Hello everyone; before continuing to tell the next confession, let me explain the love experiences that have happened over the past few years so that readers can have a clearer concept; and also fully understand the growth process of my life: I am 42 years old, married, have a son, a daughter and two children, and my husband is a big boss and businessman who often lives in Taiwan and a business group; and I have settled in Silicon Valley, California, USA for nearly eight years
Two years before moving to California from South America, I had a first affair; my partner was an old man named Li Tong, who worked in her husband's branch in the United States.
After more than a year of getting along with him, our relationship faded. In addition, we moved our own family and the relationship did not continue.
[The story with him is described in more detail in episodes 1 to 5 of the confession]
Then, I met Fang Renkai at San Francisco Airport
He lived in New Jersey, East America, but we started to write letters and had a intensive telephone conversation for more than a year. He moved west to Silicon Valley and finally had the opportunity to meet frequently.
[This relationship with Fang Renkai is quite sensational in Zhu Guanqi's "Xiaoqing's Story". I am very dissatisfied with the portrayal of the exaggerated description. Therefore, in episodes 6 to 13 of the confession, I added some of my actual situation and psychological background when I interacted with him at that time, so that I would not think that I was a slut who was greedy for sexual enjoyment!]
Unfortunately, Fang Renkai moved to Silicon Valley. After we had lovers and finally became lovers, the good times could not last long. The relationship between them lasted less than two years, and it was interrupted because of some reasons that we couldn't explain clearly.
I repeatedly invited him with kindness, but Fang Renkai refused on some excuses; in the end I had no face anymore and had no courage to call him
Inexplicably, I was nervous every day for almost half a year, as if I couldn't live my life
Of course, I have also reflected on it many times; is it because I am really too arrogant and he looks down on me?
Is it because I asked too much that made him very upset?
Or is it because his mind is too narrow and cannot tolerate some of my past relationships with other men?
Like in "Story", I described Fang Renkai as a foreign bank manager named Charlie, and only ate exotic midnight snacks?
But that matter was mostly written by Zhu Guanqi deliberately exaggerated and exaggeratedly; in fact, it was not that bad at all.
Besides, Fang Renkai and I have such a good relationship, it shouldn’t be a reason why he dislikes me!
But to be fair, the oral sex skills I learned from my ex-boyfriend Li Tong did make greater progress in the exotic midnight snacks I ate with Charlie; when I used the tryst with Fang Renkai, the two of them really enjoyed the fun of oral sex...
OK, let’s not talk much about this topic, let’s get back to the point!
In addition, I ran into the city and went to Lombard Street with two young international students from Taiwan: Li Xiaojian and his cousin Lu Dagang. Several ridiculous events happened [As outlined in "Confession" Episode 8, 11]
But that was just purely physical greed, and a small accident, and had no emotional relationship!
Besides, those things were all about Fang Renkai before he moved to California, so he should have no reason to be jealous of Ah!
However, what's going on?
Yes, when I was rejected twice by Fang Renkai, I agreed to a tryst. On my way home, I thought: He can have a wife by his side and become the third party in our relationship. Then can't I find another man and be another third party?
So, during the long holiday that week, I went to his residence with my son Adam's family teacher, a big boy named Kan, and had the first sexual relationship that Zhu Guanfeng wrote in "Xiaoqing's Rhymes". It was also because of Kan's careful guidance that I tasted the fun of anal sex for the first time.
I foolishly thought that if I gained the satisfaction from the older boy that Fang Renkai could not get, I would stop relying on Fang Renkai's emotional relationship with him.
But it turned out that was not the case; I still extremely eager for the love that Fang Renkai expressed to me for more than two years
Especially when I realized that I had lost my partner who had a soul-friendly and emotional connection, I felt so heartbroken that I felt as confused as if I could never see hope again, and even wanted to commit suicide and end everything.
Fortunately, at the lowest point, I and a college classmate Xu Libin, who had long admired him, met again at a dinner party at his home in Silicon Valley.
The two danced together and made a natural appointment to make an appointment in Taipei where he was going to give lectures and I happened to visit relatives.
