Chapter 2

At any time in the past, I have never seen my father be so down and embarrassed like today.

Even though Meiyin was kidnapped by Liu Hongying and Su Mèi Zhen a few months ago, Chen Meiyan, who had just married, was shot in the head in front of him, and he spent almost half a month in the detention center, at that time, he still had a sense of gentleness and a slight rustic stability and stability.

And from the day I have memories, every time he comes back from a long trip, he will bring me gifts.

When I was over two years old, he brought me back a set of children's rice noodles and nutritious fruit and vegetable mud from the United States; when I was three or four years old, he brought me back a wooden toy magic wand from "Harry Potter", a plastic model from the Hogwarts School, and of course, Main, which is still in its infancy; when I was seven, he brought back a set of Nangang brand jeans and jackets; when he was twelve, he brought back a handheld computer that a technology company first released in Shanghai and Hong Kong.

It does not include the snacks, dried fruits, smoked braised vegetables, drinks, and stationery from all over the country brought back.

But this time, all he brought back was himself, his fatigue, and his dusty face for no reason.

He stood in the cold wind with a grievance, trembling and dozing, his eyes covered with red bloodshot like lychee meat that had not been peeled well and had bitter film; his skin on his face also looked very dark, but the background was pale, not only because he hadn't shaved for a while, but also probably he hadn't had time to sleep or eat; his lips were also dry, especially his lower lips, which had obviously had a layer of skin, and the cracks that were bleeded underneath had already scabbed. The breath that came out from his mouth was not only very smelly, but also a little bitter, with a little rust and the smell of disinfectant bleach in the tap water in some places; and I'll look at his clothes againClothing: The bottom is a white short-sleeved sweatshirt, and the outside is a thick wool plaid shirt with a black, red and blue mosaic color. In addition, a champagne-colored Harrington jacket, made of artificial leather, which is quite windproof, but it seems that the production process of this jacket is too rough. The second metal buckle number upward from the edge of the hem has been broken, which must be not very warm. Between the jacket and the shirt, two cotton-spun vests with a little brown feeling and gray, and below is a pair of thick camouflage casual pants with a very thick trouser leg. A belt made of nylon woven Sanada tresses and plastic buckles are tight. From the end of the trouser leg, a pair of cotton sweatpants just cover my father's ankles.

From top to bottom, except for the shoes on my father's feet, none of the remaining ones were worn and taken out from home when he left. These clothes looked very cheap in the vegetable market stalls. Of course, if I say they were stolen from the garbage dump, I believe that the most expensive one would probably not exceed 70 yuan.

The father was still shivering at this moment, and his cheeks were covered with blue and black stubble, and a warm smile naturally appeared on his face: Why, child, don’t you know your father?

No...my...dad, you, you, you..., to be honest, I almost didn't recognize you. What's wrong with you?

I widened my eyes and opened my mouth. My father's outfit and aura made me feel a little cramped on my face and my tongue knotted. While I was confused, I felt indescribable.

Hi... Let's go into the room?The weather in the northeast is...hiss... Compared with the south, it is really a bit too cold!My father was trembling, still smiling, and his mouth kept venting white breath.

The temperature at this moment was minus 32 degrees Celsius. Even if there was a boiler burning charcoal in this person's body, he probably couldn't stand it.

It's really a pity that I'm afraid of saying something wrong after drinking, or being told by Xu Changnuo and Qin Yao's boring but clever devils, I didn't follow their group of people to go to KTV to sing and drink.

I immediately took the time to take out the key and quickly opened the door; but in great anxiety, I didn't push the door in immediately, but slowly pushed the door open a crack, and then touched the beer bottle that I stood upside down behind the door panel after reaching in with my backhand.

Xia Xueping's private hiding when she was young would appear under my bed for no reason. After I was angry and melancholy, the more I thought about it, the more I felt something was wrong. Although I used the Eye of the Thousand to check if there was anything in the community that morning, I even looked at the surveillance several times, but I didn't find any suspicious people or suspicious cars.

Maybe, Liang Shangjunzi, who broke into the house that day, did avoid the perspective of the surveillance camera and came in, but I couldn't let my own home be treated like a public toilet. I came and went in a hurry, and I would come and go as soon as I wanted to come and go.

So today before going out, I marked the doorstep and in front of each window.

I never thought that the wine bottle was still upside down.

I couldn't help but be shocked.

But I didn't dare to alarm my father, and he was indeed almost frozen, so I pulled him into the hall first and ran into the living room without saying a word.

But when I entered the living room to check, I suddenly felt relieved: there was a string of keys belonging to the home door and the first floor bedroom on the coffee table, as well as the spare keys that were originally the door of the Main room.

No wonder when the door was opened just now, the key was twisted a little less.

Before I could afford to take care of my dad, I took off my shoes, put away the key that Xia Xueping had on the coffee table, and ran upstairs to check.

Sure enough, some of the pile of books I put in Meiyin's room were moved away; the manuscript of "Heavy Weaving" that I just finished reading last night was still left on Meiyin's table, but the photo of my grandfather and Zhong Qiuya and Xiao Zongmin, Jia Min, deputy director of the Security Bureau and school affairs committee member of the Capital School of Political Science and Law, as well as Wang Yimin, the first director of the F City Police Bureau and later a teaching and research staff member of the Capital School of Political Science and Law, were also taken away.

You don't even say hello, it's really OK...

I said to myself.

Speaking of which, I secretly found some information about Jia Min and Wang Yimin today while watching the game. If Xia Xueping was interested, if she could say hello to me before taking the photo away, I might be able to tell her what I found.

Those two ancestors were really heroes and models respected by the Red Party, which really surprised me. Of course, it is not surprising that those who can be teachers for my grandfather and the current chairman of the Y Provincial Administrative Council are heroes of the country.

Many things about Mr. Wang Yimin have been lifted. There have been many stories about him who have worked in the underground resistance leadership in the Q City of L Province during the puppet regime, worked as a famous middle school teacher, and helped Xiao Hong, Xiao Jun, Wang Luobin and other literary and artistic masters transfer from this land under the puppet regime to the mainland. However, the content about Ms. Jia Min online is not very detailed, but it was mentioned on the websites of some official governments and museums that she had participated in snow-capped mountains and climbed grasslands, and later also carried out active underground activities under the rule of Wang Shulu, Wang Shenwu, and Qi Yaoshan.

In addition, she added some resumes of the Security Bureau and some agencies and units named after the numerical code, and there was no more information about the establishment of the new government.

The woman is so beautiful, but there are only a few lines in the history and biography. I am afraid anyone will feel a pity and injustice.

However, when I saw the information about Jia Min, I remembered that whenever my old man He was drunk and talked nonsense, he often mentioned that his grandfather, who worked for Lan Dang, was also in North China at that time.

In the past, when my father talked about those things with alcohol, I never took them seriously; now I am quite curious whether my grandfather had been to Yànping at that time, and whether my grandfather's teacher had met my grandfather back then.

When I opened the door and ran upstairs, my dad, who was standing at the door, felt the heat coming from home that was coming. After thinking about it, he quickly walked down the steps and grabbed a large amount of snow.

When he returned to the door, before entering the room, he immediately took off his jacket, rolled up his trouser legs, rubbed his body red towards his arms and legs.

I also quickly ran to the bathroom to get a plastic basin. After going downstairs, I went to the flower bed at the door to make half a pot of snow, helped my father wipe the snow on his arms and legs, and then immediately went upstairs to get the cotton bathrobe I usually wore after taking a shower, put it on my father, and then took him into the house.

After he slowed down, I turned on the air conditioner, heating and geothermal heat, and then ran to the bathroom in the bedroom on the first floor to prepare a tank of bath water for him.

Qiuyan, we...hehe... why are you left in our family?The two of them...huh...hehe...why are they not at home?Oh, it’s still warm at home... Huh!After my father took a while of rest, he finally breathed evenly and relieved his body temperature, but his upper teeth were still applied to the lower teeth.

I actually know that he must ask this question after entering the house, but I don’t want to answer this question the least.

At this moment, I happened to release hot water in front of the bathtub in his room. With the sound of the water flowing, I deliberately pretended not to hear it.

But I can't escape this problem.

After I put the hot water and left the bedroom on the first floor. When I poured water from the filter kettle into the kettle, my father looked at the shoe rack at the door, then looked at the bedroom I just walked out of it, and then asked: Why didn’t Kelping come back with you?Has her stuff been moved out?

So what...what are you drinking?I bought hot cocoa, 'Gao Lego', and I also have hot orange juice, black tea and soy milk at home.Which one do you drink?Let’s drink something to warm up first.I lowered my head and continued to deliberately avoid his question.

Whatever...Hot orange juice, hot chocolate and soy milk can't be digested after drinking it at night.As the father said, he stood up and looked at me with his eyes straight, "Child, tell my dad, what's wrong with you and your mother?"

