We were going to drive back to Guangzhou from Gao, but I was actually quite happy. The hotel bed was sizzling and twisting. I was embarrassed to have sex there. I could hear it clearly next door. Although I spoke very lustful, I was still very conservative in this regard.
Moreover, Xing Lu said he didn't have to go to Shenzhen because it was difficult for them to win this mark, so he didn't have to worry about preparing.
While driving, Xing Lu sighed that the sales of the company called Xie Yu, who is responsible for Shenzhen business, is much harder than Song Tong to deal with. This time he lost to him.
I asked Xing Lu, what kind of person is that Xie Yu, I was a little curious. Those who can beat Xing Lu should be very, very powerful salespersons.
Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, as if he was reluctant to say it. I said considerately: If you can't say anything, forget it, I'm not that curious.
Xing Lu said: Forget it, let’s tell you, it’s good that you know these things.
Well, there must be something very dirty again. Oh, I really, I'm asking about the sales story for nothing. There is no bad thing behind that sales.
Xing Lu said quietly: My position as a department manager was originally from Xie Yu. He wanted to skip it at that time, but later he failed to pass the background review. Then he promoted me internally. In terms of strength, I am indeed not as good as him.
I'm curious: Why didn't the background review pass?
Xing Lu said: She was born too poor and did everything she could to succeed. She started out as a front desk and had her current achievements. She was said to have been sleeping all the way.
I was surprised and said: The name Xie Yu turned out to be a girl? No wonder you were so worried when I was looking for a job, and I was afraid that I would eventually go to sales. Is it because I saw her?
Xing Lu nodded: She is just one of them. In fact, female salesmen do customer relationships and generally do not do as deep as male salesmen.
I said: I know, you told me that customer leaders are usually men, and female salesmen cannot go to prostitution with customers like male salesmen.
Xing Lu nodded: Then why do you think she has a deeper relationship than a male salesperson?
I was a little surprised, and then a thought flashed and a chill suddenly appeared on my back: Xing Lu, are you saying that she was having sex with a client?
Xing Lu nodded: She is very beautiful, more beautiful than you. She not only sleeps with customers, but also sleeps with her own agent boss. In a certain project, they even play 3P together.
I yelled: 3P? Is it the one that comes up and down, or the one that separates one end and one end?
Xing Lu was speechless: How could I know? During the background investigation, what a colleague in her previous company said, that person could not know so carefully. Moreover, Huihui, your focus is too strange.
I said innocently: I'm just curious. Is there really anyone who is like inserting two holes in A-film?
Xing Lu said: I don’t know, I can’t accept it anyway, and I can’t accept it either.
I nodded: I can't accept it either
Xing Lu suddenly reacted: Huihui, I found that I have been talking to you recently, and in the end, I can always be led to sexual intercourse by you.
I smiled and said: Because you are so awesome, I am almost lustful by you
Xing Lu smiled proudly, man, this is true, this is true in the novel, this is true, men have the strongest vanity in this regard
However, I said in my heart: Xing Lu, I just like having sex with you alone, I will never accept other men touching me
Then, I suddenly remembered that when I met Xing Lu for the first time, I mistakenly thought that he wanted to buy me for sexual bribery. I felt scared. Fortunately, Xing Lu was not that kind of person.
Back in Guangzhou, Xinglu immediately started receiving emails, reviewing bid documents, and then asked engineers and agents to hold a meeting tomorrow to discuss strategies and prepare bid documents.
I'm a little curious: Didn't you say that the project has been lost? Why do you have to spend 3,000 yuan to buy a bid? And you have to spend so much effort to prepare a bid?
Xing Lu said: The budget for this project is more than 5 million. If I participate in the bidding, Xie Yu will eventually invest about 3 million. If I don’t participate in the bidding, she will invest about 5 million, so I have to come and invest.
I said: Isn’t this harming others and not doing good for yourself?
Xing Lu smiled and shook his head: It's not the first. I threw down the bid price, and Xie Yu couldn't give the user leader enough kickbacks. Even if she sleeps with the leader, there will be problems with her relationship. If she doesn't have enough real money, then she will not be able to make this customer a solid piece. We may have a second chance for the subsequent projects. The H company is different from us. They manage more local languages and do the current project investment directly from the profits of the previous project. I have to cut off this line. If this order really makes her profit a million, she will have enough capital to attack other advantageous customers.
My mind was almost stopped listening. Forget it, I really shouldn't know these things. The more I listened, the worse I felt, the worse I felt.
Xing Lu, you guys, with such high IQ, why are you using this kind of conspiracy and intrigue? How tiring
Xing Lu kept calling for the bid for review at night. At around 10 o'clock, he asked me to sleep first and not wait for him.
I know that at this time, he should have no intention of having sex, so he is sensible and does not force him.
Actually, I don’t have much intention to have sex. Today, Xing Lu told Xie Yu’s story, which made me very shocked. I was a little scared. My family is also very poor. If I hadn’t known Xing Lu, I would not have found a job like a real school. I guess it would be a front desk in the end, but how can I live in Guangzhou as a front desk.
