Chapter 17 Can't Give Up

Maybe I have gone too far, my husband’s accusations left me speechless, I fell to the ground, crying, and my heart was confused, my husband’s words made me feel ashamed, and what else can I say when I am walking on my feet?

In the next few days, I went to and from get off work like a walking corpse every day. I didn’t answer Xiaofeng’s phone call, nor did I dare to answer. I was afraid that I would go further. I was afraid that I could not withstand Xiaofeng’s temptation. To be precise, I couldn’t withstand the temptation in my heart.

My husband has not been on business trips these days and is stuck in the study every day, his face getting ugly. Although I can no longer raise my head in front of him, I still can't bear it. I always want to do something for him, but I don't know how to express it. Will he ask me to help?

When I got home from get off work today, my husband sat tiredly on the sofa. I was so sad. I wanted to make up for something. I felt very complicated. I poured a glass of water for my husband and handed it to my husband. I said a little embarrassedly: You, you should drink water, yes, have you encountered any problems?

My husband looked at me, hesitated, took the water cup and sighed: The paper is well written, but the experiment has encountered difficulties. Now it is too difficult to find a wheat mother, and it is too difficult to cultivate new varieties.

I felt a ray of heart when I suddenly remembered a few wheat seedlings from the old village. I forgot the estrangement with my husband for a while and said quickly: The old village I was on a business trip, there were a few wheat seedlings on the wasteland on the mountain. It is said that they were left behind a long time ago. I also told them to protect them, why did I forget it?

Hearing this, my husband stood up and grabbed my shoulder. It hurts so much. I haven't had physical contact with my husband for a long time. Although this is the case, I am still very moved.

My husband couldn't wait to say: Yu Yàn, are you saying true?

This is great, it is great

When I realized that I was catching me, my husband let go of his hand a little embarrassedly. I felt sad. My husband is now like a stranger, it is all my fault.

I lowered my head and whispered: It's true

My husband said excitedly: OK, I'll report it right away, I'll go tomorrow

My heart suddenly moved and I quickly said: Why don’t I go with you? The Federation of Literary and Art Circles is planning to do folk customs and find out that I have nothing to do for a day, so I can apply for a business trip.

After saying that, his face turned red without realizing it

My husband didn't seem to think so much, and was completely attracted by these wheat seedlings. While agreeing, he picked up the phone and called the dean directly. After telling the dean the news, the dean should agree immediately.

I also picked up the phone and told the Chairman of the Federation of Literary and Art Circles that he wanted to go out for research. No one was doing this chore. The Chairman readily agreed.

The night was late, and my husband was very excited. He stood and sat happily, and kept muttering: This is great, it is great

I sighed unconsciously. In my husband's heart, seeds are all his. Maybe this is the unique manifestation of intellectuals. I silently pulled my husband and whispered: You, go back to bed and sleep.

After saying that, I can't say anything

My husband's face turned cold again, returning from joy to reality, and didn't say anything for a long time

I lowered my head and said: Let's go to bed, you, if you annoy me, I'll sleep on the sofa

After saying that, my heart felt sad and my tears couldn't help but flow down my eyes

My husband sighed and didn't say anything. He walked into the bedroom silently. I followed him in. He didn't object. I was very excited and felt much more at ease in my heart.

Lying on the bed, my husband turned his back to me. His love was now like a stranger, and he had no dreams in the same bed. All of this was caused by me. How many times have I thought about giving up, but can I be relieved by giving up my husband?

I don’t deny that at some point I thought about everything about life with Xiaofeng after divorce, and how happy and sexual blessings it was, but when I calmed down, the more I thought about it, the more I became more and more afraid it became. The gap between the age cannot be overcome. Will my family really be happy when they live with Xiaofeng?

I have become accustomed to the lifestyle with my husband. If I really change my lifestyle, will I really adapt to it?

Not necessarily

During this period, I have been reflecting on my mistake, no matter what, my love for Xiaofeng is true, and the more I think about it, the more I become, the more chaotic it becomes. Only now do I understand how weak and swaying I am. My husband is right, I am a selfish woman, and I am also a slutty woman with strong sexual desire. I don’t want to lose this family, but I don’t want to lose Xiaofeng. This is the truth

But what should I do?

Looking back on these days, what did I lose?

What did you get?

My husband said I was selfish, but that woman was not selfish?

At this age, I can't lose anything, I just won't give up

Thinking of this, my stubborn personality made me firmly believe that I would not give up on my husband and children, nor did I want to give up on my love and sex with Xiaofeng. I did this no matter what others said.

I turned over and hugged my husband. My husband wanted to push my hand away. I hugged my husband hard and said quietly: Go to bed quickly, I will get up early tomorrow and go on a business trip.

I hugged my husband tightly and said gently: Husband, can I hug me?

After saying that, before my husband reacted, I had already hugged my husband and kissed him hard.

My husband tried to push me away, but I was determined not to give up. I hugged him tightly, kissed him, kissed him little by little, kissed his chest muscles, licked his husband's nipples with his tongue, and stopped fighting. My hand took off my husband's panties, held the semi-hard cock, shrank down, opened his mouth and put it into his husband's glans, sucked slowly, licked the urethra with his tongue, and hugged his husband's butt tightly.

