I knew Guo Xueyan was so sleepy that she couldn't continue chatting, so she stopped talking and went to bed.
When I woke up in the morning, I turned on my phone and saw two messages from Guo Xueyan, one of which was sent at 3:30 in the morning: I was so thirsty, so I got up to drink water. I looked at the messages I sent to you in the evening. I really drank too much and told you that I was useless.
The other one was sent by nearly five o'clock in the morning: I thought about the things I sent to you, but I haven't fallen asleep. Oh, it's all your fault
I replied to her: I drank a lot yesterday? How did you rest? Is it uncomfortable? To be honest, I was a little worried at night. You drank so much wine and were alone at home.
Haha, it's okay, how about you catch a cold?
I don't feel anything anymore. I thought that you drank so much wine alone last night. If I were by your side, I could still take care of you.
Ouch, it feels very warm
Haha, I just think you must have felt uncomfortable at that time, I feel a little sorry for you
OK, thank you for your heartache
I thought of a scene
What scenario?
You lean in my arms, I will feed you water.
OK OK OK, what are you thinking about, go to class soon
During class, I couldn't help but send a message to Guo Xueyan: I was thinking, it would be great if I was a student in your class. I could see you often and see you in class, and I would definitely be full of intellectual beauty.
If you are my student, send me messages randomly and see if I won’t deal with you, you can do a good job in class, don’t send it, and I won’t reply if I send it.
I thought about it and didn’t always send it in class, otherwise she would think I was not doing my job properly. It was not until the get out of class was over that I sent another message to Guo Xueyan: I’m over, please tell me not to send a message to class. I at least have a chance. How do you send me a message to class?
I don't have classes, I'll have classes in the last two mornings
That was quite relaxing. By the way, we talked about things last night. Your friend said that you should pay attention to me. Now you are sober. Let me tell you what you think?
What do you want me to think?
I think your friend is right, you should pay attention to me, but it's not what they said
How to pay attention to it?
What they said was to be careful, what I said was to experience and feel me to browse you, haha
Get out! I won’t tell you anymore, go to your class
After another class, I changed to another classroom for the next two classes. While walking, I sent a WeChat message to Guo Xueyan: I was imagining you last night. After drinking too much, my face was flushed. I lay on the bed, feeling soft and soaked. I am a sleeping beauty.
The sweet words are coming again, it’s fine if my friends don’t say it. When they say it, I feel that I really have to pay attention to you so that you won’t make any random ideas.
What should I do? Are you hiding from me? Are you that afraid of me?
Of course I'm not afraid of you anymore, I'm still afraid that you are young and will be fine. You'd better go and have a good class. I'll talk about this topic next time I have the chance.
At noon, Guo Xueyan said she didn't sleep well at night and went home to make up for her sleep, so I didn't send her a message
Didn't say much in the afternoon
Until the last class is over, I asked Guo Xueyan what morning the week usually has no classes in the first two classes, she said Monday, Wednesday and Friday
It just so happened that I didn't have class on Wednesday morning, so I suggested that I have some meals and drinks together on Tuesday night.
Is it not possible for weekends? You are so anxious to have dinner with me. Isn’t it really a problem for me?
Look at what you said, why do I feel that your mind is being influenced by your friends? You are worried about having a meal. Anyway, you are fine, just having a meal together
Well, then see you tomorrow night. What do you want to eat? I'll find a place to
What you eat doesn't matter, just have some wine and chat with you
We made an appointment to have mutton hotpot near Guo Xueyan's house. I bought a bottle of wine next to me and went to the store to wait. She arrived in a few minutes.
This time she tied her hair up and wrapped it around her head, making her neck look very slender
Wearing a dark yellow woolen coat and a pair of black suede boots underneath
After she took off her coat, I saw that she was wearing the flesh-colored tight sweater inside, and her chest was tight and a pair of jeans underneath. I saw that the black boots she was wearing were very long, almost half of her thighs on it, which looked very sexy in my eyes.
Sitting down and taking a few sips, I started to tease Guo Xueyan again: This is the first time we have eaten and drunk on weekends.
Yes, by the way, can't you wait for the weekend?
I wanted to wait, but because of something, I was a little anxious
What's up?
I want to hurry up and eat more with you. Your husband has been on a business trip for so long, and he has no chance when he comes back
What opportunities are not? What do you want to do so much? Oh, by the way, there is an epidemic in Xi'an, please let your parents pay attention
Well, there are only a few cases, there should be nothing. I remember that you talked to me yesterday morning and had the chance to talk about that topic. Then let me talk about it today.
She seemed to be deliberately pretending to be stupid: What topic?
Didn’t your friend say I want to fuck you? Let you pay attention to what you think?
Maybe she was a little embarrassed to talk about this topic in person: Didn’t I send you so many messages that night? I told you all
That's what you said after drinking, your mind must have been messed up at that time.
Then I'm drinking now, and I'm talking about alcohol. I'll talk about it next time I don't drink.
I'm not willing to give in: This is different. You must have drunk too much that night, and you only took a sip.
Well, let me think about it again and tell you later
I no longer chase after me. I may wait for a while, maybe with the help of a little alcohol, or maybe she has figured out her ideas and should be better expressed.
Because she accepted my bolder praise, I began to comment on her outfit: I think your figure is good, I think your outfit is pretty good, it is more slim and can show off your good figure well
So, do you think it looks good?
Well, yes, how do you say it, it changed my cognition
What cognition?
In the past, I thought that women may wear less in summer, how about the things they look like here and there? They don’t look that good in winter. Don’t laugh at me. That’s what I think. But for you, I found that you can wear sexy in winter, but I think at least more than half of the factors are because you have a good figure, otherwise you will look bloated.
Is that true? I am really good at speaking, actually I don’t pursue any sexy intentions. I just like to wear slim clothes, and the feeling of covering is stronger when I put it on my body
But I think it is quite a test of your figure. If you are too thin, you can't hold it up well. If you are too fat, you can't wear it tightly. In fact, your figure is still better.
Haha, although I know that my external conditions are OK, but I am still a little dizzy when you always praise me
If you are not good-looking, I always say that to you, which is an insult. The key is that who makes you a sexy and beautiful mature woman?
She gave me a blank look: I don't know if you really have aesthetic vision or deliberately give me a ecstasy soup
What if I say, it's not
None? What is that?
I just don't understand aesthetics very much, and of course I don't give you a ecstasy soup. I just think that you have a good figure and good clothes. I think that this is like seeing a painting that looks good, but I definitely can't tell you how to draw it.
You said this, and I think it's normal. If you understand it very well, I'll look at you differently
How to look at each other?
That means you are spending time with women for a long time and studying outfits together, right?
Haha, it seems that's the case, but then again, I don't necessarily know so much even if I spend time with you all day. After all, this is determined by your external conditions. If you look good, no one can control it.
Speaking of this, I suddenly thought of something and laughed out loud. Guo Xueyan asked me what I laughed at.
I said with a little smirk: Your husband is very happy and sexy and charming to marry a wife like you, your husband is very happy and sexy~~Hahaha
Guo Xueyan was anxious: Let you talk nonsense, let you talk nonsense
While talking, kicking me under the table
I quickly clamped her feet with both legs. She wanted to pull them back but couldn't.