Xia Xueping and I...separate.

Separate?My father looked at me in confusion, what's going on?

I lowered my head, sighed, and smiled bitterly: Haha, what else can happen... She has other men, I discovered.Haha, the so-called...something that appears between mother and son is really nothing!

What's the meaning?She...has other men?The dumbfounded person changed from me who was just outside the door to my father who was standing in front of the sofa at the moment: Can you talk to your father?What's going on?

Alas... Ask me... While sighing, I made a cup of hot juice for my dad. You drink something first, then go take a shower. I will talk to you after you finish taking a shower... I know you must ask me about these things, but I also have to think about what I should say to you. OK.

The incest physical relationship and taboo love that I had with my mother first. Then my mother and other men seemed to have had a distorted relationship that made people confused. During this period, I also revealed the incident between her and her previous boyfriend. Now I want to tell these things to my father and my mother's original ex-husband.

Of course, even if he shouldn't ask, I really want to find someone to talk about it, but this matter makes me feel awkward.

Oh, OK then.My father nodded, took the mug, sipped the cup and slowly drank half a cup of hot juice along the small sip, and then asked, "What about Meiyin?"When I first came back, I was thinking that Christmas is just coming out today, and it is almost the end of the year. Your police station must have a party. I also thought that you and Kelpin would go and have fun with your colleagues in the bureau. I didn’t expect that Mei Yin was not at home either.Where did she go to play with Han Qiqi and her kids?

She moved out, too.I looked straight at my dad and said.

When it comes to Meiyin, I am a little angry with my father.

My dad looked at me and the cup in his hand, and finally remembered something, so he nodded and said: Well, I understand.It seems that Sui Qionglan picked her up.

Mei Yin and I know about you and Xue Lisha.I looked at my father, let out a long time, and turned my back to my father. To be precise, Meiyin had known it for a long time.I just found out not long ago.

It’s my aunt…uh, it was Ms. Sui who told you?

And "aunt", that woman is a bitch!I said while tidying up my things and lowering my head.

My father sighed, put down his cup and looked at me: Child...

Don’t talk about it first, you can take a shower first, bubble your body and relax.When you finish washing, if you are still energetic, I want to have a good chat with you.

OK.The father said, put down the cup, thought about it, and then he asked me with shame again, with great embarrassment: Haha, child, that... Is there anything else to eat in our family?Dad's belly is a little empty...

I know, you must have not eaten.You go and take a shower.I'll do it for you here.

Dad is really embarrassed to you. It was Dad who should have cooked for his children at home...

Haha, I said you can cook?Let it go down!You go and take a bath and rest. I have hot water in the bathtub.

My father looked at me with shame and smiled happily. Then he turned his body stiffly, turned his back to me, drank all the hot drinks in the cup, nodded with relief, and then took the bath towel and walked into the bedroom on the first floor.

While the old man was taking a shower, I also made a pot of hot water. At the same time, while I took the boiling water, I took all his clothes to the basement and threw them into the washing machine. Whether it was the outer clothes or the shirt, the sweat oil and dirt on the collar were painted on it, and I couldn't get it off even if I rub it with my hands. As for the underwear that had been broken and the socks that had been hard and calcified, I didn't even look at it and threw them directly into the trash can. I happened to find a pack of clean black cotton underwear and gray cotton socks from the basement, and took it upstairs to put it on the bed in the bedroom on the first floor.

After all this, the water boiled. I immediately cut half a white radish, threw the radish into hot water and blanched it brightly. After taking out the radish, I boiled a handful of noodles with the water of blanching the radish. When the noodles were cooked, I passed the noodles over cold water, made some sesame oil, light soy sauce and abalone sauce in the pot, took four frozen jade pillars from the refrigerator, chopped them up, and simmered them over low heat and followed the radish to simmer.

After taking the Yaozhu, I also took out all the twenty pairs of frozen roasted wings left at home, brushed vegetable oil on the baking tray, placed the roasted wings on it, and cut a potato into slices and then baked it in the oven.

Then, I suddenly saw a tomato and four eggs left in the refrigerator.

I was just thinking about making a clear soup with cucumber and seaweed.

So, I suddenly remembered that the next morning when Xia Xueping and I were together, I officially broke the taboo of mother and son. The dish I was going to cook for her was scrambled eggs with tomatoes.

As a result, she cut the tomatoes into slices.

She also said that she never liked to eat scrambled eggs she bought outside. She thought that putting sugar in the scrambled eggs was simply a crime against humanity; but she didn't know how to make them. Every time she ordered bento or people from the canteen came to deliver her lunch boxes, it was because there was an important thing. In order to fill her stomach and not waste it, she could only eat them all.

I really don’t know if I will have the chance to make her scrambled eggs with tomatoes for her in the future.

Xia Xueping, you are really bullying!

Oh, is it necessary to do so many things?This is a good table of dishes, haha, it's the New Year... Didn't you eat it either, my child?After taking a shower, my father changed into a long-sleeved cotton thread and a pair of cotton sports trousers. His beard was shaved and his dirty face became much more refreshing.

He wiped his head while smiling at the food on the table.

After taking a shower, I warmed up my body, and my dad looked much more energetic.

Just seven parts full.When having a party with colleagues, how can you get enough to eat?What's more, those guys in the police station all seemed to have never seen food before. They almost pulled their guns to grab meat at the dinner table.I forced a smile at my father, and then I didn't know who came to my house these days. Two bottles of 750 ml bottles, Lao Nijiao, Yellow Wine Datou and Xiao Yi, who came from the police academy, did not buy wine or food, but they did not look at the brand or the name. The consumption was all based on the stream of consciousness. After I found out that it was Yellow Wine, no one drank it. They all thought that the rice wine would smell the medicine, but now it was cheap and I was greedy.

At the same time, I also found the pointed-mouthed glass pot for serving her homemade lemon ice tea that Chen Yuefang bought before, poured the entire bottle of wine in, and threw seven or eight wolfberry, three or four dried plums and five or six dried white chrysanthemums into it, put them on the electric coaster, took out two wine cups, and I also wanted to drink some wine with you while you were eating and chatting.OK?

How happy it is to be a dad who can drink wine with his son!Why can't it be possible?My father smiled and rolled up his sleeves, scooped tomatoes and eggs into his noodle bowl, looked at me while scooping it up, and asked, "You basically don't drink much when you're at home."Feeling uncomfortable?

I found a large bag of dry red dates from the wooden cabinet above the range hood. It should be that Chen Yuefang bought before and poured them into a large bowl, washed them, and chewed them in his mouth. I remembered the last time I saw Xia Xueping that night, when she stuffed the black candied date into my mouth with her tongue, and couldn't help but sigh: Oh... can I feel comfortable in my heart?

That's true.You have loved to stick to Cheoping since you were a child. She left home ten years ago and slapped you six or seven years ago. I remember how sad you were in the face. You mother and son are now like this...

Alas... I lowered my head and held my right half of my head, bit my lip and refused to let myself sobb.

When my father saw me in such a painful state, he didn't say anything further.

I walked to the door of the refrigerator with my bowl, found a can of chili peppers and a bottle of balsamic vinegar, poured a full bottle of vinegar, picked up almost two tablespoons of spicy food, mixed it with tomatoes, eggs and noodles, and then started eating it with a feast: Hey!Autumn Rock!Taste good Ah!

Well, you think it's delicious.Looking at the white wine that started to guzzle, I sniffed, poured myself a cup, and then poured another cup for my dad, and pushed it in front of him.

After chewing two red dates, I drank a cup of it first, and then slowly started drinking it with abalone juice, radish and chicken wings and potato slices.

I really didn’t expect that the people in your police station had the kind of meal that was not enough to eat.I always thought that only a secular circle like my dad was in would be like this... My father chewed the noodles and said to himself.

They are all the same, and I feel that the police station is more secular. The family has different backgrounds and they all work as police officers for different purposes. They have all kinds of people.Compared with the colleagues from your previous publishing house, it’s almost a pound!I took a bite of chicken wings, and suddenly remembered what happened not long ago, and said to my dad: Yes, it's ridiculous: The person from the "Current Affairs Evening News" is asking you to go back.

Go back to me?What are you going back to find me?Still serving as deputy editor?My father looked at me in confusion, and at the same time, his face showed a rare boredom and stubbornness.

Maybe it's time to find you to be an official.I drank a sip of wine with the smell of chicken wings in my mouth, looked at my father and said: The former surnamed Jiang, his son was not the son of the Director of the Finance Bureau, was he going to plot against Meiyin and Han Qiqi?Almost all their bad boys were cleaned up by the people of the Longda Group, so the position of deputy president of the Current Affairs Evening News was vacant.A while ago, the current affairs media seemed to have made some reforms, and the position of "responsible president of the newspaper" should have been removed.But what I heard from the two who found me before meant that if you want to go back, you can be a vice president in the media group or something, and you can also give you dividends.Look, are you going back?