A week later, Xu Libin and I got into bed at a hotel in Taipei
In the bathroom of his accommodation room in Fuhua Hotel, he asked him to shave my pubic hair and play the role of a jokingly wrong, and a bit lewd and abused anal sex
My relationship with Xu Libin only happened in Taipei for more than a week; after returning to the United States, he lived in Maine in the east, and was 100,000 miles away from me, so he did not continue
As for the real reason?
I think it was probably related to the fact that a group of people went to the dance hall to have a party that night. I left him behind and had a goodbye to Johnny, a foreign journalist I just met!
[See Zhu Guanqi's "Xiaoqing's Lover"] Although I deeply repent, apologize to Xu Libin afterwards, and willingly accept his punishment; but I believe: he still cannot accept my behavior of derailing for no reason
Just because when we were in Taipei, we were already deeply in love with each other, and we were extremely jealous of any infidelity and betrayal that occurred with a third party!
Although Xu Libin and I were also betrayed the family, adulterers and tyrannical wives
No matter what, I always feel like a couple of lovers who are not destined to be together. I can only ask for fun when an accidental opportunity comes and enjoy each other!
Speaking of the ridiculous thing with Johnny, I have to say: That was the first time in my life when I first met a man, I expressed my willingness to sleep with him and had no intention of continuing my love relationship.
Moreover, after having sex, I will never see you again. Although I am just a vague memory, I feel extremely exciting and can still be reminiscent!
It gave me a new understanding of myself: I am also a person who can enjoy the happiness of the moment without being greedy!
After understanding this, and looking back on the years, almost all the men I met thought I was quite attractive, and I was really comforted.
I feel that although my figure is poor, my face is pretty good and can attract men
Even Ferryman, a gynecologist whom he met in a shopping mall after more than two years, never forgot to be beautiful. When I heard this, I was light and hoped that I would not only have beautiful attractiveness, but also more sexually attractive.
Even if I don’t sleep with him, I’d be happy just thinking that he will have sexual desire for me!
I am so frank about my love history and sexual records over the years, and I am not trying to brag about myself or show off anything to others.
On the contrary, from the successive experiences, what you always feel in your heart is torture, shame, and regret
Especially, because of my unfaithfulness and repeated betrayal of my husband, I have caused me to be uneasy in my conscience and fear of being found to have an affair. It is also related to my constant nervousness and frequent discomfort in my body.
To be honest, this kind of life is definitely not a good time
In short, using this confession, I gave a clear explanation of my records in sequence. I originally wanted to let people know more about me; but after writing this, I felt that it was more like my confession!…
Then just treat it as an explanation of my mental journey along the way!
********************
Finally, here is an unknown secret
I have never revealed this secret; but it was indeed a very unexpected thing. It was discovered by my current boyfriend Fang Renkai, and my physical secret is very secret.
That's: I'm a woman who has had vaginal surgery
Originally, I didn't even know anything about it. Because after I gave birth to my son Adam, my mother-in-law persuaded me to find a doctor she knew in Taiwan to have fallopian tube knots. He was confused and didn't know what to do. After a long time, I thought it was just a knot. I didn't expect that in order to make my son's sex life more pleasant, my mother-in-law had already colluded with the doctor and had my sterilization and vaginal shrinking plastic surgery!
Because I had just given birth to Adam and had gone through the knot, I never noticed any special abnormalities in my physiological condition; during the few rehabilitation of my husband, I couldn't feel any difference from the past.
I believe that even if my body can feel that my cave has become smaller or that his object has increased in size, the rejection and disgust of my annoying husband Dunlun will be enough to teach me that there is no difference at all!
The only thing that found physiologically different from the past was that the perineum at the bottom of my vagina, connected to the anus, was no longer a smooth flesh edge, but became slightly concave and uneven parts; and there seemed to be a slit cut by a knife, extending straight to the mouth of the anal flesh ring; there, the flesh ring in my butt eye seemed to have been tied into a knot, forming a small pea-sized, slightly convex flesh grain
Then, every time I sit down, if my butt petals are not clamped first, I will feel it exists, which is quite uncomfortable. I have to move my butt again and adjust it.
Until I got used to it, now at any place, whenever I want to sit down, I must first clamp my hip ches to be at ease!
As for how Fang Renkai discovered it, I can only say: He is really amazing!
Less than two or three times have sex with me, I firmly decided that I had had vaginal plastic surgery with a doctor
Extremely surprised and inexplicably ashamed, I asked him how could he know?