Although I firmly told Xing Lu that I would not do sales, if I can’t support myself, or if the person I marry is very little income and cannot provide my children with normal growth and education, will I still stick to the idea that I can’t do anything?
More than half a year ago, I could sell online for Susu. In the future, if I want to survive and have children, can I really stick to my body?
I was thinking randomly, feeling so cold, and I wanted to hold Xing Lu, but Xing Lu was afraid of disturbing me, so I took my laptop to work in the living room, and I couldn't affect him.
I thought stupidly again. I heard that a single room rent in Shenzhen is more than 2,000 yuan a month. If I can’t pay the rent next month, I can get a project and earn tens of thousands of yuan at this time. Will I do it?
If I stayed in Guangzhou, became a full-time housewife, and gave birth to Xing Lu, what should I do if Xing Lu suddenly lost his job? What should I do if he drinks and stays up late every day and suddenly becomes ineffective? I don’t know anything. How can I support my family at that time?
Alas, I really shouldn't have asked Xie Yu about things today. My psychological quality is not bad. I turned on the bedside lamp, found a text I disliked the most and started memorizing. Finally, I slowly got sleepy and threw down the book and fell asleep.
Then, I had a very terrible dream. I dreamed that Xing Lu finally gave me to one of his clients. The man was very fierce and bad. He grabbed me and refused to let me move. He wanted to rape me. I kicked him hard with my legs and cried and said no.
Then, I woke up from crying and found myself lying in Xing Lu's arms. Fortunately, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu.
Xing Lu asked worriedly: Huihui, what's wrong? He has a nightmare?
Well, I said aggrievedly, then turned around and hugged Xing Lu, and said to Xing Lu in tears: Xing Lu, want me, try my best
Xing Lu was a little confused. I saw that he didn't respond, so he got into the quilt, pulled out his underwear, and sucked his cock hard.
When the penis became hard, I took off my underwear, turned over and sat on Xing Lu, and sat down with my penis. It hurt so much. I didn't seem to be wet at all. It hurts very much. I frowned and sat down hard.
At the end, I turned Xing Lu and asked him to turn over and press me. It seemed that only when he was pressed under me would I feel that sense of security.
Xing Lu seemed to find that I was not wet, and my movements were very light and slow, and I still sobbed: Xing Lu, don’t worry about me, you use your strength
Xing Lu said helplessly: Huihui, I feel very painful too
I finally sniffed, burst into laughter, and then continued to persist: Xing Lu, ask me hard, hug me tightly, crush me
Xing Lu nodded, hugged me tightly, and his lower body began to go in and out quickly. I put everything aside and soon reached the peak. Xing Lu did not restrain himself. Seeing that I was here, he ejaculated quickly.
I hugged Xing Lu and refused to let him leave. Although I was almost suffocated by his big guy, I didn't want to let go until his penis narrowed and slipped out of my cave.
I went to the bathroom to clean myself, wiped my face with a wet towel, and came back to get into Xing Lu's arms, asking him to hug me tightly
Xing Lu is very related: Huihui, what's wrong
I hesitated to tell my nightmare, and then the random thoughts after hearing Xie Yu's story.
Xing Lu looked at me with care and kissed me gently, telling me not to be afraid
I suddenly sobbed again: Xing Lu, I want to go back to the actual school to teach... I am scared... Yes, what I saw around Xing Lu scared me. It seems that only when I return to Huizhou, only the work of the school teacher, the place where I can turn a blind eye to the outside world, is my safe haven, and makes me feel at ease
Xing Lu said: OK, I will send you back tomorrow, don’t be afraid
I uttered, got into Xing Lu's arms, and then said to Xing Lu: Don't look down on Xie Yu, just like don't look down on smelling. When a woman is very poor, she will be really afraid. She must have her own suffering. No matter how lewd a woman is, she will not want to have sex with someone she doesn't like.
Xing Lu smiled: I'm about to lose two special projects to her in a row, how dare I look down on her
I said no, and continued: Xing Lu, if I really marry you, don’t let me quit, okay? I have inquired about the salary of the actual school. If the worst thing happens, my income can at least ensure that we live in poverty. I guarantee that when you are not by my side, you will never have a fucking affair.
Xing Lu nodded and said no, but just hugged me very tightly. I felt very safe and warm, and then I went to sleep with confidence.
The next day, after breakfast, Xing Lu said to me: Huihui, I'm afraid I can't get out of here today. I'll find a driver to take you back. I'll go see you after the business is over here.
I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized that it was because I wanted to go back to Huizhou. I quickly shook my head: No, I won't go back, I want to stay here with you
Xing Lu was strange: Didn’t you say you wanted to go back last night?
I shook my head and pretended to be relaxed: I will be more sensitive at night and will think randomly. Sometimes what I think is ridiculous, it will be fine during the day. Don't take it too seriously.
Xing Lu looked incredible, maybe even boys won't do this
However, I stayed, not because I thought the thoughts last night were ridiculous, those thoughts were very real, but I had the courage to face them during the day.
Xing Road is really good. No. 4-7. He goes out early and returns late every day, but he promises to come back before I go to bed and have sex with me, so that I can relax and sleep in his arms.
