Chapters 75-76

My father was obviously stunned by the behavior of our mother and son. After a brief shock, he hurried over to persuade the fight. The two of us were too disturbed and directly alarmed the hospital leaders and security guards. If my father hadn't stopped him, the hospital would have called 110. The result was that my mother was pulled and dragged out of the hospital by my father. I talked to the attending doctor about my grandmother's condition on the premise of ensuring restraint to the hospital.

The doctor told me that my grandma's condition was caused by the sudden deterioration of the original condition, and there were many reasons for the deterioration. In addition to her own underlying disease, the situation this time was indeed quite dangerous.

Actually, I told your parents about this situation a few days ago. If you want to treat it, our hospital will definitely cooperate fully...

Of course it needs to be cured!I said it loudly before the doctor could finish it.

Don’t worry, I understand your filial piety to your elders as a junior, but the elderly can only use various medicines to maintain their vital signs first, and they are still not optimistic in the future.

Doctor, I don’t mean that I don’t believe in the medical level of county hospitals, but I have an idea.

you say.

If I took my grandma to Shanghai for medical treatment, would there be a better result?I asked.

The doctor fell into deep thought and thought for a while before answering. From an objective perspective, I don’t recommend that the old man go to Shanghai by car for 1,800 kilometers. The negative impact of the tossing on this road may be greater. Of course, this is just my personal idea. I suggest you discuss it with your parents.

When I said this, my heart skipped a beat and then asked, "By the way, doctor, let me ask, what do my parents think about my grandma's follow-up treatment?"

The doctor thought about it and said cautiously that your parents' attitudes actually tend to continue treatment, but after we talked about the relevant situation, your father's thoughts were a little swaying, but your mother was more reasonable and said she didn't want the elderly to suffer too much.

I sneered in my heart when I heard this. In fact, this is an excuse for giving up treatment. Although my father's attitude sounds more positive, I prefer to believe that this is just due to his indecisive personality, not out of concern for his mother.

After my father sent my mother away, he returned to the hospital. He was very calm, as if the shameful family farce just now had nothing to do with him. What I disliked the most since I was a child was that he always looked calm and looked down on everything.

Jinyan When will you go back to Ah?Your grandma doesn’t know what it will be like. Will this delay your work and life?

I gave him annoyed look and sneered, Humph, you all care about me very much. I haven't taken it seriously for a few days off. You guys take it more seriously than grandma's condition.

My father was not angry about my cold words, but just looked out the window and didn't speak. Looking at the deepening wrinkles in the corners of his eyes and the frosty white hair on his temples, I suddenly couldn't bear it, so I tried to change the topic.

By the way, when I came back last time, my grandma told me about the old house in Shanghai. Why have you never heard you mention it?

My father turned his head and looked at me, and smiled faintly. I really didn't take it seriously, but... he paused when he said this, as if he had thought of something.

But what?

Oh, that's right. I asked you to give the 100,000 yuan to Shunzi before. We knew you would have any ideas. Your mother thought about giving you the old house your grandmother said. You might be able to use it in Shanghai, which is considered a compensation for you. But I felt that it was a dozen or hundreds of years old. I didn't know if it could live in it. So I had no shame to tell you about it and wanted to tell you later. But after I came back, your mother's attitude changed. She didn't agree to give you the house no matter what she said. She said that we could live in Shanghai in the future. I really don't know what we were thinking.

I snorted coldly, hum, just thinking about thinking about grandma's things, and I don't know how to take good care of her.

My father looked at me with some shame, turned around and sighed softly on my back.

With the consent of the doctor and nurse, I walked into my grandma's ward alone, but she still didn't move as if she was asleep. The only evidence that she was still alive was the various beating curves on the life monitor. This was a middle-aged nurse who walked into the ward. She obviously didn't expect that there was someone standing silently beside the coma old lady. I smiled at her and watched her move quickly for her grandma.

Thank you for your hard work, sister.I said softly to her.

