Chapter 52

Sitting in the study, looking at the darkness around it, it was very quiet, and suddenly I felt a sense of fatigue from the bottom of my heart

I have been thinking about a question, why did Lu Tong do this?

Am I not good to her?

It is impossible. I have been married to her for so many years, and I have never quarreled with her. I never forced her to do anything. As long as she is unwilling to do, even in sex, I have never forced her to think about her feelings. I work hard and I admit that I was a little busy at work, but is this the reason for her cheating?

Since she cheated, she could have divorced me and then did those things with Long Shaobai. Why did she still get entangled with Long Shaobai without me knowing it?

Does she love me?

Can't be determined to leave us father and son?

But why did I hurt my son and I

Lu Tong, what kind of woman are you?

Thinking of her face, I was a little chilled

Turn on the light and looking at the densely written copy of the book on the table, I felt a little powerless. They said that this was a copy of the diary found in my wife's bag, which was my wife's diary. What's funny is that after years of marriage, I didn't know that my wife actually had the habit of writing diaries, and I never saw her having a diary.

It's her, is she hiding too deeply?

Looking at the pale paper, I held it in my hands one by one, staring at the densely packed familiar fonts

Today, the happy wavy friendship is successful. Nanda University is really big. Ah. Ah. I hate that I didn’t work harder in the college entrance examination. But there is no regret in the world. Today, I have a relationship with Nanda Finance Management Class 1. Many handsome guys. Well, I understand. There are really outstanding and beautiful people in this world. I am so jealous!! However, I feel that the class monitor of Finance Management seems to be interested in me. I always feel that he always stares at me intentionally or unintentionally by talking to classmates. Although he is indeed tall and handsome, it is too rude to always stare at me. He is still very happy. But I heard from my roommate that the class monitor of Finance Management Class 1 is a rich second generation. Then there are many beauties around him. Lu Tong, Ah, Lu Tong, how can I give him QQ as soon as I feel hot! Pay attention to the record of the first friendship activity of the University of Flat

After I read the first copy, yes, this is a friendship activity with the Economic and Management Department of Nanjing University when Lu Tong was in college. Is Long Shaobai the class monitor? I gritted my teeth and gritted my teeth.

Today, I was in a bad mood and could not take the CET-4 exam! After posting a news, Long Shaobai actually sent a message to comfort me. Although he is a rich second generation, he is not as slick as they said. I feel that others are still pretty good, hehe

I looked at it and there was no date. It should be when Lu Tong was in her freshman year. During the National College Student English Level Examination, for some reason, Lu Tong could not take the CET-4 exam, and then she was in a bad mood. Will Long Shaobai come to comfort her?

But why do you think that person is a good person when you are comforted?

Today, I was confessed by Long, so embarrassed. I was still in front of so many classmates. Hehe, today! My boyfriend from Nanyang University officially started working!

I looked at the whole paper without a date. It seemed that it was my freshman year, otherwise Lu Tong's tone of writing a diary would be so like a little girl

It seems that the relationship between Long Shaobai and Lu Tong began very early

Long Shaobai, just a bastard, blame me...

Is something going on here? I frowned

Sorry, mom and dad, but I can't do anything about it

Lu Tong is sorry for her parents? Did she make any mistakes?

I understand everything thanks, men can't rely on it

Why do I feel that Lu Tong’s diary is a bit strange during this period? Did something happen during this period?

I don't know if this is right, but every time I think of it, I dare not, I really dare not

I dare not do anything? What was Lu Tong doing during that time?

Fortunately, there are parents in this world, only parents are the most trustworthy! Long Shaobai, you wait!

Is Lu Tong angry with Long Shaobai?

Today... he apologized to me again. I didn't want to pay attention to him anymore, but he knelt in front of me and looked at his face full of tears. For some reason, I felt very uncomfortable. Maybe... it was all my fault.

What does Lu Tong mean? Kneel down? I have never kneeled down to Lu Tong. Could it be Long Shaobai?

Happy, Long came to school to wait for me today, and many people watched, and they told him not to drive such a good car, hum... When I asked me to go back, I was envied by my sisters, hehe

I was very happy today. I went to Nanda to meet a group of fellow villagers Ke Dongchen, who was in the city next to me. Hehe, but he was so stupid and a little shy, but he was still pretty good, so I could talk to me.

Seeing this, I was stunned for a moment. Could it be that the dinner party in the village gathered?

That was the first time I saw Lu Tong, pure, cute and elegant. I was fascinated by the sight. I, who was not good at socializing, insisted on talking to Lu Tong with shamelessness. I admit that I was a little superficial, which started with my appearance, but I didn’t have time to really explore her character. Now, is there any problem with her character?