On the evening of the 8th, Xing Lu came back and said that Xie Yu and the others won the bid for 2.78 million. I was a little worried. According to Xing Lu, Xie Yu personally lost 300,000-500,000 kickbacks for this order. Isn’t that a mortal revenge?
Why do you mess with such a woman
Xing Lu didn't care: In the business world, it was a matter of life and death, and there was nothing we could do about it.
Oh, I don't say anything anymore. I know I don't understand. It's useless to say anything, but I just can't help but worry about Xing Lu. Maybe it was because I finally saw Xing Lu lose the project, and I suddenly lost the blind confidence I had in Xing Lu before, and I began to worry powerlessly
The days after the May Day holiday seemed to be even harder. Xinglu started to travel on business, and when he was in Guangzhou, he always came back drunk very late.
This Friday, Xing Lu finally came back before 10 o'clock, and I didn't drink. I was a little happy. He didn't have to get up early tomorrow and he could finally make out.
As soon as Xing Lu came back, he went to take a shower immediately. I thought to myself, I was so anxious, I blushed a little as I said that. I had already washed myself in advance, and both condoms were placed on the bedside in advance, which was much more urgent than Xing Lu.
Xing Lu lay down on the bed, I lifted the towel and quilt, went over and hugged him completely naked, and Xing Lu hugged me, but his movements seemed a little stiff.
I asked Xing Lu: What's wrong? Are you worried? Work is not going well?
Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, but sighed: Sorry, Huihui, I'll go to the sauna with the client tonight
Xing Lu said what the meaning of a sauna was. I hesitated and asked: Have you made a full set?
Xing Lu nodded, and my tears suddenly couldn't help but stayed. I let go of my hand, came out of Xing Lu's arms, turned over and turned my back to him, and cried out.
It turns out that I can't accept it at all. When I went to Zhelang Island, I told Xing Lu that he would remember to wear a condom when he was looking for a lady. After the first time with Xing Lu, I also asked him how many girls he had done with. Xing Lu often traveled on business trips these days, and I'm afraid he had done it with the lady. I always thought I could accept it, but when Xing Lu said it, I realized that I still couldn't accept it.
I don't discriminate against the lady. I have also sold myself online, but I can't accept Xing Lu hugged another woman, then turned around and hugged me, let alone accepted that he had just fucked another woman's pussy, and came to fuck me again.
Xing Lu didn't say anything behind me, just watched me cry quietly. After a long time, I cried enough. I turned over and hugged Xing Lu again. Xing Lu stroked my head and murmured: Huihui, I'm sorry
I said softly: Don't say sorry, I said, I chose to be with you and have to accept this matter. I just can't help but feel sad now, but I will accept it
I asked softly: Did you wear a condom when doing it? Xing Lu nodded
I continued: Xing Lu, I don’t want to do it with you tonight, tomorrow, I should be fine tomorrow
Xing Lu hugged me tightly and murmured, "I'm sorry, I buried my head in his arms, so that he would not let him cry quietly when he saw me."
Get up on Saturday, I pulled Xing Lu for sex. I wanted to try if I was no longer affected, but it was not possible. It was obvious that we were not in the state. For the first time, Xing Lu ejaculated, but I didn't have an orgasm. I don't know when this shadow in my heart will pass.
Fortunately, Xing Lu must have discovered the problem, or he was guilty. He stayed with me at home on Saturday and rushed to wash dishes after dinner. I looked at him clumsy in the kitchen and smiled slightly. It turned out that he really cared about me.
When I went to bed at night, I took the initiative to kiss Xing Lu, and Xing Lu also patiently caressed me. My feeling came soon. I kept kneading Xing Lu harder and harder. In the pain that was about to suffocate and crush, I moaned happily. If I fall in love with Xing Lu, I will feel so painful and happy.
After all, I ejaculated once in the morning. Xing Lu has been doing a long time this time. After my second orgasm, I happily ejaculated inside my body.
I hugged her, feeling the beating of his clone in my body, and thought to myself, it turns out that the real meaning of not wearing a condom is here.
Only those who truly love me can face it like this naked. I don’t know if this is self-comfort, but I feel much better after all.
At least I can accept this fact for the time being. No matter what extent of impact he will have on our relationship in the end, at least I can accept it now.
Xing Lu was on a business trip again on Monday. I hesitated for a long time. Finally, I called Sister Azhu and asked her hesitantly if she had time to have dinner together, and could eat outside, or come to Xing Lu, and I cook.
Sister Azhu agreed readily and said that she would come to have dinner to try my skills.
I nervously told her not to bring my brother-in-law, but my sister said she understood.
I hurried to the market to buy vegetables. My sister is so busy, she can find time to accompany me, so she can't neglect it.
I hesitated for a moment, put all the 2,000 yuan left by Xing Lu on my body, went to a relatively expensive aquatic store nearby to buy Su Mei, and then bought some cabbage hearts and chicken. It cost less than 1,000 yuan in total, and it hurts so much.
Although Sumei is expensive, it is easier to make, so steaming is good
Boiled cabbage is more difficult. Fortunately, I tried it when I was made for Xing Lu before. In addition, I am indeed very talented in this area, so I am still very skilled in doing it.