It's okay, it's all work.The middle-aged nurse said and turned around and left the ward.

I sighed lightly and walked out of the ward and closed the door.

Your grandma has no consciousness and can't eat, so she can only rely on making little things to maintain.My father obviously also saw the scene just now and explained to me.

I nodded in agreement.

You have been here for a long time in the morning. Go back and rest for a while. I will call you if you have any problems.said the father.

I looked at his face. Even though he used to avoid my eyes, I still captured the look of concern in his eyes at that moment. I swallowed back the words he used to rush to his mouth.

OK, why don’t you... go back to the hotel and sleep for a while, there are two beds anyway.I said.

My father shook his head, it's okay, I'm here to guard it, there is a escort bed in the ward. If I'm tired, I'll take a look.

I didn't insist, nodded and turned around and left. I went back to the hotel room to make up for a break. After waking up, the sky outside the window had darkened. I felt my heart was as empty as in my stomach. I subconsciously took out my cell phone and dialed my wife's phone. The beeping sound of the dialing phone kept ringing, just before reminding me that the sweet girl that no one answered it sounded...

Hello, husband.

What are you doing.

When I just got home, how are my grandma?And...how are you?Drive one night to the car.

Well, I went to see my grandma in the morning and didn’t realize it yet. I took a nap and it’s okay now, so I plan to go to the hospital for a look in the evening.

You have to take good care of yourself.The wife said yawned.

I couldn't help laughing. When was I tired at this moment?Then you have breakfast and have a rest.

OK, please call me any time if you have any situation.

OK

After saying that, I hung up the phone, and suddenly I thought of my recent surveillance of my cousin, so I picked up my phone and clicked on the video software. I saw that the anus in the middle of the screen kept flashing, but it was not connected. There may be two reasons for this. One is that the battery of the camera has been exhausted. After all, it has been more than two weeks since I installed it, and the claimed standby time has passed. The other reason may be that the distance is too far, causing the signal to be poor. In short, I can't see what is happening there, so I didn't try again. I just wanted to go out to eat something after exiting the software.

Just as I was about to go out, my cell phone rang. When I saw that it was my father calling, my heart jumped unconsciously, subconsciously refusing to answer the call, but I knew I had to answer the call.

Hello, dad.

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, and my heart was slowly falling.

You speak.My voice was trembling.

Alas... With a sigh, Jin Yan... Grandma is gone.

What?!Although I guessed the result, I couldn't accept it at all. Tears burst out from my eyes and couldn't say the following words.

I can't remember how I walked out of the hotel and returned to the hospital. I only remember my father standing at the door of the ward, staring blankly at what the nurse and nurse were doing. Someone was wiping her body at the end, and some were pulling out various tubes used to monitor and maintain life. My father's face seemed to be aging a little bit. He stretched out his sleeves to wipe the tears on his face, silently.

My mother came to the hospital an hour later. She changed the festive red color in the morning and walked to my father and whispered something, but I didn't care at all about what they were talking about.

I sat alone on the bench in the hospital corridor until my grandmother was pushed out with a white cloth. I stood up and followed them to the elevator until I was blocked outside.

My father walked behind me for some time, so he reached out and patted me on the shoulder, and he was very hesitant.

Jinyan, don’t you stay for a few more days and go back after grandma’s funeral is finished.The father said in a hoarse voice.

I nodded silently, and my mother only appeared for a while, but in a blink of an eye I disappeared, but I was too lazy to find her.

You haven't eaten yet.father asked.

Then I remembered my father's phone call that I rushed to the hospital without dinner. When he reminded me, I felt hunger coming to me. It was a feeling of empty stomach but no desire to eat.

Can't eat it.I shook my head.

My father sighed again, "You grandma has been unable to see you hungry since you were a child."

This simple sentence instantly hit my tears. My emotions were like a dam that broke into a dam, and tears poured out like a flood.

