Chapter 16

When I opened my eyes, my mother was still asleep

A piece of white and tender legs flipped open the quilt and showed it proudly in front of me

Two round arms were still holding me tightly, but my shoulders and backs were exposed

The air conditioner made the room very cold, and I couldn't help but feel itchy nose and sneezed

I woke up my mother all of a sudden, and her beautiful eyes were spreading in black and white, facing my eyes

His face suddenly turned red and he quickly sat up: Xiaolei?

I nodded: Mom drank too much last night

Mom reached out to hold her forehead: Ah...I have a headache and my mother is drunk. Did she say something strange?

I shook my head hard and said with a smile: Mom sleeps like a pig

My mother seemed to feel relieved and wanted to get up: Oh... she didn't change her clothes and didn't take a shower... She looked down at herself, then looked at me again, and smiled with a red face: That's how did you sleep last night?

I perfunctorily said: It seems to be

My mother stood up, but she couldn't stand firm all of a sudden. She reached out to hold the bedside table, bent down and panted, and I quickly bounced up: Mom, what's wrong?

Mom shook her head: I was so dizzy... She gasped violently as she said

I reached out to hold my mother's waist again and was shocked: Is it so hot that my mother has a fever? I reached out to my mother's forehead again, it was really hot

I didn't cover it last night, and I caught a cold after drinking alcohol. I must have caught a cold.

Mom is still stubborn: It's okay... But she just stood up and wanted to walk, but staggered for a while, and quickly held the bedside table again

I quickly said: No, my mother has a very strong fever, go to the hospital

I went to find my mother's bag, put the keys and money in my arms, and wanted to help my mother out.

My mother leaned against me softly. When she walked to the door, she felt her legs begin to become weak. She reached out and grabbed my arm tightly.

I suddenly became anxious: Mom, how are you? Can't walk?

Only then did I realize that my mother's nose was also blocked, and it was very serious: It's okay... I was dizzy, but I could walk... I tried hard to continue moving my feet.

Looking down at my mother, I felt that my mother was petite in front of me for the first time, so I took the courage to walk to my mother and bent down: Mom, you can't walk, I'll carry you

Mom felt embarrassed and refused powerlessly: How can that work... Mom can go... But the nose has started to flow out of her nose.

I was anxious and my voice was a little angry: I'm growing up Ah, mom, I'm half a head taller than you, go to the hospital soon. It's not for me, you won't catch a cold, you won't catch a cold.

Mom had no choice but to agree: OK... Be careful... and then he lay on my back

I took a deep breath and wrapped my hands back around my mother's soft buttocks. The smoothness and softness of the tentacles began to make me feel a little distracted. My mother's buttocks were so elastic... In addition, my mother was lying on my back, and the two towering and firm balls were still strongly stimulating me through her clothes and bras. I couldn't help but get a fever.

But once again, I felt my mother's body was hot, and I scolded myself hard in my heart: Beast

Just take a careful step and walk out of the house

Get on a tricycle and rushed to the hospital. After a little checkup, I confirmed that it was just a cold

But the fever is very serious, almost forty degrees, so I need to give it a fever-reducing injection

After I ran around for my mother for a long time and finally settled down, my mother smiled and watched the liquid in the drip into her body drop by drop, and said to me softly: Xiaolei has really grown up Ah...

I was a little angry when I finally got a rest: I grew up, my mother became younger, and I couldn't take care of myself anymore

Mom is a little shy: Sorry, Ah, Xiaolei

I didn't say anything, staring at the drops of the potion, and couldn't help but remember my mother's call last night again

So intimate and affectionate, I really hope it is calling me

...The butterflies flew away, and my heart was no longer... Where has my dad been?

After a while of silence, my mother stretched out a hand, pressed her forehead and pondered, and finally said: Xiaolei, you are about to be sixteen years old, and there are some things that should be told to you...

Ah?

I suddenly became nervous. Is it my father's business?

Mom must have remembered something from last night

I didn't respond, but turned my eyes to my mother, but my mother avoided my eyes

Looking at the ceiling, pondered for a while, then said: Your father's name is Feng Wei...

I said yes, nervously looking forward to the following story

Mom paused and continued: Your father and I have lived together since childhood, and I am a childhood sweetheart. Xiaolei knows what childhood sweetheart means?

I nodded and continued to look at my mother silently

My mother didn't look at me and continued to look at the ceiling and said: When we were as big as you, we were already very good...

On your dad’s seventeenth birthday, your dad and a few classmates called me to celebrate his birthday...

