Chapter 40

I was afraid that Wenwen would get pregnant, so I didn't dare to ask her to have sex with me.

For me, although the game that Wenwen and I experienced at night had been wandering on the edge of insertion several times, I still didn't dare to do it because I was afraid that Wenwen would get pregnant.

I also told me that during that period, as long as Wenwen could help me masturbate like this, I felt very happy, and there was nothing in dissatisfied.

Although we have never really loved each other and she just helped me masturbate with her hands, she is still afraid that others will know about it.

Brother... I'm still very scared... I'm afraid that someone will know...

Wenwen once told me this.

That night, I showed Wenwen the A-film, and her glans boldly pressed against her underwear and ejaculated. Later, after she came out of the bathroom, she smelled a smelly face for me.

But because of this situation I've experienced it several times, I tried to make her laugh that night, and finally she smiled again.

When I was going to school the next day, because Wenwen had never seen A-film before, I specially put those A-film on the bed in the room and didn't put them away.

Because I guessed that maybe she would want to watch a few more movies, so she didn't collect them, so she was interested and watched them if she wanted to.

Sure enough, when I came home from school at night, the film had signs of passiveness.

That night, I didn't go to her to say anything, nor did I ask her to masturbate anymore, because I did so intensely when I watched the movie with her last night. Then I wanted to have a lot of desire, and it would take a few days to go.

Those days at school, my classmates who borrowed my A-film didn't say anything, and didn't ask me if it was good or not.

Anyway, men, everyone is tacitly aware of it.

In fact, watching A-movie that night not only had an impact on Wenwen, but also on my inner heart.

I kept thinking about the night I watched the A-movie, and finally hit her vagina with my glans, and it felt like I was slightly sunk.

And thinking about all the wet and warm feelings coming from her vagina the night she raped her.

But I know that this is not a feeling I can experience again.

Such a situation is very dangerous...

Then, I thought Wenwen should have finished watching those A-movies and brought them to school to return them to her friends.

I only watched that movie when I was with Wenwen that night, and I didn’t watch anything else.

Because I watched too much when I was a child, I didn’t want to see it.

My friends were talking about serious things, but later after I took out the A-movie and returned it to him, they started talking about such erotic topics again.

I just listened to them quietly until one of my friends said: I considered putting a condom on my body so that I would have it anytime when needed in the future.

Then a group of friends joked and said that he would never have a chance in his life, otherwise he would just use the tape that would contain things instead, and then the group of people laughed and made a fuss.

But because of his words, I suddenly remembered the existence of condoms again...

It's really funny to say. I don't know why, I forgot this thing a few months ago.

Maybe it is because in my heart, love and pregnancy are the same noun, and coupled with the profound experience I have never used, I can't think about it.

At that time, I really discovered that if I had a condom, it would be okay even if I loved Wenwen.

However, I also instinctively knew that Wenwen could not agree so simply.

Because for girls, love is a very in-depth behavior. To let boys' penis enter the body completely, it is not just a superficial way of hugging, but also a concern for pregnancy, so it will definitely make it difficult for her to agree...

But I also made this discovery, and I have been eager to really love Wenwen over the past few months, so I started to have a very strong desire to buy a condom from now on.

That night when I passed by 7-11 near my home after school, I saw the sign from afar and began to struggle.

Should I really buy a condom?

After all, buying it doesn’t mean that Wenwen will really love me.

What's more, what if I make this statement with Wenwen, and I mess up the current good situation?

But in the end, I couldn't help but succumb to reason, shut down the motorcycle and parked it on the side of the road and walked in.

At that time, I was still telling myself that no matter what, buying a condom with me would really not be a bad thing.

Great, don't ask Wenwen to love you forever...

I walked into the store and immediately walked to the counter for household goods. I immediately saw the men's condom box displayed on the shelf.

At that time, I was so nervous and struggling.

Because I bought the condom, I really seemed to say that I was going to love Wenwen.

At that time, I also had a very strange idea. Although I knew it was an illusion, I couldn't help but think that everyone in the store was looking at me and knew that I wanted to buy a condom.

At that time, I felt that the longer I stood, the more I would pay attention to my eyes.

It was also because of this that I made me make up my mind and quickly picked up a condom from the shelf.

But I was still a little guilty inside. In order to cover up, I specially took many other snacks or daily necessities in the store.

In fact, these things are not necessary to spend, but because they are embarrassed and shy, they can’t help but take a bunch of them, thinking that they don’t want to be so obvious when checking out.

But to be honest, for the clerk, they didn't care at all when checking out the condom, and they were more likely to have seen each other for a long time, so they quickly checked out with the condom and threw it aside to continue checking out other items with the forging chain.

At that time, I felt a little breath and began to feel sorry for spending money on other things that I didn't need to use.

No matter what, at least you have already bought the condom, then you will decide what to do next...

I returned home nervously and saw Wenwen in the living room, not even knowing how to face her.

I threw all the other snacks I bought to her and said I wanted to give them to her.

Wenwen saw bags of snacks falling from the sky, and she smiled happily when she said she wanted to give them to her.

That night, I hesitated after returning to my room, and struggled again.