Half of the chicken stewed soup, half of the chicken is chopped into glutinous rice, and the stewed chicken soup is filtered out with gauze, then add a part of the raw chicken glutinous rice and stir it, so that the oil stains and the turbid substances in the soup are attached to the chicken glutinous rice, and then filter them out with gauze. Three times in a row, I saw the almost transparent chicken soup, and nodded with satisfaction, then put the cabbage heart in, took it to the steamer to start steaming
Sister Azhu has a completely complete Guangdong diet habit. She came up and opened the soup cup, took a sip of the soup first, and then was surprised. Is this boiled cabbage?
I nodded
My sister used a spoon to pick up the cabbage inside and then sighed: After leaving Sichuan in college, I have never eaten such pure boiled cabbage again. What you made is better than what my father made.
I smiled happily. It’s great to have a meal with my sister. My life is very tasteful and very sensible.
The last time Xing Lu ate this dish, he just said: The soup is good and very fresh. And as a Chengdu native, he didn't believe it was Sichuan cuisine.
My sister finished drinking the soup, and I picked up her soup bowl to serve another bowl. My sister smiled and said: Don’t be so particular about eating at home, just bring the soup basin over.
I nodded and brought the soup basin over. My bowl of one bowl with Sister Azhu was quickly finished. My sister sighed with satisfaction and started eating dishes.
There are only two vegetarian dishes and one fish, but my sister was very happy to eat it and praised my cooking skills.
During the meal, my sister didn't mention Xing Lu at all, and I didn't say it either, for fear of affecting my sister's enthusiasm for eating.
After dinner, I packed the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen. My sister sat on the sofa and said with a smile: Tell me, what problems did you encounter with Xing Lu?
Alas, why is it the same as Shi Chu, the kind of eyes that completely penetrate everything, but my sister's smile is so kind that I suddenly stopped nervous
I gently told me about what happened two days ago, my sister's smile disappeared and she sighed: It's true that this is the case. When I came, I guessed what you thought?
I was afraid that my sister would misunderstand that I would break up, so I quickly explained: I think this time has passed. We have sex on both days of the weekend, and we are all very successful. I feel that there is no shadow. I am just worried that if we get married, Mr. Xing Lu will not be able to bear it. Will I be unable to bear it if we get married?
Sister nodded: You really asked the right person, I'm the one who has passed
My sister pulled me to sit beside me, touched my long hair lovingly, and slowly told her story with her brother-in-law: Your brother-in-law, and Xing Lu both grew up together in the same courtyard. We fell in love in high school, and the two adults got engaged to us in their second year of high school.
Your brother-in-law is a sloppy personality and loves to make trouble. When we were in college, we rented a counter at the Dinghao Shopping Mall next to us to sell compatible machines. Later, at Xing Lu's suggestion, we switched to printing consumables. It happened to be a good time. We earned more than one million yuan when we graduated.
When we graduated, a senior brother in Guangzhou started a company and brought us into the group. We got married.
The first year was very unhappy. The partners withdrew their investments, and the agent's products were overwhelmed and could not be sold. We had a hard time and couldn't afford to even afford takeout. Once, we wanted to lock the company back to Sichuan. The old man even found a job for us.
But your brother-in-law is strong, so he asked a friend to borrow money and kept it over. Later, it was relatively smooth and he became bigger and bigger along the way.
For half a year, we were really struggling. We spent every penny carefully. I had never bought a single piece of clothing. I even picked up the cheapest sanitary napkins. During that time, I felt that I was willing to pay for any price for life. I treated myself badly in the front and had to make several times the compensation back. So now that I have money, I try my best to buy clothes to compensate myself.
I suddenly understood what my sister wanted to say, she didn't have to say it later. I hugged her and felt very sad. It turned out that this is the case. With such a solid emotional foundation and having experienced such hardships, I would be so indifferent to things other than the relationship.
But, can I do it?
My sister knew that I understood, and caressed me with care: Many people in the shopping malls will suffer from the pain that others cannot see. If you choose this path, you can only accept these, of course, and you can also choose other paths. For example, we could go back to a research institute in Sichuan after graduation, so we didn’t have to experience these things. Life would be very stable and peaceful, but we also lost a lot of excitement.
I asked softly: If you were asked to choose again, would you like this now or go back?
My sister said leisurely: I won’t choose, your brother-in-law chooses, I’ll just follow him
I looked at my sister steadily, and my sister smiled and said: When I was in college, Pan Ying and I had a big difference in views on love. I think it was because I fell in love with someone and then I fell in love with him. Pan Ying thought it was because I fell in love with someone and then fell in love with someone. She always thought that when Xing Lu was with her, she liked various novel experiences, not her. She always thought that she was not beautiful and willful, and Xing Lu would not really love her.
I shook my head and said with certainty: She was wrong, Xing Lu loved her. Yes, I'm very sure, because this is what I care about the most unforgettable thing.
My sister smiled faintly: But her view of love may not be wrong. I love someone because I love his life. I have encountered too many people and things over the years. I still haven't seen a second woman like me. I just want to love someone and don't care what kind of life I live with him.
