Chapter 12: The lust of being raped (Part 1)

[Introduction]

Since I had an affair with my ex-boyfriend, Li Tong, and my current boyfriend, Fang Renkai, and had a ridiculous relationship with the frivolous boy Li Xiaojian and his cousin Lu Dagang, I have found that my life has changed a lot.

No longer the woman who used to be a slow-moving woman, who does things carefully and organizedly, looks elegant and behaves properly; she becomes nervous from time to time, as if she is afraid of something happening, and is worried that something will not happen; she often feels bored and wants to do something meaningful, but she is always unable to get excited, so she finds reasons to tell herself why she doesn't do it

As for behavior, I'm even more embarrassed to talk about it

It's like I should have gone out to do something, but I kept touching and joking around at home. When the time passed, I hadn't gone out yet, so I had to change the schedule.

It's like staying in the room and cleaning up the room, halfway through, my mind goes there; I just fall into the sofa, or lying on the bed, and caressing my body absent-mindedly; it's like I wake up in the morning and feel like I'll want it all day, but I'm struggling to find a partner, and I'm not listless all day: I can't help it, so I have to run into the toilet again and again to masturbate

The only thing that made me feel comforted was whether Fang Renkai wrote a love letter to me every two or three days as before; tell me about his current situation and his longing for me

Every other morning, I would still receive his call in bed, and the two of them would briefly chat.

But as he was about to change jobs and became busy, the letters were much shorter; the time for chatting on the phone was greatly reduced;

This makes me more eager to talk about love and less satisfied with the comfort I have received!

But I can't act too hungry and he is my favorite person. Of course, I should be the most considerate of him and never let him feel the pressure!

During this period, I often want to go to the city to find Li Xiaojian or Lu Dagang to play; in fact, I have already found them almost every week

If you have sex with Xiaojian this time, you will have sex with Dagang next time

If you go there more frequently, it would be too unreasonable!

Because I understand very well: this abnormal relationship must be stopped in time so that the two boys will not be scared; I think I am insatiable and will bother them

Finally, Ai O'a broke the bowl and stole the chicken without losing the rice, which would ruin a good thing

Therefore, my whole life can be said to be looking forward to it every day and looking forward to it all the time; but when I look around, I can't get it anywhere, even if I get a little bit, I always feel that I can't satisfy it.

So, I started to have more daydreams, my mind filled with more bizarre fantasies, and I often had many nightmares; sometimes I was so scared that I was afraid that the nightmare would come true

Even fearful of thinking that I was mentally ill

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Like a long time ago, when I had not moved to California, I dated Li Tong on the one hand, and on the other hand, I often daydreaming.

But at that time, I was mostly doing it with a man I didn't know very well but treated me well and had sex

The most bizarre thing is that he was a criminal-like oriental man who broke into the house and kidnapped him. As a result, he fell in love with him and made love with him in a hotel.

(Please read Confession 4)

Now, similar daydreaming is very different; although it is also in contact with strange men and then some kind of sexual relationship occurs.

But I don’t know if the man likes me or why he is with him?

Except for being destined to be the one who is destined to be...

Like

well!

It's better not to say it, because such almost unreasonable things are mostly justified when people ask psychologists to analyze them.

According to Ling Hailun (a girlfriend of mine), when a doctor listens to your narrative, explains it for you and finds reasons for you; to make you understand yourself, and then you will no longer be troubled by fantasies and make you restless.

But I have never let go of my personality. I am mostly hiding everything in my heart, and it is difficult to speak to anyone. Even to my close friend Ling Hailun, I have never revealed that I had cheated on my marriage; let alone the shameful records such as chaotic intercourse, incompetence, and strange hallucinations in my mind. It made her find that under the surface that has always followed the rules, I turned out to have another ugly and perverted inner world, and therefore I looked down on me!

Why do people keep diaries? Writing confessions? This is the reason. It is for yourself to read. After reading it, you will understand yourself! Okay, don’t talk less, let me get back to the point!

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I can't remember whether this day was a weekend or not. I just know that I'll be in a hurry after getting up in the morning

Because my husband returned to his home in California from Taiwan, he had originally planned to stay for two weeks, but before he stayed for five days, the Taipei company called an emergency call in the middle of the night and asked him to decide to go back the next morning. He did not tell me what was going on, so I just kept his luggage for him immediately and prepared to leave.

I drove my husband to the airport early in the morning and just left. I felt sleepy and my body was light. But I was so excited that I drove to San Francisco without thinking, and drove to Lombardy Street, near the residence of Xiaojian and Dagang.