My father and I sat face to face in the restaurant opposite the hospital. I can't remember the last time we had eaten alone. This scene seemed to have never existed in my memory. My father asked for a bottle of white wine and had just started to speak. I didn't stop him, but just watched quietly. I knew he needed to vent his emotions like me. Just when I thought we were just eating this meal so silently, my father's words opened, and I couldn't stop it at all, so I became another listener.

My father talked a lot about his childhood. Some of them I have heard of from my grandma, while others have no idea. My father’s relationship with my grandma was very complicated. When he was a child, he was very resistant to his mother’s strict discipline and often fucked against his neck, but what he got was his grandma’s strict discipline. The relationship between mother and son became torn and twisted in this spiral upward competition. The result was that the father, who was defeated in this mother-son competition, formed his current personality. This has to be said to be a lose-lose situation. When I told my father that his grandma had reflected on his childhood education in front of me, tears were gathering in my father’s eyes.

We both felt drunk when we left the restaurant. We supported each other and walked back to the hospital because there were still some procedures to be handled. When we walked into the hospital gate, I saw my mother and a person talking to the flower bed from afar. The person who was talking to her looked familiar. However, my brain was a little slow to be affected by alcohol. I didn't even think about who the other party was. When she saw our father and son passing by, she subconsciously pulled the man away a little.

When we went through the procedures, my mother still didn't come forward, and my father had no intention of finding her. Until I accompanied my father to complete all the procedures and pay all the fees. When I passed by the nurse station, I suddenly remembered that the middle-aged nurse who was talking to my mother just now was the middle-aged nurse who exchanged her grandma for her during the day.

Dad, my mom has an acquaintance in the hospital?I asked tentatively.

My father was stunned for a moment after hearing this, "No, I don't know."

It was my turn to be stunned for a moment. Seeing the way my mother talked to the man just now, it was very respectful to know people in the hospital in the hometown where human relations were very particular. There was no need for my mother to hide it from her father. What was the purpose of her doing this?

I was too lazy to think about the whole story, and after doing everything, I went back to the hotel.

My wife received my notice and came to me the next afternoon. What didn’t surprise me was that she came back with my cousin. I didn’t mind this too much. After all, this was also the date for going home agreed by my cousin. Although the two of them felt a little uncomfortable when they came back together, they had no reason to get angry.

Grandma's memorial service will be held at noon on the third day, and our return to Shanghai will be on the fourth day, which means that my wife will stay here for three days.

In fact, I didn't see my cousin, but learned from my wife that the two of them were back together, saying that my cousin took the initiative to take on the task of escorting her back after learning about the situation. I felt a little relieved for her honesty.

After my wife came back, she checked in my hotel room as expected, and my cousin was said to have gone back directly to her hometown in the village.

Don't be too sad.

My wife said softly, stroking my back.

I'm fine. People always have to go through these things in their life, just recover.

My wife nodded and gave me an encouragement smile.

By the way, he hasn't looked for you after I left, right?I mean before I inform you.I asked.

No Ah.My wife's answer was not hesitant at all. Maybe she was scared by you, and he had never looked for me.

I looked into my wife's eyes for a while and then looked away.

Then what did he say along the way back with you?I asked again.

My wife's eyes wandered a little. Uh, she didn't say anything, but just complained, thinking that we were calling him around.

I nodded, and after finishing this matter, I will talk to him before we leave. If he has any requirements, I will try my best to satisfy him. In short, just don’t let him talk about these things.

I don't think he should do that.

That's the best, otherwise I wouldn't be polite to him.My tone was a little cold.

The changes of the times have made the funeral process in our small place smaller and smaller than those in big cities. The memorial service was held in a ready-made funeral home. After that, my father took his grandmother's urn and took a car back to his old house in his hometown, where a mourning hall was set up.

Looking at the small square box under the large black and white photo of my grandmother, thinking that my grandmother, who loved me since childhood, is now lying quietly in that small space, and will never see her voice, appearance and smile again in the future. My mood, which had already calmed down, became painful again.