My father looked at me, lowered his head and straightened his eyes, then smiled at me, waved his hand and said: Forget it!Your dad, I don’t want to talk to these people about being idle again!You may not know that the current affairs media are laying off employees every week, but their business is getting bigger and bigger.Do you think their shares are so easy to get?The water here is deep.Moreover, without the fact that I was framed by Ai Liwei, I also felt that it would be meaningless to continue working in this newspaper: I would say that when they were still under the jurisdiction of the Government News Bureau in the past, I still felt energetic and aimless.What about now?Haha, my dad, I am the one who takes it as my responsibility to move my pen, type on the keyboard, write articles and do reports.Be the vice president and get shares?Haha, why do you have to make so much money?I have brought pens and ink to their newspapers for twenty years!It's almost like that. Let's not play with their people!

‘It is my responsibility to move my pen, type on the keyboard, write articles and report on it’ is Ah. Your article about Chen Mukuan and allusions to Cai Lisheng is really popular and deafening.I saw what you wrote that night and almost scared me!

My father smiled, drank a cup of wine, raised his head, carried the noodles with the chopsticks in his hand, and asked me: That night, did you have a bad fight with Xueping?

Uh...how did you know?

Since you were young, you basically didn't read much about what I wrote.Generally speaking, when do you have the intention to read it? Either you have a quarrel with Meiyin, or if you have any news from Kelpin makes you feel unhappy, or if you encounter something at school, you are holding your breath.My father looked at me, stuffed noodles into his mouth, then picked up a slice of potato slices, and put them in his mouth with eggs.

I had no choice but to nod: I felt uncomfortable that night... I had a showdown with her the next day, and then I had a big fight...

My father saw that my mood was still not very good, so he didn't say it down the topic. He looked back at the window with a little vigilant, and then took another sip of wine: In fact, your dad, I have written a lot of articles on political issues before.Haha, I have written something more evil and spicy before, what is this this time?You don't look carefully either.

I don’t look carefully?From childhood to adulthood, how did you educate Meiyin and me?You don't let us be involved in political matters, and I never let the things you write.I'm still blaming me!I complained on purpose, and the more I talked about it, the more I became more passionate.

I quickly drank another sip of wine to suppress the bitterness in my heart, and then continued to ask: Cai Lisheng had just encountered assassination, and you wrote this article and deliberately exposed the pain points of the Blue Party during the South Island period. Are you really not afraid that the Blue Party’s people will cause trouble for you?Although the press and publishing departments across the country are still in charge of the pro-red faction, as far as the capital and our Y Province are concerned, the middle and upper-class management teams are all pro-blue faction.

What I say to my father on weekdays, my father's face is always light and light. I never expected that when I mentioned the major affairs of my country, the old man turned red and his eyebrows widened, as if he slapped the table with alcohol. His voice became a little louder, and he cursed and sweared: His grandma!What can they deal with me?If you have no conscience, just deal with it if you are willing to!Children, your grandfather, my father, your old aunt, my aunt, have killed and shed blood for their Blue Party!Before the old man lived in seclusion, he played a trick to death, so the "Martial Temple" on the South Island still has your grandfather's tablet!Their blue party's little bastards dare to take the initiative to deal with me?Indeed, the Red Party did not let our He family live a good life, but the Blue Party members are all stinky fish and rotten shrimps. What's more, I saw the video of the assassination this time. You are the one who helped Cai Lisheng block the gun. You are there. Don't you think there is something wrong with this matter?As he spoke, my father became even more excited and sneered: Humph!The group of people on the Internet, plus those sitting in front of the camera on TV, are obviously talking nonsense!Such a tricky farce, and they attacked the Red Party without finding out anything, which was really dementia!Your dad, I am a media reporter. I don’t care what others do, but I have to have a conscience!They should be blind, why are I not good at it!However, without emotion, among the Blue Party, Cai Lisheng is a rare and promising person, but he is indeed a big difference from Yang Junshi.There are many things in the Red Party that are worth slapping and digging deeper, but if the people of Province Y still want to live a good life in the future, they will indeed have to be re-elected.In Province Y, there are four hills within the Blue Party. Now, two of them are forced to follow Cai Lisheng, and what will happen in the future. The entire Red Party is always following Yang Jun's lead and dare not disagree, not to mention that there are so many military leaders, chaebols, and party gangs outside the Party. If it were another person, it would be impossible to cover them.

I looked at my father with a complicated mood. I was really afraid of my father who usually looked gentle and kind, but at the same time I was curious about what the Blue Party people had offended him and could make him so angry, but I could only say: Haha, I really didn’t expect that in front of Meiyin and I, you, who have always been honest and gentle, are still so worried about the country and the people!

I remembered what he said in hindsight. First, I felt that his father's observation and summarization ability was the most powerful of everyone I have ever seen.

But at this moment, I didn’t care about those things at all, but only the pain in my heart, so I asked him again: Have you never considered yourself at all before these things?

My father looked at me, and then smiled with a bit of drunkenness and kindness. I... Hehe, hey!Your dad is like this!I like to talk big when I drink some wine...

But he didn't have time to hide the sharp gaze in his eyes when he was emotional just now.

After all, he has only drunk one or two cups.

Looking at the light in my dad's eyes and the smile he used to hide, my heart arose and became excited...

dad.The son is unfilial.Although you divorced my mother, I did something like that with her, Xia Xueping. I know that it seems to be right in your opinion...

I don’t know why I said such things, and I said so clearly. Maybe I haven’t seen my dad for a long time, and I have too many things to say in my heart. Maybe it’s because I saw him walking out of the distance freely and came home in a mess. I was just watching and anxious and distressed, but I didn’t know anything and couldn’t help with anything. I suddenly felt that I was a little pretentious and proud at home, and I was so incompetent.

It may also be that I am too selfish and irrational. After drinking a few glasses of rice wine, I remembered the things I have been doing all the time, and I felt more and more wronged.

Speaking of which, during the midnight break of their basketball game, I had nothing to do. I opened my phone and flipped through Zhihu, and followed the link to do a set of "Personal Analysis Test". After finishing the 99 questions, the results surprised me a little: the result report said that among the four million samples around the world, my personality is darker than the average level: among which narcissism (self-worship), subjective rights (I deserve more) and selfishness (pursuing interests) all reached more than 90 minutes, subjective rights directly reached 100 points; sadism (making others enjoy pain) tendency is 85 points, and mentally morbid (poisonous, impulsive, very little regretful and capricious) is 82 points.

The analysis report also pointed out that the combination of these personalities will make the tester often think randomly, emotionally, and unable to suppress himself. Maybe I really need to find a day to see a psychologist or psychiatry.

Fortunately, self-ism (sacrificing society) is full of malice (harm others and self-harm) moral ruling (double-standard personal behavior and moral standards) and Machiavelliism (manipulating others' tendencies) are extremely low in the four items, otherwise I will really start to feel that I am really a disaster.

Don't talk about this!child!But my dad always seems to be very relieved about Xia Xueping and me. You two can be well together. You are not as cold as before. It doesn’t matter if it’s the case; and my dad is embarrassed to say... Dad is sorry for you too!When Xueping and I brought Meiyin back, we originally thought of raising our daughter first, and when you both grow up, we will let you get married... But, alas, dad is useless, it's so ugly, and when I reach the age of knowing my destiny, I can't control my crotch...

But this is not what I want to say.

Dad, you asked me to finish your sentence.Now, what I want to discuss with you is not the vulgar things such as "filial piety, brotherhood, integrity and shame".As I said that, I raised my head and drank a cup of wine, filled it with myself, lit my fingers and said: What I want to tell you is... I always feel that although you and Xia Xueping divorced, you, Meiyin, Xia Xueping, and the four of us are right. In addition, Chen Meilang, even if she is a criminal, she is still my stepmother. Let's talk about us, does it look like an ancient Greek tragedy?You are engaged in cultural work, and you are the most educated in our family!Do you think our family looks like a tragedy?

My father was stunned for a moment and stared at me in shock.

His eyes were a little weak, but he didn't say a single word.

I sucked the mellow aroma of the wine cup in front of me deeply, and after sniffing, I continued to endure the pain and said: I thought about it carefully, whether it is a story comedy or tragedy, how can it be said that it has a root, right?You know, these days, when I was at home, I just thought about this matter... I had been talking to myself for a long time, and I finally made it clear: In addition to Chen Yuefang's tragedy, there are three root causes of our family: Mei Yin is ignorant; I am ignorant; and, you and Xia Xueping are unwilling to tell the truth to me and Mei Yin.Now that Mayin is no longer at home, I will review my affairs.But what about you and Xia Xueping?Xia Xueping is stubborn, she is just a piece of ice that is harder than a stone, she is a "cold-blooded lone wolf". Not to mention "talking the truth", she doesn't like to talk to people very much.But what about you, dad?You don't tell the truth about many things!Then what do you think in your heart?In your heart, are you really what I see you?