I was ashamed and anxious as soon as I was holding my face red
She kicked me with her other foot, and I let it go
Before we knew it, we had already drunk half of our second glass of wine. I felt that each other was getting drunk a little. I wanted to ask her if she had any questions, but I didn't ask directly, but joked with her first to lead to the topic: I suddenly thought of a possibility. Your friend said that I might want to fuck you, so let you pay attention. I guess they are jealous of you. You are so beautiful, so they are jealous of you a lot. In addition, there are people pursuing you, so I must be even more unbalanced.
Just stop talking nonsense, do I know my friends or do you know? But I do have my own ideas about this matter
Well, you're finally willing to talk, what do you think
I'm actually thinking from your perspective. To be honest, I'm not worthy of your feelings. This thing is beautiful, but it's also very painful. If you have that idea but cannot get what you want, it's a torment for you. I think you are pretty good and have helped me a lot. If you had the idea of another woman, I don't want you to do that. I don't want you to suffer that kind of torment. Really
On the one hand, I thought to myself, if I am soaking you, as long as you follow me, I will not suffer that kind of torture. On the other hand, I feel that Guo Xueyan is calm and kind. Her first reaction is not how to escape from me and avoid me to eliminate something, but to comfort me from my perspective. I was a little moved for a moment and raised my cup and said: Xueyan, you said it very well. First of all, consider my feelings and torture. Thank you.
After drinking wine, she put down the cup, and she continued: In addition to considering the torment you endured, then the relationship between us. Objectively speaking, I am a married woman. I often eat and drink alone with you. This is not good in itself, but we still have normal relationships. I also like this feeling. If you say you are soaking me or something but can't get it, you feel distressed and I'm not feeling that we have become like that. If we lose this kind of relationship, I will feel that it's a pity.
This time she picked up the cup and drank with me. She continued to tell the story: Of course, it was me in the end. I said that I am still satisfied with my current family and work. I am not saying how serious I am. There will be a little turmoil in my heart from time to time to imagine the romantic passion of extramaritality, but these things cannot accompany me for the rest of my life. Family is something that can protect me for the rest of my life. You also understand that what is more important. I cannot lose eternal things for the sake of temporary pursuit.
I showed awe-inspiring attitude, raised my cup and touched Guo Xueyan, and then both of them drank it all in one go
After pouring a bottle of wine, we were all half a cup
I also said calmly: Xueyan, I think you said it very well and comprehensively. I said, talked about me, talked about our relationship, and said that you are like what you said just now. We feel good now. I also like this feeling very much. In fact, if you say that, there is no need for your friend to remind you of anything, what I have inappropriate words and deeds, as long as you are not happy, you will pay attention and find a way to resolve it. I have not pursued it at all. I think what your friend said to you has triggered some associations in my mind.
What association?
Don't laugh at me. When I saw you say your friend asked you to be careful when I sucked you, I was thinking, what it feels like to fall in love with such a sexy and charming mature woman? Haha, don't laugh at me. I'm naive. If your friend doesn't say it, I've never thought about it before.
That means my friend didn't remind me, but you, right?
Let me say this, do you remember that in "Water Margin", Lin Chong grabbed Wang Lun and held a knife, Wu Yong was there to stir up the flames and said that he would never hurt the life of Leader Wang. This stimulated Lin Chong to kill Wang Lun. Now I feel that your friend is like Wu Yong, saying that he must not fuck Guo Xueyan, hahaha
Guo Xueyan couldn't help laughing: Hahaha, you really know how to associate, but to be honest, I didn't think about this problem. When they said that, how could I be careful of you? You said, should I be careful about you?
The alcohol comes up and the atmosphere is quite warm. I boldly test it: Then don’t be careful of me, let me try it out, hehe
I said, gently stretched my feet over and moved to Guo Xueyan's feet together
She kicked my feet away and said: What are you thinking about when you are so messy about your mind!
Do you want to know what I think? Let's take a sip and I'll tell you
We touched each other again, and after drinking, I put down the glass, I said seriously and pretended to be affectionately: I also sorted out my thoughts, I thought you, I felt that your child was not around, and my husband often went on business trips, and could eat with you from time to time, go out for a walk, and help you relieve your loneliness. I think it would be great
In my heart, I want to help her relieve the loneliness in her heart, but it also depends on how it develops later.
Guo Xueyan said a little lonely: Oh, what you said seems to be right. It seems funny to think about it. I actually want you to help me relieve my loneliness. It seems a bit difficult for you to let you relieve your loneliness for an old woman.
I immediately denied: No, nothing is difficult, I can see you often appreciate your beauty, it is my luck to say, don't talk about old women, you are not old, you can only say that you are mature, full of the charm of mature women
Do you really think so?
Of course it is true. If it is fake, I will try something. Do you still force yourself to eat and go out for a walk with you?
You said that, but thank you for your company, I have been here to have this drink
As we said that we did it again. At this time, each bottle of wine was half. It seemed that half a pound of wine was not enough. I asked her if she still drank it. She said she would not drink it and she had to go to work the next day. I remembered that we drank one bottle and asked for a small bottle. Because the next day was a weekend, we no longer forced it.
But the topic may be very enthusiastic. I suggested to find a place nearby to have tea and sit for a while, but she didn't refuse.
We ordered a pot of black tea and ordered two snacks
Unlike sitting in the lobby of the mutton shabu-shabu shop, the private room where you drink tea seems extremely quiet at this moment. Whether it is drinking and eating before, or going to the mountains together, Guo Xueyan and I are both in public places. This is the first time we live with her in a private space. There is an indescribable smell floating in the air.
Maybe my mind was a little distracted. When I poured her tea, it was poured too much. She retracted her hand so hot.
I quickly said sorry, then pulled two tissues, grabbed her arm with my left hand and let her reach over, and then wiped the water on her hands with the tissue.
I stretched my neck and blew her hand, asking her if it hurts. She said it was okay, but she didn't pull her hand back immediately. So I boldly held her hand with my left hand, stretched out my right hand and continued to gently stroke it while blowing it up. At the same time, I said with pain: If such a white and tender hand burns, I will be a sinner.
She then pulled her hand back with a little embarrassed, and I suddenly said with a whim: I'll blow your hand, this action, I suddenly remembered the kind of European etiquette. The man took the lady's hand and kissed her very gentlemanly.
Then I stood up and bent over, stretched out my right hand, and my palm was facing up. She shyly stretched out her hand on my hand. I bent down deeply and lowered my head and kissed her gently on the back of her hand.
Guo Xueyan quickly withdrew her hands, then covered her face with her hands and smiled wildly
I was wondering why she was laughing at. What was ridiculous about it? I asked her what was wrong with her.
She laughed for a while before saying: Ouch, I think it's so silly, I'm so terrified
I sat down and looked at her with a smile, looking at her smiling like a flower, looking at her blushing face, and looking at her breasts that were rising and falling with her breath because of her strong smile.
