Chapter 800 Willow branches by the lake

Behind the attic and near the wall, some willow trees are planted.

At the turn of autumn and winter, green and slender leaves are still hanging on the branches, but they are no longer as vibrant as spring. Many dead leaves are left on the bricks under the trees and there is no time to clean them.

When Enhui saw such a scene, she couldn't help but feel moved by the scene, and her heart was covered with an incapable depression.

She gently raised one arm and looked down at the wrists and hands exposed from the sleeves of the light gray cotton robe, with fair skin and still as delicate as a woman.

Unfortunately, I am afraid of comparison. If compared with the tight skin of a teenage lady, I'm afraid the difference is a bit obvious.

She pondered: I have experienced ups and downs over the years, and I have become like the broken flowers and willows, and my family is falling. It’s just a matter of chatting about the rest of my life.Why should the Lord care too much about me?

Zhu Gaoxu simply responded: Your age should be the same as mine.

Enhui was stunned for a moment and said softly: How can this be compared?There are many young ladies with outstanding appearance and over ten years of age in the palace.

That's even more incomparable.Zhu Gaoxu said that most palace ladies can be collectively called young and beautiful women; but there is only one favor.Some people want to change their status through me, while others respect the emperor's special identity.But the past between us cannot be repeated.After all, no one can return to his original mentality and situation.

After hearing this, Enhui raised her head and looked at Zhu Gaoxu carefully for a while. What does the emperor care about these?

Zhu Gaoxu did not answer immediately. He was silent for a moment before saying: I used to think that as long as one day a person is rich and powerful, he can get anything except birth, old age, sickness and death. But later I realized that this was not the case. If you missed something, you cannot be compensated by power and wealth; everything you can exchange it is just to take what you need.

He sighed and paused for a moment.

His steps also stopped. He stood there, turned around and faced the favor, and said seriously: Power and money are just a need for me now.But are these people around you who really care about themselves just flatter and respect?Life is short, no matter how many people we have made, there are always few who are attentive.

When Enhui heard this, she felt a mess.

Her behavior also lost her previous calmness, as if she was uncontrollable, and she was doing some trivial small movements.

She wanted to look up at Zhu Gaoxu for a while, and then she avoided her face and pretended to look at the scenery; but at this moment, she knew nothing about what was happening around her and what scenery was there.

She didn't know when she had accepted Zhu Gaoxu, who was in the kingly kingdom, and she didn't know how she began to believe him, and she was more or less happy when she saw him; on the contrary, Xianghui believed that Zhu Gaoxu had many wives and concubines and many beauties, and she didn't matter to herself.

If you are unilaterally confused, you will still be able to wake up after a little time.

But when she heard Zhu Gaoxu's words just now, she suddenly felt at a loss.

At this moment, Zhu Gaoxu asked in his voice: I did nothing wrong, so why did you suddenly become alienated?

There is no way to answer, so I have to say: I can't forgive myself.

She said this, but Zhu Gaoxu obviously didn't understand what it meant last time and didn't care much. This time he seemed to understand that this was not casual words, and he was silent for a long time.

Enhui couldn't help but murmur: Before this, I had thought a lot and told myself a lot of truths, but finally calmed down.I recite the Buddha's name every day and copy scriptures. I think this is good. I have no desires to forget the past and make it easier.But when you come, I don’t know what’s going on, and I forgot what I thought about before...

Zhu Gaoxu suddenly interrupted her and said: Can't you see your heart clearly?

What? Enhui was stunned.

Zhu Gaoxu no longer explained, but just looked at her.

In Hui felt that her mind was blank and she could no longer think about it. Only all kinds of direct and chaotic emotions were very strong and clear.

No wonder people care about being alone, even if they don’t do anything out of the ordinary, their feelings are completely different; because there is only one person talking around, Cheng Hui feels that there seems to be only her in Zhu Gaoxu’s eyes, and that feeling is very special.

Enhui didn't want to admit it, but Zhu Gaoxu still couldn't see clearly when he reminded her, she understood everything.

She felt something warm was surging in her body, warming up, but she couldn't find the exit.

Once such feelings are moved, they cannot be calmed down. Only by allowing them to continue to rise can they be released at a certain moment.

At this moment, Zhu Gaoxu approached at the right time and gently hugged her body.He did not do anything abruptly, as if he was just comforting a pity woman who was out of control.

But his body temperature suddenly made Enhui find the direction of emotional release.She felt her body weak and her strength could not be used.

There is nothing wrong with you and you won’t suffer any consequences. Why not be able to get along with yourself? Zhu Gaoxu whispered in her ear.