I looked at my sister with respect and thought, would I be the second one?
Moreover, Xing Lu said he didn't have to go to Shenzhen because it was difficult for them to win this mark, so he didn't have to worry about preparing.
While driving, Xing Lu sighed that the sales of the company called Xie Yu, who is responsible for Shenzhen business, is much harder than Song Tong to deal with. This time he lost to him.
I asked Xing Lu, what kind of person is that Xie Yu, I was a little curious. Those who can beat Xing Lu should be very, very powerful salespersons.
Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, as if he was reluctant to say it. I said considerately: If you can't say anything, forget it, I'm not that curious.
Xing Lu said: Forget it, let’s tell you, it’s good that you know these things.
Well, there must be something very dirty again. Oh, I really, I'm asking about the sales story for nothing. There is no bad thing behind that sales.
Xing Lu said quietly: My position as a department manager was originally from Xie Yu. He wanted to skip it at that time, but later he failed to pass the background review. Then he promoted me internally. In terms of strength, I am indeed not as good as him.
I'm curious: Why didn't the background review pass?
Xing Lu said: She was born too poor and did everything she could to succeed. She started out as a front desk and had her current achievements. She was said to have been sleeping all the way.
I was surprised and said: The name Xie Yu turned out to be a girl? No wonder you were so worried when I was looking for a job, and I was afraid that I would eventually go to sales. Is it because I saw her?
Xing Lu nodded: She is just one of them. In fact, female salesmen do customer relationships and generally do not do as deep as male salesmen.
I said: I know, you told me that customer leaders are usually men, and female salesmen cannot go to prostitution with customers like male salesmen.
Xing Lu nodded: Then why do you think she has a deeper relationship than a male salesperson?
I was a little surprised, and then a thought flashed and a chill suddenly appeared on my back: Xing Lu, are you saying that she was having sex with a client?
Xing Lu nodded: She is very beautiful, more beautiful than you. She not only sleeps with customers, but also sleeps with her own agent boss. In a certain project, they even play 3P together.
I yelled: 3P? Is it the one that comes up and down, or the one that separates one end and one end?
Xing Lu was speechless: How could I know? During the background investigation, what a colleague in her previous company said, that person could not know so carefully. Moreover, Huihui, your focus is too strange.
I said innocently: I'm just curious. Is there really anyone who is like inserting two holes in A-film?
Xing Lu said: I don’t know, I can’t accept it anyway, and I can’t accept it either.
I nodded: I can't accept it either
Xing Lu suddenly reacted: Huihui, I found that I have been talking to you recently, and in the end, I can always be led to sexual intercourse by you.
I smiled and said: Because you are so awesome, I am almost lustful by you
Xing Lu smiled proudly, man, this is true, this is true in the novel, this is true, men have the strongest vanity in this regard
However, I said in my heart: Xing Lu, I just like having sex with you alone, I will never accept other men touching me
Then, I suddenly remembered that when I met Xing Lu for the first time, I mistakenly thought that he wanted to buy me for sexual bribery. I felt scared. Fortunately, Xing Lu was not that kind of person.
Back in Guangzhou, Xinglu immediately started receiving emails, reviewing bid documents, and then asked engineers and agents to hold a meeting tomorrow to discuss strategies and prepare bid documents.
I'm a little curious: Didn't you say that the project has been lost? Why do you have to spend 3,000 yuan to buy a bid? And you have to spend so much effort to prepare a bid?
Xing Lu said: The budget for this project is more than 5 million. If I participate in the bidding, Xie Yu will eventually invest about 3 million. If I don’t participate in the bidding, she will invest about 5 million, so I have to come and invest.
I said: Isn’t this harming others and not doing good for yourself?
Xing Lu smiled and shook his head: It's not the first. I threw down the bid price, and Xie Yu couldn't give the user leader enough kickbacks. Even if she sleeps with the leader, there will be problems with her relationship. If she doesn't have enough real money, then she will not be able to make this customer a solid piece. We may have a second chance for the subsequent projects. The H company is different from us. They manage more local languages and do the current project investment directly from the profits of the previous project. I have to cut off this line. If this order really makes her profit a million, she will have enough capital to attack other advantageous customers.
My mind was almost stopped listening. Forget it, I really shouldn't know these things. The more I listened, the worse I felt, the worse I felt.
Xing Lu, you guys, with such high IQ, why are you using this kind of conspiracy and intrigue? How tiring
Xing Lu kept calling for the bid for review at night. At around 10 o'clock, he asked me to sleep first and not wait for him.
I know that at this time, he should have no intention of having sex, so he is sensible and does not force him.
Actually, I don’t have much intention to have sex. Today, Xing Lu told Xie Yu’s story, which made me very shocked. I was a little scared. My family is also very poor. If I hadn’t known Xing Lu, I would not have found a job like a real school. I guess it would be a front desk in the end, but how can I live in Guangzhou as a front desk.
Although I firmly told Xing Lu that I would not do sales, if I can’t support myself, or if the person I marry is very little income and cannot provide my children with normal growth and education, will I still stick to the idea that I can’t do anything?