As I smiled, I found that her eyes became wet, shining, and like smoke
Then quickly put two arms on the table and buried their heads in their arms. There was no more sound or movement. They just breathed gently. The breathing sound seemed to be getting heavier and heavier, and the back of the shoulders seemed to be getting more and more obvious.
I got up and walked around the table and sat next to her, stretched out my arms around her shoulders, put my other hand on her arm, lowered my head to her head
I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to say
After a minute or two, I felt her breath smooth.
Guo Xueyan slowly raised her head and sat upright, staring at the table
Looking from the side, her eyelashes were dense and long, but wet strands were sticking together, and there were some wet marks on the corners of her eyes and eyelids. I pulled two tissues and said nothing. I gently wiped her eyelids and corners, and then used a little effort to hold her into my arms.
I also imagined how she would behave if my relationship with her became no longer normal
Is it an open and coquettish response?
She is obviously not that kind of woman; is she a stern and firm refutation?
She didn't do that, either
Her performance made me feel distressed and made me see some hope. At this moment, she must be in a state of tangled and uncomfortable.
I don't know if it was my appearance and getting along so embarrassing her. I have always been cautious and orderly getting closer and closer to her. No matter what purpose and pursuit I have, those things have been temporarily abandoned by me at this moment. She is like a heartbreaking little woman.
When Guo Xueyan calmed down, she looked at her phone and said it was getting late and we should all go back
After the two of them got up, I gently called Xueyan all over. She looked at me and asked what was wrong. I said: Xueyan, can I hug you?
She didn't say anything, just stood quietly. I walked forward two steps and opened my arms to hug her into my arms. She also gently hugged my waist with her arms.
Guo Xueyan is about 1.65 meters tall, and she is not much lower than me in high heeled boots. She put her chin on my shoulders.
I gently stroked her back and hoped she would be calmer
At this moment, such a mature and plump woman was hugged by me. I quietly felt the shape and temperature of this body. Her flesh was soft and full of heat. This softness was like a huge ball of cotton, as if it was about to wrap me, and this temperature was like a stove, as if it was about to melt me.
The pair of fleshy breasts were tightly pressed against my chest, squeezing me, as if there was a fire in my chest.
My right arm wrapped around her shoulders and hugged her tighter. I hope that the pair of breasts would be pressed tighter on my chest. My left arm stretched down to the lower part of her waist, and opened her hands wide. Half of her palms were still on her waist, and half of her palms were pressed above her buttocks.
The chest above felt the softness of her breasts, and the left hand below felt the curve below her waist
This ambiguous hug made my lower body gradually heat up and slowly expand until it gently pressed against her lower body
I said a little bit like a marrow and wisely: I really want to hold my body so full, I will never let go of it.
She broke away from my arms embarrassedly, pulled my finger and said: I'll let you hug you if you have the chance in the future
I was very excited for a moment. Thinking that there was still a chance in the future, I stopped worrying. I took her coat and put it on her from behind, then gently pulled her into my arms, reached out to the front and slowly buttoned her one by one.
Then I put on my coat and we left the private room together
When they were separated, she helped me to fix my collar and told me again not to drive, so I must find a driver to go back, and asked me to go back to the dormitory to tell her, then turned around and left
It was already half past ten years after returning to the dormitory. I quickly sent Guo Xueyan a WeChat message and told her that she was already lying on the bed.
I said: When I hugged you, I felt very warm and a little sweet
After I typed it, I thought about it and deleted it
I felt for a moment that maybe I didn’t need to interpret this hug more. She said she didn’t want me to make any idea about her. I think this is an attitude, and she let me hug it openly, which is also an attitude.
These two attitudes are, one is a sense of distance, and the other is intimate, which seems contradictory, but not contradictory.
I guess she allowed me to act like ambiguously, but she didn't want to face it in her heart, so she felt a sense of distance in her statement, but her behavior was rather vague.
It seems that people sometimes do this. A kind of words and deeds actually happen, but they need to discuss it. In fact, they don’t want to say it very much.
I sorted out my own ideas and thought that maybe I could not say anything to Guo Xueyan about her or something, but instead try more in my behaviors, let the atmosphere replace language, so that each other would not define something with language, but would experience it with heart
At the same time, it seems that she can give her a room for maneuver, because it will seem that she has not clearly stated what she can do or what she promises. When my behavior is unacceptable, she can refuse very well. I have no way to say anything, because at that time she can use words to express her objection attitude
Leave a way to behavior and a way to language, she can freely choose and switch
I was thinking that if she was really in this situation, then is this a strategy or a contradiction in her inner thoughts, which is unknown, but as long as I don't understand and clearly state something that defines each other's relationship, it may be easier for her to accept something.
I didn't wash up, so I went to bed and lie down and sent a message to Guo Xueyan: I've cleaned up and went to bed, are you going to bed? I won't have classes in the first two classes tomorrow morning, so I can sleep for a while. Although you don't have classes, you still have to go to work early. You can rest early.
She said she was ready to go to bed and asked me to go to bed early too
I can't sleep for a while, and I guess she might not be able to sleep right away.
I think she can't sleep because I think she is very entangled and struggling inside. There is no doubt that the relationship between us has clearly exceeded the limit of normal interaction between men and women, and it seems too close.
I can't sleep for a while because I'm guessing her mood at this moment
But I couldn't resist drinking at night, it was getting late, and I fell asleep unknowingly
When I woke up in the morning, I turned on my phone to see if Guo Xueyan had sent any messages. I found that my phone was off. I remembered that I fell asleep unconsciously at night and my phone was not plugged in to charge.
I quickly plugged in and charged, then got up and put on my clothes and went to wash up.
The phone can be turned on after charging in a few minutes
I saw that it was 9:30 and 10:20, but I didn't oversleep.
But unfortunately, Guo Xueyan didn't send any news either
I thought about it and she had classes in the last two sessions, so I sent her a message: I just got up, are you sleeping well at night?
She said lightly: It's okay, go and have breakfast
At this time, there was not much to eat at the cafeteria. There were only some leftover breakfast that had not been sold out, and they were all cold. I couldn't eat it in the middle of winter. I went out to eat outside the school and I was too lazy to run away, so I simply stopped eating it.
I want to send another message to Guo Xueyan, but I don't know what to send
Although I analyzed her thoughts at night, I was still guessing it. It is still unknown what will happen in the future. Since I was in a state of mind, I would know without thinking about it next time I met.
I had two classes in a daze. At noon, I thought about having an appointment with Guo Xueyan for dinner. I didn't ask if she had time on Friday night, but asked her directly what to eat on Friday night. It seemed that it was inevitable to have dinner together on Friday night.
She didn't refuse or say what to eat, but said that if it's okay, she would say it again, there are two days left.
She said something very tempting. I guess she might be struggling with something in her heart. If she doesn't want to go, she will find something to push me out. If she doesn't have much in her heart, she will agree to go to dinner.
But this at least gave me a signal that the door to continue dating him was not closed.
For the first time in my heart, I defined my meeting with her as a date
I haven't sent too many messages to Guo Xueyan these two days. I actually want to talk to her about my relationship with her, but I am afraid of causing her displeasure or avoidance, which will have a counterproductive effect. After all, I think it's like making her express her opinion, which will definitely make her embarrassed, so I kept holding on to it, and insisted on keeping myself steady and being closer when dating. She doesn't express her opinion, and can always understand her behavior.