Son, when did Dad tell you the truth?You are really wronged...

You and Xia Xueping pretend to fight each other to the death. Does that count?You ran to help investigate the matters of the Cao brothers, but didn't say hello to me. Does this count?You privately promised Sui Qionglan to return Meiyin to her. Does this count?You also said that you have a good job in Shanghai, Hong Kong and Guangdong this time, but you have caused yourself this way. Does this count?You have never mentioned Xue Lisha's story to me. Does this count?Then you talked to Meiyin nonsense, saying that you personally rescued Meiyin from the fire. Does this count?

My father sighed helplessly and looked at me with extreme sadness: Child, are you going to liquidate your father?Dad is sorry for you...

When did I say I want to liquidate you?If you had told me about Sui Qionglan's aggressiveness for a long time, we would discuss it. Do you think Meiyin doesn't have to leave now?If you had let me know that Meiyin had a biological mother, would I have a different attitude towards Meiyin in the past few days?Will the inner world where she grew up be different?In this case, will there be no such gap between us, and you say that the person who rescued her from the fire is yourself? Doesn’t this just show that your thoughts about her are not simply the adoptive father’s thoughts about his adopted daughter?And what I care most about now is your marriage to Xia Xueping back then!Why did you get along with a pregnant woman when you were far away in the Middle East? And then Xia Xueping got into a relationship with Zhou Di and became a romantic relationship with Wushan?Dad, I know that I, He Qiuyan, are not that promising!There are so many halos on me, I really think I can do it, but I know I am very naive now; but even so, I am 21 years old!I don’t want you and Xia Xueping to treat me as a child again!I just want to know what's going on!I want to know what's going on, can't it work?

After my father let out a long sigh, he held the bowl and pulled half a bowl of noodles. Then he put down his chopsticks, poured himself a cup of wine, and then added some for me, opened his mouth and closed it. Then he looked at the wine in the wine cup in front of him, and he also drank it happily. Then he took a deep breath and asked me: Qiuyan, then you can tell my father in detail, what happened these days, is it okay?

Then, with the alcohol, I stoked the interaction between Xia Xueping and Zhou Di that I discovered for about a month, including the fact that I asked Xia Xueping to get pregnant with a child, and she went to get rid of it again, and the friction between me and Zhao Jialin, the table of meals that the four of us ate together, the videos and audios of Xia Xueping and Zhou Di that Zhao Jialin secretly recorded since then, and the diary of Zhou Di, as well as the matters that Xia Xueping had privately hidden about her first love boyfriend Yu Feng that I saw, all of them were to my father.

At the same time, I didn't let him go: I really don't know why he promised Sui Qionglan to take Meiyin away. Of course, it was also because of this fire that I asked him about Xue Lisha.

I vomited all my bitterness, and only half of the rice wine in the glass pot was left.

I was dizzy in front of me, so I opened another bottle of wine, poured it all into the pot, and continued to warm it on the electric coaster.

But when I finished all this, my father was neither in a hurry to comment nor to defend himself, but asked me for a cigarette.

Before that, I basically couldn't see my father smoking.

At this moment, my father, shrouded in alcohol and smoke, looked much colder than usual, and he was much older.

When you are with Meiyin, you do things that father and daughter cannot do. In addition to feeling exciting, it is not what Meiyin reposted from Chen Yuefang. You said that it is to balance the relationship between Meiyin and Chen Yuefang; you are not sure of yourself, because you think Meiyin looks particularly similar to her mother Xue Lisha, right?

I do love Lisha very much... She is a very cute woman.Meiyin's appearance, figure, skin type, skin color, as well as her eyes and personality are exactly the same as Lisha....My father nodded helplessly while smoking a cigarette and eating noodles.

Mr. He, do you envy Zhang Jilong?

What do you envy him?

You are really...you are pretending to be stupid with me!You... I put down the wine cup and bite my wings hard. Do you know, how did the dead Chen Meilang and Meiyin, who was kidnapped by the Sui family, evaluate you, dad?

How to evaluate...

‘While the appearance of an old man is actually a very not simple soul. His competitive spirit and self-esteem are even stronger than Xia Xueping’ these are what Mei Yin said.Chen Meilang's words are even more interesting. She said that in your heart, you must be "carried with millions of soldiers, golden crane feathers, and wine ponds and meat forests."

Do they really say that?Haha... The father smiled bitterly in shame.

If you don't believe it, you can ask Meiyin again.Not to mention anything else, Zhang Jilong’s blessing is now a wife and a concubine.And I have seen it for a long time that Han Qiqi's sexual orientation is also messy. In addition to being interested in Meiyin, she seems to be unclear with Zhang Jilong, and I think Qiqi is considered to be a taboo relationship with Zhang Jilong.Do you envy him like this?

My father closed his eyes tightly, fucked hard, and pursed his lips and said: One person, one life...

Humph... I also sneered and drank wine.

In fact, this abstract sentence made me completely understand my father’s thoughts, and at the same time I also thought of a lot.

Grandpa was a spy from the Blue Party. In the old days, the story of spies from the two major intelligence departments under the Blue Party is still talked about. Their big boss has always been surrounded by her and she has been influenced by her. When my grandfather was young, although he was licking blood on the tip of a knife, he probably lived a life of a rich and beautiful woman in his car. I, the warlord grandfather who had worshipped the fifth ancestor, inserted incense heads, and beat Chen Jiongming in Yuezhou, not to mention, was a person with a lot of wives and concubines and spending money like earth. It is said that my grandmother was the sister of a certain wife and concubine before.

When my father was a child, he always listened to me, the spy grandfather, telling about his heroic past and his glitzy years when he was a child. He must have been fascinated by such a life.

If I remember correctly, Sui Qionglan mentioned that Meiyin's biological mother Xue Lisha was from the Security Bureau.

Women who came out of the Security Bureau were not good people, but Xue Lisha could still have a deep affection for her father. Isn’t there any means for Mr. He?

As for his love for Meiyin, perhaps he had selfish feelings for Meiyin a long time ago, or perhaps he gradually developed feelings for Meiyin beyond his father and daughter after having sex with Meiyin.

I understand this, and I understand it, after all, I once treated Meiyin the same way, even though he later found out that he really fell in love with Chen Yuefang.

To be more precise, he should have regarded Chen Yuefang and Meiyin as a gift for the beginning of his second half of his life.

He did not alienate Meiyin because Meiyin deliberately made things difficult for Chen Yuefang, nor did he hate Chen Yuefang because Chen Yuefang helped kidnap Meiyin.

I understand all of this.

After all, my father has always been very good to me.

So there is no need for me to force him to say everything too clearly.

A father still needs to have his father's dignity in front of his son.

Then, you have always been so generous to me and Xia Xueping, how did you decide?I always thought you would beat me sooner or later... Do you think that if you two divorced, she has nothing to do with you, or is it just like you and her cheating on each other during marriage, you don't care about those...

When I mentioned this, my father suddenly opened his eyes wide. After looking at me, he looked serious and serious. He sat upright with his body slightly, and gently clenched his fists in his hand. It seemed that he was a little angry about what he said to me, but at the same time he seemed a little nervous: Qiu Yan, this cannot be said like this... Dad is not thinking about you and Xue Ping in his heart!I sincerely hope that you and "Xia Xiao"... Xueping is well together, son, dad really feels guilty about you!Dad has no right to pursue the matter between you and your mother.Furthermore, dad and your mother have divorced. We divorced at the time because she was better and could make you and Mei Yin better.Dad thinks things are simple: as long as you are all well, Dad can do whatever he wants.After you were with Xueping, my dad could see that you were cheerful than before, and Xueping was happier than before, so my dad would not interfere with your affairs with Xueping. This was what I told you on the day I left home, right?

These two reasons sounds very good, but it may also be because I am drunk now, and I don’t think I can be convinced by these two reasons.

Something caught my attention: as soon as my father left, he almost called Xia Xueping Miss Xia.

Then I suddenly remembered that until I was four or five years old, my father had always called Xia Xueping Miss Xia, such a title that had a clear sense of distance, rather than a title that was as kind as Koping.

This title actually made me very sensitive when I was a child. At that time, when I watched TV series or movies, I didn’t say that my husband would call his wife so respectfully; now, among young people who are about the same age as me, there are often people who are confused and modified by XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

I was just a little sensitive when I heard my father call him Xia Xueping by chance, but I just felt that my father was so greedy and ambition in his heart, but on Xia Xueping's side, he was always so respectful and even humble.

But I thought for a long time, but I couldn't tell the doubts in my heart. After all, my current personality is already suspicious, and I don't want to deepen this personality even more with my father.

Moreover, when my father saw that I didn't speak for a long time, he continued to say, "From my understanding of Choppin, son, I think you must have made a mistake in a woman like Choppin. She will never be moved by any random man, and she will definitely not fall in love with any other man when she has a relationship.My father thought about it and asked me again: Do you still remember when and how did you have the feeling of your mother at the beginning, now, beyond the ordinary mother-son relationship?