At that time, beer was quite fresh... there was only one dance hall in the county...

We sneaked to dance and then drank...

As a result, we were all drunk, and then... then... dad and mom... Mom's face turned red, his voice was hesitant and shy, and I held my breath nervously. It turned out that mom lost her virginity after drinking?

Mom didn’t know at that time, but after waking up, your dad regretted it too…

But this incident was spread, I don’t know which student said it…

At that time, there was still a crackdown... After the incident broke out, someone came to ask questions, but your father took it alone... Crackdown?

Crack down...yes, that was the mid-1980s

Because not long before that, two people were in love...and then...and they were convicted of hooliganism and went to jail...your father said it was all his fault, it was him who got his mother drunk, and her mother knew nothing...

After the questioning person left, he thought that this might be considered rape... Because a young man stopped a girl he liked on the road and hugged her, he decided to tease a woman and was shot... It seemed that there was a singer who drank and danced with several men and women, and then... and then he went to jail... Your father was just seventeen years old at that time, and was scared and guilty, so he ran out, as if he had drunk too much again and ran to the riverside...

Then I never saw your father again... Others said he committed suicide due to guilt...

What...how could this happen!

Did my dad commit suicide?

Just because of my mother...?

Why is this happening?

The first time I heard my father's whereabouts, I looked at my mother's pale cheeks and felt a little dizzy

Although my mother was sad, she soon discovered that Xiao Lei was...

I can't go to school anymore, and your grandparents are also very angry and ask your mother to take Xiaolei away... When my mother was saddest, your grandparents found her again and said that your father had three generations of single passes, and now he has no more. I beg her to leave some blood for them...

They all knelt down to their mother... Mom couldn't refuse... After your father disappeared, your grandparents' hair turned white... Looking at two white-haired old men kneeling in front of them... Mom could only agree... In addition, Mom actually loves Dad very much. Dad is gone, Mom also wants to help Dad leave the child... Mom also feels guilty because it's not your father's fault alone, and Mom can't help but dare not admit it...

So that's it, so that's it

Soon my mother dropped out of school… and gave birth to you…

Your grandparents felt sad because of your father. They died one after another when you were two or three years old...

Before his death, I found all the relationships I could find, arranged my mother to work in the library, and left this house for my mother...

Not long after, your grandparents moved to your uncle's place in Shanghai because of their sadness...

Since then, your grandparents and uncle have never paid attention to your mother again...

Two tears condensed in the corner of my mother's eyes, getting bigger and bigger, and finally rolled down

So that's it, it turns out that there was such a story. It turns out that before I was born, I didn't have a father.

And I finally know why I have no other relatives...

I endured the sadness, reached out and held my mother's hand, and put it on my face: Mom, don't be sad, I'm grown up, I will accompany my mother from now on

Mom smiled with tears: So Ah, Xiaolei, Mom is afraid that you will fall in love early, because it may really cause lifelong pain

It's different now. Without a crackdown, you won't lose your life even if you fall in love early.

But I didn't say, who am I in love? Who can compare with my mother?

I could only kiss my mother's hand gently: I don't know, I don't like those girls, I only like my mother...

Mom's face turned red again: she's talking nonsense again... like your dad

I remembered what my mother said last night and asked: Do I look like my dad? Do I have any photos of my dad?

Mom looked at me gently and shook her head: It's Ah, your dad has no photos...Where was there a camera at that time, you want to know what your dad looks like, just look in the mirror.

Is it really that similar?

Since my father and I look so similar, and I have a personality, then... I said boldly again: Isn't that okay if my mother treats me as her father?

Mom's face immediately turned red and she said angrily: What nonsense! You are you, your dad is your dad!

When I saw my mother angry, I had to comfort me softly: Sorry, Mom Ah, you said that I look like a father...

Mom looked at me blankly, and after a long time, she said softly: Xiaolei... You can't imitate your father, mom hopes you have a chance

Tears began to flash in my eyes again

I suddenly felt proud, looked at my mother seriously, and asked firmly: If I had a promising future, could my mother treat me as her father?

Mom shook her head gently: That doesn't work, I'm your mother, don't think about it, mom is going to sleep

As he said that, he turned his back to me

I looked at my mother's sleeping position. Although she was covered with a white quilt from the hospital, her delicate curves could not be concealed. It turned out that my mother suffered so much to give birth to me... It turned out that the process of my coming to this world was so thrilling. No wonder my mother was so nervous about my premature love...