Chapter 2

After the Spring Festival, my father-in-law and mother-in-law began to solemnly care about our baby. Our mood, which could be treated easily, gradually became solemn. My wife took into account my face as a man and went for a comprehensive examination. Sure enough, she found some of her own problems. After hearing this, I was worried but also relieved. It was indeed not my own problem.

My wife was hospitalized for a minor operation and was recuperating at home for a while. After she recovered completely, we started the plan to create a human being. A few months later, my wife's belly was still as flat as before, and our hearts that we finally let go were suspended again.

Or...I'll check it out too?

When I mustered up the courage to say this to my wife, what I saw in her eyes was a faint light of tears and a look of gratitude. I decided to put down the so-called worthless dignity and bravely walk into the hospital, but the final result...

I got home and had a nap in a nap. I got up and went out in a daze, drove to my wife's unit parking lot. I sat in the car thinking about my worries until a few sounds of knocking on the windows came into my ears. I quickly unlocked the car door, and then my wife opened the car door and sat in the passenger seat.

A scent of fragrance came, and the familiar smell made me feel gloomy all day long and relaxed a little. I squeezed out a smile and stretched my head over. My wife came over tacitly. I kissed her delicate face gently. This was our boarding ceremony.

What do you want to eat?I asked gently.

Well... My wife tilted her head and thought about it. She looked so cute that she couldn't say. I wanted to have hot pot today.

I burst out laughing and grabbed her hand, "Wife, you are so nice."

My wife's almond eyes suddenly turned into crescent moons, so why don't you drive?

My wife actually doesn’t like hot pot very much, at least not as much as I do. She has a cleanliness obsessiveness and washes her hair every time she goes home. It’s very troublesome to wash her long hair. She was able to take the initiative to eat hot pot today to make me happy.

When we arrived at the hot pot restaurant, we found a sofa seat and sat side by side. Looking at the hot steam at the bottom of the pot, I felt like the misty mist on the road to pray for a child, without a sense of direction.

My mom called me yesterday.I whispered.

What did the mother-in-law say?

I haven't been back for two years. She said that when the Chinese New Year comes, she won't ask us to go back. Anyway, they are very idle and are not afraid of quarantine.

oh.My wife agreed without hesitation.

I know that my wife doesn't like this mother-in-law very much. This kind of thing has nothing to do with regional discrimination, but because my mother grew up in that environment, and her words and behaviors and eating habits are so incompatible with her wife who grew up in a metropolis, especially her habit of not swearing and almost unable to speak makes her frown every time.

This time... I hesitated for a moment. Not only my parents will come here, but my cousin's family will also come to play for a few days.

I was not confident when I said this. I have seen too many articles and posts complaining about rural relatives. I don’t want others to put the hat of the village office in Shanghai on my head.

Your cousin?Have I seen it?

Oh, we came when we got married. He is the same age as you and is younger than you in the month. This time I took his wife and two children to play with me. I want to take them to Disney and let them go shopping on their own during the rest of the time.

Well, husband.

Um?

You said... my father-in-law and mother-in-law come... will we ask about giving birth to a baby?I'm afraid...

I held her smooth palm in the palm of my hand, what are you afraid of? This is our own business. They asked, and we beat him up and went there.

But... I heard you say that your hometown has a very strong clan concept, and people will be looked down upon without children.The wife asked carefully.

I shook my head, it doesn't matter, I've been in Shanghai for so many years, and they want to let them say go, but I can't hear it anyway.

Husband...why, let's adopt one, what do you think?

This proposal made me feel moved, but I immediately shook my head, "Is there a throne we have to inherit?"Besides, if you adopt a child without blood, let alone my parents, you are your parents. Do you think it is acceptable to my father-in-law and mother-in-law?

Alas, what should we do? It's really troublesome.

Wife, do you think my obsession with wanting children is too deep?

Without Ah, don’t think so. Actually, I also want children very much, especially after hearing that children can not only bring us happiness, but also the crystallization of our love and the bond of family. Moreover, I am almost 27 years old. Many of my best friends of the same age have become mothers, and I am very envious.

I hugged my wife's shoulder and kissed her softly again on her face. At this time, her phone rang.

Hello, oh, mom.She said and looked at me, as if her mother-in-law was talking about me.

It's nothing. He checked that everything was normal. Maybe our fate was not here. Don't worry, take it slowly...