At noon on Friday, she still didn't mention eating. At this time, I felt a little restless and asked her directly what she wanted to eat tonight.
She said anything is fine. I thought about it and threw this question to her. I said I was not familiar with the local area and asked her to find a quieter place.
Actually, what I was thinking about was not just a quiet place, but a private room without interruption like the place where I drank tea last time. I don’t know if she would think about it like that.
If she chose such a place, then she should either understand what I mean and accept my thoughts; or she might be mentally prepared to do something intimate, but she is afraid that eating will be bad in the hall where people come and go, so she is still more private.
After a while, she told me to take me to eat Japanese food, but that place was not easy to find. She said that she would pick me up when the time came, and told me that she could not drink this time, and that she was not convenient for her.
I know she is my aunt who can't drink when she comes
But then I thought about it again and felt something was wrong.
I seem to hear that the days before a woman came to my aunt, her physiological needs were obviously stronger than usual. So when I drank tea two nights ago, I hugged her. Is she able to accept the intimate behavior for a while to comfort her, or is she already having the same behavior in her heart, or is she a little bold after drinking at that time? This is unknown
I feel a little regretful. If I had acted more boldly that night, would she accept it?
These imaginations have no answers, but I have come to this point after thinking about how I have been with her these days. The span is too large and she is disgusted and avoids and alienates me. It is not worth it. I am not afraid of having a good meal. I cannot do it impulse and make mistakes.
Today she is in her menstrual period, and she may not be in good health and she will not drink alcohol. Let me see what her reaction will be when she wakes up tonight
She picked me up at around 6 pm, and finally turned around and arrived at the Japanese restaurant in an alley. She parked her car on the sidewalk opposite and we entered the store.
This store is indeed quieter, but the layout is not what I want. Although it is a private room, there are no doors in the private room, but they are covered with cloth curtains.
She was wearing it for the first time I saw her outfit by the river. When she went in, the two of them took off their shoes and sat on the mat. After ordering the dishes, they took off their shoes and sat on the mat.
I poured her a glass of water, she held the water cup with both hands and took a sip and stared at the cup all the thoughts
At this time, her cell phone rang. She took out her phone and looked at it and said: The epidemic in Xi'an is serious again. Your classmate said they will not let them go out of school and will not be able to make up for classes this week.
I quickly said with concern: Then please let your family pay attention, go out less if you have nothing to do, and take good care of your children when they go to school.
Guo Xueyan also said: You should also let your parents pay attention
I pretended to be a little regretful and said: Look at this, I guess I can't go back on New Year's Day, otherwise I'd probably be isolated if I come here.
Guo Xueyan comforted me: Then don’t run around, just stay here
Actually, what I am considering is that Guo Xueyan’s husband will definitely not be able to come back in a short period of time, and I have more opportunities to contact her. I was afraid that my inner joy would be revealed, so I deliberately frowned and said: Oh, I don’t know when the epidemic will be the beginning.
Don't think too much, at least it's okay here, take good care of yourself
I remembered something, so I took Guo Xueyan's hand and looked at it. She didn't pull her hand back but said it was okay, tell me not to worry
I rubbed my fingers gently on the back of her hand and whispered: Your skin is so good, it's quite smooth
She was embarrassed to retract her hand again
Because the epidemic in Xi'an is getting worse, during the meal, Guo Xueyan and I talked a lot about the epidemic
I didn't drink this meal, and it was only 7:40 after I finished eating. I wanted to get up and hug Guo Xueyan, but when I looked at this room, I just hung it with a curtain at the door. I just thought about it and it would be fine.
I'm mainly thinking about her. If she has concerns and doesn't let me hug her, it will inevitably be a bit disappointing
She sent me to the school gate just at eight o'clock. We were both sitting in this private space in the car. Although there were street lights outside, the light was dim after all. And because it was winter, it was cold and there were not so many people passing by outside.
I said it was still early, so I sat in the car for a while, and she turned off the fire without saying anything
I leaned slightly, pulled Guo Xueyan's hand over my left hand, and then covered it with my right hand to gently caress it.
For a few seconds we didn't say anything, and then I spoke first: Xueyan, you are really beautiful, you can't see enough
She doesn't seem to be very thoughtful about this: Alas, I'm a little worried about my child, the epidemic is getting worse and worse
I comforted her: It should be no big problem. In the past two years, it often happens everywhere from time to time, and it will pass soon. Don't worry too much.
I know that sometimes there are epidemics in other places, which feels very far away. However, this time it happened in Xi'an, it feels very close. I'm worried that your child, you should let your parents pay attention.
I said affectionately: Judging from your worry, I feel a little sorry for you. I thought about finding someone to help your child supplement English. It was a bit regretful.
Shaojie, thank you for this matter. The epidemic is something that no one can imagine. I will make up for it later.
Stop saying thank you, it is my honor to share your worries
She also sided her body to me, and put her other hand on my hand and said: I sometimes wonder these days, how could I know you that we are not in the same place? We are still so different in age. I am a primary school teacher, you are a college student, and there is no intersection in your career life, which is a bit wonderful.
I held both her hands in my hands and said: This is fate, I will cherish this fate.
She lowered her head embarrassedly and said: In fact, it’s not only wonderful to know you, but this feeling is also a bit strange.
So do you like this feeling?
I don't know, I can't figure it out
At this moment, the car was full of ambiguous atmosphere. I knew that she actually didn't reject this feeling in her heart, but it should be just as I guessed. She didn't want to discuss and express her opinion clearly.
It is impossible to resist. If we resist, we will not be able to sit in the car like this and hold hands. On the contrary, she will not be able to confirm this relationship clearly, which will make me think she is pushing something.
I need to give her a step: Then don't think about it, let it go
She nodded: Maybe this is the only way
Guo Xueyan's attitude made me know that I have a great opportunity to move forward a lot and far away from her, but I can't be too hasty. I need to let her heart accept it step by step, just like going up the stairs.
That night I praised her with bold and explicit words, and she finally accepted it. I thought that I should give her this kind of warmth, and I could also give some bold words from time to time. As long as I didn't discuss clearly what my relationship with her was, I think she would gradually become closer and closer to me until she was unreserved.
I not only want to give her the space to digest, but also need to add more fire from time to time to make fun of her.
The next day was Saturday, and I suggested where to go. She said that the epidemic in Xi'an is getting worse and worse, and many places here may also strengthen control. We went to the wetland park for a walk. Actually, I don't care. As long as I can stay alone with her and not be disturbed, I agree.
Before getting off the bus, I asked to hug her again. This time she stretched out her arms openly. Although it felt uncomfortable to hold the two seats between them through the armrest box, I didn't let go of it after just a hug. Instead, I said in her ear: Xueyan, I always say you are beautiful, do you know where you are the most beautiful?
you say
I think your butt is the most beautiful
She patted my back and then the two of them let go. I opened the door and got out of the car while asking her to drive slowly on the road. When I went back to send me a message, the two of them separated.