I calmed down, thought for a moment, and then said to my father: Actually, after I went to the city bureau and went to her, I felt so sad about her... That night, I went to secretly lie on the window and watched her come, and saw her showing her in order to seduce Duan Jie to show her feet in his arms, just like a cold stone... I remember this I told you.Now that I think about it, she even kissed Duan Jie!I feel... disgusting!Do the female police officers have to sell their appearance like this?

My father knew that I was so angry that he took out the old debt. So he waited for me to exhale and finish his words, and then he said: Child, that's not what you told me before I left.It’s really a pity that you are also a policeman or a criminal policeman. It’s okay for those who are brainless outside to say this, but you actually say this too?One thing goes one by one. Even if we are not talking about Kelpin today, but other female policemen, you can’t speak like this. You know this!

I...yes, I said the wrong thing...Dad, sorry...

My father glared at me and then asked: Alas... You didn't do this when you graduated from the police academy. What's wrong with you in the past few months?The stimulation was really great... Let me talk about you and Ko Ping: If you really think Ko Ping is "disgusting", with your personality, have you never approached her from the beginning?If you recall me again, how did you have such a special relationship with her?In addition to seeing Duan Jie with her, you also saw something else, right?

Yes... I sighed. In addition to being with Duan Yicheng, I also saw her pain. One day, I followed them to a cinema and thought they were doing something vulgar, but I didn't expect that Duan Jie had suspicious and dangerous actions several times when watching the movie. Now thinking about it, he probably wanted to kill Xia Xueping while the cinema was dark, with few people and no one noticed it. That guy should have discovered that I was following them at that time.Then there was a fight at the Earl Tea restaurant. If Duan Jie's little lover had not had a heart and a conscience, Xia Xueping would have died.I was thinking at that time: Xia Xueping, Xia Xueping, there is really no man around you who is really kind to you, Xu Yuan always says that he treats Xia Xueping as his sister. Now it seems that he is actually closer to ordinary subordinates. Chen Liangcai, that guy, wishes that Xia Xueping resigned all day long, or hopes that she has a bad job; Ai Liwei, haha, everything is designed by that bastard. Usually, he gives people the feeling that he is in secret, he must have a crush on Xia Xueping, but Xia Xueping was in danger at that time but was not around; other subordinates, colleagues, and suitors were all in awe, and they just didn't care about it when they encountered a key life and death event!

Um.So at that time, where was this ‘what’ of Zhou?My father followed and asked.

I asked this completely, and Zhou Di had known Xia Xueping for a long time.

Not to mention whether Xia Xueping really has something to do with this guy, assuming that even if they are fine, they are innocent, thirteen years ago or seven years ago, he had worked with Xia Xueping before, and he should have a love affinity. Then Xia Xueping was almost poisoned and beaten to death. Why didn't he show up at the beginning? Even if he went to the hospital for a look?

But it is not guaranteed. What tasks did the intelligence agencies send him to Zhao Jialin and his wedding all the time?

Moreover, Zhao Jialin often slept in the first floor of the bureau, and he was like relieving his hatred and was updating every night.

If there is a need for confidentiality, it is normal for him not to show up.

Before I could continue to think about it, my father said: I don’t know what Zhou is like? I have never seen him. I don’t know how outstanding, handsome, or scheming he is. But with your mother’s knowledge, character, tutoring, and personality, Qiu Yan, I think you have absolutely misunderstood her where you are.The most extraordinary thing she has done in her life should be with her son.Qiuyan, listen to dad: You must have blamed Qiuping for the wrong thing!

My father looked at me worriedly, and his words were so convincing.

I frowned in confusion, immediately stood up and walked upstairs.

What are you doing?What do you don't like to listen to me anymore?No...you don't drink with your dad?My father asked tentatively, and he seemed to think that he was wrong. He was so angry that he was talking to me that he was so angry that he was playing tricks on him.

You wait... I'll take Zhou Di's diary to show you!You will know everything after reading it!

Hello, it's really a mess!I said...Hi, come down, stop looking for it!I don't look at that thing!Oh... This stubborn boy has a stubborn temper again... Qiuyan, come back, stop tossing... The father said lightly, and then slapped two mouthfuls of noodles.

But at this moment I was already on the verge of my mind. Although I was dizzy and my lower body and heart blood was a little hot, I really couldn't tell who I was on the verge of, whether I was on Zhou Di, Xia Xueping, or my dad who seemed to be with him, no matter what Xia Xueping did, he would repay him with endless trust and tolerance. I opened the door and touched my computer desk, keyboard drawer, bedside table and pillow for a long time through the corridor lights. Finally, I finally confirmed that the storage card that Zhao Ge gave me disappeared.

Combined with the key on the coffee table that I found just after entering the door, I immediately guessed why the SD card was missing, so I became even more angry.

Humph, she took it away!I screamed and left the room, smashed into the door, and went downstairs in anger.

Seeing me like this, my father laughed and then asked: Haha... Has Koping been back to Ah?

It must have been before you came back, and I was secretly back while I was away!I drank two cups of wine in a row and stuffed radishes into my mouth angrily. If she hadn't had a ghost in her heart, why did she take away the card I had stored Zhou Di's diary?

Qiuyan Ah, you said you don’t want your mother and I to treat you as a child, but aren’t you just making trouble for the child now?My father asked back to me.

Because Xia Xueping is always inconsistent and inconsistent in front of me!What can I do except make me angry?She is playing tricks on me as a child!I can't do it!I... I just don't understand. Xia Xueping clearly told me that she hated Zhou Di... So since they were okay, why did they act so close to him?I took a deep breath, pinched two dates and chewed them in my mouth. A bitter breath from my mouth rushed to my tears.

My father sighed and saw me stuffing red dates one by one into my mouth, which made him look greedy. He laughed for a moment, reached out and grabbed a handful of dates next to the noodle bowl, chewed the dry dates, and then followed the chopstick noodles that he picked up the next second, and snooped into his mouth.

After swallowing several times, my father said to me: Alas, I'm just thinking about how to exceed the boundaries of "intimacy" in the hearts of you young people now?Before I entered the detention center, you know Xiaowen and Xiaojin, my subordinates. This couple helped me go to your police station to send you materials. The two of them were about to have a divorce.Do you know why?Just because Xiao Jin used emojis when sending WeChat messages to female customers.

That……

I glanced at my dad and was about to speak, but he didn't expect that he would pick up a chopstick wing root in front of me.

Old Master He usually does this at the dining table, saying that he wants to block my or Mei Yin's mouth.

I leaned my body against my back and simply stopped talking. I just kept eating dates and drinking wine. Let’s hear Mr. He continue to say: Xueping, when I knew her, she was like this: When evaluating a person, I never subjectively describe it because of what happened between myself and that person.This is true for this "Zhou Hedi", and for the high-ranking officials in the Provincial Police Department who are not in dealing with her.Koppin is a very simple person.Child, let’s talk about how she is closer to that ‘Zhou and the like’, so what’s wrong?Since I met her, she told me that she was actually quite disgusted with the agents of "national conditions" and "security".But she had no choice. She had grown up in that environment since she was a child. Your grandfather’s students and apprentices were all agents, and Cheoping’s best friends and sisters since childhood were also agents.How can she not be contradictory if you say such a thing?Then, my father changed the topic of me. Do you know why I can date people like Zhang Jilong, and don’t feel uncomfortable or uncomfortable?

Why?Actually, I was just curious.

I have no choice. I have a chance to get in touch with Zhang Jilong, but I have a job-like nature, and I have a blind chess game between Xu Yuan and him.

But my father is a scholar and cultural person. He is reasonable. Their cultural person is somewhat disgusted with people like Zhang Jilong with a gangster background.

Well... Your grandfather took advantage of the end of the civil war and fled from other places to live in seclusion in Province Y just to hide from the spies from the Blue Party in the old era.But guess what?When he arrived at the village where he lived, after he fell down... it took two or three years before he realized that the entire village had always been "sticks" on the mountain, and it was a bandit village that was undergoing transformation.Your grandmother's family used to be the third leader in the mountain. When I was a child, I had nothing to do and had children with me who had peeled pills and tablets. Their fathers had beaten Japanese devils and pseudo-police, and robbed landlords and gentry, but they had done a lot of tricks and murders and robbers. Their mothers used to be either from kilns, or they were robbed by "branded red tickets" to copy the village, or they were also bearded women.When the old man was alive, he always said, "I escaped from the hawks and dogs' holes and entered the tigers and wolfs' dens."So I didn’t like bandits and underworld since I was a child, but my friends since I was a child are all second- and third-generation bandits.I can actually understand Kelpin's twistedness.But let’s talk about it again: Kelpin and ‘what is that?’… are they called ‘intimate’?I heard what you mean, when Kelpin went to have an abortion, was it with that "what Zhou"...?