Throughout the afternoon, my father and I wore mourning clothes to guard the mourning hall, receiving a group of condolences from relatives, friends and neighbors, while my wife and mother greeted these people in the outer room to serve tea and water, fulfilling their duties as a wife and daughter-in-law.

After finally sending off the last group of mourning people, my father beat his sore knees and said to me, Jin Yan, come here, I will tell her something.

Seeing that I was standing still, he advised him kindly, forget it, don’t be angry with her, you have ignored her for a few days, it’s almost done, I have to have a dinner with her to have a evening party.

I was reluctant to move my steps and slowly walked towards the outer room. I saw the huge outer room of the old house and the yard outside the house, and there were relatives and friends drinking tea and eating melon seeds in groups of three or three. Some of these people I knew, and I would say a few polite words when I saw me passing by, and some people didn’t know them, but the visitor was a guest. When I passed by, I would smile and nod and say a few words of thanks. But I walked around but couldn’t find my mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. In fact, it was not only her, but my wife couldn’t find me. I couldn’t help but wonder where the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law went.

I walked around the living room and the yard for two or three times but couldn't find anyone, so I thought I would go back and get in touch with my father. I didn't want to see her anyway. Just as I walked back to the mourning hall, I walked out from the side wing alone and almost ran into me. The person coming was my mother.

Who can't walk without eyes?

My mother was tidying her clothes while walking, and she looked like a middle-aged rural woman coming out of the toilet. This was the case. She looked up and saw that I was trembling as if I was frightened.

Thinking of her hiding from me these days, and looking at her now, my heart couldn't help but soften.

mom.I called out in a muffled voice, "My dad is looking for you, right inside."I said and pointed my hand towards the mourning hall.

My mother said oh, and didn't look up at me, but quickly jogged in the direction I pointed, as if someone was chasing me.

I shook my head, suddenly remembered something, and shouted loudly at her back, Mom, where is Nana?

I don't know, you can find it yourself.My mother left a sentence without looking back and disappeared from the corner.

I took off my filial piety hat, took off my filial piety uniform, and did a few stretching movements on the spot to soothe my stiff body. Then I slowly walked out of the yard. This was where I lived when I was a child. Even though there were quite a lot of changes over the years, I still had some childhood memories. I was about to go out for a walk but saw my wife coming towards me.

I'm looking for you, where have you been?

I walked towards my wife, but saw her steps floating, so I quickly helped her two steps.

What’s wrong with you?

My wife's face was very red, and there were still fine beads of sweat on her forehead.

I...it's very boring in the inner room and I feel uncomfortable staying, so I'm out for a walk.

My wife always lowered her head when she spoke, and her voice was very soft.

I felt a little distressed when I looked at her. Alas, there were so many people in the inner room just now, they were smoking and making loud noises, and the funeral hall was not allowed to open the window. Let’s not talk about you, even I can’t stand it anymore. I will help you sit for a while.

As I said, I helped my wife walk back to the yard, found a long bench to sit down together, and my wife held her forehead and breathed heavily.

What's wrong?Is it a headache?I asked with concern.

It's Ah, and a little dizzy.

Feeling the humid and heat at noon after Jingzhe, thinking about the cool feeling when I took off my mourning clothes just now, I said, take off my coat.

My wife nodded. She was wearing a black short windbreaker coat today, which was a thin beige turtleneck sweater. I took the coat from her and looked at her again. I felt a little awkward. After looking at her for a long time, I finally found the problem.

Little fool, did you put your sweater in the opposite way before going out today?I laughed and scolded.

My wife was obviously stunned for a moment, is there any?

Then she pulled open her neck and looked in. She saw that the trademark that was supposed to be behind her neck suddenly appeared in front of her. Her face turned from flushing to pale in a short time, and then from pale to redder.

Are you still uncomfortable?Or I'll send you back.

As I said that, I stood up and walked into the house and greeted my parents. Then I helped my wife into the car and drove to the county hotel with the dust.