Chapter 42

During that time, not only Wenwen was worried, but I was also nervous.

The pressure of being afraid of getting pregnant is really not comparable to that of ordinary things.

She was so depressed at home at night that she almost never saw her smile, as if she had a burden on her heart.

But she never blamed me, and still believed that the condom fell off accidentally, and maybe Wenwen couldn't blame me because I was her only brother after all.

Therefore, I felt very painful and regretful, and I didn’t even know what expression to face her, so I could only try to do something that would make her smile when she was in a bad mood.

But in fact, these actions are of no use to each other's mood...

During that time, I thought carefully what I should do if Wenwen is really pregnant?

To bring a life to this world, it is not just about having sex after going to bed and having it casually.

We must know and be responsible for the responsibility for this little life and the teaching and raising of this child.

What's more, children with blood relatedness will have many diseases in their physical condition.

Therefore, if there was a small life in her belly, even if the child was innocent, we would never be able to come to this world... because what was left to him was not only the inevitable illness and premature death, but also the strange eyes of the world.

More than a week later, Wenwen walked into my room and smiled relievedly and told me that her period was coming, which made me feel relieved.

I felt so heartwarming when I saw a completely relaxed smile back on her face.

In addition, knowing that she is not pregnant really made me so happy that I couldn't help but hug her.

After performing the rituals of Duke Zhou, in terms of ancient customs, they were already husband and wife.

The so-called: "If you can cross the same boat after ten years of cultivation, you can sleep together after a hundred years of cultivation.'I believe Wenwen must be somewhat conscious.

Since then, Wenwen and I have become more invisibly closer, and she seems to be more considerate to me.

Before going to school in the morning, I would sometimes dig me out of bed and keep telling me who was sleepy that I asked me not to send my parents back to us for a random amount of living expenses, have a good dinner before going to school, or ask me to be careful when I come back from a bike at night, or even ask me not to run around with my friends after school, go home early, and then sweetly say goodbye to me to go to school.

I was really confused for a while. She would never be so silly to me. To this end, she cared about me like she had become a yellow-faced woman.

Perhaps what they are right is that when a woman has a man and is not a man she hates or hates, she will definitely change because of this.

Whether it is said that maternal love is inspired or that the tenderness of women is emitted, this is true.

But to be honest, I am also very happy, because this is also the first time in my life when I feel intimately cared for. After all, maternal love and gentle care are already very distant memories for me and Wenwen...

At that time, I was in a very good mood at school and my friends could feel it.

At the beginning, they didn’t say anything to me or ask anything, but someone could no longer bear it, so they asked me directly: Have you made a girlfriend?I seem to be in a good mood recently.

At that time, I didn't know how to respond to them, so I could only say simply: It's Ah.

Then they kept asking me which girl I was?

Which class of girls are they?

Or where did you know?

I didn't answer them, just smiled.

Because I know that the answer is not that they can accept it, nor is it something I can say easily.

So after they pestered me for a few days, they knew that I would never say anything, so they calmed down again and stopped asking me more.

I came home from school at night, and if I found out that she wasn't asleep, I would go to find her.

Actually, nothing happened, but suddenly I wanted to see her, care about her, and know that she was living a good life today.

Therefore, I became more often to look for Wenwen. Just like she treated me, I also wanted to convey my smile to the depths of her heart and stay with her forever.

It’s strange that sex was no longer important to me at that time.

It’s because occasionally there is a desire to have sexual desire again. It’s right, but I just don’t want to find Wenwen again, as if I don’t want to hurt her, but I’m willing to solve it with my hands.

Things changed again, just after Wenwen and I experienced the night of love, we came to Christmas Eve...

I heard that girls always like Valentine's Day and Christmas Eve.

Maybe it's because it feels very romantic, so I can't resist this day.

So I began to worry, should I express something to Wenwen on Christmas Eve?

But after thinking about it, I still felt that it didn't matter, so I went to find her.

┅┅Wenwen?A few days later, will there be something wrong with milk that night?

I originally thought that if there was no classmate asking her out and was willing to accompany me, I would ask her if she wanted to go and take her to play.

But unexpectedly, she looked at me and immediately knew what I wanted to say to her.