He told me that his girlfriend was an obstetrician and gynecologist. After each intimate with her, she discussed and chatted and listened to a lot about women's bodies, so she was very confident in making a judgment.
I thought about it carefully and realized: It is indeed Ah!
Except for my husband, every man's penis will feel so big as soon as it enters my vagina; and his entire vagina is filled with the flesh ring at the entrance of the hole is even stretched to the limit, and it is almost impossible for the whole person to breathe, but at the same time, he feels that the good one is good and that one is crazy.
Especially, whenever I make love and become crazy, I will ignore the situation at that time and regardless of who the man is, I will shout excitedly, baby!... Baby, you are so big, so big!
Then they were all so happy, so excited that they fucked me even harder, making me dying of ecstasy...
Speaking of which, I am actually very lucky. Not mentioning my husband's short penis, every other man's penis is so majestic and beautiful, which makes me want it at first sight. Even if I don't really see it, I will have hypersexual desire just thinking about how much I love it!…
Really, the song counts: ex-boyfriend Li Tong's, current boyfriend Fang Renkai's, bank manager Charlie's, family teacher Kan, Taipei lover Xu Libin's, foreign reporter Johnny's, young international student Li Xiaojian's, his cousin Lu Dagang's
Eight big cocks are all vividly seen before your eyes
In addition, the dream of midnight is back, and the daydream or fantasy is basically made in the daytime: the kidnapper who broke through the door is called the eldest brother, the driver of the Taipei home, the driver of the husband, the driver of the husband, the driver of the Xiao Chen, the father of Xiao Jian, the father of the distant relative, Zhou Jichao, the handsome man of the old acquaintance, Xiao Xinyi, the goatee photographer of the unknown name
It's also a big guy who can't stand it
If you include the ones that appeared in the picture while I was masturbating: My gynecologist Jack
Feliman, my art teacher Nick
Xianning, my psychiatrist Bruss
Johnston, my piano teacher Leo
Locars, and my gardener William
Louis
Oh my God!
All of them were added together, and there were twenty large penis of all kinds, one by one, which really penetrated me like a illusion, and touched all the caves and holes on my body!…
Alas ~!
When I think of this, I can’t even get wet underneath. I really can’t continue to talk about it!
Forget it, I see, this article "Confession" ends with this one!
Two years before moving to California from South America, I had a first affair; my partner was an old man named Li Tong, who worked in her husband's branch in the United States.
After more than a year of getting along with him, our relationship faded. In addition, we moved our own family and the relationship did not continue.
[The story with him is described in more detail in episodes 1 to 5 of the confession]
Then, I met Fang Renkai at San Francisco Airport
He lived in New Jersey, East America, but we started to write letters and had a intensive telephone conversation for more than a year. He moved west to Silicon Valley and finally had the opportunity to meet frequently.
[This relationship with Fang Renkai is quite sensational in Zhu Guanqi's "Xiaoqing's Story". I am very dissatisfied with the portrayal of the exaggerated description. Therefore, in episodes 6 to 13 of the confession, I added some of my actual situation and psychological background when I interacted with him at that time, so that I would not think that I was a slut who was greedy for sexual enjoyment!]
Unfortunately, Fang Renkai moved to Silicon Valley. After we had lovers and finally became lovers, the good times could not last long. The relationship between them lasted less than two years, and it was interrupted because of some reasons that we couldn't explain clearly.
I repeatedly invited him with kindness, but Fang Renkai refused on some excuses; in the end I had no face anymore and had no courage to call him
Inexplicably, I was nervous every day for almost half a year, as if I couldn't live my life
Of course, I have also reflected on it many times; is it because I am really too arrogant and he looks down on me?
Is it because I asked too much that made him very upset?
Or is it because his mind is too narrow and cannot tolerate some of my past relationships with other men?
Like in "Story", I described Fang Renkai as a foreign bank manager named Charlie, and only ate exotic midnight snacks?
But that matter was mostly written by Zhu Guanqi deliberately exaggerated and exaggeratedly; in fact, it was not that bad at all.
Besides, Fang Renkai and I have such a good relationship, it shouldn’t be a reason why he dislikes me!