What's wrong with them!When I called, Xia Xueping told me that she was in the hospital, but she didn't explain it to me clearly...

That's the one that "Zhou" is accompanying him.Didn’t you not be with Kopin when she was most vulnerable and needed help the most?

Then she didn't tell me...

Then why didn't you notice something wrong with Koping's body?You are also an adult, and you understand all these things, why didn’t you notice it?Men and women take care of each other, and if they don’t do it well, they don’t do it well.My father looked at me with his eyes through everything. I could see that you used a lot of effort to think about it and performed well, but I could also see that you still think that in your bones, Kelpin is an adult and you are a child.You think she is still better than you, and all your efforts must be a plus for her.

I don't know what to say.

No matter what, ‘That Zhou’ also helped after Koppin had an operation and drove the person home.What that kind of surgery means for a woman is self-evident, let alone the child between you and her.Any woman has her own fragile side, and so is Kelpin.But there is a difference between the fragile surface and the fragile surface: some people's fragile surface, like the wings of rice paper, can penetrate through water; some people need to accumulate over time to penetrate, just like wooden boards; and some people, even the fragile surface is a wall of iron compared to others.No desire is strong. No matter how fragile Xueping is, he is just a joke with the person surnamed Zhou. That's all, but you end up treating him as a flirting.But judging from your description, Koppin's performance afterwards was open and honest, and he was also very surprised by your sudden arrival.If she really had any problems with that man, wouldn't she hide it at that time?

Oh, then what you mean is, in the end, I still owe it...

OK, OK!son!Look at your impulsive and scrupulous appearance, I don’t know who your unscrupulous virtue will follow!Haha... The father smiled, then silently lowered his head and pursed his lips, picked up a piece of tomato, and continued, I really don't believe that she can be so close to a man, so close that you now doubt them.Koping is not a casual woman. She can take a step with you that ordinary people dare not think about and may not accept, and must have had a big struggle in her heart.How could she do something that shouldn't happen to other men like this?But you are careful. With your kindness and unwilling nature, you can easily be manipulated or used by others if you didn't do this before!You are now the agent team leader of the Chongyi Group, so you should pay attention to it. Or, more and more people will be laughing at you!

After chewing the red dates for a while, the sadness, pain and reluctance to bear to bear to see Xia Xueping popped up again. Looking at the twisted self reflected on the wall of the wine cup, I realized that since I just sat down to drink the first wine cup, I have indeed vented my emotions a little.

The words "manipulation and utilization" mentioned by my father just inadvertently suddenly reminded me of Xia Xueping's storage box that was moved under my bed for no reason.

Could it be that thing that really has grown legs?

My father looked at me, smiled and picked up the glass pot, poured me a cup of wine, and said to me: Why do I trust Xia Xueping, do you know?When I got married to Koppin, my background was so different. Your grandfather was a local official and the police system of F City and Y Province; but I was a descendant of the enemy spies and sabotage, and a student who had nothing to do and had no future.Your grandfather asked... Your grandfather to agree to my marriage with your mother, but in fact I was very respectful to your grandfather and your mother. So after we got married, we made an appointment. If one day, any of us fell in love with someone outside, we must not tell each other with reservations, no matter when or who we are with; after we make the statement, we will divorce, and change our property and divide the property. Anyway, although we still divorced at the end, but I didn't think about it. I could have been with Xueping for so long.I didn't expect that someone outside would be me, haha.My father said mockingly and chewed the noodles comfortably, but, if it is really as you think now, Keping and that Zhou... are called Zhou Di?Haha, the name is like a girl.

Zhou Di.

Yes, if there is any affair between Zhou Di and that Zhou Di, I believe she will definitely tell me the first time.As for the diary you were passionate and had to show me... Qiu Yan, your dad, I am a writer, and I have the right to speak for writing: Child, remember, everything written in black and white is not necessarily true.

Your words were coaxing the child. How could the things he wrote in his own private diary be not true?

Who said that when writing a diary, you must have photos?

Then why do you write a diary without photo art?Don't mess with me...

Your dad, I wrote a diary like that: people are real, the background and cause are also real, but I just take the fantasies in my mind as real things.

Huh?You really did this?

right.

So what are you trying to do like this?

A diary is about writing what you read, writing down what you want to do but have not accomplished, or things you dare not do, and fabricating a story for yourself and then reading it for yourself, just to feel happy.My father looked at me, then turned to look at the empty room on the first floor, and sighed, "It's just that some things, which have been fabricated for a long time, will deceive my memories, but I gradually became fooled and believed it."

After hearing my father's words, I still felt that my father was comforting me, so I shook my head and said: I still don't think that was a story made up by Zhou Di... You didn't see those things and you didn't know him either. That guy is very smart, so what he wrote is very detailed.In the first article, I almost vented my heart when I wrote about his affair with Xia Xueping for the first time. Several articles in the following chapters are still savoring them!And the following articles are getting more and more detailed!He also told Xia Xueping...why should I tell you?That guy is still a ‘experience pie’!Did you know, just him...

I heard you say this, but I believe it more and more that he made it up. Let’s say this: If he can’t forget his feelings for Xueping, he will… cough cough… Just like you said, if Zhou Di is really an experientialist, why didn’t he write down all his feelings in the first diary you mentioned, but instead write his own perceptions more and more concretely one by one?Biologically speaking, humans or any other animal will have less and less clear storage of perception in memory, because it is created by hormones secreted by two or more objects at the same time. If the exchange of hormones is reduced without each other, the imagined "perception" will be the opposite. It will become more and more specific and stronger, because it is created by dopamine in one's body, and its dopamine will accumulate in one's body.

For a moment, I felt that what my father said seemed to make some sense, although I still couldn't believe that those words were really compiled by Zhou Di: Are you saying that I was thinking about it?

right.And random thoughts are often meaningless.

But how could I not think about it?She didn't tell me anything clearly, she hid everything...I...I just love Xia Xueping too much...

Because you are 'loved her too much', are you just thinking about it?My father looked at me very sternly. In your mind, you always contact the person you care about the most in the most illogical way to connect her to the most unbearable things. Do you think this should be something you can do because you "love her too much"?

I'm because...

This is not called "love", but son, this is called "selfishness".My father looked at me with heavy eyes: Qiu Yan, your current mental state is locking yourself in the box you transformed for yourself. You just kept hiding from the sun in the darkest place you could see in front of you, but at the same time put the box you hid in in broad daylight, and wanted everyone to see how humble and aggrieved you were; but you did not explore the facts to the end.Your suspicion of Xia Xueping is just a light-catching person in front of you, a broken head, plus the video and audio stolen by others and the so-called diary, and the girl who helped you steal things, Zhao Jingren's three daughters are actually the same as you, right?

... I was speechless.

Dad knows your temper, it’s okay if you and Kelpin are separated for a while.You have a stubborn temper, and she has a stubborn temper.But even if you and your mother and son want to get along together, even if they don’t do the same as you did some time ago, there must be one, just a little softening, right?Don't rush to lose your temper, son, remember, not only in this matter, but also in whatever you face, remember that what you see may not be what it is.

OK... You're so contradictory, and you didn't seem to have weighed it yourself...

Haha, aren't you conflicted, child?Do you doubt the purpose of guessing Koppin is whether you want her to be clean and loyal, or do you want your terrible fantasies to be true?Qiuyan, beware of it is not synonymous with suspicion, never be a person who likes suspicion.

Just by the wine I just swallowed, I couldn't help but choke.

My father was right, and I had understood the truth for a long time, but in Xia Xueping's affairs, I can never get around this maze between myself and her.

What about Yu Feng?What the hell is going on with that guy, do you know?I wiped the corners of my mouth and wiped my cheeks.

When I heard my name mention it, my father didn't answer immediately, but instead pinched a chicken wing and chewed it in his mouth.

He chewed the flesh in his wings for a long time, licked the slag on his bones carefully, and then said to me: I have never seen this person before.Just for your grandfather, this person has been a pain in his life; and for Koping, there is no need to mention it.My father lowered his head, glanced at the lower left corner quickly, and then his pupils quickly moved back to their original position, and then said: That guy, he deceived your mother, he dumped your mother.I don't know what's going on, but he is indeed a scumbag.But, uh... kid, how many years ago did that happen?The family of Koping is so good and beautiful. Can you not get a little bit of it?And that guy has defected to another country long ago...

I took a deep breath and said: He is back.

The father was stunned for a moment: He?He... is back?

What's wrong?I suddenly felt something was wrong all over my father.

he?Can he come back?My father looked at me with suspicion, puzzled and somewhat fear, and confirmed again: He has been a national A-level wanted criminal from the two parties before reconciliation, to the period of excessive government, and now, so how could he come back?