Finally, I didn't tell her that day...

The next day, I was still struggling, and I didn't know whether I should say that I wanted to love her in front of Wenwen...

Sometimes, the evolution of the situation is really beyond our control.

After all, if it were a week ago, I would never have expected this situation today.

At that time, I thought that if I didn't say it, I might really miss the opportunity.

It also reminds me of the coma potion left in the drawer.

But I also know that I can never use this potion again, because it is not something I can use again.

If I use that potion to Wenwen again, I will never forgive me if I know she will never forgive me again.

Wenwen must have felt the difference in my days, just looking at her expression.

But she might have thought I was struggling to masturbate with her again. The most amazing thing was that she was doing something like the night she watched the A-movie, so she didn't say anything.

Until the third day, I knew that this was not a solution, so I struggled to the extreme. It happened that day was another holiday, and I was at home with Wenwen all day, so I finally made up my mind to put the condom in my pocket and ran to the living room to find her.

Since you are going to die from the horizontal and vertical directions, then just click a knife. After all, long pain is worse than short pain...

Wenwen was watching TV at that time. When she saw me suddenly running into the living room, she looked at me calmly again.

Wenwen││Would you do well with me?She couldn't understand at that time and thought I finally made up my mind to ask her to help me masturbate, so I quickly added: It's not like before... I love me...

When I told her clearly and clearly, she was stunned on the spot.

And I feel the ease finally saying it.

┅┅Brother, don’t, you also said you will get pregnant...

I knew Wenwen would say this with concern, so I was prepared to take out the condom from my pocket.

My breasts won't get pregnant, I bought a condom...

At that moment, Wenwen looked at me in disbelief and the condom I was holding.

I won't get pregnant if I use condoms, and I have forgotten that I can use this before.Is it okay?

She stayed there for a while, but still no response, but my heart was pounding because of the tension.

At that time, I continued to tell her that she would not get pregnant if she used this.

Then a few minutes later, she decided to ignore me, so she left the sofa expressionlessly, walked past me and walked back to her room immediately.

That day, she completely avoided me, locked herself in the room, and let me say nothing outside the door.

But her way of doing this made me feel more excited from my nervousness to achieve my goal.

In addition, I had already understood and said it at that time, and I really felt like I was liberated.

That is after that night, the fire of desire in my heart was ignited fiercely again and began to get out of control...

The next morning, I deliberately got up earlier than her, and I pestered her before she was about to go out to school. I kept telling her that it was safe to use condoms, and that it was not going well after the A-film.

But she still had a cold face and refused to respond to me, and then went out to school.

I didn't go to school that night, and lied to the school that I was sick, just waiting for her to come home from school.

To put it bluntly, I could really say that desire was rushing to my mind at that time.

Finally, Wenwen returned home in the evening, and she hid in the room immediately. Then I started to convince her again, but she was still completely unwilling to pay attention to me.

At the end of the talk, I even told her that in ancient Egyptians, they were intermarried by brothers and sisters, and the same was true for Chinese Mongolians. Now some relatively remote villages in the world still have the custom of intermarried by brothers and sisters. I wanted to convince her, but she still did not respond.

The next day, because I couldn't keep asking for leave from the school, I went to the school obediently at night.

During those days, I kept trying to convince her, but I didn’t respond.

This is really the first time I feel like I'm kicking from Wenwen to a stubborn card.

No matter what I said, she ignored me and did not respond to me.

She can still accept it by simply masturbating with her hands or rubbing through her underwear, but having sex is really the bottom line that she doesn't want to surpass casually, and it should be like this for girls.

At that time, I really felt that it was like I was back to the awkward period before, and all these mistakes were caused by myself, so no one else could blame.

But because of this, I want to achieve my goal even more...

I still remember that it was already December, and my birthday happened to be in early December, so I thought that I might use this to tell Wenwen.

Wenwen, it will be my brother’s birthday in a few days.

Every year, we will give each other a small gift on each other's birthday.

There is no explicit regulation between each other, and I can't remember when it started, and it gradually becomes a kind of silence.

I still remember at the beginning, Wenwen gave me a birthday card and I gave her a cute animal doll.

And now, it’s a bit like the insignificant pornographic novels or comics I’ve read. I really hope Wenwen loves me on my birthday.

Even at that time, I really wanted to do it, and I always thought that as long as I kept asking her, she would agree.

Looking back now, there is nothing I can do. At that time, I was too young and a boy who was overwhelmed by hormones and desires, it was difficult for him to have rationality in his head.

Is it good to treat breast milk as a birthday gift to my brother?Anyway, the milk won't be so good.

I kept telling her again, and started telling her that if she had sex with her condom, she would not get pregnant, and would not do anything after love.

Wenwen, just like that, okay?

Finally, Wenwen, who has been dealing with the cold face for the past few days, finally responded.

But I didn't expect that she would respond like this...

┅Brother, you are too much!!You really hate it!!

For me, this is the most serious sentence Wenwen scolded me.

It is precisely because she rarely scolds people that she can feel the disgust of her words more.

At that time, when she scolded her like this, she really couldn't help but feel very gloomy and sad.