When I woke up in the morning, I turned on my phone and saw two messages from Guo Xueyan, one of which was sent at 3:30 in the morning: I was so thirsty, so I got up to drink water. I looked at the messages I sent to you in the evening. I really drank too much and told you that I was useless.
The other one was sent by nearly five o'clock in the morning: I thought about the things I sent to you, but I haven't fallen asleep. Oh, it's all your fault
I replied to her: I drank a lot yesterday? How did you rest? Is it uncomfortable? To be honest, I was a little worried at night. You drank so much wine and were alone at home.
Haha, it's okay, how about you catch a cold?
I don't feel anything anymore. I thought that you drank so much wine alone last night. If I were by your side, I could still take care of you.
Ouch, it feels very warm
Haha, I just think you must have felt uncomfortable at that time, I feel a little sorry for you
OK, thank you for your heartache
I thought of a scene
What scenario?
You lean in my arms, I will feed you water.
OK OK OK, what are you thinking about, go to class soon
During class, I couldn't help but send a message to Guo Xueyan: I was thinking, it would be great if I was a student in your class. I could see you often and see you in class, and I would definitely be full of intellectual beauty.
If you are my student, send me messages randomly and see if I won’t deal with you, you can do a good job in class, don’t send it, and I won’t reply if I send it.
I thought about it and didn’t always send it in class, otherwise she would think I was not doing my job properly. It was not until the get out of class was over that I sent another message to Guo Xueyan: I’m over, please tell me not to send a message to class. I at least have a chance. How do you send me a message to class?
I don't have classes, I'll have classes in the last two mornings
That was quite relaxing. By the way, we talked about things last night. Your friend said that you should pay attention to me. Now you are sober. Let me tell you what you think?
What do you want me to think?
I think your friend is right, you should pay attention to me, but it's not what they said
How to pay attention to it?
What they said was to be careful, what I said was to experience and feel me to browse you, haha
Get out! I won’t tell you anymore, go to your class
After another class, I changed to another classroom for the next two classes. While walking, I sent a WeChat message to Guo Xueyan: I was imagining you last night. After drinking too much, my face was flushed. I lay on the bed, feeling soft and soaked. I am a sleeping beauty.
The sweet words are coming again, it’s fine if my friends don’t say it. When they say it, I feel that I really have to pay attention to you so that you won’t make any random ideas.
What should I do? Are you hiding from me? Are you that afraid of me?
Of course I'm not afraid of you anymore, I'm still afraid that you are young and will be fine. You'd better go and have a good class. I'll talk about this topic next time I have the chance.
At noon, Guo Xueyan said she didn't sleep well at night and went home to make up for her sleep, so I didn't send her a message
Didn't say much in the afternoon
Until the last class is over, I asked Guo Xueyan what morning the week usually has no classes in the first two classes, she said Monday, Wednesday and Friday
It just so happened that I didn't have class on Wednesday morning, so I suggested that I have some meals and drinks together on Tuesday night.
Is it not possible for weekends? You are so anxious to have dinner with me. Isn’t it really a problem for me?
Look at what you said, why do I feel that your mind is being influenced by your friends? You are worried about having a meal. Anyway, you are fine, just having a meal together
Well, then see you tomorrow night. What do you want to eat? I'll find a place to
What you eat doesn't matter, just have some wine and chat with you
We made an appointment to have mutton hotpot near Guo Xueyan's house. I bought a bottle of wine next to me and went to the store to wait. She arrived in a few minutes.
This time she tied her hair up and wrapped it around her head, making her neck look very slender
Wearing a dark yellow woolen coat and a pair of black suede boots underneath
After she took off her coat, I saw that she was wearing the flesh-colored tight sweater inside, and her chest was tight and a pair of jeans underneath. I saw that the black boots she was wearing were very long, almost half of her thighs on it, which looked very sexy in my eyes.
Sitting down and taking a few sips, I started to tease Guo Xueyan again: This is the first time we have eaten and drunk on weekends.
Yes, by the way, can't you wait for the weekend?
I wanted to wait, but because of something, I was a little anxious
What's up?
I want to hurry up and eat more with you. Your husband has been on a business trip for so long, and he has no chance when he comes back
What opportunities are not? What do you want to do so much? Oh, by the way, there is an epidemic in Xi'an, please let your parents pay attention
Well, there are only a few cases, there should be nothing. I remember that you talked to me yesterday morning and had the chance to talk about that topic. Then let me talk about it today.
She seemed to be deliberately pretending to be stupid: What topic?
Didn’t your friend say I want to fuck you? Let you pay attention to what you think?
Maybe she was a little embarrassed to talk about this topic in person: Didn’t I send you so many messages that night? I told you all
That's what you said after drinking, your mind must have been messed up at that time.
Then I'm drinking now, and I'm talking about alcohol. I'll talk about it next time I don't drink.
I'm not willing to give in: This is different. You must have drunk too much that night, and you only took a sip.
Well, let me think about it again and tell you later
I no longer chase after me. I may wait for a while, maybe with the help of a little alcohol, or maybe she has figured out her ideas and should be better expressed.
Because she accepted my bolder praise, I began to comment on her outfit: I think your figure is good, I think your outfit is pretty good, it is more slim and can show off your good figure well
So, do you think it looks good?
Well, yes, how do you say it, it changed my cognition
What cognition?
In the past, I thought that women may wear less in summer, how about the things they look like here and there? They don’t look that good in winter. Don’t laugh at me. That’s what I think. But for you, I found that you can wear sexy in winter, but I think at least more than half of the factors are because you have a good figure, otherwise you will look bloated.
Is that true? I am really good at speaking, actually I don’t pursue any sexy intentions. I just like to wear slim clothes, and the feeling of covering is stronger when I put it on my body
But I think it is quite a test of your figure. If you are too thin, you can't hold it up well. If you are too fat, you can't wear it tightly. In fact, your figure is still better.
Haha, although I know that my external conditions are OK, but I am still a little dizzy when you always praise me
If you are not good-looking, I always say that to you, which is an insult. The key is that who makes you a sexy and beautiful mature woman?
She gave me a blank look: I don't know if you really have aesthetic vision or deliberately give me a ecstasy soup
What if I say, it's not
None? What is that?
I just don't understand aesthetics very much, and of course I don't give you a ecstasy soup. I just think that you have a good figure and good clothes. I think that this is like seeing a painting that looks good, but I definitely can't tell you how to draw it.
You said this, and I think it's normal. If you understand it very well, I'll look at you differently
How to look at each other?
That means you are spending time with women for a long time and studying outfits together, right?
Haha, it seems that's the case, but then again, I don't necessarily know so much even if I spend time with you all day. After all, this is determined by your external conditions. If you look good, no one can control it.
Speaking of this, I suddenly thought of something and laughed out loud. Guo Xueyan asked me what I laughed at.
I said with a little smirk: Your husband is very happy and sexy and charming to marry a wife like you, your husband is very happy and sexy~~Hahaha
Guo Xueyan was anxious: Let you talk nonsense, let you talk nonsense
While talking, kicking me under the table
I quickly clamped her feet with both legs. She wanted to pull them back but couldn't.