I don't know this, but I'm basically sure I've seen him.The former assistant of Xia Xueping, who was named Ai Liwei, left a lot of information for Xia Xueping and me, including a photo of the "Police, Procuratorial and Judicial Conference" a long time ago.I recognize him.The more I talked, the more angry I became, but the more depressed I felt in my heart, the more I thought about the tight spots in my heart. Maybe Xia Xueping had seen him too.Do you think based on your understanding of Xia Xueping, can you tell that they will meet?

After hearing what I said, everything he wanted to say was obviously on his lips, but after looking at me, he swallowed the words back, and used a spoon to put abalone juice and radish into the remaining half bowl of noodles, mixed for a few minutes, sucking noodles covered with abalone sauce and radish water, and with some tomatoes and scrambled egg red soup; he ate and picked them up in his mouth, but his eyes blinked.

The corners of his wrinkled eyes were slightly raised, but when he heard me say that Yu Feng was back, his brows became deeper and deeper. While his pupils were running around, his eyelids were blinking like typing or shooting a telegram. When I was very young, I discovered that whenever my father encountered something that confused him to the extreme, his blinking speed would speed up.

Dad, what are you going to do?

Oh, nothing, it's just... I'm thinking about how well the things you said can match Kelpin.The father smiled concealedly, but then he said seriously and earnestly: Qiuyan, what can you do in the end if you think so randomly?Oh, is Cheoping with that Zhou Di and is dating an old lover at the same time?She is your lover, but she is also your mother, and she is still the Ah of Xia Xueping.

The car was talking nonsense... I shook my head bored. You can't think of this reason for me.Haha, but it's the same... these things can't be changed in my heart.

That's OK.Child, let’s not think about those things today, father and son are drinking. Dad also knows that no matter how much I advise you, you may not be able to listen to your words.If you encounter such a thing, you may feel uncomfortable and you will not be able to overcome the obstacles in your heart for a while.But I think, one day you should know that your guess about Kopin is wrong.Moreover, on that day, you are truly sensible and truly an adult.

I also hope I was wrong.I raised my hand and wiped the tears that fell out of my eyes at some point.

Haha, it must be!My father said confidently and smiled and handed me two tissues.

Didn’t she tell you where Kelpin lives now?

I wiped my tears and said: I only know that she should live in the home of Yue Lingyin, director of the Second Intelligence Department of the F Municipal Intelligence Investigation Bureau, or it was the place arranged by Aunt Yue for her.I really don’t know the specific address, community name, etc.I didn't ask Yue Lingyin either.

Oh, okay.My father nodded and I'll contact her.But...ah... Qiuyan, you have to help me with a mobile phone card first, and you can find an old mobile phone you replaced before and borrow it from my dad.I don't have a cell phone now and I can't contact Koping.

What are you doing with my old phone?I saved Cai Lisheng's life, and the idiots from the Blue Party Special Service Department took me to their party headquarters and beat me for a long time.In order to apologize and thank you, Cai Lisheng gave me a card.Is it okay if I buy you another new one?Just so happens that I have a contract signing machine, which has the latest model, so I can pay the phone bill for you.

No no no no no!Don’t use a contract signing machine, don’t use a contract signing machine!My dad suddenly said anxiously and panic.

What...what happened?

No, just... you didn't read the latest news?In many places, the contract signing machines are made of model machines and refurbished machines to make a new model shell, and the motherboards and other parts inside are all from the old ones?Don't make that, it's easy to be deceived.Just get me a cell phone, it doesn’t cost much.

Oh well.What about your phone?I stared at my father.

I...hey, where else can I go? I'll lose it.My father said to me indifferently, and then he looked at me, as if he realized that I was not so easy to get over it by him, so he continued: I came back by train, but after sleeping for a night, then I woke up and my phone was gone.

I vaguely feel that my dad lies to me again... No, He Qiuyan, you should be confident: I left vaguely. Comrade He’s meaning is that he doesn’t want to tell you when something happens, right?

I gritted my teeth and endured the restlessness and displeasure in my heart, and then asked: Didn’t you take a plane when you went there?Why didn’t I take the plane when I came back?

Ah…No air ticket booking.

How funny, Dad, Dad, do you really think your son, I don’t know that every time you book a plane ticket, you always book a round trip according to your meticulous itinerary?

When I came back to take the train this time, it means that either he missed the plane or he just couldn't take the plane.

Then aren't you taking the high-speed rail?Why did you sleep all night in the car?I remember correctly. The slowest train from Shanghai-Hong Kong to F City is now, with four stops in S City, Yeling, Tianjin Port and the capital. It takes about eight and a half hours to get to F City.I asked on purpose.

I...ah, hehe, look at you, silly dad!Before I brought it back, my wallet was stolen!In the end, I only bought a "quick ticket" worth more than 40 yuan.

After hearing this, I felt anxious, and my nose couldn't help feeling a little sore.

In other words, my father stayed on the train for almost two days.

This is not the most important thing. The most important thing is that it combines the reality that his mobile phone and wallet are missing, and the way he just shrank outside the house, I can basically confirm in my heart:

My dad seemed to have escaped.

Are you...will you be anxious?

It's better to give it to me tomorrow.My father seemed to blink guiltily and said to me, maybe I have to go to M Province in the future.

You still want to leave?I just came back and didn't even sit my butt and it was so warm...

Um.My father looked at me and smiled lightly again, "I can't help but know how to do it!"Your dad, I am now engaged in self-media and I write for myself. I have to do a lot of things myself now!Do you feel sorry for your dad?Ha ha……

Alas...tsk!I took a deep breath, swallowed my saliva, and looked at my father seriously, and the bitter taste of worry surged from my heart one after another.

Are you preparing for your own manuscript?What are you doing in the south? Can you make yourself like this?I said, Dad, what happened to you?Can't you tell me?

My father looked up at me and smiled, but the dark color in his eyes kept hiding back: Haha, didn’t my father say that, just do a few interviews and help the newspapers and magazines over there to write something...

Then who did you interview?What is the topic of the interview?Where did you post what you wrote?

Haha, this kid... the things that dad just wrote were published in the monthly magazine. If you want to see, you have to wait next month!My father still smiled lightly, but his eyes were retracting more urgently. What?Are you interrogating your dad?You, a criminal policeman, have you been raising an occupational disease after only a few days?You don't even believe your father's words...

Then you can look at what you just now: you didn’t bring back another good dress, your mobile phone and wallet are gone, and you came back on the iron train and you suddenly became like this. Can you not be worried or suspicious?

My father smiled and then fell silent.

You also said I doubt this and that!You Ah, you are the same as Xia Xueping!He didn't tell me anything, what could I believe?

Son Ah, don’t blame dad, don’t blame your mother Cheoping.My father suddenly sighed, and there seemed to be some redness and fever around his eyes. After sighing, he suddenly grabbed my hand: Alas... No matter what, Kelpin and I hope you are well.We will definitely tell you the truth in some things; but we will not tell you the truth in some things, or we will not mention them at all, we... we really don't want you to be hurt.Qiuyan, you will understand it later.

Looking at my father's serious and deep look, and with my complicated debts and concerns about my father, I really couldn't bear to ask any more. I knew that he should be exhausted physically and mentally at this moment; but I felt unwilling to give in: That... it's not me that... what's wrong that I'm afraid I will be hurt?

When you should know, you will know.But my father said something full of Zen and boring in this deep and then added, but from my perspective... I hope you will never know.

I... I shook my head and recalled the article my father wrote about current affairs hot topics before, and suddenly my eyes lit up. I immediately asked alertly: Dad, it’s really not that the Blue Party people who read the article you wrote, so they can’t get along with you, right?

My father looked at me, smiled silly and said: No...hehe...where do you want to go?Even if they want to deal with me, they haven't done anything to me yet...

But with such a silly smile, the more I smile, the more I feel that it might be the Blue Party.

If you are here, don’t worry about me: If the Blue Party members are really unfavorable to you and cause trouble for you, just tell me.I thought about it and said to my father: I really have a trick to deal with them!

Haha, it’s not them... No, what tricks do you have to deal with them?People are a political party, you are a little policeman...

Didn’t they take me back to the Blue Party Party Headquarters and beat me up?But my phone was still recording. They didn't know the shady story about the assassination of Cai Lisheng. My phone should have recorded it: There is something wrong with the Secretary-General Li!I just need to hand over the recording to our deputy director Chen Liang!I smiled proudly and said, "Didn't Chen Liang always follow Hu Jingfeng and stand in the team of the Red Party?"

Stop, Qiuyan!My father became serious again and looked at me solemnly: Child, you can’t do such things.Don’t say that my father is really not liked by their people, even if it is really the Blue Party who treats me to your father, you can’t do such a thing.

Why...what?