In K-mart, where there are few customers, buy cheap and sexy clothes to change; buy croissants and swallow them in a hurry; without calling, he drove directly to their doorstep without calling;

The car turned off, pulled the narrow skirt I just bought in the seat, smoothing the wrinkles; I suddenly woke up and realized how ridiculous he was: I had just played with Lu Dagang like tea ten days ago, and was forced to have many orgasms. Finally, he sprayed the semen on my butt, and hugged me tightly from behind, shouting seriously: I love aunt so much!

Then because I had played with him several times, I knew that in order to distinguish and figure it out, he called him real aunt, and originally called me Aunt Qing, so I changed my mouth to Aunt Qing. So I became so excited and felt very grateful for his love.

Since I originally expected that my husband would stay home for two weeks and would have to wait for another time with Li Xiaojian before he could get Lu Dagang's turn [the arrangements made by their brothers]; so I think: this morning this time should be considered an accidental error, which was caused by her husband's sudden return to Taiwan.

And if I didn't tell you, it was a surprise to Dagang.

Just whether his cousin Li Xiaojian is at home or whether Lu Dagang wants to go to work himself?

I didn't even think about it, just came here rashly, not like the cautious habit of me who carefully planned everything and put it into practice.

I shook my head in the car and asked myself: Am I ridiculous? But everyone has arrived, let's be ridiculous again! Before getting off the car, I pulled my skirt and tied my hair up before I reached the stone steps at the door.

Dingdong~! When I only pressed the bell and waited patiently, I could not wait in my heart

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Unexpectedly, it was not Lu Dagang or Li Xiaojian who opened the door; it was a middle-aged man who was not well-dressed and a little fat; after rubbing Yansong's eyes, he stared at me and looked at me.

Oh my God, I was wrong! I found the wrong person, the wrong house, the wrong place!... I shouted in my heart

Who is looking for? You... The man blurted out in Taiwanese, and my eyes were full of suspicion

... Looking for Lu Lu Dagang... I stuttered and left if I wanted to turn around.

Because although men are fat, they are very kind-hearted!

There is a face printed on the same mold from Dagang and Xiaojian; it is obviously either my cousin or my cousin's father!...

Because they are all a family!

I couldn't answer what I should say, and just as I was about to turn around and pull my legs out, the man spoke: You, Mrs. Zhang, right??... Come in! At the same time, I opened the door a little and signaled me to go in

A heart that was so panicked that it almost jumped out of its mouth

Although I was anxious and afraid, I was confused, but I walked into the door and stood in the entrance hall where the curtain was hanging low and the light was not on. When the man pressed the door, turned around, and faced me, he was at a loss in front of him, and his whole body was trembling.

But the man had no intention of leading me into the living room, and just let me stand in the entrance hall; his expression was angry and his voice was full of blame; he asked me why he seduced his son and nephew?!

I am from a well-known family and a mother. Why do I ignore my shame and lose my ethics, hurt the mind and body of young people and ruin their bright future?

And playing with one is not enough, and seducing another one, making them a pair of brothers obsessed with the same woman!

Oh my God! I have that, that's the intention? That's the ability, which fascinates the two boys at the same time! Besides, they are all adults, and it's natural to want to play with girls and can't stop them. Why is it all the ancient brains that are all blamed on others?!...

As my body trembled and my heart cried, a deeper layer of fear swept across my body; I couldn't stand and I was about to become paralyzed

Because what men talk about is not just my personal bad deeds, but even my background and a well-known family have been pulled in; it implies threats and says that I am carrying some kind of social scandal!

Then my home, my husband's home, his career, reputation will be lost, and will be destroyed once Ah!... No, no! This must not happen, absolutely not Ah!

As if I was being pulled over my throat, I was almost suffocating, and I shook my red head with a flushed face; as if I was dizzy, my body was tilted to the side, and I was quickly reaching out to support the screen board next to the entrance, but I didn't expect it to be able to support it at all. When I was about to tiptoe, the man grabbed my arms with both hands, held my whole body, and lifted it up so that I had to tiptoe to prevent myself from sagging into his fat arms

His tight palms were so hard that they almost broke my arms!…

Ah~!!

Humph!…I still pretend to be faint?!…I asked my low growl full of disdain

No, no... While I shook my head, I could even squeeze out a voice to deny it

Looking up at him, he flashed his evil eyes, and smiled with smokey yellow teeth, my knees that stood on tiptoe finally fell off and my body collapsed.

He shook my arms hard and hummed: Damn! Still want to be rude? I will know when I see your guilty look... I won't admit that you seduced them both!... Otherwise, don't blame me for being polite!

…You let me go, listen to my explanation! I really didn’t seduce… I have only looked for Li Xiaojian a few times; I was helping my daughter ask him for his homework…

It was only after the man let go of my arm that I finally stood firm

But I thought the explanation was ridiculous, let alone that men would trust them.