But to be fair, the oral sex skills I learned from my ex-boyfriend Li Tong did make greater progress in the exotic midnight snacks I ate with Charlie; when I used the tryst with Fang Renkai, the two of them really enjoyed the fun of oral sex...
OK, let’s not talk much about this topic, let’s get back to the point!
In addition, I ran into the city and went to Lombard Street with two young international students from Taiwan: Li Xiaojian and his cousin Lu Dagang. Several ridiculous events happened [As outlined in "Confession" Episode 8, 11]
But that was just purely physical greed, and a small accident, and had no emotional relationship!
Besides, those things were all about Fang Renkai before he moved to California, so he should have no reason to be jealous of Ah!
However, what's going on?
Yes, when I was rejected twice by Fang Renkai, I agreed to a tryst. On my way home, I thought: He can have a wife by his side and become the third party in our relationship. Then can't I find another man and be another third party?
So, during the long holiday that week, I went to his residence with my son Adam's family teacher, a big boy named Kan, and had the first sexual relationship that Zhu Guanfeng wrote in "Xiaoqing's Rhymes". It was also because of Kan's careful guidance that I tasted the fun of anal sex for the first time.
I foolishly thought that if I gained the satisfaction from the older boy that Fang Renkai could not get, I would stop relying on Fang Renkai's emotional relationship with him.
But it turned out that was not the case; I still extremely eager for the love that Fang Renkai expressed to me for more than two years
Especially when I realized that I had lost my partner who had a soul-friendly and emotional connection, I felt so heartbroken that I felt as confused as if I could never see hope again, and even wanted to commit suicide and end everything.
Fortunately, at the lowest point, I and a college classmate Xu Libin, who had long admired him, met again at a dinner party at his home in Silicon Valley.
The two danced together and made a natural appointment to make an appointment in Taipei where he was going to give lectures and I happened to visit relatives.
A week later, Xu Libin and I got into bed at a hotel in Taipei
In the bathroom of his accommodation room in Fuhua Hotel, he asked him to shave my pubic hair and play the role of a jokingly wrong, and a bit lewd and abused anal sex
My relationship with Xu Libin only happened in Taipei for more than a week; after returning to the United States, he lived in Maine in the east, and was 100,000 miles away from me, so he did not continue
As for the real reason?
I think it was probably related to the fact that a group of people went to the dance hall to have a party that night. I left him behind and had a goodbye to Johnny, a foreign journalist I just met!
[See Zhu Guanqi's "Xiaoqing's Lover"] Although I deeply repent, apologize to Xu Libin afterwards, and willingly accept his punishment; but I believe: he still cannot accept my behavior of derailing for no reason
Just because when we were in Taipei, we were already deeply in love with each other, and we were extremely jealous of any infidelity and betrayal that occurred with a third party!
Although Xu Libin and I were also betrayed the family, adulterers and tyrannical wives
No matter what, I always feel like a couple of lovers who are not destined to be together. I can only ask for fun when an accidental opportunity comes and enjoy each other!
Speaking of the ridiculous thing with Johnny, I have to say: That was the first time in my life when I first met a man, I expressed my willingness to sleep with him and had no intention of continuing my love relationship.
Moreover, after having sex, I will never see you again. Although I am just a vague memory, I feel extremely exciting and can still be reminiscent!
It gave me a new understanding of myself: I am also a person who can enjoy the happiness of the moment without being greedy!
After understanding this, and looking back on the years, almost all the men I met thought I was quite attractive, and I was really comforted.
I feel that although my figure is poor, my face is pretty good and can attract men
Even Ferryman, a gynecologist whom he met in a shopping mall after more than two years, never forgot to be beautiful. When I heard this, I was light and hoped that I would not only have beautiful attractiveness, but also more sexually attractive.
Even if I don’t sleep with him, I’d be happy just thinking that he will have sexual desire for me!
I am so frank about my love history and sexual records over the years, and I am not trying to brag about myself or show off anything to others.
On the contrary, from the successive experiences, what you always feel in your heart is torture, shame, and regret
Especially, because of my unfaithfulness and repeated betrayal of my husband, I have caused me to be uneasy in my conscience and fear of being found to have an affair. It is also related to my constant nervousness and frequent discomfort in my body.
