Chapter 117 Lost My Love

I took out the photo photo of Chen Ying from my wallet and handed it to Chen Ying's hand.Chen Ying choked and said with a sob: Jianxin, why do you still have my photo with you? Aren’t you afraid that Xiao Zhou will be too worried when he sees it?You still haven't forgotten me. It seems that I was wrong at the beginning. I regret the self-righteous and stupid decision I made before the divorce not only harmed you, but also myself.

I tried my best to comfort Chen Ying, and I didn't want her to be too sad, after all, she was a mother.I have heard that the adverse emotions of mothers during breastfeeding will lead to insufficient milk for mothers and will affect the breastfeeding of children.

Chen Ying asked me for Xiao Zhou's photos with tears in her eyes. She felt that I would definitely carry Xiao Zhou's photos with me.Without hesitation, I handed her the photo of Xiao Zhou and me.She carefully looked at the photo of Xiao Zhou and me, and praised Xiao Zhou as a beautiful and kind girl. Xiao Zhou and I will definitely live a happy life.

After Chen Ying finished watching the photo of Xiao Zhou and I, she handed the photo back to me, but refused to return the photo of her.She said to me seriously: Jianxin, I don’t have this photo of me yet, please leave it to me.This is the photo I am most satisfied with, and there are so many memories of our past.You should prepare a photo of Xiao Zhou with you and cherish your current lover.

I knew the true meaning of Chen Ying's words, so I no longer made things difficult for her. I watched her cry and put away the photo.

Chen Ying asked about my mother's recent situation again.I said that my mother had been thinking about her, and she had already forgiven Chen Ying's fault. She once blamed me for her fault and urged me to find her as soon as possible, but unfortunately I was still one step late.

Chen Ying said sadly: Mom is such a kind and generous mother. Unfortunately, I can no longer be her daughter-in-law now to repay her love for me, and hope that I can become her daughter.In August, I sent my mother two Northeastern old ginseng anonymously, hoping that it would be of some use to her body.

I remembered that my mother had asked me about this on the phone, and I was puzzled at that time, thinking that someone had sent the wrong address or the wrong person.Unexpectedly, it was Chen Ying who did this secretly. I thanked her for her concern for her mother's body.

We recall the past seven years of acquaintance, love, and blind dates with tears in our tears. We talked about the pain and longing of separation over the past two years with tears in our eyes.

While we were telling the past with mercy, Chen Ying's mother-in-law called twice and urged Chen Ying to go home early because Chen Ying's daughter was crying, and the elderly mother-in-law could not comfort this baby who was waiting to be fed and could not speak.After Chen Ying found out, she couldn't sit still.I saw her thoughts and urged Chen Ying to leave early.I looked down at the table and found that it was 5:38. We have been chatting for 3 hours since 2:30 pm to now.

Chen Ying stood up and was about to leave, but her steps hesitate and solemn.When she walked to the door, she stopped again, turned around and looked at me with tears in her eyes. I stood up and held back my tears and waved at her, signaling her to leave.Chen Ying didn't say anything, just nodded at me with tears in her eyes, turned around and pushed open the door and disappeared from my eyes.

I sat down dejectedly, and tears could no longer help but fall.I really want to cry loudly to release the pain and regret in my heart, but reason tells me to throw away this feeling as soon as possible and I have to face Xiao Zhou again.I suddenly remembered that I could look at Chen Ying a few last glances by the window, so I hurriedly got up and looked out the window, and hurriedly brought the coffee cup down, but I didn't care about helping it.

I looked out the window and saw Chen Ying standing next to a red BMW, looking back at the window on my side.She also saw me appearing at the window, raised her hand and said goodbye to me, and I choked up and raised my hand to say goodbye to her.I watched her open the car door sadly and lowered her head to get into the car.At this time, my throat finally couldn't suppress it, and I blurted out from the bottom of my heart and shouted these two words Chen Ying!.

Chen Ying heard my shout, and she stopped and hesitated for a moment, then stood up and looked at me.I shouted at her: Chen Ying, don’t leave, wait for me.

After saying this, I turned around and ran towards the door. When I left the private room, I ran towards the entrance of the building. The shocked waiter shouted at me: Sir, don’t run, you haven’t...

I ignored her and ran downstairs in a hurry. While running towards the door of the coffee house, I ran away from a coffee pot and cup held by the waiter, but I didn't care about apologizing, let alone compensation.I rushed out of the door and saw Chen Ying standing quietly beside the car.

I stumbled towards her, and hugged the hot body that belonged to me in my arms. I thought that Chen Ying's husband would not be able to separate us on the spot.At that time, I just wanted to hug her tightly, feel her softness, feel her warmth, feel the love she has for me...

We both hugged each other tightly without hesitation.Although I couldn't see her face, I could feel her crying silently from the trembling of her body, and I was even more crying.Passers-by looked at us with a kind smile, but I didn't care about being shy at this time, just hugged her tightly. Even if the sky collapsed and the earth broke, I didn't want to let go, for fear that I would lose her again if I let go.

I lost her because of my stupidity, my anger, and my petty heart. Only when I hugged her did I truly realize what it means to be a mistake that has been a hundred years of regret.The feeling of regretting the past and losing my love made me heartbroken and heartbroken.

We hugged each other tightly for a long time before Chen Ying reminded me that it was time for her to go back and that the child should be crying and making a fuss.I had no choice but to let go of her reluctantly, and help her open the car door with tears in my eyes, watching her get into the car, start, turn around, drive into the motor vehicle lane, and finally get farther and farther away in the afterglow of the setting sun.

I wiped the tears flowing from my face and turned around to walk towards the cafe. I found a waitress standing not far from me, looking at me with a sympathetic smile.My tears couldn't stop falling again. I thought that the pain of losing my love forever would be unforgettable to me for the rest of my life.

I, who have always been strong, almost left Shenzhen with tears in my eyes. On the plane to Nanjing that night, my tears were still spinning in my eyes.A 5 or 6-year-old girl next to me whispered to her mother: Mom, does the uncle next to me miss his mom and father, or his wife and children?He seemed to be crying.

Baby, don’t talk nonsense. This uncle is so old, how could he cry because he misses his relatives?Be careful that uncle will get angry when he hears it.

Then this uncle must have thrown away his most cherished thing, so he is so sad.The little girl looked at me and added another sentence unwillingly.

It was such a child's words, but her heartless words once again tore my wounds open blood.Only when I lose it can I know how to cherish it. Even a child understands the truth, but I paid such a heavy price to understand it. It really makes me feel ashamed.I know Chen Ying and I will not have any more stories, but I am sure she must still love me deeply, and I also love her deeply, otherwise we would not shed so many tears this afternoon.Unfortunately, this love can only be buried deep in our hearts and dare not touch it easily.

Although I was sad and crying for the loss of Chen Ying, I was also happy from the bottom of my heart that she finally got a good home.She has a husband who loves him and tolerate her, and a beautiful and adorable child she cherishes.From now on, I can no longer worry about her, but I will always recall the wonderful times of our past.This is a spiritual wealth that belongs to me, and I don’t think I will forget it until I die.

Okay, I have to cheer up now. I have to think about the little-eyed girl who is waiting for me to return in Nanjing. She loves me so much, and I can never let her down again.I have let down someone who loves me deeply, and she has almost suffered a devastating blow. How can I let Xiao Zhou be disappointed, sad, or even sink into me again?I want to cast all my love to Xiao Zhou, and I want to entrust all my body and mind to her, never leave her, share honor and disgrace!