Perhaps, she already had the idea of ​​being with me on Christmas Eve.

She showed the girl's unique pure and shy smile: Brother, can you accompany me to go shopping?I have something to buy.

On Christmas Eve, I still remember that because it was not a national holiday, the night school did not have a holiday, so I had to ask for leave from the school.

I know that I have taken leave a little more, but because night schools are always loose, not to mention that I don’t take leave once every three days, so the teacher didn’t say much.

But I think there should be many people asking for leave that night, after all, everyone must know what to do when taking leave that night.

I was waiting for Wenwen to come home at home, but finally waited until she came home, but I still went into my room to put down my schoolbag and take off my coat.

I didn't destroy her because she must remember going out with me tonight on Christmas Eve, so I let her slowly change clothes or make-up in the room.

I thought it would be too late to change my clothes after ten minutes. Unexpectedly, Wenwen just changed her casual clothes and walked out in a few minutes. Instead, she was urging me to change my clothes quickly and go out...

Before this, she didn't tell me where I was going, and I didn't ask her, but I still took her out, and there was no need to ask her along the way.

I know too well where she would want me to accompany her. I think that's all that is the so-called couple.

There is nothing to say about this, it is just the word "simple tacit understanding".

In addition, we have grown up intimately since childhood, so it is not difficult to guess each other’s thoughts.

Wenwen talked and laughed to me along the way, telling me what happened in school that day, what happened to her friends, or some of them.

It feels like I am closer to her life and sharing her joy, but in fact, this is still her own life and I will never really step into it.

But for me, as long as I can listen to her share with me like this, I will be satisfied...

When we arrived in Ximending, we were still walking shoulder to shoulder, among the crowd.

When I look at the passionate couple in front of me, I always feel a little lonely.

Maybe Wenwen is by my side, but I know that we can never hold hands in front of everyone like ordinary couples without fear.

We are brothers and sisters, with the same blood flowing on our bodies and similar appearances, which is a fact that can never be erased.

Perhaps in front of others, we just look like our brother and sister are shopping together, and we won’t think too much, but I just can’t forget this, as if the eyes on the street are looking at me, and we all know what happened before...

Such pressure is terrifying and irresistible.

People who have never experienced this will never experience such pain and sadness.

In many shops selling small dolls or cute gadgets, Wenwen always goes in one by one, and when she sees something she likes, she will happily show it to me and ask me if I am adorable.

Sometimes she would buy it, sometimes she wouldn't, and sometimes she would start bargaining with her boss.

That night, she pulled me to a western restaurant in the basement near Lailai Department Store.

That store seems to be called Yimian. I wonder if it still exists now?

If Wenwen hadn't led me in, I really wouldn't have known that this store exists in this place.

I should like the Italian noodles here, and my friend who has been with me before also said it was delicious.

She knew that I liked eating Italian noodles, so she smiled and told me, and I could only respond with a smile.

I still remember that this store has a good decoration and is divided into smoking areas and non-smoking areas. This kind of store was rare several years ago.

Michael Jacksn's MTV video was played on TV, but it was not something related to Christmas Eve, so it also impressed me.

I ordered the pasta and a drink, and then found a two-person table in the corner with Wenwen, sat face to face, and started dining.

┅What's wrong with you?

I still remember that I was asked by Wenwen after I was halfway through the meal.

I looked up at her. Wenwen had already put down the spoon and fork in her hand, and looked at me with sad expressions.

┅┅Do you think it’s boring to go out with me?

I don't know how to go shopping with my breasts.

Then why don’t you speak or smile today?

I didn't answer her, just looked back at her.

Wenwen looked at me and knew that I didn't want to answer her, so she lowered her head quietly and silently continued to eat.

But I could feel that invisibly, I had hurt her and each other...

After we used up that meal, we walked out shoulder to shoulder again.

But the difference is that I don’t want to see her sad.

Wenwen's sad expression was constantly hurting my heart.

Finally, I reached out and gently hugged her shoulders from behind, just like countless couples on the road did for each other...

Wenwen turned to look at me, but she didn't say anything.

I looked at her, believing that she already knew what I wanted to say, with all the painful feelings in my heart.

There is no reason, and there is no need for why.

Because, I saw a warm smile appearing on her face again...