Haha, I still have such questions, I am a fucking idiot

At that time, I thought Lu Tong was willing to talk to me, and thought she also had a good impression of me. It turned out that everything was self-comfort.

I didn't expect that before I met her, Lu Tong had so many things happening to Long Shaobai. Judging from Lu Tong's diary, the two had so many emotional entanglements.

No wonder, when I confessed to Lu Tong soon, she didn't accept it. It turned out that she was waiting for Long Shaobai?

Thinking of this, I felt a tingling pain in my heart and clenched my fists tightly

But why did she accept me later? Although I did not participate in the previous events of Lu Tong and I, I inexplicably felt a strong sense of betrayal

Dongchen confessed to me today, but...I feel that being friends with him is the best choice. Actually, I like him very much. I am honest, trustworthy, not slick, and give me a sense of security. But... am I worthy of him? I don't want to hurt him... Sorry... Dongchen, you will meet a better partner

Lu Tong apologized to me? Was it the first time I confessed to her? At that time, Lu Tong rejected me. Is there anything she can hide?

Lu Tong, why are you so tired? You know that it is impossible. Why are you so stupid? You deserve to make the same mistakes again and again.

Let it go, fortunately Dongchen stayed with me and he confessed to me today. I promised it. Let's be goodbye to the past forever

Seeing this, I frowned. It was probably my senior year. At the dinner party in the village, I confessed to Lu Tong for the second time. That time she accepted me.

It turned out that she accepted me and broke up with Long Shaobai

Thinking of this, a sense of anger surged from my heart. When Lu Tong broke up with Long Shaobai, she seemed to have let go forever and made up her mind to be with me.

Shame, dirty, I feel worthless, and I am being controlled by Lu Tong at will

After getting married, Dongchen asked me, why did Chuye have no virgin blood, I blame myself, but I don’t know how to tell Dongchen. Maybe lying and deceiving will sometimes be the best medicine. Dongchen... Sorry, I will definitely compensate you in the future

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After reading this passage, I closed my eyes and tried to adjust my breathing. The night when my wife and I entered the bridal chamber was echoed in my mind. She blushed shyly, allowing me to experience the tenderness of life.

She said that it was her first time that night, she danced, so the hymen was torn apart in junior high school or high school

I also comforted myself, trust my wife silly, and accept her imperfection generously

But now, naked shame, betrayal, humiliation comes one after another, even if I don't think about it, the first first blood of my wife must be Long Shaobai

Thinking of this, I felt uncomfortable and suffocated. It turned out that she started to deceive me on my wedding night and I.

Lu Tong…

I gritted my teeth, I'm cruel to her

Last month, Dongchen's baby and I were born. Ke Mujie, the name his grandfather gave him was great, I am very satisfied. Next, I want to start and be a real mother. Although, I'm sorry, Dongchen, I will definitely give all of myself to you father and son.

I've been very tired these months, Dongchen is busy with work. In addition to working, I have to take care of my son. Oh, it would be great if I had more money. I'd hire a nanny for my son. It seems that I have to work harder for my son!

I went back to Qianye to work, and my son went to his grandmother's place. I felt much more relaxed and could have more time to improve myself. Seeing that my college roommates were living so well, I didn't have to work, traveling all over the world, I also wanted to live such a life, and I was a little envious, but unfortunately... Well, it doesn't matter, Lu Tong, they have it, you will have it too! Come on! Make more money!

Lu Tong's diary has been written here. I know when it was about time. At that time, we returned to Qianye from the city. My son showed it to my mother. I was very busy with work and almost went through the house three times. Lu Tong had just returned to Qianye Industrial and Commercial Bank and was not skilled in many businesses.

At that time, Lu Tong worked very hard, and the bank also rewarded Lu Tong with an LV bag. I remember that in those years, the LV bag she carried on her body was always the same.

Is money really that important?

Isn’t it good to have enough food and wear warmth?

Maybe Lu Tong had just returned to Qianye and when he was working hard, I should have had more communication and exchanges with her. Maybe it wouldn't be the result of today.

It was very tired today, but what surprised me was that my husband brought a lot of strawberries from the countryside. He looked at him spoiled and looked at me. Although he was very tired, he even ate the strawberries my husband brought for me. Hehe, it was still very sweet.

That was the strawberries I brought back from the village when I was on duty. I remembered it deeply that night. Lu Tong came back from outside tiredly. When she saw the strawberries I brought back, her eyes shining. The joy of making her lover happy because of me will never forget it.

But now...