My wife was covering me, and my heart couldn't help but feel ache. I was almost sentenced to death in having a child. The doctor said that my illness may be at the genetic level and that the existing medical technology is powerless.

Well, we are having dinner outside. We will come back to see you on the weekend. Bye.

My wife hung up the phone and showed me a warm smile. The soup is ready, let's eat it first.

The Chaoshan freshly cut beef hotpot that I used to think was extremely delicious, but it tasted like chewing wax in my mouth.

Wife.After taking a few bites, I decided to say what I had hidden in my heart. Have you ever heard of the sperm bank?

Um?The wife raised her head and thought for a moment. She seemed to have heard of what hospital she came from?

Renji Hospital.

Yes, Ah, do you want to?

I nodded, you know I have always wanted a child, our child, now for my reasons, we can only settle for the second best, and want a child that belongs to you, but don’t worry, I will definitely regard him as my biological flesh and blood.

But... my wife was a little hesitant, but I always felt that this was not good.

It’s okay, it’s all formal channels, and the quality and source of sperm are safe. I heard that donors have undergone very rigorous testing, and most of them are college students.

That's not what I mean.My wife shook her head, I mean I always feel that I don’t have a life in my body that is not yours, and I can’t accept it.

Alas... I seemed to be talking about the pain, and I sighed deeply.

Husband, don’t be sad, why don’t I think about it?

I nodded.

On the weekend a few days later, my wife and I went to my parents-in-law's house to eat and drink as usual. After talking about family matters, we went straight to the point, that is, when will we have children? Because we received all the normal information provided by my wife, the old couple also let go of their worries and happily asked when we could welcome grandchildren. We both tried to cheer up and deal with them with our acting skills.

On the way home, my wife spoke, Husband, I decided, I accept your proposal, let’s make an appointment to go to the sperm bank.

For some reason, while I was relieved, I was also looking back and forth. Can I really accept the child who does not belong to me?

But when thinking about my situation, I am like a high-level paraplegic patient. When spending the rest of my life in a wheelchair becomes a goal that requires hard work, don’t greedily expect that standing and running are the way to survive.

After we went back, we had a rough understanding of the process and costs of artificial insemination. If we use the husband's sperm, the cost is 3,000 yuan. In addition, the total cost of examination for both men and women is about 6,000 yuan. If we use the donor's sperm collected from the sperm bank, the total cost is about 10,000 yuan.

Money is not a big problem for us. What I care about is that the success rate of this method is only 15%. In fact, the probability of a single time is low, but as long as the superposition is superposition, we can also bear the superposition costs. However, what really persuades us to withdraw from hospital fertilization is still something that happens in the hospital.

When I arrived at the hospital, I realized that the demand for this thing is much stronger than we imagined. The sperm bank is located in a corner of the second floor of the hospital and is not very conspicuous. If you don’t look carefully, you won’t even see any obvious signs. This conscious design guarantees the privacy of the doctors to the minimum. After all, people entering and leaving the place are somewhat inferior in their psychology. People with such a mentality care especially about the eyes of others.

I am a thick-skinned person, but when I walked to the door, my originally sigh-loving temperament couldn't help but become obscene. I always felt that everyone's eyes were somewhat contempt.

The medical treatment process is very simple. The doctor will ask about the physical condition of some individuals. I calmly informed the examination results of azoospermia. Perhaps the doctors here hear this most often. In my opinion, the condition like a bolt from the blue is no different from a cold in their eyes.

The doctor gave some routine tests, and I was asked to do a retest of sperm quality. My wife and I each completed these tests and waited for ten days to get the report. Once the test results meet the standards, my wife will receive semen perfusion during ovulation.

OK, don’t always frown. As long as we keep the secret, no one will know about this. Next time I come, as long as I have no problem with my physical examination, I will be able to give birth to our baby if it goes well.

After leaving the clinic and coming to the hospital corridor, my wife pulled me and said coquettishly.

I squeezed out a forced smile, I know, but I always feel...

No, however.My wife, who has been gentle and coquettish, suddenly looked stern. Zhu Jinyan, what is about to give birth to your child is in my body. How can you convince others if you doubt this?

I……

You asked this matter, and I convinced myself, why did you become a mother-in-law?

I looked up at the chandelier on the hospital ceiling and took two deep breaths.