To be honest, this kind of life is definitely not a good time
In short, using this confession, I gave a clear explanation of my records in sequence. I originally wanted to let people know more about me; but after writing this, I felt that it was more like my confession!…
Then just treat it as an explanation of my mental journey along the way!
********************
Finally, here is an unknown secret
I have never revealed this secret; but it was indeed a very unexpected thing. It was discovered by my current boyfriend Fang Renkai, and my physical secret is very secret.
That's: I'm a woman who has had vaginal surgery
Originally, I didn't even know anything about it. Because after I gave birth to my son Adam, my mother-in-law persuaded me to find a doctor she knew in Taiwan to have fallopian tube knots. He was confused and didn't know what to do. After a long time, I thought it was just a knot. I didn't expect that in order to make my son's sex life more pleasant, my mother-in-law had already colluded with the doctor and had my sterilization and vaginal shrinking plastic surgery!
Because I had just given birth to Adam and had gone through the knot, I never noticed any special abnormalities in my physiological condition; during the few rehabilitation of my husband, I couldn't feel any difference from the past.
I believe that even if my body can feel that my cave has become smaller or that his object has increased in size, the rejection and disgust of my annoying husband Dunlun will be enough to teach me that there is no difference at all!
The only thing that found physiologically different from the past was that the perineum at the bottom of my vagina, connected to the anus, was no longer a smooth flesh edge, but became slightly concave and uneven parts; and there seemed to be a slit cut by a knife, extending straight to the mouth of the anal flesh ring; there, the flesh ring in my butt eye seemed to have been tied into a knot, forming a small pea-sized, slightly convex flesh grain
Then, every time I sit down, if my butt petals are not clamped first, I will feel it exists, which is quite uncomfortable. I have to move my butt again and adjust it.
Until I got used to it, now at any place, whenever I want to sit down, I must first clamp my hip ches to be at ease!
As for how Fang Renkai discovered it, I can only say: He is really amazing!
Less than two or three times have sex with me, I firmly decided that I had had vaginal plastic surgery with a doctor
Extremely surprised and inexplicably ashamed, I asked him how could he know?
He told me that his girlfriend was an obstetrician and gynecologist. After each intimate with her, she discussed and chatted and listened to a lot about women's bodies, so she was very confident in making a judgment.
I thought about it carefully and realized: It is indeed Ah!
Except for my husband, every man's penis will feel so big as soon as it enters my vagina; and his entire vagina is filled with the flesh ring at the entrance of the hole is even stretched to the limit, and it is almost impossible for the whole person to breathe, but at the same time, he feels that the good one is good and that one is crazy.
Especially, whenever I make love and become crazy, I will ignore the situation at that time and regardless of who the man is, I will shout excitedly, baby!... Baby, you are so big, so big!
Then they were all so happy, so excited that they fucked me even harder, making me dying of ecstasy...
Speaking of which, I am actually very lucky. Not mentioning my husband's short penis, every other man's penis is so majestic and beautiful, which makes me want it at first sight. Even if I don't really see it, I will have hypersexual desire just thinking about how much I love it!…
Really, the song counts: ex-boyfriend Li Tong's, current boyfriend Fang Renkai's, bank manager Charlie's, family teacher Kan, Taipei lover Xu Libin's, foreign reporter Johnny's, young international student Li Xiaojian's, his cousin Lu Dagang's
Eight big cocks are all vividly seen before your eyes
In addition, the dream of midnight is back, and the daydream or fantasy is basically made in the daytime: the kidnapper who broke through the door is called the eldest brother, the driver of the Taipei home, the driver of the husband, the driver of the husband, the driver of the Xiao Chen, the father of Xiao Jian, the father of the distant relative, Zhou Jichao, the handsome man of the old acquaintance, Xiao Xinyi, the goatee photographer of the unknown name
It's also a big guy who can't stand it
If you include the ones that appeared in the picture while I was masturbating: My gynecologist Jack
Feliman, my art teacher Nick
Xianning, my psychiatrist Bruss
Johnston, my piano teacher Leo
Locars, and my gardener William
Louis
Oh my God!
All of them were added together, and there were twenty large penis of all kinds, one by one, which really penetrated me like a illusion, and touched all the caves and holes on my body!…
Alas ~!
When I think of this, I can’t even get wet underneath. I really can’t continue to talk about it!
Forget it, I see, this article "Confession" ends with this one!
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