Self-blame, guilt, ethics and pleasure, stimulation, desires are intertwined. We do things that we cannot do, and we cannot extricate ourselves. We also find all kinds of reasons to be at ease. Yesterday, my 55th birthday was my only daughter, and my wife went to another world two years ago. My son-in-law served in the army far away, and her granddaughter was also in boarding school. My greatest pride in my life is having a beautiful daughter who graduated from college, which is also my favorite.