Chapter 29

After a long period of repeated thinking, W believes that her future life can only be carried out in the foreseeable direction now, so that the elderly at home will not worry too much and worry about her.

So, for most of the remaining time of that summer, she tried hard to accept Xiaogang and tried to treat Xiaogang as her lover.

Moreover, she felt that she was no longer a virgin and owed Xiaogang emotionally.

Therefore, she secretly made up her mind to turn our relationship into close friends and no longer have sexual contact when she gets along with me in the future.

As a compensation for Xiaogang, she took the initiative to have sex with Xiaogang when she was about to return to work in another place after the holiday, which was their second time to have sex.

But……

W snuggled in my arms and continued: After seeing Xiaogang off, I began to miss you like crazy. Every day I want to fly to you immediately and let you kiss and love me hard.Although Xiaogang often writes letters and calls me, my mind is not at all with him, and I always miss you.

During that time, I was too conflicted. On the one hand, I knew that it was wrong and that it harmed others and myself. On the other hand, I couldn't give up my feelings, although I knew it had no result.Later I figured it out. Since this was already the case, I took the initiative. I decided that I belong to you during this period before marriage, and after marriage, I belong to him.So, I heard that the units here are recruiting me. I think I hope to have the opportunity to stay with you more during this short period of time.

As she said that, W lay down to kiss me. Her soft tongue suddenly penetrated between my lips and teeth, and playedfully stretched back and forth, stirring up and down. Her hand also reached over and stroked my soft penis, and said with a smile: You are the most fun thing. At that time, it was so hard, and it was like a robber, but now it is so soft, shrinking into a small ball of meat, like a small pity!

...Alas, when I see you, I have no determination or thoughts, as if you have ecstasy medicine. I will do whatever you ask me to do. In front of you, I have no more myself, only you.That day, you made me feel so painful.I just thought, if you can kill me like that, it would be fine, so I won’t worry about you and Xiaogang all day long.

As she said that, she burst into tears again.

I hurriedly hugged her and kept apologizing to her. She interrupted me, "I'm not blaming you, but I like you no matter what you do to me."That day, although my body hurts very much, being with you can make you so happy. I am very happy and really happy.I just think I can't just live like this, I will always leave you.Moreover, when you asked me about Xiaogang and I, I feel very sorry for you, because I know you don’t want me to have sex with him, and you feel awkward... So, you treated me like that day, and I thought, this was something I asked myself, who told me to do something that I was sorry for you?

I felt even more uncomfortable when I heard her say this.

It was obvious that I was sorry for her and that she had endured so much physical pain and psychological torture, but she still treated me with such warmth, which made me feel ashamed and guilty.

I have always had a conflict in how to deal with her relationship with her and arrange her future.

It should be said that I love this girl, but compared to her love for me, it is really insignificant. I am more obsessed with her feelings and body for me.

Although, rationally, I knew that I should not use this girl's infatuation with me to continue to possess her body, the man's desire and vanity prompted me to hold on to this girl.

Moreover, the more I knew that I should let go of this girl, the more I wanted to ravage her body madly, as if this would prove the power I had over her.

That day, I had anal sex with Xiao L regardless of her pain. Subconsciously, it should contain the element of my revenge on Xiao Gang for losing her virginity.