This is really like a wake-up call, making me speechless for a long time.

Unconsciously, for the desire in my heart that I can never satisfy, I became the person I hate...

It was also since that sentence that I did not pester Wenwen anymore, asking her to love me, or asking her to help me masturbate...

I started to calm down and felt very sad...

On my birthday, I was taken to the street stalls by my enthusiastic friends as birthday gifts, so I went home more than an hour later than usual.

At 11:30, I saw that the lights in Wenwen's room had gone out and she should have been sleeping, so I decided not to disturb her.

I went back to my room, put down my backpack that was carrying my books, turned on the ceiling light, and saw a cute pale pink card envelope on my computer keyboard.

I know that even if the situation has become like this now and she is unwilling to talk to me, Wenwen still has not forgotten my birthday and is still willing to give me a birthday card.

And I still keep this card in stock even a few years later, and sometimes I will open it to read it when I think of it.

I walked over, picked it up, lifted the envelope from behind and took out the card inside, and smelled the slight smell of perfume floating out.

Not only does it smell like perfume, but also has a faint fragrance of Wenwen.

The cards inside are not folded, with only one piece of paper on one side, just as small as an envelope, with two cute little rabbits leaning against the small cake with candles on the front, and a big red birthday printed in English below.

Sometimes, I think the two apple rabbits above are me and Wenwen.

From childhood to adulthood, we always leaned together so closely, trusted and relied on each other...

I turned the card to the back, and there were Wenwen's delicate words on the blank and clean surface.

She wrote in the first line:

Brother, 19 years old HappyBirthday”

I still remember myself at that time, and I couldn't help but smile. I felt that the blessings and warmth my sister wanted to convey to me were all entered into my heart.

Winter is coming, be careful not to catch a cold. "I hope you can have good health and health every day"

Then she wrote some more words in the middle, like an old mother and a wife, hoping that I would get rid of many minor problems in life such as biting my nails.

Finally, she specifically notes

PS: Although you have been really too annoying these days, you will always be my brother──”

Maybe she also felt the harm you brought to me too much, so she told me like this.

You will always be my brother... It's Ah. No matter what, I will always be her brother, and she will always be my only and most beloved sister...

At that time, I really regretted that I had always made such excessive demands on Wenwen's body and moral sense.

She has always been such a well-behaved and understanding girl, I am really...

With all my touch and apology, I walked to her room and knocked on the door, but she still didn't respond to me.

After about ten seconds, I knocked again, but she still didn't respond.

I knew she did not answer me on purpose, so I decided to tell her like this: Wenwen, my brother has a card to see the milk.I'm very happy, thank you... I'm going to apologize to my breasts too. I'm sorry, my brother won't be bothering me anymore, that's it... Good night.

Then, I stood at her door for a few more seconds, but she still didn't respond, so I turned around and left...

I still remember that I went to get my clothes, then went into the bathroom to put water in the bathtub, and locked the door and started taking a shower.

At first I was washing my hair, and halfway through, I suddenly heard a few knocks on the bathroom door.

I knew it was Wenwen, so I answered her.

Wenwen?

At the beginning, she didn't answer.I called her name again, but she still didn't respond.

At that time, I suddenly thought that she wanted to go to the bathroom, but because she still didn't want to talk to me, she didn't answer.

Wenwen, does your breasts want to go to the bathroom?My hair is almost washed.

It was finally difficult, but I heard her answer.

┅┅Brother, then she fell into a brief pause before she said again.

┅┅Are you leaving?

When I heard her say this, I realized that she thought the apology I just apologized to her was to inform her to leave, so I began to worry that I would leave her.

Wenwen, brother will never leave his breasts, don’t worry.I just wanted to apologize to my breasts because I shouldn't have been asking for breasts too much like this.

Then, there was another silence.

┅┅Brother.

What's up?

Brother, do you really want that?

She suddenly asked this, and at that time I really didn't know how to respond to her.

Because I suddenly realized that it might be because I apologized to her just now, and she was worried that I would leave, so I couldn't bear to continue rejecting me and changed my mind because of this.

My conscience was also telling me at that time that I should tell her that I don’t want it. After all, she is my real sister, but my love and desire for her are just unable to agree.

When a man falls in love with a woman, in addition to loving her, he also hopes to possess everything in her body and make the body and mind completely unite.

I believe that every man can understand...

But at that time, my already meager sense of morality felt so powerful.

So I couldn't tell her that I wanted it very much, but I couldn't tell her not to.

So in the end, I just said "very simple".

Then, there was another silence that was unspeakable...

┅┅Do you have to do this?But you are my brother Ah┅┅We can’t do this at all┅┅┅┅

Wenwen, because I really love milk, I really hope to be like milk. Can milk experience my pain?

┅┅You are really sure that won’t be what?

It is absolutely impossible to get pregnant if you have a condom, and no one will know about it.

Then, after waiting for a while, she finally said: I will go to school these days... Wait for this Saturday night... But it's really only this time... Happy birthday.

I listened to her leaving footsteps, and my heart was filled with unspeakable joy and gratitude...