My husband moaned a few times, grabbed my hair with his hand and tried to push it away, but it was a bit like pressing down. I knew that men could not judge normally at this time. I continued to suck and lick. My husband's cock became harder and bigger, and the water from the urethra flowed into my mouth. I felt so excited. At the same time, I had a strange idea. Since I didn't want to give up, I should take the initiative to fight. Isn't it the best solution to conquer my husband with the unique charm of women?

Under some kind of motivation, I raised my head, saliva and my husband's vaginal fluid flowed from the corner of my mouth, and sat on my husband's body, holding the hard cock and slowly sat down. My husband couldn't help but murmur, the whole cock was drowning in my vagina, I slowly rubbed it, slowly rising and falling, my eyes were staring at my husband, my husband's eyes began to become hot, and his butt was thrusting upwards.

I knew my husband was already moved, so I started to speed up his movements and moaned in my mouth. I grabbed my husband's hand and pressed it on my breasts. My husband's eyes became even hotter. He began to knead my breasts with both hands. My breasts were deformed in my husband's hands, which hurt a little, and it was more of a pleasure.

Slowly, my husband's eyes became complicated, and he let out a low roar: "Slutty, fuck you to death."

My whole body trembled and my lower body contracted a few times. Although it wasn't big, I really had an orgasm. To be precise, it wasn't my husband who was fucked orgasm, but I was scolded by my husband for orgasm. Maybe I was just a slut

I had already aroused my lust, so I got up, turned around, stuck out my big butt, and looked at my husband. The desire from the bottom of my heart made me shout: Husband fuck me, fuck your slutty pussy, your wife,

My husband roared: Fuck your fucking bitch, fuck you to death

With a slap, my dick penetrated deeply into my vagina, and my hand slapped me hard on the butt, whispering hard while thrusting hard

My husband fucked me hard behind me like an explosion. My husband's scolding stimulated me, and at the same time I felt a sense of atonement. I catered to my husband's fucking. My husband was thumped on his butt. I cooperated with this husband, and my lust became even higher. Just when I was about to reach the peak, my husband hummed and cumed.

I was here and lay on the bed and gasped. My face turned red and I lie beside my husband with gritted teeth, snuggled in my husband's arms. My husband looked blankly at the ceiling, his mouth twitched a few times, and said softly: Yu Yàn, am I not satisfied with you, right?

After saying that, a few tears came from the corners of my eyes

I wiped off my husband's tears in horror and whispered: It's okay, don't care too much, I will always be your wife, I, I'm fine

My husband sighed and said: Don't comfort me, I know he did better than me, hey! I have seen everything you look, I'm not as good as him

I covered my husband's mouth, and I didn't dare to listen. My husband turned his head and looked at me, shook his head and continued: Yu Yàn, we have been married for so many years, and you have never been satisfied with me, right?

I can't deny it, that's even more hypocritical, and I'll say softly: Yes, not, I can't explain it clearly, husband, can you forgive me?

I know I hurt you too much, please forgive me, I'm sorry

My husband hugged me and sighed, without saying anything. He said softly: Go to bed, get up early tomorrow

Snuggling quietly in my husband's arms without saying anything, I know that the knot in my husband's heart has not been untied yet, I will continue to work hard, for this family and for me, I will definitely work hard

When I woke up in the morning, my husband looked at me much better, at least he was no longer so cold, and I was much happier. I prepared the things, had breakfast with my husband, and went downstairs together.

Sitting in the car, I held my husband's hand tightly and said a lot to me. My husband didn't talk much at first, and slowly got infected by me and started chatting with me. I obviously felt that my husband's hand also began to hold my hand tightly. My heart was very moved.

Due to the different tasks of this business trip, the municipal party committee and government attached great importance to my husband and had already greeted the county. When we arrived in the town, the deputy county magistrate in charge of agriculture had arrived. He brought us the main leaders of the town to greet us enthusiastically and invited us into the conference room. This time, I obviously felt like I was like a follower. Last time I was with Xiaofeng, I was the protagonist, which made me a little disappointed, but I started to look at my husband with more attention.

My task happened to be in touch with the cultural officer. We left the conference room and chatted in another office. I had to listen because I didn’t know much about culture itself. I asked casually and just need to go back and get a job.

I don't know what my husband and I talked about, but it was almost dark before the end. Seeing the town mayor, secretary and deputy county magistrate, I felt so respectful to my husband, I felt so proud of it. I didn't realize that this person was really hard to figure out. Why didn't I find that my husband would be so respected by others before?

I ate at the best restaurant in the town at night. The food was very rich. The leaders toasted my husband. My husband didn't like to drink much. They didn't force me. They just kept asking my husband to go back and react to the city, and asked my husband to do something about them. I didn't understand it very much. I lowered my head and ate

The guesthouse was cleaned a lot, my husband and I were a little tired and went to bed without saying anything

The next day, I had breakfast. In addition to the cultural officer, the mayor also accompanied us in person.