My only excuse is just a vain effort to prove my innocence and maintain a little self-esteem!

Before he finished speaking, the fat man yelled fiercely: I'm, stop talking nonsense to me, Wubai talks!... Treat me as an idiot!......I want me to take off your clothes and put them on the bed, and use a strong person to help me?

I was so scared that I was speechless and couldn't speak by the scene he was talking about; but at the same time, under extreme fear, my whole body had a wonderful and strange reaction.

It seems that my stomach is full of urine, and my entire lower body feels sore. No matter how strong my body is, I endure it, and the damp and hot urine still can't help but drip it!

No, no!...I didn't say you were an idiot! I screamed hard

The fat man suddenly grabbed one of my wrists, folded it to the bend of the elbow, the palm of his hand was facing up, the pain penetrated into his heart, and tears fell out

Of course I know he is not an idiot!

Not only is it not, it has also investigated all the details of my family and grasped them in my hands.

You don’t have to tell me my husband or the company’s name to scare me, just know that he will threaten me sooner or later!

...Please, would you please let me go?! It hurts you! I started begging

Let it go? It's not that easy! His hideous smile made me even more scared

...Then, what do you want others to do?

As the bird asked with tears, my lowered eyes just glimpsed that he was wearing only cotton shorts and the swollen bulge of his trousers.

I immediately felt burning and hot, and I could no longer raise my head

The most terrifying thing in my imagination is about to happen to me!

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The fat man bent my elbow and pulled it into the dark living room; I staggered and followed

When he walked to the leather sofa, he asked me to sit down, pointing to the paper and pen that had been placed on the coffee table, and asked me to sign immediately...

Sign?...what to sign!? I don't want it, and I can't Ah!

Even in the dark, you can still recognize the words written on the paper with four or five elements: I, Yang Xiaoqing, I would like to establish this evidence to ensure that I will never go to Li’s house in the future;

He will never have any abnormal relationship with the two brothers Li Xiaojian and Lu Dagang;

I also guarantee that if there is any violation, I will bear all consequences

Priest: Yang Xiaoqing

Signed in X Year:

No, no!…I can’t sign! I can’t even make a sound when I shook my head and screamed.

...I am willing to do anything else, please don't force me to sign this!

At this point where there is no choice, as long as there is no evidence in black and white, I will agree to everything

I also know very well: don’t say things that I do that make people tremble into social scandals; if my husband knows, my family will be completely ruined in my life!

Today, in order to be greedy for lust, I came to my door, and I was bound to the trap of invasion and humiliation. Who else can I blame myself?

OK, this is what you said in person! Mrs. Zhang? The fat man also sat down and laughed

When I bit my lips and nodded, tears fell on my clothes; so light: Yes!

This is a smart woman! If Boss Zhang marrys you, he has vision.

Raising his eyes, he saw the man smiling with a cracked mouth, and the crack in the middle of his teeth looked the same as Li Xiaojian.

I remember seeing their family photos in Xiao Jian’s mother’s bedroom; I’m sure he is Xiao Jian’s father!

Oh my God!…I have had sex with my son, and now I have a relationship with his father!…Will I be even more serious about incest?…How come I fell to this point?!…

Xiaojian's father stood up and twisted the standing lights in the living room

I lowered my head and saw a large piece of black mark on the leather sofa with Lu Dagang. I quickly moved my body, sat it and covered it with it.

When it is pressed on the sofa, the skin on the bottom of the thighs is itchy

...But, Boss Zhang didn't expect that his wife would dress up like a call girl, right?

The fat man sat back on the sofa, squeezed to his side, held my chin up, and asked for humiliation.

I couldn't help but look at him. The only thing I could do was close my eyes and feel tears in my eyes. I was afraid and ashamed.

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Li Xiaojian's father's cheeks, with the unshaved beard in the morning, were pressed onto my cheeks; his thick lips pecked around my neck; I turned my head disgustingly, trying to hide

Then he stroked a big hand to my chest and pinched my breasts through the thin silk purple dress; his other hand stirred my waist, grabbed it roughly, and rubbed it.

I struggled hard and shouted: No!...

I guess he would never have thought of it, hehehe!...but your breasts are too small!

The fat man's hands are pinching very heavily! Oh~ Woo! The pinching is too heavy, don't!

I protested and screamed, but my butt couldn't help twisting myself

But when I thought of it: I had already agreed to follow him everything, I had to bite my lips and hold back. The strength of my struggle was much smaller, so I let him pinch it and then grab the other breast. The hand rubbed on my waist and moved it to my buttocks and rubbed the flesh next to my butt

It's so weird. I didn't expect that such a small breast could still charm my child! He said as if he was disgusted by me.