I was ashamed and anxious as soon as I was holding my face red
She kicked me with her other foot, and I let it go
Before we knew it, we had already drunk half of our second glass of wine. I felt that each other was getting drunk a little. I wanted to ask her if she had any questions, but I didn't ask directly, but joked with her first to lead to the topic: I suddenly thought of a possibility. Your friend said that I might want to fuck you, so let you pay attention. I guess they are jealous of you. You are so beautiful, so they are jealous of you a lot. In addition, there are people pursuing you, so I must be even more unbalanced.
Just stop talking nonsense, do I know my friends or do you know? But I do have my own ideas about this matter
Well, you're finally willing to talk, what do you think
I'm actually thinking from your perspective. To be honest, I'm not worthy of your feelings. This thing is beautiful, but it's also very painful. If you have that idea but cannot get what you want, it's a torment for you. I think you are pretty good and have helped me a lot. If you had the idea of another woman, I don't want you to do that. I don't want you to suffer that kind of torment. Really
On the one hand, I thought to myself, if I am soaking you, as long as you follow me, I will not suffer that kind of torture. On the other hand, I feel that Guo Xueyan is calm and kind. Her first reaction is not how to escape from me and avoid me to eliminate something, but to comfort me from my perspective. I was a little moved for a moment and raised my cup and said: Xueyan, you said it very well. First of all, consider my feelings and torture. Thank you.
After drinking wine, she put down the cup, and she continued: In addition to considering the torment you endured, then the relationship between us. Objectively speaking, I am a married woman. I often eat and drink alone with you. This is not good in itself, but we still have normal relationships. I also like this feeling. If you say you are soaking me or something but can't get it, you feel distressed and I'm not feeling that we have become like that. If we lose this kind of relationship, I will feel that it's a pity.
This time she picked up the cup and drank with me. She continued to tell the story: Of course, it was me in the end. I said that I am still satisfied with my current family and work. I am not saying how serious I am. There will be a little turmoil in my heart from time to time to imagine the romantic passion of extramaritality, but these things cannot accompany me for the rest of my life. Family is something that can protect me for the rest of my life. You also understand that what is more important. I cannot lose eternal things for the sake of temporary pursuit.
I showed awe-inspiring attitude, raised my cup and touched Guo Xueyan, and then both of them drank it all in one go
After pouring a bottle of wine, we were all half a cup
I also said calmly: Xueyan, I think you said it very well and comprehensively. I said, talked about me, talked about our relationship, and said that you are like what you said just now. We feel good now. I also like this feeling very much. In fact, if you say that, there is no need for your friend to remind you of anything, what I have inappropriate words and deeds, as long as you are not happy, you will pay attention and find a way to resolve it. I have not pursued it at all. I think what your friend said to you has triggered some associations in my mind.
What association?
Don't laugh at me. When I saw you say your friend asked you to be careful when I sucked you, I was thinking, what it feels like to fall in love with such a sexy and charming mature woman? Haha, don't laugh at me. I'm naive. If your friend doesn't say it, I've never thought about it before.
That means my friend didn't remind me, but you, right?
Let me say this, do you remember that in "Water Margin", Lin Chong grabbed Wang Lun and held a knife, Wu Yong was there to stir up the flames and said that he would never hurt the life of Leader Wang. This stimulated Lin Chong to kill Wang Lun. Now I feel that your friend is like Wu Yong, saying that he must not fuck Guo Xueyan, hahaha
Guo Xueyan couldn't help laughing: Hahaha, you really know how to associate, but to be honest, I didn't think about this problem. When they said that, how could I be careful of you? You said, should I be careful about you?
The alcohol comes up and the atmosphere is quite warm. I boldly test it: Then don’t be careful of me, let me try it out, hehe
I said, gently stretched my feet over and moved to Guo Xueyan's feet together
She kicked my feet away and said: What are you thinking about when you are so messy about your mind!
Do you want to know what I think? Let's take a sip and I'll tell you
We touched each other again, and after drinking, I put down the glass, I said seriously and pretended to be affectionately: I also sorted out my thoughts, I thought you, I felt that your child was not around, and my husband often went on business trips, and could eat with you from time to time, go out for a walk, and help you relieve your loneliness. I think it would be great
In my heart, I want to help her relieve the loneliness in her heart, but it also depends on how it develops later.
Guo Xueyan said a little lonely: Oh, what you said seems to be right. It seems funny to think about it. I actually want you to help me relieve my loneliness. It seems a bit difficult for you to let you relieve your loneliness for an old woman.
I immediately denied: No, nothing is difficult, I can see you often appreciate your beauty, it is my luck to say, don't talk about old women, you are not old, you can only say that you are mature, full of the charm of mature women
Do you really think so?
Of course it is true. If it is fake, I will try something. Do you still force yourself to eat and go out for a walk with you?
You said that, but thank you for your company, I have been here to have this drink
As we said that we did it again. At this time, each bottle of wine was half. It seemed that half a pound of wine was not enough. I asked her if she still drank it. She said she would not drink it and she had to go to work the next day. I remembered that we drank one bottle and asked for a small bottle. Because the next day was a weekend, we no longer forced it.
But the topic may be very enthusiastic. I suggested to find a place nearby to have tea and sit for a while, but she didn't refuse.
We ordered a pot of black tea and ordered two snacks
Unlike sitting in the lobby of the mutton shabu-shabu shop, the private room where you drink tea seems extremely quiet at this moment. Whether it is drinking and eating before, or going to the mountains together, Guo Xueyan and I are both in public places. This is the first time we live with her in a private space. There is an indescribable smell floating in the air.
Maybe my mind was a little distracted. When I poured her tea, it was poured too much. She retracted her hand so hot.
I quickly said sorry, then pulled two tissues, grabbed her arm with my left hand and let her reach over, and then wiped the water on her hands with the tissue.
I stretched my neck and blew her hand, asking her if it hurts. She said it was okay, but she didn't pull her hand back immediately. So I boldly held her hand with my left hand, stretched out my right hand and continued to gently stroke it while blowing it up. At the same time, I said with pain: If such a white and tender hand burns, I will be a sinner.
She then pulled her hand back with a little embarrassed, and I suddenly said with a whim: I'll blow your hand, this action, I suddenly remembered the kind of European etiquette. The man took the lady's hand and kissed her very gentlemanly.
Then I stood up and bent over, stretched out my right hand, and my palm was facing up. She shyly stretched out her hand on my hand. I bent down deeply and lowered my head and kissed her gently on the back of her hand.
Guo Xueyan quickly withdrew her hands, then covered her face with her hands and smiled wildly
I was wondering why she was laughing at. What was ridiculous about it? I asked her what was wrong with her.
She laughed for a while before saying: Ouch, I think it's so silly, I'm so terrified
I sat down and looked at her with a smile, looking at her smiling like a flower, looking at her blushing face, and looking at her breasts that were rising and falling with her breath because of her strong smile.
