be with you all my life and will be your person for the rest of my life.

I also held her face, kissed her forehead, and said: I love you

She said: Can you love me for the rest of your life

I said: I love you for the rest of my life

Bian Jing leaned her head on my shoulder, sighed softly, and said: Alas Wave Wave Wave Wave, do you know that you are a man I really love. I fell in love with you since I saw your photos online.

Then you didn't want to see me at first

Oh, aren't they just pretending to be an air? You don't even understand this

You little villain, you dragged me for so long

Didn’t I promise you soon? And I went to bed with you when I first met. At that time, I thought I must be with you. I would be unforgettable to give my body to you that night.

Yes, does it feel that good

Yes, I have never been so impulsive to a man. I have encountered a handsome man chasing me before. I didn't give it to them, just gave it to you. You have to cherish me, have you heard

Well, I will cherish you very much

You also want to promise me that you will not sleep with other women in the future, including Song Min, have you heard?

I promise!

You and Song Min are still good friends, but you can't go to bed. If I know I will be sad, she said and she cried a little.

Don't worry! I hugged her a little tighter

I will never pursue your past again. I will be wholehearted towards you in the future. If you make mistakes again, I will leave you forever and go to a place you will never find, which will make you regret it for the rest of your life.

My heart shook for a moment, and suddenly I felt that if I couldn't see her from now on, I would die

This feeling has never been done before, even when I was in love with Song Min the most passionately

I have met countless very beautiful women, and have had many girlfriends, but I don’t feel this way.

I used to be afraid that once Bian Jing was let down, she would go to a dead end, but now I feel that it would make me more painful for her to leave me!

She is the only woman I love in my life. It should be this feeling that life and death are as light as a feather. Losing a lover and despising himself is a big deal that collapses and breaks the world.

Bian Jing turned her head to look at me, and asked me with a proud smile: Are you afraid that I will leave you?

We are so spiritually connected. She knows everything I think. I said: You are really a little roundworm in my belly.

She giggled: If you don’t know your heart, how can I be your wife in the future

I pretended to sigh and said: Oh, Wave, Wave, I have no choice but to mess around in the future, you can see through everything

As we were talking, suddenly someone knocked on the door gently, and then the door opened. Dr. Wang, who was cold-faced and cold-mouthed, walked in with a medical record. We quickly separated our hands, and Bian Jing's face turned red to her neck.

Dr. Wang pretended that he didn't see it and said in a stern tone: Mr. Xie, you can be discharged from the hospital.

I used to ask him when I could be discharged from the hospital. He always ignored me and said that I would just go home and take care of him.

It seems that not only do I have no hope for my condition, but he is also the attending doctor.

I think he came to inform me of being discharged from the hospital, which means that my condition has stabilized. I can get out early and save him from looking at me.

I asked him lazily: Will I come here for a review in the future? I heard that I usually have to undergo a review once every six months after being discharged from the hospital.

Doctor Wang said with a stern look: No, you are completely well

I didn't react for a moment and asked: What does it mean?

He said: Your virus is gone, all three positives and all three positives have turned negative, and antibodies have also been produced. As long as you pay attention to protecting yourself in the future, you will not get hepatitis B again

I strode towards him in ecstasy, stretched out my hands and hugged his shoulders tightly, stared at his eyes and asked: What did you say?! Is it true?! I'm completely fine?!

Dr. Wang smiled a little bit, full of pedanticism, and said kindly: Yes, you are very lucky. I have repeatedly used a variety of new drugs to give you physical therapy. I didn’t expect that I would get unexpected gains. Take care of myself in the future!

marvelous!

Bian Jing also jumped up, patted her hands and ran to Dr. Wang, held his hand and shook it hard and said: Thank you so much Dr. Wang! I want to remember you for the rest of my life! You are my great benefactor!

Dr. Wang smiled even happier and said too much. He said modestly: I didn't do anything, Mr. Xie's condition is very strange. It is usually not cured, and it cannot be cured so completely. I am writing an article to prepare his case as my doctoral thesis.

My tears almost flowed out!

The hardships of two months have finally come to an end!

I hugged Dr. Wang for a while, and Bian Jing also hugged Dr. Wang.

Doctor Wang blushed, pushed her away very gentlemanly, and said sincerely: I wish you two happiness. After saying that, he looked at me meaningfully, patted my shoulder, and turned around and took him to the door and left.

Bian Jing and I hugged each other for a long time, and our lips were glued together and kissed passionately for a long time!

Bian Jing was even more excited than me and started crying. Her tears were all over my face. I coaxed her, kissed her tears, held her tightly in my arms, and stroked her long hair.

At this moment, we are so happy! It seems that the two of us have joined together again for one person, and my tears and her tears have melted together...