Tears that were not good at fighting came out again. I crawled on my face and heard him scold me: Damn, why are you crying? Fortunately, my butt is still fleshy and still acceptable!

I shook my head left and right, shook him away and tried to press my face, and shouted in my heart: He is not a prostitute!... But his thick palms have pinched my shameful sexual desire, and I can't help but tightly clamping my thighs and rubbing them with both knees!

Listen! When you fuck you later, you will be able to clamp your butt! The fat man licked my neck with his tongue

Hiss ~!...Ha Ah ~! I couldn't stand my open mouth being kissed by him

I tried to get my feet to break away from his stinky mouth and kiss me, but it was useless; I was still invaded by my tongue and inserted it, and I was soaked.

I thought again: Even prostitutes don’t let customers kiss them, and I immediately felt that the fat man’s tongue was very disgusting!

Um,... Um~! When I think of my husband using me in bed, I never let him kiss him

Only the man you love can kiss me!... Oh my God, Fang Renkai, kiss me, kiss me!

My mind no longer works. I smelled the smoke from the fat man's mouth and thought of my lover who was smoking too; I became confused!

Start sucking the slippery, hot, wet strip of meat

Wwww!……Mmm…Mmmnnnn～!……

Pull out your tongue, Xiaojian's father stared at my face

I closed my eyes and shook my head violently, denying in my heart: I am not a prostitute, I am not a prostitute!... But he said fiercely: Lying down, lifting my skirt, and spreading my legs!

I blushed, and followed his command and action and sighed: I am so embarrassed!

But I lay obediently on the leather sofa, pulled up my thin skirt, kicked my feet, lifted my butt, and sucked my skirt to my waist; when I exposed my entire lower body with only briefs, long stockings and garters, I realized that the vaginal fluid had already soaked my pants, and the desire ignited in my body gradually could not be suppressed; however, my tightly clamped legs could not be opened!

I just feel ashamed to let him see the damp briefs, which is even more uncomfortable than death

Fortunately, the fat man's eyes swept around the curve of my exposed lower body, and he didn't force me to say: Well!... It's really like a prostitute who is like a fake one! Take off his briefs, take off his briefs!

He said take it off!?

The tone of those two characters is not as fierce as before, and it makes me feel a little less afraid.

So he was about to peel off his pants quickly so that he would not see my wet part

However, in an instant, I thought of Xiaojian and Dagang: I wonder if the two brothers are at home?

If they happened to break in and run into me, their father and uncle, in the living room...

That will

How embarrassing, how embarrassing!

Please, can you not be here?...I took off when I went to the bedroom? Almost begged with tears

OK, but I will take you into the bedroom later and shake your butt here first and give me some appreciation!

I could only do it: close my eyes and press my buttocks into the sofa, trying to twist my butt, but my tight legs couldn't be opened, so how could I twist it?

In addition, even though he knew that he was treated as a lewd man, he was so disgusted that he was so disgusted that he was so angry that he could appreciate it!

Why? He just sat and twisted, but he couldn't lie down!? He became fierce again

I have never been treated like this in my life. When I looked at him with tears, I felt so sad that I was dying, especially knowing that I would be raped by him sooner or later, and I would have to bear the humiliation step by step; it was even more sad

The fat man grabbed the statutes on the table and shouted at me: Forget it, don’t twist it, get up and sign it!

No, no~, I twist, I'm willing to twist! I spread my knees outwards and twisted my butt

He kicked off his high heels, pedaled his feet on the sofa, and his buttocks were spinning like a grinding mill, but he shouted in his heart for no reason: You are so bad!... He told people to twist their butts, and they were not good to others, and they insisted on threatening...

Put your hands down!... rub your hole and touch it outside your pants!... He growled

No~... The protests can no longer come out; but the cruel father of Xiao Jian didn't let me go: Touch! Did you hear it?... Touch and show me!

As soon as I reached my hand between my crotch, my whole body shivered like an electric shock, but I immediately began to masturbate quickly!

…Aaahhaaa!…hiss~,oh~Ah!…hiss~!! At the same time, sucking in a fierce breath

Well, Mrs. Zhang has a thin figure, but she is still sexy... her butt is a little harder!

Oh~Woo! OK, I twisted, twisted vigorously,... Oh~Woo!! The screams were also raised higher

Very shameless! Mrs. Zhang is so shameless!... Twist, twist again!!

The fat man insulted me and ordered me to make me excited to the extreme

While twisting wildly on the sofa, masturbating desperately, shook his head violently; even though the tears on his face were not dry, he shouted loudly: Ah! Yes, I'm so shameless!...Ah~~! I'm so shameless!!