Today, I met Long Shaobai at the entrance of the restaurant. I don’t know why, but I always felt... strange. I wonder why Ah, why did I meet in Qianye? Chen Yan kept teasing me, feeling embarrassed and hoped... He just passed by

Lu Tong met Long Shaobai?

Dongchen, I’m sorry, a lot of things happened today, and I never thought that the president asked me to connect with Xincheng Group’s business, and Xincheng Group was brought by Long Shaobai again…

Xincheng Group?

That's the foreign businessman who came to Qianye from Nanjing to invest, Long Shaobai also came to Qianye with him.

Is this fate?

Have you already arranged it?

But, why is fate so cruel to me and my son so cruel to me? My son and I clearly did nothing wrong, but we have to be treated like this?

Fate? Fucking fate

Tonight, when I was reunited in the unit, I met Long Shaobai again when I went to the bathroom... Do you hate me? I don't know, it's gone long ago, I'm confused. As long as we take his car home, we'll be as good as each other's strangers, my husband, what should I do...

Husband... Sorry, sorry, I shouldn't have gone out to discuss business with Long Shaobai... I shouldn't have drunk... Sorry, sorry, sorry...

Seeing Lu Tong writing such a sorry, although he already knew the facts, his heart was still cut like a knife. What has happened to Lu Tong and Long Shaobai?

Husband, when do you have time to spend with me...I'm afraid...

Husband...I'm sorry...

Long knew what I meant, he said he was willing to lend me money, and Chen Yan also had the same idea as me. Should I do it? I also have to ask my husband's opinion, Dongchen, I'm sorry, I will compensate you in the future, Lu Tong, Lu Tong, how should I go

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Today the company was established, what I need to thank the most is... Longba, I'm sorry to my husband, as long as I guarantee you and your son to enjoy all my life, I will bear all the sins myself.

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Yesterday was the Chinese Valentine's Day, Long Shaobai... Dongchen, if only you would have accompanied me

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The company is developing better and better. I bought a BMW and watched Mu Jie sit in the car and laugh. Everything is worth it... But Long Shaobai...

Today I went to my parents for a business trip and let Long Shaobai meet him... Unfortunately, he will never know... Oh, what should I do, what should I do...

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I'm having sex with the dragon again... I find myself enjoying the pleasure brought by this more and more... I feel like I'm becoming very lewd... Why did it become like this... It's obviously not like this...

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Long Shaobai left... and that beautiful girl... I am very sorry to Dongchen. In the future, live a good life and compensate my son and husband if they are guilty. Let me... go to hell and then judge...

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Why, Shao Long left in vain, but he felt that something was missing? Am I a slut? Maybe

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Long contacted me again, and he said... He doesn't love that girl, he only loves me... If he can't get me, he would rather die alone in his life...

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Long is back... said that Building 38 of Laoshan Villa has been bought as a Valentine's Day gift for me...

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It turned out that Gong Wei had known about Long and I for a long time. What he meant was that he wanted me to accompany him for one night...

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I told Long that Gong Wei knew about me and Long, and Long said don't be afraid.

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I know that sooner or later I will come, and I can't imagine that my husband will come so soon... I'm sorry... I can't go back...

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My daughter was born, I was very scared, I was worried that it was not... Dongchen's... Fortunately, my daughter is Dongchen's sorry baby, your mother... is not a good mother...

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I am here to carry all my sins alone. I'm sorry, I'm not worthy of your forgiveness...

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Husband, I will love you forever, and this home forever

The stack of copies of my wife's diary given to me by the police will end here

Many things recorded by Lu Tong are also scattered. Things have happened. The more I read, the more I become more annoyed, and I didn't read them seriously. I know what she wrote about some of them, but I was confused. I know that all of them must have happened and are of great significance to Lu Tong. Lu Tong recorded them in the diary.

Maybe the police have other diary contents of Lu Tong in their hands, but it doesn’t make much sense to me now. At first I just wanted to see what kind of person my wife was, but now I seem to see it less and less understand it.

Lu Tong, does she love me? It should love me, but she collapsed in Long Shaobai's feelings again. I was very disgusted and didn't want to confirm that looking at the white paper in front of me, I even forgot to breathe

After reading Lu Tong's diary, I always feel that Lu Tong is still hiding something. Even in the diary, she has not written it out. Maybe she can only find her to know what it is.

Looking at the USB drive that Gong Wei gave me on the side of the table, I knew there must be some heart-wrenching content inside, but it wasn't. The wound was already very big, and if you cut it a little bigger, you won't feel anything.

Thinking of it, plugging the USB drive that Gong Wei gave me into the computer, and after a while, I watched the folder with two words "Lu Tong" appear on the screen. Although I was ready, I felt uneasy and fearful inexplicably