Chapter 73: Dreams, Nightmare

When I learned that Chen Ying had left Nanjing alone and went south alone, I couldn't help but feel ache in my heart, and a feeling of confusion was overwhelming.Thinking about our originally comfortable and happy life in Xinfu was disrupted by this bastard Lai Jun, I hated Lai Jun so much that I gritted my teeth.

During the day, I continued to look for Lai Jun. When I got home at night, I opened the Internet and kept searching for nude photos and videos exposed on various small websites. I was worried that Lai Jun would post Chen Ying's photos and videos out of some show-off mentality, which would have a bad impact on me and Chen Ying. Fortunately, I didn't find anything yet.

Of course, I didn't tell my acquaintance about the divorce between Chen Ying. Occasionally, someone asked Chen Ying, and I would deal with it vaguely.

When I was free, I was also thinking, if Chen Ying and I had a child, would I divorce because of Chen Ying's cheating?Because I have no children, I can't answer this question at all.Regarding children, I have thought this way before: Chen Ying and I are a little childish and immature like children. After having children, can we afford to be parents?

If I say that in the first few days after the divorce, because of resentment and disappointment in my marriage, I kept breathing and had nowhere to vent, but I just hated Lai Jun and Chen Ying.After learning about Chen Ying's departure, as time went by, I gradually began to wake up and calm down, feeling that she was also a victim of this cheating tragedy.Even though she had hurt me many times, the scenes of our love in the past gradually appeared in my mind, and I began to miss Chen Ying.

I regretted my hasty divorce. I felt that I was too impulsive and paranoid at that time, and that the divorce was not yet fully understood, which was indeed too reckless.The words of Li Binxu's lover: There is no medicine for regret in the world to buy, and gradually became clear in my heart. I finally felt that I was suspicious of eating the consequences.I had no choice but to warn myself that Chen Ying's performance has proved that she is an ungrateful slut and that she is not worthy of my regret for the future.

Some people have said that women are sometimes very strange animals.When you cherish her and hold her in your hands, she often disdains you; but when you step on her and make her humble as dust, she instead makes her obedient to you.In short, women like not the feeling of being cherished, but the feeling of being conquered.I praised Chen Ying like a treasure, but she used cheating and betrayal to repay me. Lai Jun tortured her arbitrarily, but she surrendered to Lai Jun's crotch. How cruel this is verified.

Chen Ying drove that car and it was also irritating me. I would rather take the bus, squeeze in the bus or even walk every day, and I no longer want to touch that car.Finally, I found someone to sell the car for 120,000 yuan.This car was purchased for 170,000 yuan in March and around, and it was sold again before it was driven for 4 months.I was out of sight and not upset, this was what I thought about selling a car at that time.

In the days that followed, a dream I had had before appeared repeatedly in my dream, which was the dream of that child.

Once I dreamed that Chen Ying and I were skating at the ice rink in my hometown. Chen Ying fell down and I went up to help her.She fell in my arms and told me with a smile that there was a surprise waiting for me at home.She pulled me to the new house somehow and came to the nursery room. She saw a beautiful little girl sitting on the children's floor mat fiddling with Barbie dolls. She looked up and saw Chen Ying and she smiled.

Another time I dreamed that Chen Ying and I were walking on the campus of Nanjing University. She lay in my ear and whispered that there was a surprise waiting for me at home.When we returned to our old home, I saw my mother holding a fat little boy and teasing me. I laughed happily, and this smile woke me up.After I got up, when I recalled the contents of the dream, I felt extremely sad.

I would be very happy in such a dream, but when I woke up, such a dream deeply hurt me, making me feel depressed and at a loss all day, and it felt like it was heartbreaking than a nightmare.Gradually, I was afraid of having such a dream.I had no choice but to pray before going to bed, and never have such dreams tonight, even nightmares are much better than it.One morning when I woke up, I accidentally found a bottle of rosycin in my bag. Then I remembered that I only thought about revenge and divorce these days, but forgot to take medicine and see a doctor.I don’t know how my condition will develop if I don’t take medicine these twenty days.I was shocked and hurried to the hospital, had the corresponding examination again, and got the test results the next day: the two mycoplasmas were still positive, but fortunately there was no in-depth development.

This shock made me temporarily forget the pain of divorce and focus my attention on my condition.I thought that I should notify Chen Ying, so I called Li Binxu again and asked Chen Ying for her new contact information.But Li Binxu told me that he still had no news or contact information about Chen Ying, and Chen Ying had disappeared without a trace.He asked me cautiously what else to do when I looked for Chen Ying. I was timid for a long time and had to say that it was Chen Ying's bag of things.I don't want to tell him the scandal of Chen Ying and I having sexually transmitted diseases, but I don't dare to ask Chen Ying's parents. It would be strange if our divorce was not revealed, because her parents definitely don't believe that Sn in law doesn't know her daughter's phone number.At this point, I had no way to inform her, so I could only hope that Chen Ying would be blessed.