Chapter 74: Destruction (III)

Hearing this, I blurted out: Xiaoyu, Yao Lei is so ruthless and unrighteous to you, so why are you still staying with him!Are you afraid that you and your husband will not be able to survive if you leave him?

Xiaoyu hurriedly defended herself: No, Brother Yan, I had already made up my mind to leave Yao Lei at that time.No matter what Lu? would think, no matter how life would be in the future, I was determined to leave the SM circle at that time.But a person has influenced me. He always leaves me when I need him. When I don’t need him, he will appear in a silence.

It’s your first love, Shang Hai.

Yes, it's him.After Yao Lei threatened me, he threw me in the private room and left. I cried for a long time before I pulled out the liquid and returned home alone.The day after I left the nightclub, Shang Hai got my mobile phone number from whom, and called me to meet him.

Although I had a resentment towards him, I didn't understand why he saw me. Driven by curiosity, I went to see him.Of course, it may be that I still have a love for him, after all, he is my first love.

We met in the hotel where he stayed, and there was a young and beautiful woman in his room.The woman was very cold towards my arrival, with a look of hostility and contempt.

Shang Hai asked the young woman to go out for a walk, and he wanted to have a long talk with me alone.The woman was very unhappy at first and refused to leave. It was Shang Hai who took out a stack of money from her wallet and gave it to her before she took the money and left with a smile.

After the woman left, Shang Hai began to talk to me about his personal experience after we broke up and also asked about my personal experience.

It turned out that during his junior year, he was led by a male classmate from Japan and entered the SM circle.Ridiculously, he was initially known as an American woman in her forties because of her handsome appearance and became her male M.With the help of this woman, he went to the postgraduate school in his school and successfully stayed at school to teach after graduation.

But Shang Hai is unwilling to be a man M's humiliating fate.During his graduate school years, he successfully transformed into a male S, but he also had private contact with the female teacher.

In the United States, SM is basically open and people are as tolerant of SM as homosexuals, so he does not have to bear huge psychological pressure, let alone hide.He is also obsessed with the temptation of SM and is still unmarried, but he has several women who offer him fun.The girl in his room was his newly acquired woman M. She was a Taiwanese studying in the United States. She was very obsessed with him and kept pestering her.

I told him about my personal SM experience.Starting from the story of how I was seduced by Shen Kai and fell into the SM circle, until the night I met him, Yao Lei's attitude towards me was unpleasant.

After listening to my story, Shang Hai looked at me with a strange expression, and said in a reproachful tone in his tone, "Wu Yi, how simple, kind and gentle you were in the past. I didn't expect you to become a female M, or a male tune female M called by a group of old men. You really disappointed me in you.’

I retorted, ‘Aren’t you also a heartless man now?Didn’t you, either, be a man M, as an old woman?What qualifications do you have to laugh at me!You should look in the mirror first to see your own virtues!’

Shang Hai did not react angrily to my words, but he also fired back.‘Wu Yi, as the old woman’s male M, I had to do it.At that time, my parents lost money in business and my family was almost penniless. My tuition and life in the United States were both problems.In order to survive and complete my studies, I have the opportunity to make a name for myself in the future, so I have to commit myself to that old woman.

That old woman was very nice to me. She applied for a scholarship for me, and also funded me for tuition and living expenses, helping me study for graduate school and stay in school to teach.She is really my noble person. Without her, my life will definitely be a different miserable appearance. As her male M, I am worth it!

Even so, I am not willing to be a man M.With the help of that old woman, I became a male S and enjoyed the real fun of SM.That old woman was generous and would rather risk losing me than design my life path for me according to my personal wishes. Isn’t such a person worthy of gratitude?

As her male M, I don’t feel any shame at all, but on the contrary, I feel very grateful.Until now, we occasionally find time to play a training game.However, after she trained me, I would also train her.It was me who successfully made her feel the fun of being a female M. Now she is also a double, so-called attacking and affordable.I returned the humiliation I accepted from her, and I returned the capital and interest to her. After all, I still did not suffer any losses.

Wu Yi, my life is better than you, you have to admit it.I was lucky enough to meet a female teacher in the United States, but you met an old hooligan like Yao Lei in China. It’s a pity for you.’When I saw Shang Hai talking like this, I knew that the young and promising Shang Hai I knew before was dead, and Shang Hai was sitting in front of me was another person.

He also said, "Wu Yi, come with me, I will help you go abroad and don't stay in this place and waste your youth."For the sake of our past relationship, I am willing to help you.But you still have to take out some savings yourself, and it also takes a lot of money to go to the United States.’

I heard him say this and I feel a little moved.But I told him that I was like this and no longer had any illusions about my personal future.I just hope my son can study abroad or even immigrate when he grows up.If he really wants to help me, it would be better for my son.

Shang Hai agreed with mercy, but still mentioned that immigration abroad costs a lot. I want to save as much money as possible for my son, and I will ask for his help when I need him.

Although I was very disappointed with him, with his promise, I had hope.I want to make more plans for my son, Lu? I can't count on it anymore.

Shang Hai also told me that he had an unspeakable secret that night and could not reveal the truth about his acquaintance with me.So he could only watch me indifferently as he was ravaged by a German man, hoping that I could forgive his inability to help.

I asked him why he was afraid of exposing our relationship, and Shang Hai shook his head helplessly and said, "Wu Yi, we used to be lovers."If I don't go abroad, we might be a good couple, but our long separation reunion was indeed in that awkward place.We recognize each other in public and will only add jokes to others.

I see that your expression was very numb when trained by that German. I also know that you are very disappointed, but what good way do I have?Who made me one step late?Wu Yi, since you join the SM circle, you must learn to enjoy the fun of SM. No matter who a male S is, as long as he abides by the rules of training.In public, he could not be too out of order, otherwise the organizer of that event would not agree.I hope you can understand my difficulties.’

After saying that, he suddenly laughed to the sky, laughed for a long time, then suddenly covered his face and started crying.Even if I didn't ask him why this attitude was, I understood his state of mind.I know that the young and promising Shang Hai I knew before was dead, and Shang Hai was sitting in front of me was another person.I didn't say anything to him, I just felt so sad, so I didn't say goodbye to him, and got up and left alone.