As I smiled, I found that her eyes became wet, shining, and like smoke
Then quickly put two arms on the table and buried their heads in their arms. There was no more sound or movement. They just breathed gently. The breathing sound seemed to be getting heavier and heavier, and the back of the shoulders seemed to be getting more and more obvious.
I got up and walked around the table and sat next to her, stretched out my arms around her shoulders, put my other hand on her arm, lowered my head to her head
I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to say
After a minute or two, I felt her breath smooth.
Guo Xueyan slowly raised her head and sat upright, staring at the table
Looking from the side, her eyelashes were dense and long, but wet strands were sticking together, and there were some wet marks on the corners of her eyes and eyelids. I pulled two tissues and said nothing. I gently wiped her eyelids and corners, and then used a little effort to hold her into my arms.
I also imagined how she would behave if my relationship with her became no longer normal
Is it an open and coquettish response?
She is obviously not that kind of woman; is she a stern and firm refutation?
She didn't do that, either
Her performance made me feel distressed and made me see some hope. At this moment, she must be in a state of tangled and uncomfortable.
I don't know if it was my appearance and getting along so embarrassing her. I have always been cautious and orderly getting closer and closer to her. No matter what purpose and pursuit I have, those things have been temporarily abandoned by me at this moment. She is like a heartbreaking little woman.
When Guo Xueyan calmed down, she looked at her phone and said it was getting late and we should all go back
After the two of them got up, I gently called Xueyan all over. She looked at me and asked what was wrong. I said: Xueyan, can I hug you?
She didn't say anything, just stood quietly. I walked forward two steps and opened my arms to hug her into my arms. She also gently hugged my waist with her arms.
Guo Xueyan is about 1.65 meters tall, and she is not much lower than me in high heeled boots. She put her chin on my shoulders.
I gently stroked her back and hoped she would be calmer
At this moment, such a mature and plump woman was hugged by me. I quietly felt the shape and temperature of this body. Her flesh was soft and full of heat. This softness was like a huge ball of cotton, as if it was about to wrap me, and this temperature was like a stove, as if it was about to melt me.
The pair of fleshy breasts were tightly pressed against my chest, squeezing me, as if there was a fire in my chest.
My right arm wrapped around her shoulders and hugged her tighter. I hope that the pair of breasts would be pressed tighter on my chest. My left arm stretched down to the lower part of her waist, and opened her hands wide. Half of her palms were still on her waist, and half of her palms were pressed above her buttocks.
The chest above felt the softness of her breasts, and the left hand below felt the curve below her waist
This ambiguous hug made my lower body gradually heat up and slowly expand until it gently pressed against her lower body
I said a little bit like a marrow and wisely: I really want to hold my body so full, I will never let go of it.
She broke away from my arms embarrassedly, pulled my finger and said: I'll let you hug you if you have the chance in the future
I was very excited for a moment. Thinking that there was still a chance in the future, I stopped worrying. I took her coat and put it on her from behind, then gently pulled her into my arms, reached out to the front and slowly buttoned her one by one.
Then I put on my coat and we left the private room together
When they were separated, she helped me to fix my collar and told me again not to drive, so I must find a driver to go back, and asked me to go back to the dormitory to tell her, then turned around and left
It was already half past ten years after returning to the dormitory. I quickly sent Guo Xueyan a WeChat message and told her that she was already lying on the bed.
I said: When I hugged you, I felt very warm and a little sweet
After I typed it, I thought about it and deleted it
I felt for a moment that maybe I didn’t need to interpret this hug more. She said she didn’t want me to make any idea about her. I think this is an attitude, and she let me hug it openly, which is also an attitude.
These two attitudes are, one is a sense of distance, and the other is intimate, which seems contradictory, but not contradictory.
I guess she allowed me to act like ambiguously, but she didn't want to face it in her heart, so she felt a sense of distance in her statement, but her behavior was rather vague.
It seems that people sometimes do this. A kind of words and deeds actually happen, but they need to discuss it. In fact, they don’t want to say it very much.
I sorted out my own ideas and thought that maybe I could not say anything to Guo Xueyan about her or something, but instead try more in my behaviors, let the atmosphere replace language, so that each other would not define something with language, but would experience it with heart
At the same time, it seems that she can give her a room for maneuver, because it will seem that she has not clearly stated what she can do or what she promises. When my behavior is unacceptable, she can refuse very well. I have no way to say anything, because at that time she can use words to express her objection attitude
Leave a way to behavior and a way to language, she can freely choose and switch
I was thinking that if she was really in this situation, then is this a strategy or a contradiction in her inner thoughts, which is unknown, but as long as I don't understand and clearly state something that defines each other's relationship, it may be easier for her to accept something.
I didn't wash up, so I went to bed and lie down and sent a message to Guo Xueyan: I've cleaned up and went to bed, are you going to bed? I won't have classes in the first two classes tomorrow morning, so I can sleep for a while. Although you don't have classes, you still have to go to work early. You can rest early.
She said she was ready to go to bed and asked me to go to bed early too
I can't sleep for a while, and I guess she might not be able to sleep right away.
I think she can't sleep because I think she is very entangled and struggling inside. There is no doubt that the relationship between us has clearly exceeded the limit of normal interaction between men and women, and it seems too close.
I can't sleep for a while because I'm guessing her mood at this moment
But I couldn't resist drinking at night, it was getting late, and I fell asleep unknowingly
When I woke up in the morning, I turned on my phone to see if Guo Xueyan had sent any messages. I found that my phone was off. I remembered that I fell asleep unconsciously at night and my phone was not plugged in to charge.
I quickly plugged in and charged, then got up and put on my clothes and went to wash up.
The phone can be turned on after charging in a few minutes
I saw that it was 9:30 and 10:20, but I didn't oversleep.
But unfortunately, Guo Xueyan didn't send any news either
I thought about it and she had classes in the last two sessions, so I sent her a message: I just got up, are you sleeping well at night?
She said lightly: It's okay, go and have breakfast
At this time, there was not much to eat at the cafeteria. There were only some leftover breakfast that had not been sold out, and they were all cold. I couldn't eat it in the middle of winter. I went out to eat outside the school and I was too lazy to run away, so I simply stopped eating it.
I want to send another message to Guo Xueyan, but I don't know what to send
Although I analyzed her thoughts at night, I was still guessing it. It is still unknown what will happen in the future. Since I was in a state of mind, I would know without thinking about it next time I met.
I had two classes in a daze. At noon, I thought about having an appointment with Guo Xueyan for dinner. I didn't ask if she had time on Friday night, but asked her directly what to eat on Friday night. It seemed that it was inevitable to have dinner together on Friday night.
She didn't refuse or say what to eat, but said that if it's okay, she would say it again, there are two days left.
She said something very tempting. I guess she might be struggling with something in her heart. If she doesn't want to go, she will find something to push me out. If she doesn't have much in her heart, she will agree to go to dinner.
But this at least gave me a signal that the door to continue dating him was not closed.
For the first time in my heart, I defined my meeting with her as a date
I haven't sent too many messages to Guo Xueyan these two days. I actually want to talk to her about my relationship with her, but I am afraid of causing her displeasure or avoidance, which will have a counterproductive effect. After all, I think it's like making her express her opinion, which will definitely make her embarrassed, so I kept holding on to it, and insisted on keeping myself steady and being closer when dating. She doesn't express her opinion, and can always understand her behavior.