First, this kind of thing is a matter of robbers and dogs. It is all about conspiracy and darkness. After you play once, you will not be able to turn back.Dad doesn’t have so many ideas about how many achievements you have in the police force, how many ministers, directors, police supervisors, or what you have surpassed your mother’s cold-blooded lone wolf or your grandfather. Dad just wants you to be an open and upright person.Secondly, Chen Liangcai's father had never seen that guy, but his father knew that he was a villain.Just the things I heard from my friends in society that he had done were enough to write two books, not to mention what I heard from your mother.He has been stumbling against Ko Ping. You should also know these things, Dad doesn't want you to be with someone like that.Xueping said that if it weren't for your mother's friend, your director Xu Yuan and Chen Liang's relationship, she wouldn't have paid much attention to that person.

Haha, I have never heard of anyone you really disliked since I was a child.I didn’t expect that your evaluation of “sinking Japanese melons” can be so “high”.

He is your boss, so you don’t need to hide from him; but if you take the initiative to approach him or accomplish something for him, you will definitely feel tired and regretful in the future.As for that Hu Jingfeng, there is no need to mention that guy. He wanted to plot against Xueping several times. You should know about this, right?Try not to provoke them.As a policeman, just catch the criminals and handle the case. Some things in this world, people like your mother and me cannot escape... But if you don't participate, don't participate. This is the advice my father gave you.Immediately afterwards, my father lowered his head and turned his face to look at the door of the bedroom on the first floor. Alas, this world... At this critical moment, if you can be separated from Kelping for a period of time, it may not be bad.I guess Koppin thought so too...

I took a deep breath and looked at my dad.

From his muddy eyes, I also saw myself twitching his nose and with grievances.

So I'm right here with you, I can't help with anything, right?

My dad looked at me and said relaxedly: Why should I use you to help?Haha, I’m pretending to be an adult with your dad!Just take care of yourself and take good care of yourself...

I just can't figure it out!Why is Xia Xueping like this? You are like this too!Why don’t you explain anything to me?Then he kept saying that it was because he loved me and was afraid that I would be hurt!Old Master He Jinfeng, you have reviewed what you and Xia Xueping did from beginning to end. Do you think you two can not make me feel more attentive?I gritted my teeth and looked at my father with a bitter affliction. ...I said I was ignorant, childish, and liked to think randomly. Then you said you both are like this, how can I not think randomly?

After hearing what I said, my father suddenly looked at me with a confused and helpless look. Then his eyes began to dodge again. After pursing his lips, he picked up the noodle bowl and used chopsticks to pull the only little bit of broken noodles and egg braised foundation in the bowl.

OK... I saw that he had no intention of continuing to say something, so he stood up with a lot of sorrow and said, "You can eat it yourself."I was sleepy and went up.

My father immediately put down the bowl and looked down at me walking towards the stairs; but he didn't call me until I walked upstairs.

I took out the key and opened the door, walked to the computer desk and opened the drawer. It happened that I had a pack of Peruvian cigarettes that Mr. Shao gave me last time.

At this moment, I really need nicotine to anesthetize myself.

But just as I took out a paper cup as an ashtray and sat on the bed and was about to light the cigarette, I saw a note on my pillow, which was two lines of dry and dizzy marks with uneven dry marks.

If I hadn't seen the sun, I might have endured the darkness;

But now, the sun shines my loneliness even more desolate.

I took a deep breath, silently folded the note in half, and stuffed the cigarette in my hand into the drawer.

On the one hand, I think Xia Xueping is shameless like this. She is clearly thinking about another man in her heart, and it is very likely that she is two men. She has maintained an affair with one of them for so long, so she is still embarrassed to leave such words for me;

But on the other hand, I was relieved because I finally confirmed that Xia Xueping was also sad. This at least proved that she had a conscience. The feeling of breaking taboos between me and her was not worthless, but then, because of this feeling that was not worthless, I had reached a point where it was hard to stop, and I was even more sad.

In this mood, the more you smoke, the more you feel uncomfortable.

Before going to bed, I bought a mobile phone online by Cai Lisheng's bank card, which can be delivered to my doorstep around 8 o'clock tomorrow morning.

I was thinking about going downstairs to say hello to my dad and told him that I would not have time to help him transfer the information from his previous phone to a new phone through the cloud, but his attitude of keeping his mouth shut about anything just now made me feel a little unwilling to tell him.

I was also really curious about what he was doing during this period, so I immediately opened WeChat and prepared to ask Da Baihe to help me brute-proof my father's previous mobile phone information.

But thinking about it, I finally didn't send the words I had already called out.

I always feel that since I returned to City F from another place, this guy seems to have changed something.

This made me feel uneasy. In my body, a voice began to say to me: Don’t go to Dabaihe for everything.

After closing the dialog box, I opened my circle of friends.

I originally thought that I would go to the newly opened warehouse supermarket nearby early tomorrow morning to check it out. If I remember correctly, they also had phone cards. But at this moment I happened to see Xu Changnuo forwarding a promotional advertisement for a mobile phone card. I asked him about the details, then contacted the agent of the communications company, and transferred more than 800 yuan directly. As a year-round phone bill with the highest traffic package, the opposite side claimed that he was Xu Changnuo's youngster's agent. As soon as I came up, I told me a lot of language that I couldn't understand at all. Later I learned that Xu Changnuo was actually a Korean, and the agent was also Mr. Shi. He also mistakenly thought I could understand Korean.

It's also easy to get the phone card, and it can be delivered between 7:30 and 8:30 tomorrow morning.

After hanging up the phone, looking at Xu Changnuo's message, I was still muttering that the Korean master on the streets of F City was Li Canyeol, and the big brother underground was Che Xuanzhong. So would Xu Changnuo have a little relationship with these two people?

But then this incident slid through my mind, and it slipped very quickly: when I thought of the car shining, I remembered the sister who was chopped by him that day and looked like Song Ji-hyo, and then I remembered Zhang Jilong, who was naked and blood-flowing, as well as the delicate touch and body temperature on her body;

Then I couldn't help feeling that there was something missing from my whole body to keep warm, so I quickly took off my outer clothes and pants, changed into the short-sleeved shorts, and got into the quilt. With the alcohol, I was dizzy and thought about the body temperature, skin touch, and their delicate appearance of every woman I had felt. At the same time, the concern and tension that Han Cheng had when he received Zhang Jilong's call...

Han Cheng looked so beautiful at that time, it was intoxicating beauty.

But I have no desire for her beauty at all, but I am indeed very eager: Why can other women feel so down-to-earth, understanding, and so gentle and obedient?

If someone is with his own man, he will get along with him like he is alone. Zhang Jilong has been in prison for so many years. I have never heard of any rumors about Han Cheng who lives outside.

On the other hand, Xia Xueping...huh, can't she learn a little from Han Cheng?

Haha, what a sentence, the sun shines my loneliness even more desolate. Are you sure it is the sun, not the snow-white moon shining on the calm lake in your heart?

But that's right. I seem to be far away from Zhang Jilong, so I won't talk about others...

Perhaps, putting aside factors such as mother-son blood relationship, family ethics, and social moral taboos, Xia Xueping and I are not suitable for me as a man and a woman who want to try together.

I got drunk for a while and I snored with my headphones, and the rhythm of the sudden falling sleet outside the window hitting the glass window, which cycled all night long.

The petals in the garden fell to the ground and broke.

And I was brewing emotions and raised my glass to get drunk.

Sighing the separation with one hand, it is called Jasmine Rain/The petals in the garden fall to the ground and break... buzz!Buzz!Buzz!Love comes and goes/stops/no matter how careful you are!Buzz!Buzz!

I was alert to change songs halfway through my sleep, and I felt something was wrong. When I opened my eyes again, I saw the uniform brigade called me.

Hello?I, He Qiuyan.

Brother Qiuyan, this call was asked by Director Xu and Deputy Director Chen to call you.Come here quickly.

Alas...what happened?When I looked at the clock on the table, I couldn't help but sigh with my head covering.

Come on, there is a case of affair. I guess you have a group of heavy incidents and have not had a good life. Shangguan Guoguo killed someone and was just transferred to our city bureau.

I'll fuck!who?Hearing this name, I sat up from the bed, and then I felt dizzy after being bombed.

Shangguan Guoguo, a famous best-selling novelist and playwright, of course, this is just his additional identity.

His most important identity is Shangguan Lixiong's son.

Shangguan Lixiong, this guy has a bigger identity: the current Vice Premier of the State.

You heard it right.The person I went to accompany me to get was Shangguan Guoguo.Let’s not talk about you, our entire municipal bureau probably won’t have any good results these days.I won’t say much, brother, I have to inform you of Hu Jiaqi quickly, and the two directors will name you and ask you to deal with this case with her.Stop the phone.

I didn't think about anything, and immediately washed up briefly, then put on my sweater, long pants, and a suit coat.

Listening to my father's sleeping soundly in the bedroom on the first floor, I was not able to disturb him and say hello to him.

After leaving the community gate, I immediately stopped a taxi and headed straight for the city bureau.