More than half a year ago, I could sell online for Susu. In the future, if I want to survive and have children, can I really stick to my body?
I was thinking randomly, feeling so cold, and I wanted to hold Xing Lu, but Xing Lu was afraid of disturbing me, so I took my laptop to work in the living room, and I couldn't affect him.
I thought stupidly again. I heard that a single room rent in Shenzhen is more than 2,000 yuan a month. If I can’t pay the rent next month, I can get a project and earn tens of thousands of yuan at this time. Will I do it?
If I stayed in Guangzhou, became a full-time housewife, and gave birth to Xing Lu, what should I do if Xing Lu suddenly lost his job? What should I do if he drinks and stays up late every day and suddenly becomes ineffective? I don’t know anything. How can I support my family at that time?
Alas, I really shouldn't have asked Xie Yu about things today. My psychological quality is not bad. I turned on the bedside lamp, found a text I disliked the most and started memorizing. Finally, I slowly got sleepy and threw down the book and fell asleep.
Then, I had a very terrible dream. I dreamed that Xing Lu finally gave me to one of his clients. The man was very fierce and bad. He grabbed me and refused to let me move. He wanted to rape me. I kicked him hard with my legs and cried and said no.
Then, I woke up from crying and found myself lying in Xing Lu's arms. Fortunately, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu, it was Xing Lu.
Xing Lu asked worriedly: Huihui, what's wrong? He has a nightmare?
Well, I said aggrievedly, then turned around and hugged Xing Lu, and said to Xing Lu in tears: Xing Lu, want me, try my best
Xing Lu was a little confused. I saw that he didn't respond, so he got into the quilt, pulled out his underwear, and sucked his cock hard.
When the penis became hard, I took off my underwear, turned over and sat on Xing Lu, and sat down with my penis. It hurt so much. I didn't seem to be wet at all. It hurts very much. I frowned and sat down hard.
At the end, I turned Xing Lu and asked him to turn over and press me. It seemed that only when he was pressed under me would I feel that sense of security.
Xing Lu seemed to find that I was not wet, and my movements were very light and slow, and I still sobbed: Xing Lu, don’t worry about me, you use your strength
Xing Lu said helplessly: Huihui, I feel very painful too
I finally sniffed, burst into laughter, and then continued to persist: Xing Lu, ask me hard, hug me tightly, crush me
Xing Lu nodded, hugged me tightly, and his lower body began to go in and out quickly. I put everything aside and soon reached the peak. Xing Lu did not restrain himself. Seeing that I was here, he ejaculated quickly.
I hugged Xing Lu and refused to let him leave. Although I was almost suffocated by his big guy, I didn't want to let go until his penis narrowed and slipped out of my cave.
I went to the bathroom to clean myself, wiped my face with a wet towel, and came back to get into Xing Lu's arms, asking him to hug me tightly
Xing Lu is very related: Huihui, what's wrong
I hesitated to tell my nightmare, and then the random thoughts after hearing Xie Yu's story.
Xing Lu looked at me with care and kissed me gently, telling me not to be afraid
I suddenly sobbed again: Xing Lu, I want to go back to the actual school to teach... I am scared... Yes, what I saw around Xing Lu scared me. It seems that only when I return to Huizhou, only the work of the school teacher, the place where I can turn a blind eye to the outside world, is my safe haven, and makes me feel at ease
Xing Lu said: OK, I will send you back tomorrow, don’t be afraid
I uttered, got into Xing Lu's arms, and then said to Xing Lu: Don't look down on Xie Yu, just like don't look down on smelling. When a woman is very poor, she will be really afraid. She must have her own suffering. No matter how lewd a woman is, she will not want to have sex with someone she doesn't like.
Xing Lu smiled: I'm about to lose two special projects to her in a row, how dare I look down on her
I said no, and continued: Xing Lu, if I really marry you, don’t let me quit, okay? I have inquired about the salary of the actual school. If the worst thing happens, my income can at least ensure that we live in poverty. I guarantee that when you are not by my side, you will never have a fucking affair.
Xing Lu nodded and said no, but just hugged me very tightly. I felt very safe and warm, and then I went to sleep with confidence.
The next day, after breakfast, Xing Lu said to me: Huihui, I'm afraid I can't get out of here today. I'll find a driver to take you back. I'll go see you after the business is over here.
I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized that it was because I wanted to go back to Huizhou. I quickly shook my head: No, I won't go back, I want to stay here with you
Xing Lu was strange: Didn’t you say you wanted to go back last night?
I shook my head and pretended to be relaxed: I will be more sensitive at night and will think randomly. Sometimes what I think is ridiculous, it will be fine during the day. Don't take it too seriously.
Xing Lu looked incredible, maybe even boys won't do this
However, I stayed, not because I thought the thoughts last night were ridiculous, those thoughts were very real, but I had the courage to face them during the day.
Xing Road is really good. No. 4-7. He goes out early and returns late every day, but he promises to come back before I go to bed and have sex with me, so that I can relax and sleep in his arms.
