Chapter 31

I am a person who is very good at dreaming when sleeping, but I was tired of crying and sleeping without dreaming.

I think it is because I know deep down that I will lose my beloved woman forever, and all my future dreams will be shattered...

Someone once said: People are great because of their dreams.But I can't see any dazzling light in front of me, only endless loneliness and pain.

"Tama said: My brother, don't insult me."If the Israelites do not do this, do not do this ugly thing; if you insult me, how can I hide my shame?You have become a fool in Israel...

'But Annen refused to listen to her, and because she was stronger than her, she insulted her and slept with her...

"Your sisters, whether they are half-fathers or half-mothers, must not defile them, whether they are born at home or outside. In all these things, you shall not defile yourself; for I defile yourself in all these things, and therefore I shall pursue the sins of the land, and the land expels His inhabitants. No matter who does one of the abominable things, they must be cut off from the people. Therefore, keep what I command, lest you follow the abominable evils, which are always done by those who have come before you, and to defile yourself. 』

Whenever I read these many passages of the Bible, I always feel a palpitation.

Isn’t this me at that time?

Me full of sin?

But combined with the dozens of minutes of our body and mind, I don’t have so many guilty feelings, all full of endless desires and needs in my heart.

Why can't all this be like the Egyptian myth: "Your sister Aess is here."You are happy, you love.You put her on top of you and entered her.Aess grew older because of having children...

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Perhaps, for me, this is a dream that will never wake up...

In the hazy, it was not disturbing loudly, nor any movement, but it was like telepathy, and I woke up slowly.

At that time, I didn't know what time it was, and I only heard the silent sounds, as if the world had returned to the most primitive peace, the world was silent, time and emotions had turned into illusory shadows and never really existed.

Then, I heard a faint sound coming into my ears, like a wave of uninterrupted.

I knew what that sound was, and she was calling me to seek my protection and support.

I immediately got up from the bed, walked out, and walked into Wenwen's room without hesitation.

I saw her sitting on her bed straight, tears still flowing on her face.

┅┅Wenwen, have you had a nightmare again?

She looked at me at that time, and was a little surprised that I would suddenly appear.

I walked towards her, and she still wiped away the tears quickly.

She didn't say anything to me, but when she looked at her, I knew she had returned to peace and I could no longer do anything for him... Just when I was about to turn around and leave, I didn't expect her to suddenly break the silence and speak: Brother... Are you really going to leave?

When she suddenly asked, I was really stupid at that time.

I looked at her, wondering what she was asking?

Is it something I'm leaving now when I see that she has no nightmare?

Or something I'm leaving in the future?

No matter what she asked, I know that any answer will only remind me of a painful future, a future without her around me.

So I didn't respond to her and wanted to go out again, but she spoke again, and I couldn't help but stop...

Since I was a child, I have always dreamed that I was the only one in the dark, and there was nothing... I couldn't find my father, my mother, and you... I was so scared...

Then, I watched Wenwen's eyes shed tears again and wiped the tears with my hands.

For many years, I had no idea what nightmare she had, so she was so scared.

At that moment, I knew that I had entered the depths of her heart, with the most feared thing in her heart for many years.

I don’t know if there are any brothers and sisters like us in this world?

I have lived together since I was a child, as if I was forgotten by my parents who only know how to work. I need the other party so much, so afraid of being abandoned by the other party, and so need the other party’s support?

Maybe there is...

But no one loves her like me...

If this is an impossible dream, I hope that the day I wake up from the dream will never come, so that I can always be in her heart.

If this is my sin, my punishment, I hope that the day that ends will never come, so that I can love her as much as possible.

But...