His voice was low but reassuring. The breath he spoke and exhaled warmly touched her ears. The slight touch seemed to spread rapidly everywhere, making her feel a little nervous.

Enhui let out a long sigh, stretched out her arm, and actively hugged Zhu Gaoxu tightly.

Then she put her face close to Zhu Gaoxu's neck, inhale deeply, and smell his breath greedily.

It was just a hug, but it seemed that I could no longer break free. Enhui also felt Zhu Gaoxu's physical changes.

He also responded and rubbed his face around her neck.

In broad daylight, Enhui felt a little uncomfortable with such intimate actions.She took the initiative to say: Let's go into the house first.

Zhu Gaoxu said: Yes, it’s strong wind by the lake.

Eun-hye blushed, moved a little from his hug, and looked up at him.

Zhu Gaoxu always made her feel very natural and couldn't find a reason to stop.

The two hugged each other, but their hands were still pulled together, as if they were afraid that they would disappear if they left each other.

They had already walked to the back of the attic; and the door of the house was opened in front, and to enter the courtyard, you had to detour ahead.

However, there is a small cottage at the back of the courtyard, which seems to be a place to pile up tools and debris.

Inexplicably, Enhui felt anxious and didn't even want to walk for a while. I think Zhu Gaoxu was the same, so they walked towards the simple little house at the same time.

It was indeed just a place to put things inside, and I couldn't bear to look at it, and there was no place to sit; I had never come in before.

The window was closed, and Zhu Gaoxu closed the wooden door, and the light inside dimmed; but he looked down at the eyes of Enhui, but it seemed that he became brighter and brighter.

The sound of the wind was separated by the door, so that she immediately heard the clear breathing of the two of them.

The enclosed space of the cottage seemed a little stuffy, at least Enhui felt a little suffocating.

The wind outside is still blowing, and the cool breeze comes from the other side of Yàn Que Lake.

In the wall blocking the Yàn Que Lake, one of the rows of willow trees seemed to be inadequately taken care of and fell to the wall. The willow branches were like hanging black hairs. When the wind blew, the branches would rise and fall, rustling.

On the lakeside in the distance, the water waves also rose up in the wind. A prodigal son beat to the lakeside and raised the shore, and the higher waves behind him followed...

When Enhui returned to a bedroom under the attic, the time was no longer known.

She was stunned for a while, and after a while, she suddenly came to her senses, and found that the sky had dimmed and the furnishings in the room could not be seen clearly.

This was a trance day, and sometimes even suspected that nothing had happened today.

But those very subtle scenes came to my mind intermittently and clearly.

If it is just a dream, there is absolutely no such clear truth.

What's more, she was still lying here lazily until the evening, and she could immediately find many remaining traces.

The maid's voice came from outside the door: Madam, are you going to the dining room for dinner?

Enhui responded: You can put it in a wooden box and send it here, there is no need to have too many.

The maid said in the voice: Yes, madam, wait.

Enhui sat up from the couch, walked to the dressing table, and immediately looked at the bronze mirror's face carefully.

There is no light in the room, so I can't see it clearly.

She first looked closer and looked at her face, then stayed away so that she could look at her mind in the mirror.

As she grows older, she has become much richer in the past two years, and her temperament seems to be more charming.

It should have happened a long time ago that I care about my appearance and appearance so much.

In Hui's heart was still a little entangled. Sometimes she felt depressed and felt that her enthusiasm was just not in the future. Sometimes she was unwilling to continue to escape, wanting to change her situation at this time.

What Zhu Gaoxu said about freedom, being able to live freely outside the palace, or even going to the theater to watch opera, etc. He thought it would be better to live a better life; but he had long been uninterested in his teens, and she was not a teenager and full of novelty.

What's more, grace is good at a scholarly family, and she goes to the palace after a little bit of growth; the palace is what she is used to, even if some people may think it is a cage that cannot be left.

Enhui knew that she liked the cage because she was not adapted to the prosperity of the world at all, and she didn't even understand how to get along with people outside.

If she wanted to be in the harem and even dominate the emperor, she knew it was impossible.

But at least she can settle down in the palace, and in a few days she can get close to the expected person and compete with other beauties for favor, and she will be very adaptable in that life; it is much better than waiting here and not knowing when to come again.

Enhui sat in front of the dressing table for a long time, looking at the face that was nearly thirty years old, thinking about the hard-to-resolve grudges and past.

She thought about it repeatedly, not knowing whether to give up accepting her fate and end her life like this, or to muster up the courage to fight for what she wanted.

Perhaps life is so difficult. When you have thousands of warehouses and holes, no matter how you choose, there will be different difficulties and pains.