On the evening of the 8th, Xing Lu came back and said that Xie Yu and the others won the bid for 2.78 million. I was a little worried. According to Xing Lu, Xie Yu personally lost 300,000-500,000 kickbacks for this order. Isn’t that a mortal revenge?
Why do you mess with such a woman
Xing Lu didn't care: In the business world, it was a matter of life and death, and there was nothing we could do about it.
Oh, I don't say anything anymore. I know I don't understand. It's useless to say anything, but I just can't help but worry about Xing Lu. Maybe it was because I finally saw Xing Lu lose the project, and I suddenly lost the blind confidence I had in Xing Lu before, and I began to worry powerlessly
The days after the May Day holiday seemed to be even harder. Xinglu started to travel on business, and when he was in Guangzhou, he always came back drunk very late.
This Friday, Xing Lu finally came back before 10 o'clock, and I didn't drink. I was a little happy. He didn't have to get up early tomorrow and he could finally make out.
As soon as Xing Lu came back, he went to take a shower immediately. I thought to myself, I was so anxious, I blushed a little as I said that. I had already washed myself in advance, and both condoms were placed on the bedside in advance, which was much more urgent than Xing Lu.
Xing Lu lay down on the bed, I lifted the towel and quilt, went over and hugged him completely naked, and Xing Lu hugged me, but his movements seemed a little stiff.
I asked Xing Lu: What's wrong? Are you worried? Work is not going well?
Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, but sighed: Sorry, Huihui, I'll go to the sauna with the client tonight
Xing Lu said what the meaning of a sauna was. I hesitated and asked: Have you made a full set?
Xing Lu nodded, and my tears suddenly couldn't help but stayed. I let go of my hand, came out of Xing Lu's arms, turned over and turned my back to him, and cried out.
It turns out that I can't accept it at all. When I went to Zhelang Island, I told Xing Lu that he would remember to wear a condom when he was looking for a lady. After the first time with Xing Lu, I also asked him how many girls he had done with. Xing Lu often traveled on business trips these days, and I'm afraid he had done it with the lady. I always thought I could accept it, but when Xing Lu said it, I realized that I still couldn't accept it.
I don't discriminate against the lady. I have also sold myself online, but I can't accept Xing Lu hugged another woman, then turned around and hugged me, let alone accepted that he had just fucked another woman's pussy, and came to fuck me again.
Xing Lu didn't say anything behind me, just watched me cry quietly. After a long time, I cried enough. I turned over and hugged Xing Lu again. Xing Lu stroked my head and murmured: Huihui, I'm sorry
I said softly: Don't say sorry, I said, I chose to be with you and have to accept this matter. I just can't help but feel sad now, but I will accept it
I asked softly: Did you wear a condom when doing it? Xing Lu nodded
I continued: Xing Lu, I don’t want to do it with you tonight, tomorrow, I should be fine tomorrow
Xing Lu hugged me tightly and murmured, "I'm sorry, I buried my head in his arms, so that he would not let him cry quietly when he saw me."
Get up on Saturday, I pulled Xing Lu for sex. I wanted to try if I was no longer affected, but it was not possible. It was obvious that we were not in the state. For the first time, Xing Lu ejaculated, but I didn't have an orgasm. I don't know when this shadow in my heart will pass.
Fortunately, Xing Lu must have discovered the problem, or he was guilty. He stayed with me at home on Saturday and rushed to wash dishes after dinner. I looked at him clumsy in the kitchen and smiled slightly. It turned out that he really cared about me.
When I went to bed at night, I took the initiative to kiss Xing Lu, and Xing Lu also patiently caressed me. My feeling came soon. I kept kneading Xing Lu harder and harder. In the pain that was about to suffocate and crush, I moaned happily. If I fall in love with Xing Lu, I will feel so painful and happy.
After all, I ejaculated once in the morning. Xing Lu has been doing a long time this time. After my second orgasm, I happily ejaculated inside my body.
I hugged her, feeling the beating of his clone in my body, and thought to myself, it turns out that the real meaning of not wearing a condom is here.
Only those who truly love me can face it like this naked. I don’t know if this is self-comfort, but I feel much better after all.
At least I can accept this fact for the time being. No matter what extent of impact he will have on our relationship in the end, at least I can accept it now.
Xing Lu was on a business trip again on Monday. I hesitated for a long time. Finally, I called Sister Azhu and asked her hesitantly if she had time to have dinner together, and could eat outside, or come to Xing Lu, and I cook.
Sister Azhu agreed readily and said that she would come to have dinner to try my skills.
I nervously told her not to bring my brother-in-law, but my sister said she understood.
I hurried to the market to buy vegetables. My sister is so busy, she can find time to accompany me, so she can't neglect it.
I hesitated for a moment, put all the 2,000 yuan left by Xing Lu on my body, went to a relatively expensive aquatic store nearby to buy Su Mei, and then bought some cabbage hearts and chicken. It cost less than 1,000 yuan in total, and it hurts so much.
Although Sumei is expensive, it is easier to make, so steaming is good
Boiled cabbage is more difficult. Fortunately, I tried it when I was made for Xing Lu before. In addition, I am indeed very talented in this area, so I am still very skilled in doing it.
