postscript

one

Like most men, I love my mother

Like most men, this is just a love affair

I remember when I was in junior high school, one afternoon at the turn of spring and summer, I saw my mother mopping the floor

Bent over, wearing a dress, revealing her fair breasts slightly

At that moment, my sexual consciousness awakened, and my self-consciousness also awakened.

I know for the first time, there is still the difference between men and women in this world

It's just that I live in a normal family, which has become a relationship

But I always remember...

About ten years ago

At that time, I read a lot of messy articles. Every time I read it, I would think of that scene, that warm picture

Later I felt guilty because I was always the most excited when I watched the mother and son messing around. Gradually, this complex became a psychological shackle for me.

Later, I met my wife

Her tenderness and enthusiasm healed my psychological shadow

But... Ten years have passed, not long ago, I saw the Swiss news in the news.

Suddenly, the golden picture of my youth bloomed in my mind. Twenty years have passed, but it has not faded.

two

This article has a prototype

When I was in junior high school, there was a classmate who was withdrawn and introverted

He has always only learned

Read, read

I haven't even seen him laugh

He has always been the number one, and I laughed at him as a nerd at that time

One day, his mother came to give him an umbrella, and I finally saw his smile

He and his mother were holding a small umbrella side by side, smiling so brightly...

I forgot what his mother looks like, I only remember her fair and plumpness, with some charming charm

Now thinking about it, did he have something with his mother...?

When I was in college, I learned that he had already taken the exam to study abroad, and his mother followed him.

Will he and his mom...have an incest relationship?

I don't know, and I dare not guess it

But, I wish them happiness

When I write this article, I often think of him

three

Haruki Murakami said: If there are high walls and eggs in this world, I will always stand on the side of the eggs.

I want to do this too, so I want to say something for my own guilt, for my classmate...

I am just a complex, but I have always had a heavy psychological shadow. What about those lovers who are truly incest?

I hope...I can say something for them

Because they are really silent eggs, facing the cold walls of this world

I want to tell you: Don't be afraid, love is innocent

I have read a lot of information and learned that the health probability of blood relatives and incest offspring is higher than we imagined. I read the Bible three times. When I wrote this article, the Bible was at my hand... Also, St. Augustine's "City of God" The highest principle of human nature is love

This is what I say in "City of God" and I believe so too

This sentence is given to everyone and to myself: We look, look and love, love and praise

Ancient Rome St. Augustine's City of God