At noon on Friday, she still didn't mention eating. At this time, I felt a little restless and asked her directly what she wanted to eat tonight.
She said anything is fine. I thought about it and threw this question to her. I said I was not familiar with the local area and asked her to find a quieter place.
Actually, what I was thinking about was not just a quiet place, but a private room without interruption like the place where I drank tea last time. I don’t know if she would think about it like that.
If she chose such a place, then she should either understand what I mean and accept my thoughts; or she might be mentally prepared to do something intimate, but she is afraid that eating will be bad in the hall where people come and go, so she is still more private.
After a while, she told me to take me to eat Japanese food, but that place was not easy to find. She said that she would pick me up when the time came, and told me that she could not drink this time, and that she was not convenient for her.
I know she is my aunt who can't drink when she comes
But then I thought about it again and felt something was wrong.
I seem to hear that the days before a woman came to my aunt, her physiological needs were obviously stronger than usual. So when I drank tea two nights ago, I hugged her. Is she able to accept the intimate behavior for a while to comfort her, or is she already having the same behavior in her heart, or is she a little bold after drinking at that time? This is unknown
I feel a little regretful. If I had acted more boldly that night, would she accept it?
These imaginations have no answers, but I have come to this point after thinking about how I have been with her these days. The span is too large and she is disgusted and avoids and alienates me. It is not worth it. I am not afraid of having a good meal. I cannot do it impulse and make mistakes.
Today she is in her menstrual period, and she may not be in good health and she will not drink alcohol. Let me see what her reaction will be when she wakes up tonight
She picked me up at around 6 pm, and finally turned around and arrived at the Japanese restaurant in an alley. She parked her car on the sidewalk opposite and we entered the store.
This store is indeed quieter, but the layout is not what I want. Although it is a private room, there are no doors in the private room, but they are covered with cloth curtains.
She was wearing it for the first time I saw her outfit by the river. When she went in, the two of them took off their shoes and sat on the mat. After ordering the dishes, they took off their shoes and sat on the mat.
I poured her a glass of water, she held the water cup with both hands and took a sip and stared at the cup all the thoughts
At this time, her cell phone rang. She took out her phone and looked at it and said: The epidemic in Xi'an is serious again. Your classmate said they will not let them go out of school and will not be able to make up for classes this week.
I quickly said with concern: Then please let your family pay attention, go out less if you have nothing to do, and take good care of your children when they go to school.
Guo Xueyan also said: You should also let your parents pay attention
I pretended to be a little regretful and said: Look at this, I guess I can't go back on New Year's Day, otherwise I'd probably be isolated if I come here.
Guo Xueyan comforted me: Then don’t run around, just stay here
Actually, what I am considering is that Guo Xueyan’s husband will definitely not be able to come back in a short period of time, and I have more opportunities to contact her. I was afraid that my inner joy would be revealed, so I deliberately frowned and said: Oh, I don’t know when the epidemic will be the beginning.
Don't think too much, at least it's okay here, take good care of yourself
I remembered something, so I took Guo Xueyan's hand and looked at it. She didn't pull her hand back but said it was okay, tell me not to worry
I rubbed my fingers gently on the back of her hand and whispered: Your skin is so good, it's quite smooth
She was embarrassed to retract her hand again
Because the epidemic in Xi'an is getting worse, during the meal, Guo Xueyan and I talked a lot about the epidemic
I didn't drink this meal, and it was only 7:40 after I finished eating. I wanted to get up and hug Guo Xueyan, but when I looked at this room, I just hung it with a curtain at the door. I just thought about it and it would be fine.
I'm mainly thinking about her. If she has concerns and doesn't let me hug her, it will inevitably be a bit disappointing
She sent me to the school gate just at eight o'clock. We were both sitting in this private space in the car. Although there were street lights outside, the light was dim after all. And because it was winter, it was cold and there were not so many people passing by outside.
I said it was still early, so I sat in the car for a while, and she turned off the fire without saying anything
I leaned slightly, pulled Guo Xueyan's hand over my left hand, and then covered it with my right hand to gently caress it.
For a few seconds we didn't say anything, and then I spoke first: Xueyan, you are really beautiful, you can't see enough
She doesn't seem to be very thoughtful about this: Alas, I'm a little worried about my child, the epidemic is getting worse and worse
I comforted her: It should be no big problem. In the past two years, it often happens everywhere from time to time, and it will pass soon. Don't worry too much.
I know that sometimes there are epidemics in other places, which feels very far away. However, this time it happened in Xi'an, it feels very close. I'm worried that your child, you should let your parents pay attention.
I said affectionately: Judging from your worry, I feel a little sorry for you. I thought about finding someone to help your child supplement English. It was a bit regretful.
Shaojie, thank you for this matter. The epidemic is something that no one can imagine. I will make up for it later.
Stop saying thank you, it is my honor to share your worries
She also sided her body to me, and put her other hand on my hand and said: I sometimes wonder these days, how could I know you that we are not in the same place? We are still so different in age. I am a primary school teacher, you are a college student, and there is no intersection in your career life, which is a bit wonderful.
I held both her hands in my hands and said: This is fate, I will cherish this fate.
She lowered her head embarrassedly and said: In fact, it’s not only wonderful to know you, but this feeling is also a bit strange.
So do you like this feeling?
I don't know, I can't figure it out
At this moment, the car was full of ambiguous atmosphere. I knew that she actually didn't reject this feeling in her heart, but it should be just as I guessed. She didn't want to discuss and express her opinion clearly.
It is impossible to resist. If we resist, we will not be able to sit in the car like this and hold hands. On the contrary, she will not be able to confirm this relationship clearly, which will make me think she is pushing something.
I need to give her a step: Then don't think about it, let it go
She nodded: Maybe this is the only way
Guo Xueyan's attitude made me know that I have a great opportunity to move forward a lot and far away from her, but I can't be too hasty. I need to let her heart accept it step by step, just like going up the stairs.
That night I praised her with bold and explicit words, and she finally accepted it. I thought that I should give her this kind of warmth, and I could also give some bold words from time to time. As long as I didn't discuss clearly what my relationship with her was, I think she would gradually become closer and closer to me until she was unreserved.
I not only want to give her the space to digest, but also need to add more fire from time to time to make fun of her.
The next day was Saturday, and I suggested where to go. She said that the epidemic in Xi'an is getting worse and worse, and many places here may also strengthen control. We went to the wetland park for a walk. Actually, I don't care. As long as I can stay alone with her and not be disturbed, I agree.
Before getting off the bus, I asked to hug her again. This time she stretched out her arms openly. Although it felt uncomfortable to hold the two seats between them through the armrest box, I didn't let go of it after just a hug. Instead, I said in her ear: Xueyan, I always say you are beautiful, do you know where you are the most beautiful?
you say
I think your butt is the most beautiful
She patted my back and then the two of them let go. I opened the door and got out of the car while asking her to drive slowly on the road. When I went back to send me a message, the two of them separated.
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