Half of the chicken stewed soup, half of the chicken is chopped into glutinous rice, and the stewed chicken soup is filtered out with gauze, then add a part of the raw chicken glutinous rice and stir it, so that the oil stains and the turbid substances in the soup are attached to the chicken glutinous rice, and then filter them out with gauze. Three times in a row, I saw the almost transparent chicken soup, and nodded with satisfaction, then put the cabbage heart in, took it to the steamer to start steaming
Sister Azhu has a completely complete Guangdong diet habit. She came up and opened the soup cup, took a sip of the soup first, and then was surprised. Is this boiled cabbage?
I nodded
My sister used a spoon to pick up the cabbage inside and then sighed: After leaving Sichuan in college, I have never eaten such pure boiled cabbage again. What you made is better than what my father made.
I smiled happily. It’s great to have a meal with my sister. My life is very tasteful and very sensible.
The last time Xing Lu ate this dish, he just said: The soup is good and very fresh. And as a Chengdu native, he didn't believe it was Sichuan cuisine.
My sister finished drinking the soup, and I picked up her soup bowl to serve another bowl. My sister smiled and said: Don’t be so particular about eating at home, just bring the soup basin over.
I nodded and brought the soup basin over. My bowl of one bowl with Sister Azhu was quickly finished. My sister sighed with satisfaction and started eating dishes.
There are only two vegetarian dishes and one fish, but my sister was very happy to eat it and praised my cooking skills.
During the meal, my sister didn't mention Xing Lu at all, and I didn't say it either, for fear of affecting my sister's enthusiasm for eating.
After dinner, I packed the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen. My sister sat on the sofa and said with a smile: Tell me, what problems did you encounter with Xing Lu?
Alas, why is it the same as Shi Chu, the kind of eyes that completely penetrate everything, but my sister's smile is so kind that I suddenly stopped nervous
I gently told me about what happened two days ago, my sister's smile disappeared and she sighed: It's true that this is the case. When I came, I guessed what you thought?
I was afraid that my sister would misunderstand that I would break up, so I quickly explained: I think this time has passed. We have sex on both days of the weekend, and we are all very successful. I feel that there is no shadow. I am just worried that if we get married, Mr. Xing Lu will not be able to bear it. Will I be unable to bear it if we get married?
Sister nodded: You really asked the right person, I'm the one who has passed
My sister pulled me to sit beside me, touched my long hair lovingly, and slowly told her story with her brother-in-law: Your brother-in-law, and Xing Lu both grew up together in the same courtyard. We fell in love in high school, and the two adults got engaged to us in their second year of high school.
Your brother-in-law is a sloppy personality and loves to make trouble. When we were in college, we rented a counter at the Dinghao Shopping Mall next to us to sell compatible machines. Later, at Xing Lu's suggestion, we switched to printing consumables. It happened to be a good time. We earned more than one million yuan when we graduated.
When we graduated, a senior brother in Guangzhou started a company and brought us into the group. We got married.
The first year was very unhappy. The partners withdrew their investments, and the agent's products were overwhelmed and could not be sold. We had a hard time and couldn't afford to even afford takeout. Once, we wanted to lock the company back to Sichuan. The old man even found a job for us.
But your brother-in-law is strong, so he asked a friend to borrow money and kept it over. Later, it was relatively smooth and he became bigger and bigger along the way.
For half a year, we were really struggling. We spent every penny carefully. I had never bought a single piece of clothing. I even picked up the cheapest sanitary napkins. During that time, I felt that I was willing to pay for any price for life. I treated myself badly in the front and had to make several times the compensation back. So now that I have money, I try my best to buy clothes to compensate myself.
I suddenly understood what my sister wanted to say, she didn't have to say it later. I hugged her and felt very sad. It turned out that this is the case. With such a solid emotional foundation and having experienced such hardships, I would be so indifferent to things other than the relationship.
But, can I do it?
My sister knew that I understood, and caressed me with care: Many people in the shopping malls will suffer from the pain that others cannot see. If you choose this path, you can only accept these, of course, and you can also choose other paths. For example, we could go back to a research institute in Sichuan after graduation, so we didn’t have to experience these things. Life would be very stable and peaceful, but we also lost a lot of excitement.
I asked softly: If you were asked to choose again, would you like this now or go back?
My sister said leisurely: I won’t choose, your brother-in-law chooses, I’ll just follow him
I looked at my sister steadily, and my sister smiled and said: When I was in college, Pan Ying and I had a big difference in views on love. I think it was because I fell in love with someone and then I fell in love with him. Pan Ying thought it was because I fell in love with someone and then fell in love with someone. She always thought that when Xing Lu was with her, she liked various novel experiences, not her. She always thought that she was not beautiful and willful, and Xing Lu would not really love her.
I shook my head and said with certainty: She was wrong, Xing Lu loved her. Yes, I'm very sure, because this is what I care about the most unforgettable thing.
My sister smiled faintly: But her view of love may not be wrong. I love someone because I love his life. I have encountered too many people and things over the years. I still haven't seen a second woman like me. I just want to love someone and don't care what kind of life I live with him.
I looked at my sister with respect and thought, would I be the second one?
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